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This poem pretty much sums up my life. I wrote it on a down day though, but each poem that I continue to 'express' myself like below...a small peice of the anger is taken as each word is written.
At the age of 4
Horrible abuse opens a door
The loss of innocence
The gain of sick experience
No where to go
Nothing physical to show
At the age of 7
Wishing she could go to heaven
13 and a new school
Possible chance to be cool
Boy talks to boy
Used her like a toy
Tossed around like a rag
Silenced with a threatening gag
Married at 18
Her husband just plain mean
Her drinking an escape
Enduring more rape
Almost dying
To escape his lying
Leaving that life
Become another man’s wife
2 daughters born of love
Discover a gift sent from above
Memories and pain grip her mind
She feels she doesn’t fit with any kind
Her life is filled with ‘the others’ thoughts
In the past she feels she’s caught
Is there a way out?
She begins to doubt
She feels lost in the past
As her present passes so fast
Her memories are cruel
She feels like a fool
How she wishes she would heal
The memories are so hard to feel
Despite how she tries
Even though she cries
Her life keeps going
She has little for the showing.
Gabriel aka
Copyright 2001 by Nicole Thomas
