Maggie's Story

I have been depressed for four years now, but it only came out

this past September. I have been diagnosed with social anxiety, severe

depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and an eating disorder (NOS).

This year has been extremely tough for me. I have been admitted into the

hospital three times, which in the long run helped me. I have had problems

with abusing substances and self inflicted violence. But I have come to

realize that using is not the way out.

Control is a big issue for me. I would control my eating, which would then

stop my meds from working. I was fighting with myself. I still have problems

with eating and cutting, but I often have to tell myself that it is not the

right thing to do. I often battle the thought "Am I safe with myself?" At

times I feel as if I am going out of my mind, as I am sure most depressed

people do. That’s when I either hurt myself or try to do something positive

like running. People have to find positive outlets on how to feel better. It

could be walking, cooking, drawing, or playing an instrument. Everyone is

unique and has a unique outlet for their sadness.

As hard as it may be us depressed people must remember that we are

survivors! We can get out of this hole and become stronger! Keep mantras

like that in your head each time you feel low. Come on this site and share

what you are feeling ... it may help someone else in the long run.

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