Secret Garden

There is a secret garden, where heaven an hell collide.

The garden to the end of life a one way ticket to suicide.

My stolen life I’ve giving back to the garden of life and death

Where just a single red rose lived and died with my last breath

The devils eye was watching but god was who I found

He gently laid me in my grave to sleep beneath the ground

Then placed down a single red rose near by for me to keep

In the garden of life and death where the rose an I still sleep.

Dry Fine

The steel so cold the trigger so hot

Tomorrow my life will be forgot

I raise the barrel up to my head to see my brain absorb hot lead

Sweat sweeps up threw my pours cold as ice I think no more

To hear my heart beat through my ears my eyes fight back the cold dry tears

The pressure threw my finger slides the trigger snaps I’m still alive

The gun so empty like my life but as the smart old wise man said life is hell

Were better off dead

I Don't

I don’t want to be alone anymore

I don’t want to be afraid

Nor do I want to be the blame I don’t want to play no game I don’t want to be

The cause of hate I don’t want to be someone’s mistake I don't want to hurt no

More I don’t want to feel pain I don’t want to feel anything grief, regret,

Hate, happiness, love

Nothing

I want to be empty inside just like everyone around me I don’t want to be

Scared anymore I don’t want to feel guilt I don’t want to hate you no more I

Don’t want to love you no more I don’t even care

I want to be like you

Empty

The one an only thing I want is for you to be happy and if my misery is what

Makes it so then all I want to feel is misery I don’t want to hurt no more I

Want to be safe I want to feel like I have a purpose in life I don’t need a

Reason to kill myself I need a reason not to