Isolation Thirst
Alone in the far corner
of a world of dreams
I listen to the plaintive whisper
of sweet memories with wings
clipped with time fluttering
a sedate, soothing rythm
through this cool flesh sliding
so namelessly familiar
over this landscape of loose
translation. She kisses me,
slowly forces herself through me;
my trembling assembles a tacit myth:
this is of significance.
We move in lasting time,
resisting a sense of desperate secrecy.
Then, somewhere far below us,
the strangers, the rest of them,
begin to stir. I need not ask
she stay until I forget.
And we are laughing--
the day has come too soon
And we are sobbing.
This is a stranger's clutch;
so little time to learn so much--
as if no other night could bring
such a futile, fleeting touch.
And because she sighs,
and because she sings
as she becomes my pain--
I must steal the night again.
BY Jason Paul Fox
AWAKE
In dreams I'm safe
I can die a thousand ways
and wake to find
the world the same
I can kill myself
be murdered
and yet I can wake
and begin again
It's safe there
in the darkened space
no one wants to admit it
but it's true
When you sleep
you are real
but when you wake
who are you?
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LOVE
I have never loved before
now I've someone that I adore,
I don't know what I should do
because to love her is taboo.
I should depart the scene for good
but I know I never would,
Just to see her is unreal
although it is a dreadful deal.
I hurt for her all the time
even though she'll never be mine,
I feel each pain that she endures
I can't come up with any cures.
I love her so very much
but remember it's DO NOT TOUCH,
She will never be for me
so I guess I still am free.
She must never find this out
it would cause more than a pout,
I wouldn't know where to look
make me look like a little sook.
It would embarass her to hell
put her right in the dell,
I would not do that to her
it would be exceedingly somber.
UNKNOWN
Dying Hope
To get hurt over and over
is not just a piece of clover,
Sears the mind and the heart
like a poisoned little dart.
Digging deeper and ever wider
resembles the bite of a spider,
Turning my thoughts to despair
and thinking I do not care.
To cry each night on my pillow
alone just like a single willow,
Living alone this awful plight
to put up a dreadful fight.
I try to not let it matter
it comes to me with such a clatter,
All the pain and the anguish
to be normal is what I wish.
But I know it is'nt to be
to be as little as a flee,
Always trapped in this web
no escape is what I dread.
Anne-Marie Wilson
Depression
It was such a forbidden love,
It was not born from above,
It was a love for Satan and his deeds,
Because no one cared about my needs,
No one saw me for what I really was inside,
No one knew that when I got home I cried,
No one knew that I hated God and heaven and such,
No one knew about why I hated them so much,
I hid behind a face of smiles,
I have hidden since I was a forgotten child,
I have such a terrible confession,
I did it because I was suffering under depression,
Do not blame me for what I did,
Although you cried as they lowered my lid,
No one understood why I picked up the knife,
No one understood why I took my life,
You all blamed me, and cursed in rage,
No one even cared that I was still trapped in my personal cage,
I hid my voice behind shouts and cheers,
I hid my feelings behind the veil of unshed tears,
I will not take the blame for this change of events,
There was not one thing that I could prevent,
It was your entire fault you see,
You were all blind to me,
But now I’m here, in my dark coffin, my depression,
In a world of sin beyond your comprehension.
Becki
Once Again
by Bill Turner
Black is the night creeping eternal
Smothering all in its vise like grip
Pushing the light far away from its reach
Allowing the creatures to prowl the ground
Searching and killing everyone around
Darkness hides it all deep within
Until the last of the light is extinguished
Once all the protection is gone
Out come the demons and the pain
Nasty thoughts creeping into the brain
Torment lasts until the light of day
Then we smile and start anew
Dreading the onslaught of the night
Then the pain and heartache creeps in
Tormenting you all night once again