Wicked Game
By: Erynn*Alice
The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
And I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
He wasn’t looking at me and that was okay because I was doing something I shouldn’t have been doing; I was falling in love with him. He was a green thing to the business and I had been dealing with corporate music executives for years on end.
Backstage at the Warped Tour and there he was. I only saw him and the drummer, Josh, but other than that, the rest of the band was no where to be seen. They were probably closer to their stage. I forget what their stage was, but it wasn’t the stage they were at, that was my stage.
Every move he made sent shivers down my spine and I knew right then that there was no turning back. He was exactly what I had been missing out on. He was that man I always wanted to meet.
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always going to break your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always going to break your heart
...With you
There was a crazy haze that surrounded him. I knew nothing more than he was Dan, lead singer of Story of the Year. I also knew that he was it. He was the end of the line as far as I was concerned. He was it. He was just it.
Story of the Year was a good band and I remembered hearing them play a couple months back before their record dropped. I don’t know what I was thinking then, because, god, why didn’t I notice Dan then? Why?
Why? It was because a couple months back I had a boyfriend. Tony. He was my best friend and that sort of brotherly love manifested into a relationship. It was the only relationship I ever felt complete in. Then about a month ago he left me for someone else.
A couple months back I wouldn’t have even though of anyone else besides Tony. All those crazy rumors about the infamous Benji-Tony affair were so completely true. We were so caught up in each other it was crazy. I couldn’t let a breath out without thinking about Tony. Tony was my blinder and Dan wouldn’t have even registered in my mind while I was with Tony.
But all that wasn’t important. It didn’t matter now, because all I couldn’t concentrate on anything else at that moment. It was Dan and only Dan.
What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you
I walked over to him with these crazy butterflies in my stomach. I felt like I was a freshman trying to get with a senior. It was so impossible.
We talked about music and he told me that it was pure luck Story of the Year was picked up for the tour. I said it wasn’t luck because it was a great band and they should have been signed to the main stage, they should have been signed to my stage. My stage.
I wanted to talk longer with him, but he looked at his watch and said goodbye and disappeared to whatever crappy side stage he was stationed at for the tour. Sometimes seniors like freshmen. Sometimes.
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always going to break your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
This world is always going to break your heart
...With you
After my set I walked to his stage. The band wasn’t playing any longer so I walked to the busses; I was a little disappointed I missed his set. It was probably a good set, too. It was probably prolific.
I had no clue if I would ever find his bus. The rows stretched on forever and they all looked the same. Every one of them had the tinted windows and the loud music blasting from the back. They all were the same, but his would stand out for some reason…it had to stand out.
And then there he was, walking from on row of busses to another and then drowning in the sea of the Warped Tour convoy.
The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
No and I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I'll never dream that I lose somebody like you, no
I started to jog over to where I watched him vanish. I’d find Ryan. I would. It was going to be destiny when I did. It was going to be perfect.
I looked down the dark ally made by the busses. There he was hiding in the shadows. Waiting for me.
But there was Tony. Why was Tony there? He wasn’t there, was he? I had to be imagining things. But I wasn’t. He was there with his arms wrapped around Ryan’s waist, pressing him to the outside of a bus.
It…it wasn’t happening? Was it?
It was.
Now I wanna fall in love
This world is always going to break your heart
Now I wanna fall in lust
This world is always going to break your heart
...With you
My skin felt cold and my legs got that weak and shakey feeling. I felt like I was watching the world end, I felt like I was watching my life end. My heart snapped in two quickly and painfully. I quietly walked away from the scene, trying to remember what it felt like not to have a broken heart.
Nobody loves no one
The End.