My Happy Ending
By:Kerri Vicious
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I really thought you were the one. We were perfect together Benji, absolutely perfect. We complimented each other so well… practically yin and yang, peanut butter and jelly, day and night. You are the tattooed, crazy rocker, I’m the conservative brainy girl… yet, there was always a common ground between us. We rarely fought, and when we did it was resolved the same day. I didn’t mind the fact that your job took you away from home because I kept myself busy with my receptionist job. It made the time we did have together all the more sweeter.
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
It came as a shock to me when you suddenly broke things off, and over the phone no less. Cold. I tried for weeks to call you for answers but you would ignore every single one. I can’t fathom why you’d want to say goodbye. Oh how I would torture myself at night with images of you with another girl, one that was more into your same interests with just as many tattoos and piercings as you. Or maybe you got lonely during those long nights on the road and surrendered to some groupie fan willing to hand you their body on a silver platter. Even though you never expressed it, I know you weren’t really happy with the fact I wished to remain a virgin until marriage.
Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
All I ask for is an explanation, this is driving me crazy. My heart has long since broken, there’s no more damage it could possibly do. If anything, it would end my restless nights tossing and turning plagued with images of you and questions constantly swimming around my brain of the what ifs. It’s not fair; I deserve more from you than an impersonal phone call. We weren’t just a casual dating couple, damn it, we were engaged! I don’t have the ring anymore, after a month of denial I finally surrendered and tossed it into the Atlantic.
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
It was quite the occasion; I felt a tad of the weight lift off my shoulders that day. But wasn’t enough. Nothing I did to try to rid myself of thoughts of you worked. Trashed clothes, burned pictures,… nothing. Your stupid yard-ruining dog… I long considered dumping him at the pound. But no, you’d better be glad I love animals… the flea bag is now your mothers problem. I bet she loves you now.
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
And your friends, especially your brother Joel,… I always knew they hated me. Never once did they treat me with respect. According to them, I was this snobby girl that was bound to leave you any day once someone with a bigger paycheck came along. I bet they shit their pants when you told them that you broke things off.
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Coward. I hate you, I hate you so much. Like father like son, huh? Thinking its okay to just drop everything and leave it all behind? First the alcoholism, now this,… such a predictable pattern. I should have seen it coming. I want you to know that I did love you wholeheartedly. The day you proposed to me had been the happiest day of my life. Too bad you had to go and screw it all up.
So much for my happy ending
End.