Those Black Eyes
Chapter 5
By: Punk Lover
“What do you mean you know? You were where?” Skye's face played dumb but I think she knew where this was going.
“Why are you hiding it? I know what happened. You guys kept me up all night.” She looked at me confused. I don’t get it, why couldn’t she remember?
“What am I hiding? You’re not making any sense.”
“Why cant you just tell me you had sex with Billy?”
“I…WHAT!!!”
“You heard me. You came in the bedroom and started having sex with Billy.” Her face was shocked. “Why don’t you remember?”
There was a huge uncomforting pause. What was she going to tell me? “I was…drunk last night.” She was drunk? This is really weird.
“So you don’t remember anything?” She shook her head. I felt pretty guilty now for telling her. “Why were you drunk?” She put her head down.
“This past year has been total hell. All these things have been happening and I’m losing things and people and…ya. A couple weeks ago when Billy called I felt so much happier, and I haven’t been in so long. Then he told me you guys were coming too and I was even happier because I really wanted to meet you guys. Then last night when we had the ice cream fight, I was having a blast. But, I guess, I was relieved that Billy came because…you know what was about to happen. I started drinking when everyone was in bed. It gets me away from the horrible reality I‘m in. I was drinking with Billy but I drank a LOT more then him.”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I’m so lost.
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On the ride home we were completely silent. As she drove I was thinking of what she told me, it was still fresh in my mind.
“Are you mad at me?” What kind of retarded question was that? Of course I was. I liked her and she spoiled everything by getting drunk and having sex with my friend.
I still never answered her and I think she got the point.
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When we got home she went straight to her room, no questions asked. I went to the living room and found the guys watching TV. As soon as I sat down Joel looked at me.
“What?” I asked irritated.
“Where have you been?” I stared at my brother with a look of hatred.
“What does it matter, I’m back aren’t I?” Right then Joel gave up and turned back to watch TV.
I was sitting there for almost 2 hours my mind blank, just staring off into space and I started worrying about Skye all of a sudden. I got up and started moving towards her room to check on her. But I’m mad at her why would I care. I was still walking.
“She’s not there you know.” I turned to Paul. He was coming out of the bathroom wiping his hands on his pants. “Her and Billy went out for dinner. I didn’t feel like going and Joel was sleeping. You never answered so they figured you didn’t want to go either.”
Holy shit!!! This is just a never-ending story isn’t it?
I grabbed my hoodie and walked out the door before Paul could say anything. I needed to clear my head. I didn’t have a car so I decided to walk. I didn’t know where I was going but I needed to be alone to think things through.
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I stared at my watch 1 am. Nobody found me or they didn’t even try. I was sitting on a hill looking over the small town that I grew up in. The stars were out and there was no wind. I was very comfortable were I was sitting and didn’t want it to end.
I was remembering all the good, hard, fun and boring times I had in this town. I was so happy yet so lost, and I still haven’t changed. I didn’t know what I was doing here or when I’ll leave. I sat there a little longer before feeling something on the back of my neck. Air. I turned and saw Skye kneeling behind me. She moved beside me and sat down. We didn’t say anything to each other we just stared at the place we call home.
“I always come here when I feel lost. I can think and feel everything without being judged. I was here when a lot of different things happened. I was here when I found out my dad left, when my mom went to the hospital, when she died, when my brother went to rehab, when my boyfriend told me he hated me. It’s kind of funny because every time I come here something bad happens but…I always find myself here.”
I looked at her; she was still looking at the stars and the town. I couldn’t believe how many things she’s been through. I get her now. When my dad left it was so hard and I would drink a lot. That’s what was happening to her. She turned and looked at me.
“I’m sorry if you’re mad at me. I didn’t mean to do what I did.” She sighed.
She turned back looking at the town and I saw a tear running down her cheek…from her black eyes. I sat up and waddled over in front of her. I wiped the tear off her face and she smiled at me. I smiled back and hugged her.
“I’m not mad and don’t be sorry we’ve all been through shit here and there.” I whispered in her ear.
“Thanks…” She unwrapped her arms from around me and stared back at the stars. I sat back and stared at them too. I was wondering what she was thinking and how she knew I was here and…what happened with dinner and Billy.
“I thought you went out to eat with Billy.”
“I did, but he wanted to go to a club and I wasn’t in the mood so he dropped me off at home and left. I never went in the house I just came here instead. I wasn’t expecting company though.” She giggled a bit.
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I woke up to the sound of the birds chirping loudly…wait that’s not right.
I looked at my surroundings, green. I sat up to see that I was still on the hill where Skye and me were sitting at last night. She was here too still, sleeping though. The town didn’t look as good as it does at night. There were no lights; there were more cars and a lot more noise. I didn’t want to wake her up seeing we both fell asleep at almost 4 am. I looked at my watch. I only slept for 3 hours. I picked up Skye and started carrying her down the hill. Quite a challenge it was.
I decided to carry her to a diner so we could eat.
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Before I walked in I woke her up and put her down on her butt.
“Huh??… Where are we?”
“At a diner. I decided we needed something to eat.” I started walking in with Skye trying to catch up, kind off tripping on her feet.
We sat down and had a quiet yet nice breakfast.