Not Him...Please
Chapter 3
By: Punk Lover
“Hello?” Candy said into the phone.
“Hey girl! What’s up?”
“Oh hey Billy! Not to much just watching a movie with Cody. How about you?”
“Not to much either. Just got bored and we decided to call you. Plus we were wondering why Joel isn’t himself lately? He’s been acting weird since he went to your place last week and saw you making out with Cody. It’s not like he hasn’t seen you two make out before.”
“I don’t know but I can’t really talk right now because this movie is really good.”
“Ya I’m sure you guys are really watching the movie.” Billy chuckled and looked over to Joel who just left the room. “Well I’ll let you go back to your business. See ya later.”
“Ya bye.” Candy hung up the phone and went back to making out with Cody. Being back together meant that they worked things out and that they would try to spend as much time together as possible.
Of course making out led to other things and they ended up in Candy’s bed naked.
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“So how have you and Cody been?” Candy’s best friend, Christine, was over for a girl’s day in, eating ice cream sundaes and milkshakes.
“Well we’re alright now…”
“Now? So later things will get fucked again?” Candy looked down and nodded her head. “Why what’s going on that will make him pissed at you?”
“Well there is only one thing I know for sure that Cody doesn’t want right now…but he’s going to get it.”
“Stop leaving me hanging! Tell me woman.” Candy toke a sip of her milkshake.
“I went to the doctors and found out that…I’m pregnant.” Christine’s eyes went big, they looked like they were about to pop out of her head.
“Your…what? No way that’s impossible. Didn’t you guys use protection?”
“Of course but sometimes they can break. You know that.”
Christine still couldn’t believe it. She was in such a daze and all these different thoughts were in her mind. ‘What the hell were they thinking? Is it going to be a girl or boy? Will she let me be the godmother since she has no close family? When’s the wedding? I hope I’m a brides maid.’
“What ever you’re thinking, stop! I need to find a way to tell him. PLUS I don’t want you to say anything to him or I will kill you after he kills me. Got it?”
Christine nodded. She stared at Candy’s stomach to see if it will grow in front of her eyes, but obviously not.
“I wont say anything, but you have to tell him soon. You can’t wait until you look like a balloon because I’m sure he’ll notice. I got to go to work. You sure you’re going to skip work today?”
Candy nodded and Christine gave her a hug and left for work.
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**Knock knock**
“Door’s open!” Candy yelled not wanting to leave her show. She was in her PJ’s and had some Ben and Jerry’s.
Benji walked in and Mili was already all over him being as friendly as she was. Benj petted and played with her before he moved into the living room and sat next to Candy.
“Why weren’t you at work? It’s more fun and easier when you’re there.”
“I wasn’t feeling well that’s all.” Benji looked at her. She looked pretty good to him. No circles under her eyes. No sneezing or coughing. Yep she looked like usual. Benj grabbed the remote from her and turned off the TV.
“Hey! I was watching that!”
“You look fine to me. Was it girl problems? You can tell your ol’ pal Benj. I like girl talk” Candy looked at him and giggled but slowly remembered what the real reason she stayed was.
“Something like that. But I don’t want to tell you because I know you’ll tell the world.”
“Excuse me!? I don’t tell the world EVERYTHING…just a lot of things.”
“Too many things if you ask me. Fine I’ll tell you but you have to promise me that you won't make it a bigger deal then it already is and to not tell anyone.” Benji moved his figure across his chest making an x sign over his heart.
“Scouts honor” Candy pushed him slightly for being a moron but decided to go with telling him anyway.
“You know how Cody and I are back together?” Benji nodded. “Well of course we would do things that I wont mention…and things that we did made something else happen. Things that will change both our lives drastically.” Benji nodded some more. “I’m pregnant.”
Benji’s eyes were as wide as Christine’s when Candy told her. Then Benji started breathing a little heavily.
“But didn’t you say a long time ago that you would always use protection because you knew how much Cody didn’t want a kid so young?”
“Ya…but he doesn’t know yet. I’m going to tell him soon but I just need to find the right moment.”
Benji and Candy spent over an hour figuring out how to tell Cody and when. They decided the sooner the better. Candy figured she should tell Cody tonight after he relaxes after work. Then figure out how to work everything out together. Benji left Candy alone with a good luck and a hug.
Candy got more nervous as the hours the minutes and the seconds went by. She didn’t know how Cody was going to react and what exactly was going to happen. Candy started panicking a bit when she heard keys outside the door and then the door opening. No doubt it was Cody.
“Man what a day. I’m so tired.” Cody dropped his stuff at the front door and came to sit next to Candy. “How was your day?” Candy was getting worse on the inside but tried not to show it.
“It was alright.”
“Just alright? Well you know I can make it excellent.” Cody leaned in and kissed Candy passionately and no matter how much Candy wanted it she knew she had to tell him.
“Ummm…can we not do this right now.” Candy tried talking through Cody’s lips. Cody backed off and looked at Candy like she was nuts.
“Why. Not in the mood?”
“Actually I was hoping we could talk instead.”
“About what?”
“Well how about…where do you see us 10 years from now?” Cody stood up and thought.
“I don’t know. Maybe have a bigger house in a different neighborhood. Why?”
“There’s actually something that might change that.” Cody looked at her and sat down beside her again looking deeply in her eyes. She knew that she had all his attention. No backing out now. “This is going to be hard…apparently according to the doctor I’m…pregnant.”
Cody never moved. He didn’t look away but he never changed his facial expressions. There was a long uncomforting silence eating away at Candy.
“Well…say something.” Cody got out of his daze and stood up again.
“When did you find out?” He asked quietly almost a whisper.
“Last week, sometime.” Candy was getting even more nervous.
“You know I don’t want a baby. You know that if I’m a father now I wouldn’t be a good one. I even know that when I was older I would have to work hard at it.” As he was talking he voice got louder and angrier.
“You can’t blame me! I’m not the only one who did this.”
“No!! But if you toke those stupid pills like I told you to this might not have happened!”
It was happening all over again. Cody was mad and didn’t want to fix it. Candy was crying begging him not to leave. If she had this baby she needed him around to help her raise it. Of course since Candy’s family was already fucked up her own family that she made would also be.
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After Cody left, Candy barely left the house or even talked to anyone. She told the guys she needed some down time so they didn’t come over a lot. Things were passing Candy by and she didn’t want to do anything about it. She was lonely and scared. She would raise a child on her own and it wont be easy. Though she didn’t want to work, she had to get ready for the baby.
Candy got a new job as a professional guitar player, but it didn’t pay as much as her old job. She toke this job so she can start something new.
Good Charlotte went on tour without Candy they tried their best to keep in contact with each other. They were out doing their own thing and Candy was out doing hers. Of course Benji making the huge promise that he wasn’t going to tell ANYONE that Candy was pregnant in fact did just tell the band but told them not to tell anyone else. The rest of the band had no clue that this had happened but tried their best not to spill the secret.
Because I need you more then you need me
Because I want you more I know
Because we moved to fucking fast
I think I really had to wish to make this last I know
I’m sorry please forgive me believe me if you would
Because I cared way more because I really felt that
You felt some much more I know
I’m sorry please forgive me believe me if you would
I’m sorry please forgive me believe me if you could (x2)
(Box Car Racer “Sorrow”)