Jessica Dawn Finnegan, my best friend

Jeska...this is fer you my luv. (I'm listening to Hole's Y-100 Sonic Session and i got my period so this may get mushy. I never get my period so when it does come once every year...it sucks! Ha! Not that i think you guys all wanted to know that but...you do now!)

I just wanted to reminise a bit with you. Let's see remember the time when we first met. I'm gonna say kindergarten. Even tho we weren't friends i remember those 2 upper "pig" tails. The day we watched the cartoon, "put it in the bag, stuff it in the bag, bump-bump!" Not to long ago you put it on your outgoing answering machine message. That was great. That's why i love you. That was just as rad...nah..this was radder. Member when you put Christina Darling's "...jeeeesuuuus ccchhhriiist..." from "Mommy Dearest" on your machine? Haha. "You figure it out!" hahah.
I can't remember the exact day we became friends but that day changed my life forever. You are my fire. My love. Thank the lord for you. You keep my sanity. You restore my faith in the female species. You are super funny. Not maybe people are credited with making me piss myself in jeans no less...in my neighbors yard. You bastard! Our lives seem to hold parellel similarities. You find bands right before or right after me. You finish my thoughts and my sentences. We've grown up together. Suffered school traumas. Made friends together. Shared our hopes and dreams. Our secrets...our fears. I hope 10 years from now we will still be this close. You the maid of honor at my wedding. Or watching you in the delivery room giving birth. Calling me up with questions about what you should do with your daughter. I can just hear you now. "She's just like her mom she kicked the shit out of some boy at lunch today."
Can you imagine? Won't that be great! We've helped eachother grow up. We've watched eachother grow, change...we've been through a lot.
We were hated as children in school. Or maybe just me. hehe. NOTE: If you get made fun of in grade school fer wearing one pink sock and one green sock...that's a sure sign yer gonna grow up and be a punk rock grrrl. In highschool...you-you-you got cool. Being all skatey, punky, "Alternative" was kinda trendy...before the Tommy Hilfiger movement anyway.
I left for a while to C.A.A. But when i came back i was still weird. I remember you picking me up for school. I was always late coming out. You always wanted to be early. Remember when you sent Daniel up to my door and my mom was asleep in the chair and well, okay i'll leave that part out. That was you who introduced me to Bikini Kill and helped me discover there was such a thing as indie bands...it all went downhill from there. "Tramp Box" that car was called, right? Speaking of boxes we were the only ones who carried them...in highschool. "What's that?" Ewwww. Your weird. *Oh, i'm sorry i forgot about that other girl. She was at the Hole concert and i let her but in line. Why did you hate her. Hot Topic poster child yeah but she was ok.
Remember "Alarm Cock"...what a creep. Mr. Beebe's letters on the bus. Member how bad i stalked George S. is middle school. Fuck, what a dumb ass i was. Remember Chrystal coming out of the girls gym in that hideous fucking short (SHORT) shirt. "What, it can be a dress!" hahahah. You dropped the fucking phone and till this day i still laugh out loud when i picture it in my head. "I can wear sneakers with a dress!" OH! and let's not forget when Z. Cavaricci's were the shit. The labels were worn on the crotch area and "Chrystyle's" bush came bulging out the seam! hahahah. I feel like Chris Farley's SNL character here. Member the time we pierced eachother's belly buttons while listening to "Pretty on the Inside" by Hole.

11/20/00 i added more memoirs...
Remember when i heard Hole's POTI album for that 1st time? You had my mom put it on in the car. She said, "what group is this?" You said, "Hole." She said, "Yeah, well they should go jump in one." ha-ha. I could go on forever with my mother's comments. Christ. I just love you and i wanted to make sure you knew it. I'm pregnant now. Can you believe it? This is life i guess. I'm so proud to have you as my daughter's God Mother. I wanna put "Jessica" in her name somewhere.

Ms. Pirate Jeska's website. Check it out. See what i've been bragging about.