20th April 2000

It's two hearts living, in two separate worlds.

I'm watching the strangest sunset right now, have done for the last twenty minutes or so. I can't begin to describe it, it was all yellows and oranges and wispy creams ten mintes ago, then oranges and yellows and pale blues, now all flourescent reds and pastel purples and subdued greys and it's simply beautiful. And there's people walking past my windows with their eyes firmly fixed on the ground, and it feels to me like I'm the only one who's noticing or giving a damn, in the whole damned country. And I'm thinking of you, and missing you. And imagining picking up the phone, but knowing I won't.

It's no sacrifice, at all.