Revenge. Ignorance. Bliss.
"The worst imaginable pain
is watching the one you love,
love someone else."
I scream at the moon
Holding fast and clinging.
You were all i've ever needed.
Let the abyss swallow my soul
Pain is an icy lover that i've come to terms with.
Whip me, i need it.
Anything to stop the thoughts
Images, words running rampant in my brain
Too close for friends
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What is love?
You should know, you have so many.
I'm gonna go schmooze, you'd say.
And god, are you good at it.
Lust. Hunger. Lies. Betrayl
Words turned over and over in my mind with obsession.
Come, lie down with me.
Hold me, kiss me...love me.
Tell me you love me.
Make me believe i am the only one.
Let me worship your body.
Pull me closer, around you.
Don't tell me ther eare others.
Other loves.
Is this what you do with them?
I want to be blind.
But i see you for what you are
i finally see the real you
And i hate you for leading me on
For letting me taste
I feel like a dirty rag,
Tossed out on the street.
Used and unneeded,
For you have many loves, and i have just one.
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Close to everybody
except me
longing to feel you
i can't get away
need to drive fast,
run until i bleed
stop this addiction, you hurting me.
Let the world go away
leave me to my solitude.
If this means friends,
then i've got it all wrong.
You love EVERYONE.
I can't bear to imagine...
so i'd rather be alone.
I am stronger than your pain...ive got you beat
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I wake,
Gasping, choking
covered in poisonous cold sweat
Your name fills my every thoughts
Every breath, every moment
Haunting me...
I am tormented by your beauty
brought to tears by your compassion
All because you are not here
I am frightened by your absence,
Brought to my knees and begging for release
From this prison i find myself in.
All i can do is weep all night
and dream all day...
locked in flashbacks of your eyes
locked to mine.
The world and all that mattered
bottled in one changing multicolored gaze.
My flawed sould aches to be perfect
My heart stops to think that you could love another
This deadly infatuation is eating me alive
Chewing on raw blood covered strips of my soul
Bared for all the world to see.
I see no path to freedom
Only one cumbersome insanity...
What's inside you is all ive ever desired.
Let me worship you.
Take me as your sacrifice.
Bit you didn't want to give in
Couldn't forget about past mistakes
You knew in my heart that i wanted to be good
Meant nothing but love
I don't want it to end
Just want you to know
I meant nothing but love
My heart hurts everyday
Because I knew I was wrong
Tried too hard to be righteous
And i FUCKED UP
But please believe me
I meant nothing but love
hmm...well, you win; ripped me apart
But i can't blame you
Too blind to understand
I meant nothing but love
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These tears pour down my face
Flowing like a faucet left open
You hear my crying
Yet you turn your back
Like a WHORE looking for another hit
You hear me shouting for help,
But you don't care,
You're the center of attention
You see me bleed out all my evils,
Yet all you see is yourself
I take the pills, try to get away
But you only see me give up.
What do you expect? When you never noticed anything.
Always bitching about that broken nail
You don't see the damage I carry
Knowing you won't listen
no matter how deep i cut myself
no matter how much I kill myself
no matter how much
I wish i could be free from you
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Suicide is the only option you've given me
But I'd never go that way
Not with the pain I'd cause to the people that care
People who aren't like you
REAL people
Who give a shit
Who won't FUCKING RUN AWAY from me
Like your pitiful soul
That NEVER FELT MY FUCKING PAIN
That's never been IN ALL THIS SHIT
Sorry...I had to leave things this way
But life never works out the way you'd like
After all this shit you started
You were never grateful i tried to fix it.
I kept HOPING everything would turn better
And you'd quit spoonfeeding me my dosage of pain
Sorry, but you give me no choice
I'm tired of all this pain
Sorry, I'm ready to move on without you
It's not my fault
You keep dragging everybody around you down
And sinking in your teeth until we broke
Until we screamed at your dispicable excuses
And now that I'm leaving you don't understand
You see how i felt the whole FUCKING TIME
It isn't that i wished this upon you
But you've made it unavoidable
Now I wont stop until every bone in your body is broken and blood covers the pavement