Déjà vu Chapters 26-30

Chapter 26

Sonny wakes up holding his throbbing head. He had made the mistake of drinking till he couldn't stand up. Cindy and Amanda wanted nothing to do with him anymore and even Brenda, who had been obsessed with him at one point, wanted nothing to do with him. He didn't know what to do, every girl in town wanted him, or at least that's how it had been in the past. A knock at the door interrupts his deep thoughts. He goes to answer it and is shocked to see Brenda. She still appeared to be very angry at him and he tried to look at her the same way she was looking at him but he finds himself failing miserably, instead he grins, "To what do I owe this pleasant surprise?"
Brenda glares at him, "Believe me, I'm not here for pleasure, so get that out of your mind."
He blushes, she had known what he was thinking yet again.
"I'm here because somehow I ended up with these..." She holds out his pair of black boxer shorts. He takes them from her and grins wickedly, "Admit it, you took them because they bring back memories of the best sex you've ever had."
Brenda rolls her eyes, "Oh please! Not everything is about you Sonny. I know you think it is, but it isn't. The sooner you learn that, the sooner you'll be happier."
Sonny continues to grin at her, "But if I changed you'd miss me."
Brenda laughs sarcastically, "Oh yeah I'd miss you a lot. You know you are as wonderful as PMS. I could live without both."
Sonny laughs at her humor, "Oh we both know I'm the better of the two."
Brenda stares at him intensely, she knew that she shouldn't look in his eyes, not when just gazing into his intense eyes would make her melt. She finally breaks the intense silence,
"Well anyway these are yours. I've gotta go." She turns around and leaves. Sonny shuts the door and sits down on the couch.
Outside Harborview Towers, Brenda sits in her car, wanting to go back inside and give Sonny a chance, but knowing that she couldn't do that. She couldn't put herself through the heartache again. She wouldn't. She finally shuts the door and drives off.
Sonny walks into Luke's a week later, he was finally putting in an appearance after a week absense. He hadn't talked to Brenda since she had dropped by his apartment and he couldn't help but worry about her. He had talked to Robin and she had told him that Brenda hadn't called her in a week, which was very unusual. Luke walks in,
"Hey Partner, it's about time you show your face around here! What's wrong?"
Sonny laughs, "Am I that transparent?"
Luke smiles, "Nah...Just to people that know you better than they know the back of their hand. Does this have something to do with the lovely Miss Barrett."
Sonny sighs, "I'm worried about her, I haven't seen her around in a week."
Suddenly, Sonny is silenced by Brenda walking down the back stairs, Sonny looks at Luke with a confused expression, "What was Brenda doing upstairs?"
"Well if you'd of let me finish I could have told you that she has moved back into the apartment upstairs."
Brenda comes over to where Luke and Sonny are talking, "I really appreciate you letting me move in. I've had enough of wake up calls and room service to last me a lifetime."
Sonny stares at her, "So tell me, are my beautiful furnishings still there or did Mike fill it with his shit during his time there? Is the clothes tree still there?"
Brenda laughs, "You know, actually the clothes tree isn't a bad idea? That way I don't have to walk to my closet and hang up my clothes. It is a great thing, Mike is a genius."
Sonny rolls his eyes, "Oh please, don't tell him that, his heads big enough."
Brenda is looking into Sonny's eyes when suddenly the room starts to spin, "I'll see you all later, I'm gonna go lay down for a little while. I don't feel so good right now."
She takes a step and falls into Sonny's arms, 'What is wrong with me?' thought Brenda, she had never felt this dizzy before. Sonny holds her up in his strong arms, looking at her with concern flashing in his eyes. She finally pulls out of his grasp, "I'm fine, Im just gonna go lay down."
Brenda barely makes it upstairs before she feels the familiar bitter taste in her mouth, she places her hand over her mouth and runs to the bathroom, where she quickly throws up. After she has finished being sick, she sits down on the red carpet and tries to regain her strength. Sonny is worried about her and knocks on the bathroom door,
"Brenda? Are you okay?"
Brenda is surprised to hear that he cares, "I'm fine Sonny, I just have the flu or something."
" What flu? Flu season has been over for months now."
"Well it has to be the flu, what else could it be?"
Sonny smiles at her, like he has an idea of what it could be but he decides not to bring it up to her, "You're right, it is probably just the flu."
Brenda smiles at him, "Well thank you for finally admitting I'm right. I'll be fine in a day or two I'm sure."
Brenda is sitting on the bed later that night, looking at her calender. She comes across the date of her last period and realizes that she is a week late for her pariod, she gasps, "No it can't be...I couldn't be pregnant...it only happened once, there's no possible way. Oh god this can't be happening! What if I am pregnant?' thought a horrified Brenda. She was going to have to find out for sure, and it was going to have to be soon.

Chapter 27

Brenda stared at the results of the home pregnancy test, completely stunned. It was positive. Her life was one big fat mess now, she was alone, Sonny wouldn't want to raise the baby, and did she really want Sonny helping her raise it? 'Maybe the results are wrong, maybe I'm not pregnant.' thought Brenda, she could only hope that the results were wrong, it wouldn't be the first time that a pregnancy test had been inaccurate. She was going to call her gynocologist first thing in the morning and make an appointment to find out for sure. She lays the pregnancy test box on the counter and goes to take a nice, hot, exhilirating bubble bath. Relaxation was definitely something that she needed at this moment. She sheds her clothes and gets into the tub. She lays back and lets the warm water overtake her, she closes her eyes and after a while begins to doze off.
~Fantasy~
Brenda is tenderly gazing into the bassinet, a small child is crying and Brenda gently reaches in to pick up the crying baby. Suddenly, the baby is no longer there, she starts to panic. She screams out and suddenly she hears a voice calling her from upstairs. She looks up and sees Sonny, holding the baby. She rushes upstairs to him but he suddenly disappears. Once she is upstairs she hears Sonny calling her again, this time from the door,
"You're never going to keep my child away from me. He's going with me."
Brenda screams, "Sonny no! Please don't do this! Please don't do this to me!" It's too late for he is already gone, along with the baby.
Brenda jerks awake, her heart beating fiercely. She couldn't let Sonny take her child away from her, not ever. He couldn't know about the pregnancy, she couldn't take the chance of him taking it away from her.
Sonny is sitting on the couch at his penthouse. He kept finding himself thinking about that afternoon with Brenda, how she had been sick and insisted it was the flu.He had suspected differently, and he knew that reality was going to sink in any minute for her too. They had created a life together, whether she liked it or not, and if she was in fact pregnant he was going to be a part of the baby's life. He was going to see Brenda in the morning.
The next morning, Brenda is sitting in the doctor's office, waiting for her name to be called. It had taken everything in her to make the call to the gynocologist for an appointment, but in the end she had persuaded herself to do it. Brenda looks up as she hears her name being called. She follows the nurse in and gets weighed, she is then led into one of the exam rooms, where the nurse hands her a gown and asks her to put it on. After the nurse leaves, Brenda sheds her clothes and slips into the gown. Fifteen minutes later, the doctor comes in. She smiles,
"Good to see you again Brenda, so I hear you may be pregnant."
Brenda sighs nervously, "I took a pregnancy test last night and it came back positive. I don't know if I trust the results though."
The doctor looks over her chart, "Well the chances are very good that the test is very accurate. I mean you aren't exactly a virgin right? Isn't it possible that you are pregnant?"
Brenda laughs at her humor, " No I'm not a virgin, but I don't see what this has to do with any of this."
"Well, it doesn't have anything to do with it really, but I'm just trying to see how likely the chances are that you could be pregnant. Did you have unprotected sex with anybody?"
Brenda rolls her eyes, " Yes of course I did, why else would I be here?"
The doctor is still eyeing her chart, "When was your last period?"
"Almost forty days ago. I'm always regular and I've never missed a period, except for once due to stress."
"Okay, what I'm going to do is send you to the lab for some bloodwork. I know how anxious you are to find out so I'll have it tested right away and I'll call you back later this afternoon."
The doctor hands her a sheet that has the bloodwork that she has to have done listed. She then leaves her alone to get dressed. Fifteen minutes later Brenda has had all her bloodwork done and is on her way home.
Sonny knocks on the door of the apartment above Luke's. He gets no answer so he turns the door knob and is surprised to see that Brenda has left the door unlocked. He walks inside and looks around, the apartment still looks the same as when he had lived there with Brenda and Stone. He goes into the kitchen and looks around. He opens the refrigerator to make sure that Brenda only had healthy food for herself. He looks down on the counter and sees a home pregnancy box. He smiles, his instincts were right, Brenda knew about the possibility of being pregnant with their child. He couldn't wait to be a daddy and to love the child like he had planned to love his and Lily's. This was his second chance at fatherhood. One that he would not give up. He is holding the home pregnancy box when Brenda walks in. She stares at him, completely taken aback by his presence,
" Sonny? What the hell are you doing in my apartment?"
Sonny smiles, " I don't think you're the one that needs to be asking questions. So tell me, are you pregnant?"
Brenda continues to stare at him, finally breaking the silence she begins to speak,
" I don't know yet, but if I am, don't worry I don't need you to help me raise it."
" I don't care what you need, it isn't just about you Brenda, there is another life involved."
Brenda rolls her eyes at him, "Did you not hear a fucking word I just said? I may not even be pregnant."
"I know differently, and I think you do too."
Suddenly the phone rings. Brenda rushs to answer it,
"Hello? So what's the results? That's good, thank you."
She hangs up the phone and Sonny stares at her, hoping that he is right and that she is in fact pregnant,
"Well congratulations, you won, I'm pregnant."

Chapter 28

Sonny's face broadens into a huge smile that he can't contain. Brenda doesn't do the same.
"Aren't you happy about this child? I know that we aren't together anymore, but we did create another life together..."
Brenda looks up at him, tears are beginning to form in her eyes.
"It's easy for you to say Sonny. You aren't the one that has to take care of this child for the rest of your life. I'm the one that has to."
Her voice has now begun to break.
Sonny takes her hand in his. "Hey, listen to me, I'm going to be here for you, and for the baby. If you don't trust anything I tell you, please believe this."
Brenda jerks her hands away from Sonny and places her head in her hands.
" I don't know what to believe anymore Sonny. This whole situation is just a huge nightmare. You know what you can do? That is if you really want to help me."
Sonny looks at her, a concerned look now covering his handsome face.
" Just let me know what I can do."
Brenda removes her head from her hands. " Please just leave. I can't deal with anymore tonight. I've had all that I can stand for tonight."
Sonny continues to stare at her, but doesn't move an inch.
" I've asked you once and I'm not going to ask again, leave!"
Sonny continues to stare at her for a few more seconds. He walks over to her and holds her head in his hands, he lowers his soft, sensual lips to her temple and kisses her softly.
" I'll do what you want for now. I'll be back."
He smiles slightly at her and lets himself out of the apartment.
Brenda begins to sob. He said he would be there for her and their baby, but Sonny had broken promises to her many times before. What if this time was no different? She'd be raising the baby all alone. The longer she thinks these thoughts, the harder she begins to sob.
Sonny is standing outside the door, listening to Brenda sob. He feels tears start to fall down his handsome face. Sonny places his hand on the door knob, wanting so badly to go back in the apartment and comfort her, but he knows that if he were to do so, she wouldn't allow him to. He curses under his breath in frustration and disappears down the stairs. Brenda hears his footsteps from inside her apartment, which once again makes her sob even louder.
'What a night," thought Brenda, as she massaged a cramp out of her neck. She hadn't slept well, for she had cried herself to sleep. Suddenly the phone rings, she reaches for it.
" What do you want Sonny? We said everything that we needed to say yesterday."
Sonny sighs, " Like hell we did Brenda...you may have said everything that you wanted to, but I haven't even begun."
Suddenly, Brenda bursts into tears, "You are by far, the most self centered, stubborn, pig headed man I have ever known! I fucking hate you!"
Sonny laughs, "You don't hate me baby, you're having my child to prove it."
"You know that had nothing to do with love! She was concieved from sex! Not making love! This poor child was concieved out of meaningless sex. I mean nothing to you Sonny. Why don't you just admit how little I really mean to you, how little we mean to you... Why you're at it, why don't you just stay the fuck away from me, from now on? I will not go through the heartache of having to get over you again! I will not put my child through that."
Sonny begins to feel aggravated, " Jesus Christ Brenda, how many times do I have to tell you that the child isn't just yours, it is mine too! And I'll never give my child up, if you think that I will, you have something coming to you!"
He slams down the phone and curses under his breath.

Chapter 29

Brenda gazed at herself in the mirror, sex with Sonny had not only made her a prisoner emotional wise, but physically as well, her body was swelling more and more with proof of their encounter four months before. She was just about past spending her mornings imprisoned on the bathroom floor with her head in the toilet. Over the past three and a half months, things had been extemely tense between her and Sonny, but they were slowly starting to get along, finding that in five short months they would be the parents of abeautiful boy or girl. They had to take the initiative and be responsible in caring for the child and both Sonny and her were not about to abandon a child. The last thing they wanted for their child was for it to grow up feeling alone like they had for so many years. Brenda caresses her stomach as she feels a strong movement in her stomach, the baby was definitely a kicker. She slowly lowers her robe and puts on one of her most stylish looking maternity outfits, which consists of tight, black, form fitting black leggins and a low cut, cleavage revealing long red baby doll top. She definitely looked good enough to eat, even with being pregnant. She had to get finished because she had a doctors appointment in an hour.
Fifteen minutes later, Brenda is on her way out the door. She goes to open the drivers side of her new black Porsche when she hears somebody honking at her, she looks up and sees Sonny's big, black stretch limosine summoning her to join it. Brenda slams her car door shut and walks over to the limo, opening the door, she sees Sonny gesturing for her to get in. As she climbs over his lap, she falls on top of it, feeling him grow hard, Brenda grins at him,
"I would say you want me, Mr. Corinthos."
Sonny laughs at her, "And I would say you're crazy Miss Barrett. See, I don't want a girl, after I have had her once. I move onto bigger and better things.
Brenda laughs, Sonny was obviously lying to her. That was the biggest lie he had ever told, he always had to have her. After all, Washington DC hadn't ended their sexual relationship, it had only fueled his desire for her. They had made love hundreds of times after Washington DC. And if that were true his erection wouldn't be acting this way around her.
"Whatever you say Sonny, I know you're lying though. Ya know ya want me, and ya want me bad, trouble is...You aren't getting me."
Sonny looks down at her swollen stomach,
"Take a look sweetheart, it looks like I already had you again. I had you three times in one night, remember?"
Brenda looks down at her stomach and smiles,
"Oh I'll never forget, how could I possibly forget when I'm the one paying for it."
Sonny and Brenda are still arguing when the limo stops all of the sudden. Brenda looks out the tinted windows and recognizes the familiar site of her doctors office. Sonny is the first to get out, he walks around to the other side of the limo to help Brenda out, Brenda shoves his hand away from her,
"I'm pregnant, not helpless!" She exclaims, as she steps out of the limo. As they are in the limo, Sonny places his arm around Brenda, she jerks out of his grasp,
" I thought you said you didn't want me anymore? So what are you doing holding me?"
Sonny rolls his eyes,
"What the fuck makes you think I still want you? All I did was help you out, or wait...tried to help you out and you go fucking balistic. I hardly call that love, and I certainly don't want you."
Suddenly, without warning Brenda bursts into tears, not being able to control her emotions any longer.
Sonny stares at her, not knowing what to say or what to do. He reaches his arms out and pulls her to him. She is now sobbing uncontrolably into his broad chest. He strokes her hair, much like a mother would stroke a childs to soothe its crying,
" Shh...sweetheart, it's okay, don't cry."
She jerks away yet again, still sobbing,
"Don't you fucking touch me. I hate you!"
She runs into the doctors office with Sonny close behind.
Fifteen minutes later, Brenda is lying on the exam table, waiting for the doctor to examine her. Sonny is sitting in a chair, to the side of her. Talking had ceased ever since their argument outside. Brenda looks up as the doctor suddenly appears.
Twenty minutes later, Brenda is lying very still on the table, as the doctor rubs the cold ultrasound cream on her swollen stomach. The doctor gets a shocked expression on his face. Brenda notices it immediately and begins to worry,
"What is it? Is there something wrong with the baby."
The doctor smiles, wanting to ease her fears,
"There's no problem Miss Barrett, other than the fact that there are two heartbeats."

Chapter 30

“So what are we going to name them?” Asked Sonny. Brenda looks up at him and hits him on the arm.
“What do you mean we? Oh no Corinthos, I’m the one that is getting fat, spending mornings on the cold tiled bathroom floor and I’m the one that has to go through hours and hours of labor. And after all that, you can be damn sure that I’m going to be the one that names them. You want to take up naming children, find somebody else to have them with.”
Sonny laughs.
“ You are such a bitch sometimes.”
Brenda sticks her tongue out at him.
"Shut up Corinthos! You wouldn't want me to be any other way."
Sonny stares at her inquisitively.
" Oh really? What about Lily...or Amanda?"
Brenda shakes her head at him, punching him playfully on the arm, yet again.
"Exactly my point. I don't see you with Amanda and we both know how it was with Lily."
A sense of sadness begins to spread throughout the air. Sonny glares at her.
" Never bring up her name again!"
Brenda places her hand over his.
" Hey, it's me, remember? I'm the one that held you in my arms and wept with you! God Sonny, aren't you ever going to get past that? I'm fucking tired of you always obsessing over her and every negative thing that has ever happened to you. When are you going to start thinking about the future? I'm so sick of it! We are having twins Sonny. They are now, not yesterday! Aren't you happy?"
He stares at her, a blank expression appears on his handsome face. Brenda suddenly jumps off the couch.
"Fuck you! You are such an asshole, I don't know what I was thinking when I hooked up with you. I can't believe I let somebody like you fuck me over and then knock me up."
She storms into her room, slamming the door behind her. Sonny shakes his head in disbelief. Brenda had once again misinterpreted him and his actions. But what was new about that? He gets off the couch and walks over to Brenda's bedroom door. He turns the knob and surprisingly enough it isn't locked. Brenda is lying on her bed, with her face buried in her pillow. She is shaking violently, her hands clenched into fists of rage. She is sobbing uncontrollably. Sonny walks over to the bed and sits down next to her. The movement of her bed causes Brenda to turn over onto her back. She looks up at Sonny. Tears are falling down her cheeks. Her fiery brown eyes stare into his. Sonny takes his hand and gently wipes the tears from her eyes.
"I'm sorry Brenda. You really should let me talk before you jump to the wrong conclusions. I'm just scared, my child died, you know that. I'm afraid to be happy because what if God decides to lay another catastrophe on me. I don't think I can bare to lose another child or for that matter another woman that I love."
Brenda stares at him, the shock evident in her teary eyes.
" You just said that you love me, did you mean it?"
She continues to ramble on.
" I thought you hated me."
Sonny sighs, what had he gotten himself into?
"I'll always love you. Sometimes I don't like you but I can't help but love you, it's like a force of nature."
She throws her pillow at him and he jumps up instantly, laughing, which only makes Brenda angry. She leaps off the bed, glaring at him. She grabs another pillow off her bed and she begins to hit him several times. He continues to roar with laughter. She begins to whack him harder with the pillow. Getting tired of being hit, Sonny grabs her arm. As he looks into her intense eyes he begins to lose himself. Brenda's hands are on her hips and her chest is heaving.
'God she's so beautiful when she's angry', thought Sonny. He reaches out and pulls her to him. Brenda closes her eyes, anticipating what was coming. She knew what was coming; it had to be...it always had to be. Sensing that there was no way in hell that Brenda would pull away from him, Sonny moves his hands up to her face, he gently strokes her long hair, finally cupping her angelic face. He stares at Brenda, trying not to laugh at the nervous expression that is all over her face. He lowers his head to hers, their lips only inches apart. He had to kiss her; he had to kiss her now. He moves even closer to her. Their lips finally touch in a soft, tender kiss. Was this heaven? It appeared to be as Sonny deepens the kiss, his tongue seeking entry into her mouth. Their tongues duel in a game of passion. They continue to kiss for what seems like an eternity. Suddenly, his phone begins to ring. Realizing what they are doing, Brenda jumps out of his arms.
'Shit! Fucking phone!' thought Sonny. He places his cell phone up to his ear and curses under his breath.
"This better be good!"
"I'm pregnant."