You are in hell. It is a place of eternal loneliness, yet the loneliness is never peaceful. You can never find rest here. Disembodied voices startle you by speaking to you and laughing, without ever listening to you, unless to mock you and say something insulting. Every minute, you are subjected to a new torture, or the same one over and over again if you find variety too pleasant. You can't tune out this hell. You can't chant a mantra and rise above the pain. The pain will rise with you, waiting there for you wherever you go. And the only thing that makes this whole thing better is the fact that this is only a website and you can push the back button. You have yet to face the real thing. You still have a chance to repent and ask Jesus to be your personal Lord and Savior. You are still alive.