Title: What Was I Thinking?
Author: Lady S
E-mail: anywho_sew@yahoo.com
Summary: Thoughts and memories.
Season/ Sequel: Season 1... duh!!
Spoilers: Gee... lets think! Umm... the one with the hospital in it!
Disclaimer: They're not mine. I don't own a thing. *sigh* woe is me...
Authors Notes: I can't believe no one has written about this yet. I thought for sure... ah well. It's super
short. But it's from the heart. Hope you like it.

He sat there, elbow on knee, staring at his shoes. 'What was I thinking? I shouldn't be here.' Breathing deeply he forced himself to stare at his shoes even while his mind, unbidden and unwillingly, ventured back into the past.

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He walked into the room holding the nurses hand. The bed was high, preventing him from seeing the woman lying on it. Craning his neck and standing on tiptoe he was just able to make out the person amidst all the tubing and wires. She was dying. They had brought him in to say goodbye. But he didn't want to say goodbye. He wanted her to get up and play with him like she always had.

But she didn't. Instead she lay there, unmoving in a sea of plastic tubes. The nurse looked down at the little boy and her heart broke. No one deserved this, especially little boys. Picking him up in her arms she cuddled him close. Turning she left the room taking him with her. As they passed the threshold she heard him whisper what were to be the only words she would hear from him. "Goodbye mommy."

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He sat there, elbow on knee, staring at his shoes. 'What was I thinking? I shouldn't be here.' Breathing deeply he forced himself to stare at his shoes, ignoring the people walking past.

"What are you doing?"

"Staring at my shoes."

He lifted his head just in time to see a patient being rolled by. Grimacing he shifted in his seat and re-focused on his shoes. Why was he here? He was here for her. For Lorelai. For Rory. He could do it. He had to do it. 'What was I thinking?' He heard the door open and she came out. 'I was thinking of her.'