This is what I have caused.
Nothing that I could have paused.
It just all fell upon me.
Nothing that I could forsee.
I wanted to have fun.
Run and play in the sun.
Ride atop the Ferris Wheel.
Was that such a big deal?
I didn't want to be around him.
Things started looking grim.
They were all in defense.
It just didn't make sense.
I wanted to be with you.
But what can I do?
You're the only ones I wanted near.
But suddenly, there came this fear.
I didn't want to be near the one.
Talking behind my back, making fun.
Saying things that just weren't true.
Nothing that I did or didn't do.
What kind of "friend" is he?
To go and say things about me?
What did I do to cause this?
Nothing but peaceful bliss.
Jealousy is very bad.
It turns things 'round and makes them sad.
No one to like it, no one to care.
So why does it have to be there?
It has been too long to forgive.
There has been too much to forget.
We need to go out and live.
And try to forget every bit.
Is it possible, to make amends?
Is it, my hopeful friends?
I hope we turn this all about.
It's turning me inside out.
Beautiful spring
Life starts anew
But you are dying
And I won't live without you
You're in a coma
And need a new heart
Bright like the sun's corona
But now dead by Death's dart
Eight hours left
I cry by your bedside
Forever it seems you've slept
In my mind dawns a new light
What seems to be will be not
I love you more than you thought
I tell them all
"It's my time and not hers
I have heard God's call.
Now I'm her tragic lover."
After the legal issues
I lie on a bed
On your cheek I kiss you
Soon I'll be dead.
You will live on
I feel so sorry
That I will be Gone
And still I worry
What seems to be will be not
I love you more than I even thought
I'm going to miss you
It's me you'll be missing
But you can now begin anew
In this beautiful new spring
You wake with a start
Totally shocked
They say, "you have a new heart
From the one you always mocked."
You break down and cry
After seeing what was
"Why did you die..?"
On you weep because
What was going to be was not
Because I loved you more than you thought
You kneel on the floor
Your hands over your face
I'm with you forever more
My spirit you embrace
And my spirit in return
I hold you close
Feeling my eyes burn
It was you these tears choose
The live that I gave
I can not give again
I lie in my grave
But now your life will begin
What could have been shall be not
Because I loved you more than you thought
I suddenly awake
The dream was all fake
But now I wonder,
In your heart, what lies under?
You treat me like a toy
And cause my heart to sink
But I'm filled with joy
Maybe you love me more than I think.
You regret the day I was ever born
You look upon me with scorn.
No love for me to help me now.
I am not your golden child
I'm sorry to disappoint you.
I am your child, the one you forgot.
The one who behaves differently from the rest.
Whom you thought could only be the best.
Sorry mom.
I'm just as screwed up as everyone else.
Bear it up and strike me down.
I'll continue to wear a depressing frown.
Break my heart and I'll go on...
But I'll never beg your pardon.
I am not your golden child.
I am just your child.
If you wanted her, it'll take a while.