lost_amongthe_subterfuge
(July 2001)

her darkness is not the absence of light,
it is the absence of Him

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it's been awhile
since i could
hold my head up high

and it's been awhile
since i first saw You

and it's been awhile
since i could stand on
my own two feet again

and it's been awhile
since i could call You

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've stretched myself beyond my means

it's been awhile
since i could say
that i wasn't addicted

and it's been awhile
since i could say
i love myself as well

and it's been awhile
since i've gone and fucked things up
just like i always do

and it's been awhile
but all that shit seems
to disappear when i'm with You

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've gone and fucked things up again

Why must i feel this way??
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

it's been awhile
since i could
look at myself straight

and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry

and it's been awhile
since i've seen the way
the candles lights Your face

and it's been a while
but i can still remember
just the way you taste

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem to be
i know it's me
i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

it's been awhile
since i could
hold my head up high

and it's been awhile
since i said

i'm sorry

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~ the song on this page is _Its Been Awhile by Stain'd
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