2 Become 1 I'm standing in the kitchen making more food.The table is already covered in plates of assorted finger foods, but this has to be perfect for my best friends birthday.He's due to come round at 7pm.I told him I was just going to cook him a little something and then we could watch a movie. But that's not what I have planned. It's 6.30 and the guests are starting to arrive.I open the door and smile happily at Langly, Frohike and Byers. I invite them in and Frohike gives me a cheeky grin as he walks past. He slaps my ass and then scampers into the front room before I can catch him. They lay down their presents on the coffee table and each assign themselves to a different area of the room, putting up streamers and balloons and nosing around the place. I catch Frohike heading for my bedroom and he stutters something about "Looking for the bathroom". I lead him in the right direction and then go back to preparing. My mother arrives next clutching a clothes bag. She hugs me and hands the bag to me. I bring her in and she says Hi to the Gunmen. She then takes me into my bedroom and closes the door.Out of the bag she takes the most beautiful dress I have ever seen. It's red silk, so soft and inviting. Two thin straps will hold it to on my shoulders and the back is cut out . "I bought you this Dana, It'll be perfect for the party. Isn't it just gorgeous?" She holds it up to me and then lays it delicately in my arms.I hadn't even thought about what I was going to wear. The party is in 20 minutes and I'm still in my work suit. I hug my mother and she walks out to help Byers with some streamers. I hear more people arriving and mom's friendly voice welcomes them into my apartment. I slip on the dress and admire myself in the mirror. I must admit, I look good in this dress. It clings to my slim-but-curvatious, and reaches my ankles. A long split up the left side reveals my leg when I walk. It's perfect. I pull on some skin coloured tights and the sandals Mulder bought me to go on holiday with. Sitting at my mirror, I put on a small amount of makeup and put my hair up for a change. I seem to have it the same everyday. I pin it up into a bun and let strands fall down to soften my face and pull a few strands out of the back of the bun. A simple style yet I look and feel like a star. I can't wait until Mulder sees me. I check my watch, 6:49. He'll be here shortly and I need to make sure everything is perfect. I stand up, smooth down my dress and spray myself with the perfume which he bought me for Christmas. He always tells me how lovely I smell. I check my appearence one last time and then open the bedroom door. As I walk out everyone turns and stares at me. I wonder if something is wrong with the way I look but then I hear a whistle from  behind me. I turn to find Frohike looking me up and down with his chin to the ground. " Dana you look absolutely stunning. If Mulder wasn't in your life I'd snap you up in an instant. You're so beautiful. " He takes my hand and kisses it like I'm a princess. Byers and Langly  tell me I look amazing. My mom comes over and a tear rolls down her cheek. "I knew it would suit you. You must be the most beautiful girl in the world. I love you. " she hugs me and I thank her and then I go talk to the guests that have just arrived. It's nearly 7 and theres no sign of Skinner yet. Then I hear a knock at the door. I look through the peep hole to make sure it isn't Mulder but I see Skinner. He looks worried and upset. Perhaps he thinks he's late, but he looks 'too' upset. I quickly open the door, something is wrong. He asks me quietly to step outside. I give my mom a re-assureing nod and tell him we can go into my room instead. Mulder might get suspicious if he sees us out here" I tell him. Skinner takes my hand and sits me down on the bed. I try not to look at his face because I don't want to hear what he has to tell me...it has to be bad. I don't want to ruin tonight with bad news. He takes off his glasses and drops his gaze to the floor. He rubs his brow and then returns his glasses. Finally I break. We've been sat here almost 5 minutes and still he has said nothing. I ask him what has happened and he takes my other hand. Holding on to both tightly. "Dana...I...It's Mulder. " I look at him now. My heart starts to beat faster. "he's ...Dana he's dead. They found him 15 minutes ago in his apartment. " I stare at him, disbelief engulfing me. "He's been shot " I pull my hands away and cover my ears. I can't hear what he's saying...not now....I can't...I won't. Mom opens the door and for a second I think that it's Mulders voice I can hear. I pray that it is, that this is a mistake and Mulder is alive, waiting for his party to start. I feel tears in my empty eyes and mom sees this. She runs over and wraps her arms around me. I start to sob, his words palying over and over in my mind. I start to rock in my mom's grip,  my eyes clouded with tears. Skinner stands up and I refuse to see the pain in his own eyes. He offers his condolences and walks into the room full of people. I don't want his sympathy now, all I want is My Mulder. To have his strong arms around me, holding me tight...telling me this is all over. "What am I going to tell the people in there? All those excited people waiting for Mulder to come so that they can shout "Surprise" and get themselves drunk and throw up all over my carpet...Well I don't care 'cos they can all go to hell! " I sob to my mom. She olds me and tells me I don't mean it, I'm just upset and angry. Yes I'm angry, I'm angry and hurt by God. Why did he have to take Mulder away from me? He's taken everyone else that I've loved. Maybe it's my punishment. I missed a few church services and the man upstairs is making me suffer. I miss Mulder so much. He's been gone less than half an hour and already it feels like an eternity. I won't be able to cope without him, I'll go insane, alone and afraid without him. I stand up. I need to go tell the guests he's de...never coming back again. I walk a few steps then feel like something inside me has exploded, I fall onto my bed and cry into my pillow. That's it. My heart has just broken and Mulder isn't here to rebuild it. I cry myself to sleep and when I wake the gunmen are holding my hands. They have all been crying and the bitter reality of Mulders death hits me hard. I ask them who told them, they tell me mom told everyone. That must have been really hard for her because she regarded...regards him as her own son. They each give me a cuddle and then leave my apartment. I listen for voices but everything is silent. I hope that this is all a bad dream and that I'll hear Mulder shout of me for breakfast when I wake but it never comes. I locked myself in my room for 3 days. I haven't eaten and the only sleep I get is when I cry myself into exhaustion. I can't go on like this anymore. I take a pen and some paper and begin to write. Dear Mom,           I'm so sorry. I can't live like this. I love you. I'm sorry.                                          Dana. Then I take my dress from inside my  closet and do my hair and makeup exactly like before. I slip into the dress and cry. I lay down the note on my bedside cabinet and take my gun from the drawer. I lay down on the bed and hold the gun to my head. i pray to God and repeat the Hail Mary in my head.  I close my eyes and sob for the last time. "Wait for me Mulder..." I whisper as I pull the trigger. The pain and suffering is gone and I feel better than Iever have. I look up and Mulder is here. He takes my hand and stands me up off the bed.  He looks at me and smiles. He tells me I look beautiful and we kiss. A kiss I have been waiting for all my life. A kiss that is full of love and compassion. As we stand in the doorway I see my lifeless body laid limply on the bloodsoaked bed. Moments later the ambulance crew arrive. They are too late, I'm already dead. I'm standing with my best frind and now we can be together...two souls combined to make one.