Thanks to Brook for giving the inspiration for the story.

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

Cause I am hanging on every word you say, and
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than
To sit outside heaven's door, and
Listen to you breathing
Is where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

I lay here on the bed, wondering how this all happened, in such a short time. I went form being a bitter, hurt person, because of what had happened in my past, to falling head over heels for a Man that was using me in the beginning. Not that I didn't have a suspicion mind you and not that I didn't think about it myself. But He said that he never planned on falling in love and now he is and loves me. Do I trust him? Yeah I do, because I can't not trust him. I love him and he makes me feel like everything will work out. he is the only have in my life worth keeping.

I am looking past the shadows in my mind
Into the truch and I'm
Trying to identify the voices in my head
God, wich one's you
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off of me one more time

Cause I am hanging on every word you say, and
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than
To sit outside your door, and
Listen to you breathing
Is where I wanna be, yeah

My past is not something I'm proud of. I grew up on the streets and I pretty much did what I could to survive. I had a dream that maybe some day, my family would accept me. Well the dream was shatter when I came home. My father liked to pretend that I didn't exist. I think sometimes that maybe I'm destined to go back onto the streets and die there. Because I've tried living this way and I don't fit in. Though admittedly I try to keep my distance. I think the old saying is very true in my case, once bitten twice shy. My closest friend is a drug addict that likes to rob me. Though I bring it upon myself. I just can't trust people, because to trust would mean to put myself at risk of being hurt.

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the
Scraps to fall off of your table
To the ground
Cause I just wanna be here now

Though then there came you, my love, my life. You brought everything into perspective. You took my into your arms and told me everything is going to be ok. You made the daemons of my past, run and you didn't care. Though after something came back to haunt me, things seemed to change. I have to wonder if you want me anymore. You don't seem to want to be with me. I don't know what to say, or do to make things right. Now I lay here watching you sleep and I'm not sure if I can stand losing you.

Cause I am hanging on every word you say, and
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than
To sit outside heaven's door, and
Listen to you breathing
Is where I wanna be, yeah

Cause I am hanging on every word you say, and
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than
To sit outside heaven's door, and
Listen to you breathing
Is where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be

Where do we go from here my love? I don't know. I don't have the guts to ask if you it's over or if your happy. Maybe I should let you go, and not ask. Know that you'll find someone as beautiful and intelligent as you. Maybe I should just return home and not look back. Just disappear and let you live your life. I don't know what to do. Most would call me selfish for not doing something. But I'm not.. I'm scared. Because I don't know what I would do with out you . You are my life, and my love. Your are my everything Hunter.

I Sean Waltman, love you more then you can ever imagine. The only question is. Do you still love me?

The end