"Defense is paper thin just one touch and I'd be in. Too deep now to swim against the current. So let me slip away against the current."

"I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right, I swear I'm right."

Vindicated, Dashboard Confessional

--Old enough to cry--

I was never old enough to cry, as told by every adult in my life. "You don't know what real pain feels like, so just stop crying." Well, I stopped that. And now I'm just like them, I yell at people who I think are crying over nothing But who am I to judge? I'm no one. And yet, I grew up being taught not to be weak, and in not being weak, I had to make people feel inferior to me. So I try, and for every part of someone I hurt, I feel more and more like an asshole then the person I am. I love it when people would do the same exact thing to me when I was naive. When I was so small and trusting. I cried yesterday. Infront of everyone in my world. And you know what someone told me? "You're too old to cry." I'm not too old. I'm 17, I'm scared and the only dream I have for myself is going to college far away from Andover, and leaving everything behind.

I'm leaving it ALL behind. For nothing. You know why?

Because I hate everything

Way to go - Franco Un-American,
Megan "Let the whales worry" Harris

P.S..My hope dangles on a string...I'm flawed, but I'm cleaning up so well. I am seeing in me now, the things you swore you saw yourself......