06-28-00




		"REMEMBER: no matter how many cocks you suck, Jebus still loves you." ---homer simpson

	I stumbled up the stairs drunk off my ass....... Joey was trailing behind me. He had been downstairs in the bar earlier that night watching me drink with the potbellied bar manager. At one point they merged in front of me and exchanged sexual experiences each had had with me. They laughed as they talked of how I moan and how I give head.... and I was too drunk to know NOT to laugh... Joey followed me up the stairs to the potbellied managers apt where I had so previously been, and left me to sleep on the bed. 4:30 am: I awake to hands between my legs, fingers jamming themselves up inside of my coochie.... it's the manager... he's grinning like usual and drooling over my lavender thong that he has now ripped up the side. I turn over and tell him I want to sleep but he more or less forces himself on me and I give in. He escapes to the bathroom when I tell him I don't have a condom and returns with his cock smeared with spermicidal jelly. I take it in my hands and slip it inside of me.... his belly hangs over and he has to hold himself up with his arms so he can fuck me. If he didn't hold himself up his belly would be so big that his cock wouldn't even reach my pussy. So he fucked me, and came all over the dirty, stained mattress, and then he ate me out to get me off. I nearly vomitted when I realized what I had done. I left as the sun came up outside the broken glass window. When I exited out the bar, the bum who stays there every night was staring off into the distance. The bartender was asleep on a pool table. I waved to the bum as he blinked and muttered to himself and drove home. My mom was getting ready for church when I got home around 6:30 am. She was concerned, I told her I had spent the night with some girlfriends. I went to bed around 6:45 and my coochie was still stinging from the spermicide he had layered on his cock. Tears streamed from my eyes but I lay emotionless...... still not knowing what my life was to bring me. "You slut," I thought.... "You dirty goddamned slut." And I fell asleep.



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