03.29.02 - 10:43 am
aigoooo...bae go pa!! (argh...i'm hungry~)
meeting my mommy today. iono if she'll let me pay, but we're going to this korean/japanese restaurant. i'm eating hweh dup bap (rice, mixed with raw fish & vegetables)~ i'm so excited!! but yeah..it's been a while since i saw her, since she lives in texas. hmm...it's been almost 3 months!! so...i'm leaving to texas with her next tuesday...to see the rest of my family, minus eurus oppa.
hmm...after i meet w/umma for lunch, i think we hafta go run an errand in fullerton...then i'll meet w/mo...then i'll meet with sarah, inee, janet, and maybe karen~!! :) hehehe..we're just gunna go out..kick back...catch up~ can't wait!!
03.28.02 - 9:09 am
sleepy, sleepy, sleepy.
03.26.02 - 10:00 am
hmm...bio midterm today, math project due tomorrow, math midterm tomorrow. just a few more days to endure till spring break!!!!~
03.25.02 - 10:24 am
happy anniversary, daddy & umma~!!
overall, i would hafta say i had a pretty great weekend~ on friday, after work, i went to ramona high school and saw rivera & silva~ 2 of my favorite teachers during my senior year of high school. i chatted w/them quite a while. in fact, i was late to going to grace's apt.
i finally made it @ grace's by 4:30ish~ and hun was there, too. we ate pho and then juss kicked it till daniel came over, which is when we went to watch blade 2. it was arrite. weird tho, cuz that was the group that i watched the original blade with, too~ i got home pretty late, but uncle was cool with it cuz i called earlier.
saturday, i woke up pretty early after staying up so late~ i went to pick up alice @ school, and we went to the long beach aquarium for our bio lab field trip. lol. field trips in college. how strange, eh? i have one more coming up this semester~ it's for korean class. but n/e wayz, we filled out our worksheets & left. had islands for lunch, and it was quite nice, cuz our waiter was FREAKING CUTE~ lol. can't remember his name, but everytime he passed by, alice and i would stare. hahahah.. but yeah..it was kinda embarassing cuz one of my cards got declined. ergh~ but my other card was ok, i guess...
after i dropped her off, i went home, took a nap, then went to the sfc coram deo festival. i sang my heart out~ and it felt pretty nice to be all hiped up for God, u know? good stuff. but, apparently, i wasn't singing loud enough. this lil kid that was working the microphone crap gave me "advice" to sing louder next time. uhh..yeah, ok. i was only singing the loudest, out of all the girls. geez. it's not my fault the mic or the cords suck~ eesh. forreals tho...i usually sing loudest of all the girls, and they hafta turn my mic down~ *shrug* o well~ after the festival, janet, eddie, and i went out to denny's for dinner. i was starved~!!
sunday, went to berean, then to joshua's house to see josh, grace, and abigail!! she was exactly 1 month old. sooooooo cute!!~ i got to hold her quite a bit..and at one point i was trying to get to her fall asleep and she did! hahaha..it's not cuz i'm "boring," like everyone said yesterday~ i swear!!
i was supposed to meet w/this girl for our math project, but i really wanted to stay longer~ so i called her, and she said we could just meet monday (today). nice~ so janet and i left around 6:30 and i had to call her while we were driving so she wouldn't fall asleep. i met up w/alice around 8ish or so...and we went to study~ we were gunna study @ starbucks, but *gasp* all the tables inside were taken~~ and iss not that great of a place to study, that starbucks. it doesn't have those big tables some starbucks have. so we just went to sed's apt.
i swear..that girl is so funny. it's weird tho. she's not even that close to eugene & shawn, but we're starting to spend a lot of time together. maybe cuz i don't have n/e other girl-friends @ school~ but yeah...don't worry, inee! i finally do have a girl-friend! hahahah~
i was talking to mitch oppa last night~ and i swear he's so cute!! dangit...too bad he lives in DC~ *snap* hahaha..jp. he's definately a great catch tho... 6' tall, cute, sweet, funny, generous w/his time, a great listener, he's a counselor for troubled teen boys~ wow... and i've only been talking to him for a few days, but he's so nice~
don't worry, ppls. i'm not going all crazy w/chatting & meeting ppl online. hehehe. but i have another cool online oppa. so...i have a total of 3 now: jiyoung oppa, hyunsuck oppa, and now mitchell oppa~ :)
03.22.02 - 9:46 am
i had a good day yesterday. :) after work, i went to school. talked on the phone w/randy a lil bit. classes were fun. bio was interesting (i'm really enjoying that class a lot) and krn midterm was fairly easy. after i took shawn home, i went to starbucks to meet hun, and shawn tagged along. lol. it was soooooooooooo nice seeing him after these past few years! he grew taller...and he was all color-coordinated to match his motorcycle. lol. CUTE~
we went to hero's to eat~ and split a full-plate of chili-cheese fries, which, between the three of us, we ate about 3/5 of~ and then went back to shawn's to chill. hmm...i guess chillin w/the tv would be ok with n/e one else, but not someone u haven't seen in a long time. so hun was gunna leave and so i was gunna leave to inee's~ but we ended up chatting for a while. and then he gave me a ride on his BIKE! soooooooooooooooooooooo fun~!!!! :)
so i went to inee's...and we had a nice chat~ and we went out to get in n out~ kekeke...yuuuuuum. turns out, though~ according to our chat, she has friends that are cool, and seem normal at first, but turn out to be HECKA STRANGE. hmmm...i'm just glad i haven't found that out about most MY friends~ not yet, n/e wayz!
later on in the night, after i got home, inee turned out to be chatting~ so i joined her...and it was HELLA FUNNY~ omg. all these horny, desperate guys trying to meet up. it's funny what kind of lines they use. one guy in particular was telling me to follow my hopes and dreams and go out to meet him. when i told him i couldn't sneak out cuz i'd kicked out, he said he'd provide me with a place to live. isn't that STRANGE? crazy~
so yeah...inee and i start chatting w/this guy whose sn is sam. automatically, we assume his name is sam (turns out, it's not that) and he seems to be a really cute guy~ so, i forget how, but i sorta claimed his as "mine" and he played along. i had some competition, but iss all good cuz he was being true to me~ hahahah. i hadn't had that much fun chatting since aol. but yeah...i don't think imma go back there for a while~ too many weird guys. "sam" oppa was really cool tho. too bad he's in DC~ hahahah
i think one of the highlights of my night yesterday was talking to peter. we were talking about how unloveable i am (actually, that was i was saying), which was a continuation from another night. he told me one loveable thing about my is my singing voice. sweet, huh? made my night. even tho i don't take compliments well, it made me happy. it's not like i fish for compliments. really. i don't. if i want a compliment, i'm pretty direct. but...it's nice to hear things like that once in a while, u know? especially when i'm feeling exceptionally unloveable. lol~
p.s. i decided i want a boyfriend that has a motorcycle and knows how to ride it well~ :)
03.21.02 - 9:25 am
i'm supposed to be meeting w/hun today, but i'm not sure. why am i not sure? well~ the fact of the matter is that...i wasn't able to get a hold of him since i spoke with him...what...sunday? yeah. and...i wasn't able to confirm w/him that we're meeting and stuff~ but hopefully he'll show up..and i won't end up waiting there for an hour, like an idiot.
i saw INEE yesterday!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ it was fun. daniel, shawn, and i met inee @ red robin yesterday. iono why~ inee asked shawn to kick it, but do something that doesn't cost money. so he suggests going out to eat. aigoness. but inee didn't eat w/us...we had lots of fun talking w/out waitress tho. it was really cool. we invited her to sit with us for a while and she did. we were her only table for a while. and daniel boughter was majorly flirting, even though she has a boyfriend. dearness...
didn't get to see inee for much tho...we hung out at the mall a little before leaving, but i had a class at 7, so i had to go back to school. the lab was actually really short, but we watched 3 segments of video in class...and some people were taking really long. then, after we do the lab, the teacher goes over all the post lab questions so we were outta there around 9. too late to go to inee's. darn. *snap* i really wanted to go. :)
o..i just got a call from hun. YAY! :) so..we ARE meeting today. unless something out of our control happens. i'm so looking forward to seeing him!!! :) yay~
03.20.02 - 10:03 am
sleepy, sleepy, sleepy. yea, i'm complaining~ but...(randy...hehe) it IS my webpage. my webspace. i can do what i want with it, rite? hahaha...o wells..
i keep wanting to call randy, but i know it's his finals week...so i tried to control myself. of course i still DID call, but not AS often as i might have if it weren't his finals week. :)
n/e wayz...yesterday was nice and relaxing. i played harvest moon for like...2 1/2 hours. lol. i would have gone to hiphop class, but shawn didn't come to korean class. instead, sed went to los alamitos. sooo..i had no where to go while waiting for hiphop class. i just went home. :) which was nice...since i got to spend time with my lil cousins.
dang...i slept like...almost 8 hours, but my eyes are having trouble opening. haha. let's see..what do i hafta do today? well...i hafta turn in my passport application (i'm planning on going to korea this summer), go to school ~(math class, then take a make-up quiz, then bio lab), hopefully i'll have a break to go to sed's apt, if n/e one's there, maybe stop by sed's again to study, then go hoooooooooomE~ where i will rest up to meet up with hun tomorrow~ :) o..and i guess to take my midterm tomorrow, too...kekeke
03.19.02 - 9:28 am
*acHoOo* *sniffle...* eesh~ i hate colds. not nice. last night, i couldn't sleep much cuz my stomach was hurting. i had to sleep on my stomach (something i don't like to do cuz it's uncomfortable, in my opinion) in order to fall asleep. classes yesterday were BoRiNg as hell...but today's tuesday so iss all good. i think...i'm so grateful for tuesdays and thursdays. they balance out my week cuz mondays and wednesdays are so dreadful. lol
03.18.02 - 10:52 am
back at work. and sajang nim is smoking. grEaT. i get to inhale all the lovely cigarette smoke! hahaha. o wells. err~
hmmm...going to texas in a couple weeks. i can't wait to see my family! it'll be nice to have a REAL break. from school AND work.
i talked to HUN yesterday! :) no...he's not MY hun~ his name is hun. and...i didn't talk to him since like..junior year of high school. i did talk to him online now and then since then, but not on the phone...and i didn't really see him since then. so i was quite excited! talked till my throat really hurt. and we made plans to meet up on thursday~ heehee
don't wanna go to school today. i'm so lost in my classes...geez...i should have made more out of my weekend. instead, i just kicked back, slept, played harvest moon. lol. ergh~ i'm sucha slacker. this sucks...
03.15.02 - 11:40 pm
my nose is bleeding. :( not good. maybe i should sleep. hmmmmmm....i'm such a loser~
03.15.02 - 10:50 am
aww...my lil cousin steph was sent home, from school w/a high fever~ poor babe. i hope i wasn't the one that got her sick. although..i don't think i had a fever. did i? *shrug*
hmmm...i thought a lot, yesterday...of everything i'm going through. well..i guess it started on wednesday that i REALLY was thinking about all of it, but yeah...i was thinking about it. and...i came to some conclusions:
(1) i lack motivation in my life
(2) i need motivation in order to function efficiently
(3) the motivation i need has been gone since my relationship w/God has weakened
(4) i lack desire to get close w/God because i lack motivation
(5) i miss my daddy & umma & brothers
(6) i want to end up living near my immediate family
(7) i don't think my immediate family will end up living close together
(8) i don't think i'll be able to live near my immediate family
(9) math is not my strongpoint, yet i am a math major
(10) i'm clingy
hmmm....iono about what to do about all this.... i decided that i don't want to be so distant from God...so i'm trying to start doing QT more frequently. about the living far from my family...iono what to do~ i get so clingy...i wanna live near them, but i wanna live near friends too...argh~
03.14.02 - 7:07 pm
i'm horrible!!!! ergh. didn't go to hiphop class. ergh. o well. it just doesn't seem so tempting to go if i don't have n/e one in particular to go with. *SIGH* i should go meet ppl there, eh? o wells.
i'm sleepy. where's ccm today? *shrug* iono. no designated room, apparently. at least, i don't think...ok...ccm leader just called. hmmm....time to go then, i guess~
03.14.02 - 11:24 am
aww...i love my daddy. he's so cute! he left me a msg on my cell...and he said, "whenever you need me, give me a holla." kekekeke...
03.14.02 - 9:38 am
whoops! looks like i didn't get to finish updating yesterday. o well.
i was washing the coffee pot this morning, washing & drying & all that, and i hear a, "good morning," in perfect english! who could this be? it totally surprised me, since i didn't hear n/e one walk in. it, of course, was the sparklett's guy. *BLUSH* geez. am i gunna do this EVERY FREAKIN TIME he comes?? eesh~
shawn & i went for a drive yesterday. we had a <3 to <3 (heart to heart). don't worry..it's nothing like...oOooOo...juss...a nice chat about stuff we're going thru...
i'm sleepy. i only got 7 hours of sleep. poopy. i wanna go take a nap. let's see...two classes today..1:00-3:45. hiphop class @ 5:15 (i HAFTA go this time)...CCM @ 7:30. do i have time for a nap? i don't think so.... o well. the weekend's coming up...
03.13.02 - 2:52 pm
seems like it's been forever since i updated last. o dear. i'm @ sed's apt...sitting here @ the computer. not much has happened since my last update, has it? hmmm...
sunday, went to berean again, then had lunch w/the berean folks (moon's so cute...lol. ok..not in that infatuation way, but u had to see him, holding my panda...) and then kicked it w/janet. got a lil studying done w/her, and then got cha boba~ to satisfy my craving. lol. afterwards, i went to praise band practice & then went home. my throat was getting sore...and i was starting to feel sick.
that night, i could barely sleep. it would take me forever to fall asleep, and when i did, i would wake up after a few minutes. i could barely breathe..and my nose was all runny. i had to get up to blow my nose tons of times. i swear...there were like...30 million tissues (ok..maybe 30) strewn around on the floor the next morning, near the trashcan.
oops! gotta go pick up shawn! brb~
03.10.02 - 1:09 am
friday was fun!!! i got to see inee (and her super sexy haircut!! ~ if i hadn't seen her, i'd be going thru inee-withdrawals!!) and RANDY~!! lol. u know...i had been asked about 2 or 3 times before friday if randy and i were going out~ (we're not...not even close) but...on friday, TWO people thought we were going out..or at least seeing each other.
well..i got to sd by around 1:30 ish...and i went straight to inee's. she, jihee, and i went to ucsd, cuz inee had to do some stuff @ school. jihee and i were looking at the flowers when randy called me, saying he was out of class early. i told him to meet me there, so he showed up when i was buying my gerber daisies (i LOVE them!!! click for a pic!). we also met another one of inee's friends there...
after all the errands were done with, we went to get pho. we had pho & boba (inee paid for pho, which i was supposed to pay her back for but forgot to, and randy paid for boba, which i insisted he NOT do, but he did n/e wayz) and then we went to drop off flowers to cindy, whose 20th birthday it was. when inee & jihee got out of the car to drop the flowers off, randy, inee's friend, and i were talking. there was a short moment of silence, and then inee's friend asked, "so. how long have you two been together?" o dearness. how awkward was that? lol. i was like..."us? together? do u think we're going out?" she was sorta taken aback since i responded in such shock.
ok...yeah...i've been asked if we were going out, but she went straight for how long we were together. interesting. apparently, it's very clear that we're together.
later, when we went back to inee's to chill for a lil bit, i introduced randy to helen, and told her about how inee's friend asked how long we were together. i was laughing really hard at this point, and so was she. randy and i left, after a lil bit, and went to randy's apt, where we went to shoot pool (we both won 3 games each, i think) & just chill. i had a nice lil chat with him, and went back to inee's apt. (i got 2 tickets @ randy's apt. not nice. damn sd parking enforcement)
inee told me that helen had actually asked if we were together. everyone thought we were so couple-y. hmmm...iono. randy said he's like that with all his close girl friends. (ok..not girlfriends, but friends that are girls) i guess i just respond to that, since i'm a touchy person. (not in that perverted way, freakos!) *shrug* i think someone actually suggested maybe we should go out. sorry to disappoint u, but we're FRIENDS. we're not TOGETHER.
randy's a really sweet guy, though. a great catch, if u ask me. the girl that snags this dood is gunna be one heckuva lucky girlie~
so...what'd i do today? i didn't do much. stayed home the whole day. well, minus the few hours where i took the kids to get our hair cut. :) i just layered mine. it doesn't really look cut, but i can tell...and it feels thinner, which is good. :) too bad i won't have time to style it every morning, but o well~
03.08.02 - 9:22 am
it is FriDaY~ yes it is FRidAy~!!!! awww gYeA~!! i'm so happy it's friday. lol. this week seemed really long. but it's nearly over. and i get to see inee & randy today!!!!! woohooooooooooooooooo~
hmm...yesterday, when i was in the mainframe, i was showing some pics to natalie dongseng, and this girl right next to me was admiring the pics, too. niiiiiiice, beauuuuuutiful san diego weather. lol. blue skies, blue sea...blue-tiful. :) n/e wayz, eugene comes in and hits me on the heat with...iono..something. a folder? *shrug* he's too physically abusive. he's gunna be a wife-beater. so yeah...we go to ccm...and have our meeting. and we plan on a pho & boba night in 3 weeks. YAYAYAYAYAYAY~!!! i haven't had boba for a while. although...i want CHA boba, nothing else...
eesh...my face is forming these two (maybe just one) massive pimples. they don't appear to be pimples to the naked eye yet, but i FEEL it. it HURTS. argh. i'm so sad, too. cuz i did my hair this morning. i curled it out..and it looked nice for about 20 minutes. and now, it's all curled weird. some of it isn't even curled at all. i think it's partly because i haven't curled it in a long ass time. so...RANDY & INEE...just know...i DID MY HAIR FOR U!!! it just didn't stay that way. :(
03.07.02 - 6:06 pm
i'm going to SAN DIEGO TOMORROW~!!!! hehe. to see randy. and inee. the two readers of my site. ok...2 out of 4 or 5. :) but yeah...i'm quite excited. and imma see inee's crazy haircut!!
hmmm...today wasn't all that bad. but why is it that i only make guy friends in my classes? well..for the most part, n/e wayz. in my bio class, there are 2 guys i talk & sit with. this guy named mike, whom i met this semester in that class, and a guy named gabriel, who had english w/me last year. and...speaking of english class, in that class, i only really talked to and sat next to my friend jackson. i guess guys are just easier to approach. *shrug*
n/e wayz...yeah. after bio class was korean class. mmm...it was nice cuz it was SHORT. gYea~ and then shawn, elias, and i went to hometown and had a mighty filling meal. i was so full i couldn't go to hiphop class. :( ergh. hopefully hoon will show me the routine next week. lololol.
just waiting for ccm now. elias, shawn, and daniel went to the block to watch we were soldiers. i would have gone, but i have ccm. so i had nothing to do but come back to school. so i'm in one of the computer labs (mainframe) at school. just chillaxing...
what else can i do but update??
03.07.02 - 9:18 am
happy bday ne-ne-ne-nerak~ karen cho~
niiiice. eugene bought shawn and me dinner yesterday. islands. we had an interesting conversation. hahahahahahah. some inappropriate things said, perhaps? lol...or maybe just said at inappropriate times. either way...it was an interesting night.
after dinner, we went back to their apartment and talked about retreats and stuff. more interesting stories there...about raiding and church rivalry and stuff. it's sad that it's such a big issue, isn't it? hmm...
i can't wait for hiphop class today. i just don't wanna go alone, though. shawn can't go cuz of his back...daniel doesn't wanna go cuz he thinks it's gay...actually, that's part of the reason shawn doesn't wanna go, too. eugene has class. who else would go w/me? hoon has class so he can't go... eesh...
all by myself...i'm gunna be...all by myself...
03.06.02 - 9:24 am
ok...so i returned his pen. and i wrote him a letter. i went to his apt front door & knocked. his roommate opened the door and told him to come out, that he had a visitor. i waited for a few minutes in the hallway/living room and he came out, smoking, and held out my phone. i took it as i handed him the pen & note. without any exchanged words, i left.
and to think...i skipped hiphop class for that?? hmm...iono. was it worth it? i guess...i did get my phone back. although it did smell like him--cigarettes & curve for men. *sigh*
i went back to sed's apt, hoping for either shawn or eugene to talk to, but apparently shawn still wasn't there and eugene was too busy, playing computer, to talk to me. eesh. finally, shawn came and we talked. not just about me...also about him, but i was really surprised. shawn's really turning out to be more sensitive than i had thought. but not in the way where it gets annoying. just...when u need it. :)
i got home around 10:30 or so...and went to sleep by 11 or 11:30. niiice. slept well, i did. i didn't get n/e studying or hw done, but it's all good. hopefully, i'll have time at school today...
03.05.02 - 9:44 am
*YAWN* ~ ergh. i'm so tired. i slept about 7 hours last night, but it was so hard for me to get out of my warm bed this morn. eesh. i'm sick, ppls, leave me alone! lol. jp. i mean..i am actually sick, but i'm not that cranky~
erf...i'm hungry. but i'm afraid to eat...cuz my stomach isn't feeling too well...hmm...more of my complaining, eh randy? lol. ok i'll stop.
i'm looking forward to my hiphop class. imma brave it and see if i can dance w/my stomach like this. i'll be arrite, i think. lol. it's kinda embarassing dancing in front of ppl i dunno~ especially when i don't have a friend to laugh it off with...but i guess iss arrite since a lot of the other ppl can't do it either. lol... fun stuff. i'm looking forward to that. :D
it was weird not going to sed's apt last night. but i wanted to get home since i wasn't feeling all that great. and i'm glad i did go home. i got to see jon, rachelle, and steph more...yea...it was nice. i should have gone to sleep earlier, but iss all good. can't wait to go to school, as weird as that may sound...actually, i just wanna go to hiphop class. :)
03.04.02 - 7:58 pm
well...if u couldn't figure it out from the home page, i went to a concert this weekend, where the paul colman trio & bebo norman also played. it was actually a third day concert janet and i went to on saturday, at the universal amphitheater. i didn't think our tickets were all that close, so i didn't take in my digital camera. besides...it would have been too heavy. but oh, dear...our seats were CLOSE. dangit. we were in the orchestra...in row FF. *sigh* and we met paul colman trio & bebo norman afterwards!! we could have taken pictures WITH THEM!!!! errr...
but all is well...i've beat myself up over this enough.
n/e wayz...so janet and i had a great time...got t-shirts, cds, a picture, and ticket stubs signed by them. :)
and then, i came home...and i had a lil convo that totally pissed me off. and i couldn't really sleep well because of it. but...the next day, i went to berean community church in irvine w/janet. i saw moon, kevin, and all the other berean ppls. and..during the sermon...i realized how wrong it was to hold such anger & bitterness for something so insignificant. so i'm arrite now...
my grandfather's memorial service was held yesterday, at my grandma's house. the actually day of his passing is march 5. i'm not exactly sad that he passed away, but i am sorta sad i didn't get to meet him. supposedly, he was a really great man. i just hope that he knew the Lord before he passed...
i'm cold. i'm wearing sandals..and this room is freezing. the air conditioner or fan is on!! it's 8 pm...i don't understand this school sometimes...
