Submitted by
Sobia Ahmed, New York
As I stood there
in front of the room lecturing on "The Soul's Journey After
Death", I could not help but think that what I was doing was
futile. Half of the people in that room were going to walk out
with the same beliefs as they came in with; that this was all
something like a fairy tale. The other half would listen, nod and
go back out doing the same things they were doing before. There is
something inherently wrong with our generation. I say this as
being one of them. We
listen to lectures on Islam like they are stories of old. We're
not quite sure if Islam is completely correct. Because if we did,
would we continue doing the things we do? Where is our aqeedah?
Where is our certainty in truth? Where is our fundamental belief?
For example, we're not quite sure what will happen after we die,
but we'll take the Islamic explanation because it's there.
Why don't we
believe that what will happen to us after we die is the truth? The
truth is the way we should look at it, like it is something that
will definitely occur, like any other fact of life, any other
undeniable scientific law or simple equation.
Some facts: We will be tested. We will die. Our soul will
be taken. Our soul will be placed back in our bodies and be
questioned. We will undergo punishment of the grave. We will be
resurrected. We will be asked. We will be punished. My soul
questioned if any of this reached the 30 college students in front
of me. I decided to give two examples from my own experience. One
was about a friend that I grew up with and went to Islamic weekend
school with. One-day in high school, she just started getting
sick. Just like that she became so ill. She passed away a year
later from ovarian cancer. We were 19. Can you imagine? 19 years
old. She was engaged and had just gotten married. She was just one
of us.
A second example;
Basma. She was the daughter of Imam Siraj Wahaj in New York City.
She went to MYNA conferences and camps with us. She was active.
She was one of the best Muslims I've ever met. One of those kinds of
Muslims you meet and you can't stop smiling when you talk to
them. She was pregnant and gave birth on a Thursday. I remember to a beautiful baby girl. A week later, just days
after, she didn't feel right and went back into the hospital and
died soon after from internal bleeding. Unthinkable, the community
of New York was stunned. She was only 20 years old. She was gone
and a beautiful baby girl in her place. They named her Maryum.
These are examples I give that occurred to me in my life.
I'm sure no one is
immune and have felt the pain of loss in his or her own lives. Can
you imagine, I said to the 30 pairs of eyes staring at me, they
were 19 and 20 years old. They were just like us. I'm sure they
never thought it would happen to them either. I think every night
before we go to sleep we should think about what we did that day.
"I woke up; I went to school; I saw someone committing
a sin; I discussed it with others; someone new was at the MSA
meeting; I didn't bother to talk to them or be friendly; I made a
remark that I knew hurt someone; I missed Asr because I didn't
want to be late for class;" We need to think about these
things. What if we don't wake up the next morning? Allah tells us
that He takes the souls at night and keeps the ones that aren't to
be returned. What if we don't wake up? What if we are hurtled to
the next step; we wake up and our soul is being taken out of our
bodies, taken up to the heavens and taken back down into the body.
We are buried, the dirt slowly covering us. We are made to sit up,
are questioned. What will we say? We receive punishment of the
grave. We are resurrected. We
are asked about every single tiny small thing that we did. What
will we say? I wanted to forget the time I did this, the time I
said that. Countless countless sins before me. So many in just
that past day that I didn't think about?
What to do? Allah gives us another chance when we wake
up the next morning. Here is a new day. You can now make up for
what you did the day before. You can run out and ask forgiveness
for all those you wronged. You can try to make up for it, improve.
Another bright beautiful day.
We need to stop being complacent. We are too comfortable.
What is wrong with us that we live in delusion? We think about our
lives and are comfortable. "Oh I am doing enough. I'll get to
heaven eventually. I'm Muslim that's enough." Why aren't we
scared? Why do we think we will go to heaven? We are nothing
compared to the people of past. We commit sin after sin and our
hearts feel nothing. What is wrong us that we do not feel
discomfort, pain when we commit a sin, before we do it, not even a
twinge? Sometimes Allah might send a hardship upon people to bring
them to the right way. Hardship brings many people back to Islam.
Sometimes Allah might keep people poor because He knows what would
happen if they had money. Shouldn't we be scared? If we disobey
Allah, He might send something to teach us. Perhaps that would be
better. Perhaps we should pray that Allah send us something to
remind us, to scare us. I
remind myself first, before anyone. We need to wake up.
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