All That I’m Living For
All that I’m living for
All that I’m dying for
All that I can’t ignore alone at night
I can feel the night beginning
Separate me from the living
Understanding me
After all I’ve seen
Piecing every thought together
Find the words to make me better
If I only knew how to pull myself apart
All that I’m living for
All that I’m dying for
All that I can’t ignore alone at night
All that I’m wanted for
Although I wanted more
Lock the last open door
My ghosts are gaining on me
I believe dreams are sacred
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby
Like a reason why
Like a play of my obsessions
Make me understand the lesson
So I’ll find myself
So I won’t be lost again
All that I’m living for
All that I’m dying for
All that I can’t ignore alone at night
All that I’m wanted for
Although I wanted more
Lock the last open door
My ghosts are gaining on me
Guess I thought I’d have to change the world
To make you see me
To be the one
I could have run forever
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?
All that I’m living for
All that I’m dying for
All that I can’t ignore alone at night
All that I’m wanted for
Although I wanted more
Lock the last open door
My ghosts are gaining on me
Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door
My ghosts are gaining on me
Bring Me to Life
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I’ve become so numb without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Now that I know what I’m without
You can’t just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch without your love
Darling only you are the life among the dead
All this time I can’t believe I couldn’t see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice without a soul
Don’t let me die here there must be something more
Bring me to life
Call Me When You’re Sober
Don’t cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
Should I let you fall
Lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can’t keep believing we’re only
Deceiving ourselves and I’m sick of the lie
And you’re too late
Don’t cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
Couldn’t take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated, no wonder you’re jaded
You can’t play the victim this time
And you’re too late
Don’t cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
You never call me when you’re sober
You only want it cause it’s over
How could I have burned paradise?
How could I – you were never mine?
So don’t cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don’t lie to me
Just get your things
I’ve made up your mind
Cloud Nine
If you want to live, let live
If you want to go, let go
I’m not afraid to dream – to sleep, sleep forever
I don’t need to touch the sky
I just want to feel that high
And you refuse to lift me
Guess it wasn’t real after all
Guess it wasn’t real all along
If I fall and all is lost
Its where I belong
If you want to live, let live
If you want to go, let go
I’m never gonna be your sweet, sweet surrender
Guess it wasn’t real after all
Guess it wasn’t real all along
If I fall and all is lost
No light to lead the way
Remember that all alone
Is where I belong
In a dream
Will you give your love to me
Beg my broken heart to beat
Save my life
Change my mind
If I fall and all is lost
No light to lead the way
Remember that all alone
Is where I belong
Everybody’s Fool
Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame don’t you see me
You know you’ve got everybody fooled
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you’re pretending
But now I know she
Never was and never will be
You don’t know how you’ve betrayed me
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled
Without the mask where will you hide
Can’t find yourself lost in your lie
I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don’t love you anymore
It never was and never will be
You’re not real and you can’t save me
Somehow now you’re everybody’s fool
Going Under
Now I will tell you what I’ve done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I’ll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I’d reached the bottom
I’m dying again
I’m going under
Drowning in you
I’m falling forever
I’ve got to break through
I’m going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don’t know what’s real and what’s not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can’t trust myself anymore
I’m dying again
I’m going under
Drowning in you
I’m falling forever
I’ve got to break through
So go on and scream
Scream at me I’m so far away
I won’t be broken again
I’ve got to breathe I can’t keep going under
Good Enough
Under your spell again
I can’t say no to you
Crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can’t say no to you
Shouldn’t have let you torture me to sweetly
Now I can’t let go of this dream
I can’t breathe but I feel
Good enough
I feel good enough for you
Drink up sweet decadence
I can’t say no to you
And I’ve completely lost myself
And I don’t mind
I can’t say no to you
Shouldn’t have let you conquer me completely
Now I can’t let go of this dream
Can’t believe that I feel
Good enough
I feel good enough
Its been such a long time coming
But I feel good
And I’m still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
Cause I can’t hold into anything this good enough
Enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me
Cause I can’t say no
Haunted
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can’t find what keeps me here
When all this time I’ve been so hollow inside
I know you’re still here
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won’t let you pull me down
Hunting you I can smell you – alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me
Hello
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she’s not breathing?
Hello I’m your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
If I smile and don’t believe
Soon I know I’ll wake from this dream
Don’t try to fix me I’m not broken
Hello I’m the lie living for you so you can hide
Don’t cry
Suddenly I know I’m not sleeping
Hello I’m still here
All that’s left of yesterday
Imaginary
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters call my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As they’re falling tell a story
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Don’t say I’m out of touch
With this rampant chaos – your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light
Lacrymosa
Out on your own
Cold and alone again
Can this be what you really wanted, baby?
Blame it on me
Set your guilt free
Nothing can hold you back now
Now that you’re gone
I feel like myself again
Grieving the things I can’t repair and willing…
To let you blame it on me
And set your guilt free
I don’t want to hold you back now love
I can’t change who I am
Not this time, I won’t lie to keep you near me
And in this short life
There’s no time to waste on giving up
My love wasn’t enough
And you can blame it on me
Just set your guilt free, honey
I don’t want to hold you back now love
Like You
Stay low
Soft, dark and dreamless
Far beneath my nightmares
And loneliness
I hate me
For breathing without you
I don’t want to feel
Anymore for you
Grieving for you
I’m not grieving for you
Nothing real love can’t undo
And though I may have lost my way
All paths lead straight to you
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
Halo
Blinding wall between us
Melt away and leave us alone again
Humming, haunted somewhere out there
I believe our love can
See us through in death
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
You’re not alone
No matter what they told you
You’re not alone
I’ll be right beside you forevermore
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
And as we lay in silent bliss
I know you remember me
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
Lithium
Lithium – don’t want to lock me up inside
Lithium – don’t want to forget
How it feels without
Lithium – I want to stay in love
With my sorrow
Oh but god I want to let it go
Come to bed, don’t make me sleep alone
Couldn’t hide the emptiness you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn’t drink enough to say you love me
I can’t hold on to me
Wonder what’s wrong with me
Lithium – don’t want to lock me up inside
Lithium – don’t want to forget
How it feels without
Lithium – I want to stay in love
With my sorrow
Don’t want to let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can’t break free until I let it go
Let me go
Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes
I can’t hold on to me
Wonder what’s wrong with me
Lithium – don’t want to lock me up inside
Lithium – don’t want to forget
How it feels without
Lithium – I want to stay in love
With my sorrow
Oh but god I want to let it go
Lose Control
you don’t remember my name
I don’t really care
Can we play the game your way?
Can I really lose control?
Just once in my life
I think it’d be nice
Just to lose control – just once
With all the pretty flowers in the dust
Mary had a lamb
His eyes black as coals
If we play very quiet, my lamb
Mary never has to know
Just once in my life
I think it’d be nice
Just to lose control – just once
If I cut you down to a thing I can use
I fear there will be nothing good left of you
My Immortal
I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I’m bound by the life you’ve left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
And though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along
My Last Breath
Hold on to me love
You know I can’t stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
I’ll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one’s there
Say goodnight
Don’t be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black.
Snow White Queen
Stoplight lock the door
Don’t look back
Undress in the dark
And hide from you
All of you
You’ll never know the way
Your words have haunted me
I can’t believe you’d ask these things of me
You don’t know me
You belong to me
My snow white queen
There’s nowhere to run
So lets just get it over
Soon I know you’ll see
You’re just like me
Don’t scream anymore my love
Cause all I want is you
Wake up in a dream
Frozen fear
All your hands on me
I can’t scream
I can’t escape the twisted way you think of me
I feel you in my dreams and I don’t sleep.
You belong to me
My snow white queen
There’s nowhere to run
So lets just get it over
Soon I know you’ll see
You’re just like me
Don’t scream anymore my love
Cause all I want is you
I can’t save your life
Though nothing I bleed for is more tormenting
I’m losing my mind and you just stand
There and stare as my world divides
You belong to me
My snow white queen
There’s nowhere to run
So lets just get it over
Soon I know you’ll see
You’re just like me
Don’t scream anymore my love
Cause all I want is you
Sweet Sacrifice
It’s true, we’re all a little insane
But it’s so clear
Now that I’m unchained
Fear is only in our minds
Taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds
But it’s taking over all the time
You poor sweet innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
You know you live to break me – don’t deny
Sweet sacrifice
One day I’m gonna forget your name
And one sweet day
You’re gonna drown in my lost pain
Fear is only in our minds
Taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds
But it’s taking over all the time
You poor sweet innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
And oh you love to hate me don’t you, honey?
I’m your sacrifice
[ I dream in darkness
I sleep to die
Erase the silence
Erase my life
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day
A world of nothingness
Blow me away]
Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
You poor sweet innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
You know you live to break me – don’t deny
Sweet sacrifice
Taking Over Me
You don’t remember me
But I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard
Not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream
And dream I do…
I believe in you
I’ll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You’re taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had ?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
I believe in you
I’ll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You’re taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are
Just like you are taking over
The Only One
When they all come crashing down – midflight
You know you’re not the only one
When they’re so alone
They find a back door out of life
You know you’re not the only one
We’re all grieving
Lost and bleeding
All our lives
We’ve been waiting for someone to call our leader
All your lies
I’m not believing
Heaven shine a light down on me
So afraid to open your eyes – hypnotized
You know you’re not the only one
Never understood this life
And you’re right I don’t deserve
But you know I’m not the only one
We’re all grieving
Lost and bleeding
All our lives
We’ve been waiting for someone to call our leader
All your lies
I’m not believing
Heaven shine a light down on me
Don’t look down
Don’t look into the eyes
Of the world beneath you
Don’t look down, you’ll fall down
You’ll become their sacrifice
Right or wrong
Can’t hold onto the fear
That I’m lost without you
If I can’t feel, I’m not mine
I’m not real
All our lives
We’ve been waiting for someone to call our leader
All your lies
I’m not believing
Heaven shine a light down on me
Tourniquet
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
I lay dying
And I’m pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I’m dying praying bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
My god my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
I’m dying praying bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
My god my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My wounds cry for the grave
My souls cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide
Weight of the World
Feels like the weight of the world
Like god in heaven gave me a turn
Don’t cling to me, I swear I fix you
Still in the dark, can you fix me?
Free fall, free fall, all through life
If you love me, then let go of me
I won’t be held down by who I used to be
She’s nothing to me
Feels like the weight of the world
Like all my screaming has gone unheard
And oh, I know you don’t believe in me
Safe in the dark, how can you see?
Freefall, freefall, all through life
If you love me, then let go of me,
I won’t be held down by who I used to be
Whisper
Catch me as I fall
Say you’re here and it’s all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one’s here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Don’t turn away
Don’t give in to the pain
Don’t try to hide
Though they’re screaming your name
Don’t close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don’t turn out the light
Never sleep never die
I’m frightened by what I see
But somehow I know that there’s much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Don’t turn away
Don’t give in to the pain
Don’t try to hide
Though they’re screaming your name
Don’t close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don’t turn out the light
Never sleep never die
Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me shall I give in
Upon my ends shall I begin
Forsaking all I’ve fallen for I rise to meet the end
Your Star
I can’t see your star
I can’t see your star
Though I patiently waited, beside,
For the death of today
I can’t see your star
The mechanical lights of Lisbon
Frightened it away
And I’m alone now
Me and all I stood for
We’re wandering now
All in parts in pieces, swim lonely
Find your own way out
I can’t see your star
I can’t see your star
How can the darkness feel so wrong?
And I’m alone now
Me and all I stood for
We’re wandering now
All in parts in pieces, swim lonely
Find your own way out
So far away
Its growing colder without your love
Why can’t you feel me calling your name?
Can’t break the silence
It’s breaking me
All my fears turn to rage
And I’m alone now
Me and all I stood for
We’re wandering now
All in parts in pieces, swim lonely
Find your own way out