The Wall



I remember the first time
I was at the Wall
It was in 1938.
The few old Jews standing near the wall
With their caftans and payot
Were a curiosity to me then
And I to them, a curiosity.

I was told to plant a prayer in the wall.
"Don't let it happen here - "
I wrote on a scrap of paper
In English
Thinking of America as "here"
I meant it,
Not realizing how much
I was going to mean it!
I prayed it
Not knowing how deeply
I was going
To pray it.

Hitler was a distant rumble of thunder then
And I was more interested in getting
A few good shots with my camera
Than in praying.
How dare the British soldier tell me
"No picture taking at the Wall!"
Whose Wall was it?

In 1948 when I made Aliyah
My casual prayer had been answered,
It hadn't happened here!
But the Wall was "Juden rein"

I remember Burma Road
600 had fallen at Latrun
Bab el-wad was strewn with
Shot out trucks and overturned jeeps.
Ours was among the first "sheruts"
That went up to
Jerusalem after the siege.
We veered round sharp turns
We slid down steep hills
We bounced over jagged ruts
We skidded on rough stones.
We sang
"Me'al Pisgat Har Hazofim
Shalom lach
Yerushalayim."

We felt we were climbing up to Yerushalayim -
Yerushalayim had not been destroyed
And brothers were alive within its gates.

I remember the very first army parade
On the football field at the Port of Tel Aviv
I sat right behind Ben Gurion then,
You can recognize his two wings of white hair
on some of my films.
We clapped like mad
When the Chief of Staff
Halted in front of him,
Saluted
And he saluted back.

We sobered down
At the sight of the automobile marked
"Ambulance"

We laughed
At the bedraggled horse and wagon labeled
"Enemy booty"
And we cried -
Especially those
with numbers tattooed on their arms
Cried.

One said to me between his tears
"I've stood at mightier parades than this
My arm was outstretched
And I had to say
'Heil Hitler, Heil Hitler'
Over and over again
- Lest someone suspect me of being a Jew.

And now I need say nothing
My hands can clap
And my heart is beating,
"This is mine! This is mine!
Mine!
A Jewish army. Mine!
And I am crying because
I am yelling
"I am a Jew! I am a Jew!"

I remember how we wondered
What we would call the State.
Judea? maybe.
And then the name, Israel, was announced.
And how right it was
How simple
How simply right!

I remember how Weizman walked
Under crossed sabers at his inauguration
President of the State of Israel!
The first inauguration
In two thousand years
"The first in two thousand years!"
We said it over and over again
The dreamed reality
Had to be made real

The first parliament in 2000 years
The first Jewish money in 2000 years
The first Jewish state in 2000 years
And Jerusalem was our Holy City
Again after 2000 years.

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