I don't know why I find
"believe", "belief"
Such difficult words.

Jews believe!
Why do Jews believe?
What happens in the brain
To cause belief?
Belief is an "intuitive conviction" says the dictionary;
"Intuition" - "a truth that cannot be acquired
but is assumed by experience"
Does that make it any easier to understand?
Is intuition so reliable?

Why should Jews believe different from others
Or others different from Jews?

What are these intuitions made of?

What is "holy?"
What is "value"?

What do I believe?
I believe that to believe is good.
I guess that's it!
It's funny
How I get mad when someone says
The very things I think
And, sometimes, even say.
"I simply cannot see
God giving anything..."

And still when someone says
"I believe in "Divinity" or "Sanctity".
I smirk.

We'll never know
what really happened
At Mount Sinai
Though something surely had happened, there.
But does it really matter what the details were
And if we know them?

Do you believe that the dead
Will really arise
When Mashiach comes? And if they
Were not buried with all their bones
Will they be unable to rise again?
How can I believe such a thing?
I know nothing is left after some years
I know of Jews who were burnt to a crisp
Of thousands upon thousands
Burnt in gas chambers
How will they come back - with Mashiach?

Millions of dead since Adam and Eve -
Can anyone believe such an incredible idea?

What is this "coming back" idea altogether
The idea is inconceivable
Millions of dead since Adam,
To come back?
How? As they died -
cancerous, feeble, insane, burnt, young, beautiful?
At what point is the transformation to occur?
And the babies -
How do they come back?

What is this whole idea of
The coming alive of the dead?
And what happens when we are all
"re liven"?
Where will we live?
How long will we live?
What will the meaning of our
"Re-liven" lives be?

It is unbelievable!
It is unimaginable!
Still there could be some other way
Although I cannot imagine it.
Perhaps there are dimensions
Of which we cannot conceive,
Know nothing.

Life without matter as I know it, i.e.- cells, electrically held together.
Still there could be some unimaginable way.
Perhaps there are dimensions of which we know nothing
Cannot conceive
Ever!

Yet - shall I be dead
Forever?
Unbelievable!

I cannot conceive of "forever."
"I shall be dead "forever"!
Inconceivable yet believable!.


Whole universes
Outside our universe
To which there is no end
And no beginning
Conceivable -
Yet unbelievable!
Belief in a Messiah - a Jewish belief?
Belief in the Torah - a Jewish belief?
What does it mean - a Jewish belief?

Why am I pained at hearing
A Jew say,
"I don't believe."
Although I, myself,
Do not know that I do believe!