– Focus –

Recently I’ve felt rather sick
It hurts
But the pain gives me a kick
You could only wish to feel what I feel
The only downside is that my sanity has begun to peel
It makes me go rather insane
But it’s interesting
Like a void constantly growing in my brain

I visited the doctor today
He said
“Get some rest son, and you’ll be okay”
What does HE know?
I’ve never really liked him much anyway

The sickness is no longer amusing
For I have now managed to identify the thing
It’s little Woodlyn Elves, in my head, I now know
THEY are the cause for why I feel so
I think, they're Woodlyn, right?
So FIRE is the only way to fight!
I drink some gasoline and stand on my head
I figure
Lighting THIS should leave those stupid elves dead!

But nothing is happening
So I’m just sitting here
Pondering
Jeez that gasoline has a great aftertaste
Better not let the rest go to waste!
So I gulp the gallon down
And now I am sleeping rather sound
Within my dreams I can see the elves
Dancing around
Caring about nothing but themselves
Suddenly I’m awoke!
What’s this?
It’s amazing
I can no longer feel the pain!
But . . .
I can no longer feel ANYTHING!
– Daze –

I can’t seem to die
No matter how hard I try
I was so self-assured
That I would go in peace
But
I just died tired
Why won’t God open his mouth and eat me?
Why won’t God just open his mouth and eat me?
Then there’s those lucky ones who he manages to see
They don’t want to die
Or even think it like me
As it turns out,
You’ll eventually see,
God had just gotten a little hungry
I feel left out - what’s the key?
I’m so upset
That he took THEM
And didn’t even consider ME
I have doused myself in gasoline
Perhaps on FIRE I will be seen
So hot it feels cold
Trying to kill myself is getting rather old
I hope God likes his souls well done
For I had no gun
So empty I am
So empty I shall be
I hope you burn in hell
So I have a bit of company
The box is set
Six feet deeper than the feet on which you stand
I haven’t figured out yet
Just how I managed to kick the can
If I am to be remembered
Heed these words
God is a bored fat man
So if you wish to live
Be Absurd
– Angel –

As I stare into the heavens

All I can see is my angel's face

As I stop to look around,

Filling every inch with her grace,

A wave of heaven shifts

And falls to the ground

She is now a piece of everything

My Everything

She is the air, the people, the room

She is my eyes

If the world was to crumble before me

All I would see is beauty

No, this is not a dream

And if it is

Keep this single flaw to yourself

This is my greatest dream

And I want to spend it forever with my angel

My Everything
– Transpose  –

Shred the rainbow
Grind it to dust
Snort the colors
Get high on imagery
For to see as I do
This is a must

Slip the rejection over your ears
Turn it up and listen close
The sound of loneliness
Echoes forever in your mind
For to hear as I do
Realize – love is a hoax

Slash your wrist
Bottle the sting
When the time comes
Sell it for what it’s worth
For to feel as I do
The pain never stops coming

Don’t slow down
You are almost there
Give it your all
Give it more than you have
For to fall as I do
You must have dreams to spare

Watch as it all amounts to nothing
Watch as it all burns to thin air
Kill everything around you
Kill everything inside
For to truly be as I am
You must not care