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Title: Damaged
Pairing: Elijah/Orli
Rating N17
Disclaimer: Total fiction
Notes: An AU set in modern day South London.
Damaged Part
One
"S not bloody fair," Orli thought as he pushed
his way through the thousands of people coming out of Paddington
station. Why did he always get lumbered by the rest of his
family?
"Oh, you dont mind do you Orlando?"
"Youve got the room and time on your hands."
"Its not like you have anything else to do."
Well, he didnt have anything else to do but he still
didnt see why he had to take in some stupid, distant
relation that wasnt really even part of the family. What do
you call your mums, dead brothers wifes son by
another man?
And why couldnt he go to a hospital up in Scotland or
Newcastle or wherever his mum had moved to this time?
But no, he had to come to a London hospital and stay with Orli.
Who also had to leave work early to go and pick the creep up from
the station and he was late and
fuck. The train was already
in and Orli had no idea what the guy actually looked like.
He stopped and watched the people stream off platform seven;
thousands of people who all had stories that he would never know.
Sad really, but he shouldnt care. Sad was something he was
trying to avoid.
Orli had known about Elijahs existence ever since Uncle
Robin had married the awful Silvia, but hed never actually
met him. He knew the guy had to be about twenty now, Silvia would
always say that she wished she had a real man for a son, when she
ran one of her cigarette stained hands down Orlis chest.
Shed smile up at him, through her lashes, and whisper
something about him being all man but Christ, he was only five or
six years older than her son.
Just the thought of Silvia made his skin crawl. Why on earth
Uncle Robin had ever married her, hed never understand. He
just prayed to god her son wasnt anything like her.
But first to find him.
Orlis mum had told him that Elijah was small, dark haired
and odd looking. Not much to go on really
Orli scanned the
platform again. Most of the crowd had gone now and he could see a
little better. Where was the kid / guy / thorn in Orlis
side?
There was a thug standing by the coffee kiosk, mobile in hand,
every third word an expletive. Orli offered up a silent prayer
that wasnt Elijah. But no, his hair was too light, even
under the bleached highlights, and he was too big and muscular to
fit the mental picture his mum had created for him.
A big baggy leather jacket was dwarfing a guy by the next
platform. Small, certainly but
The guy turned round. Too
African!
This was more promising. Small, dark haired, glasses. Not bad, he
had an okayish sort of face, seemed happy as he laughed at
nothing. If this were the man Orli would have to put up with in
his flat, it wouldnt be too bad. But again no, Orli saw the
reason for the smile as a willowy girl ran up to the man, her
blonde pig-tails flying as she jumped into his arms.
Orli searched the area again. Nothing and then; and then he
noticed a lone figure leaning against the fence at the end of
platform seven, cigarette dangling from his mouth, hands shoved
into his jeans pockets, shoulders hunched over as though it were
cold. The jeans jacket he was wearing seemed worn and tatty, and
not in the fashionable way, his trainers were cheap, probably
plastic and starting to split.
Right sort of age, small, dark haired, not really odd looking,
although he could see why his mum might say so. The guys
eyes were just a bit too big, his skin just a bit too pale, but,
somehow, it seemed to work on him.
Nothing special, just an ordinary guy; who wasnt going to
smoke in his flat. Orli set his shoulders as he moved forward,
this was one thing he was going to set in stone before they even
got inside the door.
Orli started to walk over, still too far away to say anything,
when the guy looked up. A huge railway guard was storming towards
him, fat neck red and bulging between the back of his peaked cap
and the collar of his almost-white shirt.
Orli sped up a little, conscious of the aggression radiating from
the big man as he pointed and waved his arms in the guys
face. His mum would never forgive him if he let Elijah get beaten
up before hed even got back to the flat.
Another thing the family could look at Orli and sigh about.
The railway guard was right in front of Elijah now, the words
shouted in his booming voice unintelligible but the angry tone
clear across the station.
"Hey, hang on a minute," Orli started to say, breaking
into a trot. But then he stopped and just watched. "Well,
Ill be
"
Elijah looked up at the big man and something seemed to happen, a
change came over him as he flicked the cigarette aside. He leaned
back a little, opening up his body to the other man, one foot was
hooked up on the fence and his knee flopped out in
In what?
Submission? Acceptance? Invitation?
Long dark lashes lifted and the guard was subjected to their
owners full attention, every atom of his body screamed that
this was the only person in the whole wide world Elijah was
interested in. He licked his lips. Not obviously or salaciously,
just a quick casual flick and the guards eyes fixed on
them.
But it was more than the posture or the face or even the
attention; to Orli it seemed as if a switch had been flicked and
gallons of pheromones were oozing out of Elijahs pores.
It didnt seem as if Orli was the only one who had noticed.
Other people had stopped, mid-conversation, to watch. Some
twisted their heads round to see as they continued to walk by,
others hesitated, one foot raised confused, as if unsure what
they were stopping for.
The guards mood had completely changed and now he was
smiling, even offering Elijah another cigarette. Elijah grinned,
tilting his head to one side just a little, and cupped his hands
around the guards as he leaned forward to light the
cigarette. For a moment the guards eyes went to where
Elijahs pale fingers rested against his thick wrist. Elijah
noticed, raising his index finger to stroke the chunky gold
bracelet out of the way till he touched skin, and the
guards eyes were back on his face.
"Well, Ill be damned," Orli said to himself as
the guard took a few steps past Elijah and picked up an old,
scruffy duffle bag. He put it at Elijahs feet, said
something and smiled. Elijah reached up and patted the mans
shoulder in a best-mates kind of way. Only his fingers rested a
little too long, arching and tensing on the spot. He leaned in
and said something only the guard could hear and their laughter
rang out across the platform.
The guard turned back towards the main part of the station but
seemed reluctant to leave, constantly looking back over his
shoulder at Elijah. Even from that distance Orli could see the
big mans mind working. Trying to think of more things to
say or a reason to still be there?
Orli shook his head, not really understanding why he had stopped
to watch, and then walked the short distance over to them.
"Hi, Im Orlando, most people call me Orli. I guess you
must be Elijah." Orli could feel the displeasure aimed in
his direction from the guard as Elijahs attention moved.
For some reason he felt the need to defuse the situation and to
apologise. "Sorry Im late."
Elijahs eyes flicked from Orlis face back to the
guard. "Doesnt matter, Ray here was reminding me I
shouldnt leave my bag around unattended, what with all the
terrorist scares and stuff."
"Yeah right, you shouldnt," the guard blustered,
his eyes still on Elijah.
"Well thanks for your help mate," Elijah said softly, a
strange intonation in his voice, as he caught hold of Orlis
sleeve. His other hand grabbed at the bag and he started pulling
Orli towards the exit.
The guard stood motionless for a moment, watching them move away,
then he suddenly came alive. "You want me to help you with
your bag Elijah?" His voice seemed to caress the name,
testing it and twisting it around his tongue.
"Nah, its okay, I can manage," Elijah said over
his shoulder.
"Sure?" The guards voice seemed different, darker
or lower. "I dont mind."
Orli felt Elijah stop, and after a seconds hesitation, he
turned. He looked directly back at the guard, his smile small,
somehow private as though, for that one instant, the rest of the
world didnt exist. "I can manage," Elijah said
again. "But thank you, thank you for all your help."
Orli didnt think such a heartfelt declaration was necessary
or even warranted but he could see that, for the guard, it made
everything worthwhile.
Elijah pulled at his sleeve again and they were moving, out of
the station onto the pavement outside. Once there Elijah stopped
and looked at Orli, his gaze very much apprising. "So
youre Orli, the bloke that drew the short straw and got
lumbered with me. Dont worry I wont stay any longer
than I have to."
His voice was
different to what Orli had expected. The
softness and comforting tone from his conversations with Ray, the
guard, was gone. Now his voice was strong, deeper and more mature
than Orli had expected. But with a hint of something else that he
couldnt quite put his finger on. For a moment all Orli
could hear was the sound.
"Its all right, you can stay as long as you
need."
"You dont mind?" Elijah tilted his head a little,
a hint of a grin teasing at the corners of his mouth, his
smile
intoxicating.
"Yeah, course I dont mind."
"Thats good then," Elijah rotated away from Orli,
pulling his bag further up onto his shoulder. "So
wheres your car?"
How did Elijah do that? Orli had the whole speech well rehearsed
in his mind; how the flat was really too small to share, how he
had heavy commitments at work, hell, how he didnt want some
creep interfering in his life. But somehow Elijah had taken all
that and made it float away on the breeze, turning things so that
the tone of Orlis voice was almost begging him to stay.
And he even felt a twinge of guilt because he didnt have a
car.
"No car, but the underground station is just over
there."
"No car?" Elijahs eyebrows went up, scraping at
his hairline.
"No car." Orli would not feel guilty, he would not.
"A cool guy like you, good job, your own flat, not bad
looking, and no car?" The hint of disbelief and amusement in
his tone was clear as day.
"Fuck you," Orli mumbled, but well under his breath, as
he moved off towards the underground. "You coming
then?" He threw the words over his shoulder.
"Sure, wouldnt miss this for the world," Elijah
smiled, trotting after Orlis retreating form.
+
They were pushed along the crowded platform by the surge of
people till Orli found a space they could wait in. The notice
board blinked; their train would arrive in three minutes. Three
minutes that Orli didnt have to try and fill with
conversation, the mass of humanity around them wouldnt
allow it.
On the train Orli deliberately threw himself into one of the
seats along the wall, conscious that the rest were all taken on
that side. Elijah sat down opposite.
As they passed through the stations Orli watched as Elijahs
expression changed and the crowds thinned. Either he didnt
notice the surreptitious glances from the people around him or he
didnt care. He only bothered to acknowledge a few
the middle-aged woman whose bag was banging his knee was rewarded
with a huge smile and a touch on her arm as she lifted it
awkwardly out of his way. The young skater guy got a,
cheers mate, and an approving nod of the head as he
passed Elijah another cigarette.
When there was no one left standing up and the odd empty seat
started to appear Elijah smiled over at Orli. Orli just watched.
By the time they got to the station before theirs Elijahs
face had clouded, a definite uncertainty at Orlis lack of
response.
Turning out of the underground station they moved away from the
High Street and fell into step side by side. Twice Orli thought
Elijah was going to speak but when he twisted his head around the
smaller man was looking away, the edge of a furrowed brow just
visible.
Well this was a great start, Orli thought. Hed agreed to
put Elijah up while he went to the hospital for
whatever it
was. They might as well try and get on. After all he had nothing
against the guy, he hadnt done anything wrong, and it was
bloody stupid to feel awkward around him.
But somehow Orli couldnt work out what to say.
+
"Right, this is my flat," Orli said, aware that he was
stating the obvious but wanting to say something. "Kitchen
is in that direction, bathrooms over there, your room is
down the end." He waved a hand vaguely around.
Elijah had moved ahead of Orli, popping his head around open
doors as he went, his eyes wandering curiously. He stopped on
Orlis last words. "My room?" He looked over his
shoulder at Orli, his expression questioning, his eyes hooded.
"You dont want me to share with you?"
Orli wasnt sure if he was joking or not. He had to be
joking, right? "No need, Ive got a spare room,"
Orli couldnt quite work out Elijahs expression, he
seemed almost surprised. "Anyway, I need my space. Im
not good at sharing anymore."
Elijahs shoulders tensed a little and he hefted the duffle
bag up again and made his way down the hall. "Fine, I
wont get in your way for long."
"Hey, I didnt mean it like that," Orli said and
he genuinely hadnt. He wasnt telling the guy to get
lost. Not yet. But Elijah had already gone into his room and shut
the door. This wasnt going well, but Orli had said
hed let Elijah stay, might as well make the best of it.
He dumped his keys on the hall table and went into the kitchen to
put the kettle on before knocking on Elijahs door. At the
almost sulky, What? he opened it a little and stuck
his head round. Elijah was sitting on the bed; bag by his feet,
nothing else touched as if he didnt expect to stay.
"Kettles on, come and grab a cup of tea when
youre ready," Elijah looked up. "Thats if
you want tea," Orli went on. "I mean theres
coffee and other stuff
If you want."
"Teas good," Elijah smiled. "Ill be
out in a minute."
Orli prayed he had some fresh milk.
Elijah appeared just as Orli had decided to get out the half
eaten packet of chocolate hobnobs he kept hidden from his mum at
the back of the cupboard. His eyes flicked up to Elijah as he put
the biscuits on the table and handed over a West Ham Football
Club mug.
"Help yourself to most things, just do me a favour and
dont trash the place. I mean treat it with a bit of
respect, I dont want
" Orli stopped, conscious of
how he sounded, coming the heavy when he didnt mean to. He
didnt understand why he was doing it.
This time Elijah seemed to recognise Orlis half smile of
guilt. "You want to write down some rules for me?" The
words were harsh but the tone was joking, as was the screwed up
smile.
"Nah, no rules," Orli said. "Just be nice and one
thing
dont smoke in here," he added as
Elijahs hand went to the cigarette packet.
"Please."
Elijah accepted the please and stopped, reaching for
the mug instead. Again Orli felt guilty and tried to appease.
"Theres a ledge thing just outside the back window,
you can sit out there and smoke if you want. Just be careful you
dont fall off, my mum would kill me."
"Like your mum would really care," Elijah seemed to
have away of saying nasty things but tempering them by the sound
of his voice and the expression on his face.
"You know what mums are like, how they fuss," Orli
said, trying for a laugh.
"Not really, no," Elijah looked up at him and this time
there was no softening tone as his face closed. End of that
subject then.
Orli flailed around trying to think of another. "Have you
been to London before?"
"Yeah, a couple of times."
"So you know your way around?"
"Enough to get by and I know how to ask," Elijah
smiled, but it wasnt an entirely easy smile.
"Do you know anyone here?"
"No," the smile went. "But Ill manage."
Orli didnt understand. He didnt understand why things
were awkward, why he kept saying things in a way he didnt
really mean, why he was reacting so strangely to Elijah.
Hed always thought he was an easy going sort of bloke, the
type that got on with most people. Why not this time?
Whatever the problem was it had to stop. He was just trying to
work out what to say when Elijah broke the silence. "It
looks like your flats in a good location, loads of buses,
lots going on."
Orli risked a quick glance. Elijah looked surprisingly young at
that moment, hair sticking up at peculiar angles, no gel or
artifice, just a natural goofiness. The guy was trying as well,
best make the most of it.
"Yeah it is. The areas pretty run down but you can get
buses to Tooting and Balham from the end of the road and you can
go anywhere on the tube. Just up there," he waved at the
kitchen wall. "Are some of the best Indian restaurants in
South London." Why was he suddenly doing an impression of
the Tourist Board? Still Elijah was smiling, so what did it
matter.
Maybe theyd just got off to a bad start, Elijah seemed to
provoke a reaction in everyone. Orlis just seemed different
to most and maybe that was what was causing Elijah to feel the
strain.
"Want something to eat?" Orli suddenly asked.
"Im famished, I skipped half my lunch so I could go
and get
" Orli let the end of his sentence flounder.
For some reason he didnt want Elijah to feel guilty.
"Yeah sure."
"What do you fancy?" Orli opened the fridge, poking
around at the contents. "I could make an omelette, I think,
or this still smells okay." He took out a dish, lifted the
lid and sniffed. "Bolognaise sauce, only a day old?"
"It sounds wonderful," Elijah said and watched as Orli
bustled around cooking the spaghetti and re-heating the sauce.
When he tried to make a simple salad at the same time Elijah took
pity on him. "I can do that," he said, taking over
saucepan stirring duties. "You watch what youre doing
with that knife."
Orli looked at Elijah for a moment before handing over the wooden
spoon. "Okay, just dont let it burn. These are the
second set of saucepans my mum has given me."
"I think I can just about handle it," Elijah said and
for a few minutes they worked in silence, moving around each
other with exaggerated politeness. It was broken when Elijah
laughed out loud at Orlis failed attempt to get the
spaghetti from the colander onto their plates.
At first it was a half-hidden giggle as he tried to hold it in,
but the sound escaped in an open peal of noise as a handful of
wriggling worms slid off the fork onto the floor. It was an
unexpected sound, warm, rich and much deeper than expected.
A sound that for some reason Orli thought probably wasnt
heard often enough. And he liked it. He grinned back sheepishly.
Elijah laughed again when Orli dumped the fork in the sink and
used his hands to unceremoniously slop piles of pasta on their
plates. This time it was a higher pitched giggle; silly, girly
and quite infectious. His whole face seemed to light up with a
smile and it lingered, albeit sometimes hiding at the corners of
his eyes, whilst they ate their meal.
For a small guy he sure could eat, Orli thought as Elijah tucked
the food away at record speed. "Want the bit thats
left in the saucepan?" he asked. "Im only going
to chuck it away if you dont want it."
Elijah nodded, wiping away a trickle of sauce from his bottom lip
as he got up and helped himself. Orli watched as Elijahs
tongue first licked at his lip and then sucked on the
sauce-covered finger. For a moment Orli understood what had so
captured the guard at the station. There was something about
Elijah, something that you couldnt quite put your finger on
but it meant that you couldnt seem to look anywhere else.
Something quite deadly, almost dangerous, something
Orli pushed his chair away and got up. "Im going to
grab a shower, there should be some hot water." Elijah
nodded as he spooned the last heap of spaghetti into his mouth.
When Elijah had finished he sat at the table contemplating the
mess and his full belly. Clearing it up could wait. First he
wanted to have a look round the flat and there was no knowing how
long Orli liked to stay in the shower.
The kitchen was small and fairly bland but nice enough. Pushed
against one wall was the table; just about adequate for four
people, if you got on really well. He poked about in the
cupboards the cups and plates didnt all match but
none were chipped or dirty and there was enough food stacked away
to last for ages.
Next to the kitchen came the bathroom, steam and the noise of
running water were currently escaping under the door, and after
that Elijahs room. At the end of the hall was Orlis
bedroom, the door very firmly shut. Elijah was curious, very
curious, but he was also conscious of the time. That could wait.
He moved onto the only other room in the flat. The living room
was a pleasant surprise, larger than expected with big windows
and lots of light. A big new looking television with a pile of
dvds and videos next to it sat opposite an old, comfy sofa. On
the other side was a music system. As Elijah got closer he
realised it was a first class make, one hed always dreamed
about.
Stacked around it were piles and piles of cds. Orli obviously had
a wide taste, there was everything from the latest indie band,
through jazz and the blues to a few classical albums. Elijah felt
another little stab of something that seemed a bit like envy.
As he turned away his eye was caught by a couple of framed
photographs on the shelf. One was easily recognisable as
Orlis mother with a man who, even if Elijah hadnt
known, just had to be his father. But it was the other one that
held his interest. He picked it up to get a better look.
It was a head and shoulders shot, with little background to give
any clues about where it was taken, of Orli and a dark haired man
about the same age. Orlis hair was cut shorter and both
were lightly tanned and smiling.
Their smiles seemed to come straight from the heart and shine
through their eyes.
"Put that down." Orli stood just inside the doorway,
hair still damp, staring at Elijah. "Please."
He didnt seem to breathe again until the photo was back on
the shelf.
"Who is it?" Elijah asked, rubbing his palms against
his jeans. Somehow he felt like hed made the picture dirty
just by touching it.
"Thats Shane," Orli said and Elijah could hear
the tightening in the other mans voice.
"A mate? A relative? Your boyfriend?" He knew it was
none of his business but he had to ask, there was something
captivating about the photo. Something in the way they looked at
each other that made Elijah want to know more.
"He
was my boyfriend."
"What happened?"
Orli walked over and straightened the picture, moving it slightly
away from Elijah. "He isnt around anymore." His
voice changed and it was clear that subject was closed.
"Im off for a drink in a minute."
"Youre going out?" Elijah lifted his head, a hint
of disappointment in his eyes.
"Yeah, its just some friends." Orli didnt
understand why he felt the need to justify himself.
For a long, long moment the room was quiet as though they were
waiting for something. Much as Orli wanted to go he didnt
seem to be able to, especially while Elijah was watching him.
At last Elijah spoke, "Can I come with you?" He looked
up, eyes wide and focused solely on Orli, his voice almost a
purr, dripping blatant sex and invitation.
"Its nothing special," Orli hesitated.
"Please," the breathy whisper was accompanied by a soul
searching stare and a slight push forward of his hips.
"All right, if you want," Orli shook his head as he
walked away. "Im leaving at seven."
Elijah smiled at Orlis retreating back.
+
Seven.
Orli had said he was going out at seven and it was now quarter
past and no sign of Elijah. Was he supposed to just stand here in
the hall like a prize plonker and wait or was he expected to
chase after the little creep? Fuck that, he wasnt
anyones keeper and he wasnt going to start acting
like their mother. It wasnt the fifteen minutes he was so
annoyed about, it was the principle of the thing. If Elijah
wanted to come than he should just bloody well be ready.
He covered the ground to Elijahs room in two long strides
and banged on the door, calling out Elijahs name. It came
out louder and angrier than hed intended and the door
wasnt quite caught on the latch with the result that he
burst through almost like the angry parent he was trying so hard
to avoid becoming.
Elijah was sitting cross legged on the bed, dressed ready to go,
cigarette dangling from his mouth. In that moment panic streaked
across his face and he frantically tried to waft away the
tell-tale smoke.
"Oh for Christ sake, put it out," Orli demanded,
stopping just inside the door.
"Yeah, sorry. Course I will," Elijah coughed through a
mouthful of fumes, still waving his hand around in a vague and
pretty useless attempt to clear the fog.
"Put it out now," the command was firmer, angrier even.
"Yeah, sure," Elijah looked desperately around for
somewhere to get rid of the cigarette. "Sorry, I
" he shrugged his shoulders, giving Orli his best
naughty-little-boy smile. All cheeky grin and soft eyes. All very
deliberate and knowing.
For some reason Orli didnt understand the look annoyed him,
as did the way Elijah leant back on his arms, tilting his head
slightly to one side, looking up through his lashes. Orli could
feel a little tickle of something between his shoulder blades,
something more than pure annoyance.
"I said put it out," Orli could hear the flat,
controlled aggression in his tone but couldnt seem to curb
it. It was a cigarette after all, not the end of the world.
Elijahs brow furrowed, that wasnt the reaction
hed expected. He tried again. "Okay, one last drag and
Ill get rid of it," he put the cigarette back up to
his mouth, his tongue just coming out to play on the tip, lips
rounding and sucking as he reached over to the cupboard by the
bed for a dish; deliberately exposing a slither of pale skin
around his waist.
He reached his arm higher, the strip of exposed flesh widening,
his back arching ever so slightly, graceful and feline, and
"Put the fucking thing out!" Orli took a further step
towards the bed, hands balling into fists. He knew he was over
reacting, he knew it, but it didnt seem to matter. He
couldnt stop the irritation that clawed its way up his
spine and down his arms.
Elijah whipped back round, the exotic cat gone, in its place a
confused kid. "Hey, sorry. I really didnt mean to piss
you off." And he sounded like he genuinely meant it, like he
wanted to apologise, but at this point Orli wasnt
listening.
"Dont you ever do what youre bloody told?"
The confused, trying-to-be-nice, kid disappeared in an instant.
Elijahs jaw set and he slowly took a long, deep drag before
twisting round and stubbing out the cigarette in his dirty tea
cup. He turned back and, very deliberately, blew the smoke out up
towards the ceiling.
For a long moment Orli held his breath, not trusting himself to
speak. "I asked you not to do that," he said
eventually.
"You said there were no rules." Elijah shrugged a
shoulder. "Im not very good with rules."
Orli shook his head in disbelief. "It wasnt a rule. I
only asked you not to do one thing."
"It felt like a rule to me."
"Im putting you up, letting you stay in my flat, and
you couldnt even manage one simple thing." All sorts
of emotions flickered through Orlis voice. Laying over them
all was pure amazement, freezing the edges.
"Like I said, it felt like a rule."
They stared at each other across the end of the bed, eyes hard.
It was Elijah that broke away first, and when he looked back his
face had softened, his voice was lower, richer, his whole body
seemed more open and yielding. Again, very deliberate, very
obvious, and almost irresistible.
"I can make it up to you," he caressed the words with
his tongue.
"Dont," Orli snapped. "Dont do
that." Orli wasnt quite sure what he meant but he knew
things had suddenly changed, as though Elijah was trying to play
him. Orli hated games.
At Orlis infuriated tone Elijah went still.
"I didnt think we needed rules but obviously I was
wrong. So now we have one, dont smoke in my flat and I
dont give a toss whether you like it or not. If you
cant handle it then fuck off."
"Fine," Elijah slid off the bed. "If thats
what you want." He started shoving things aggressively into
his bag. But there was a cut to his shoulders, an almost
unnoticeable tremble in his hand. And maybe a flicker under the
aggression of his voice?
"Have you got somewhere to go?" Orli asked, not
remembering the question forming in his mind before the words
were out of his mouth.
Elijah span round, bag in one hand, sweatshirt in the other.
"What do you care? As soon as I go Im not your
problem."
"Look, I didnt mean it like that. I
" Only
Orli didnt know what he did mean. What did he care?
There was a long, silent stalemate as they both thought about
what came next.
"You dont want me here, do you?" Elijah said, his
voice empty of any anger or the sultry tones of before. For once
he seemed like a normal, ordinary guy. No games; he was just
asking the question. "I can understand that but what I
dont get is why you agreed to let me stay in the first
place."
"I
" Orli flustered. There seemed to be so many
different Elijahs all living in the one body, aggressive, exotic,
irritating, maybe not as tough as he made out? Who knew. He
flicked from one to the next in an instant and it made
Orlis head spin, but this Elijah, this normal man; he was
somehow much harder to deal with.
"Its not that I dont want you here specifically,
I dont want anyone. I just want a bit of peace and quiet on
my own but
well, my mum asked and I couldnt say
no." Orlis anger had melted away and he wasnt
sure when or why.
"Your mum. Youre doing this because of your mum."
It wasnt a question. "Thats nice of you but you
dont have to bother. I wont put you out any
longer." Elijah bent down to his bag, his shoulders sagging
slightly.
"You dont have go," Orli said suddenly. "I
mean, lets see if we can work something out."
Elijah looked up, a question obvious in his eyes.
"You dont want me to get in trouble with my mum, do
you?" Orli added a smile to the question.
"I guess not," Elijah tried to smile back but it
didnt quite make it to his wary eyes. "So what do we
do now?"
"I dont know," Orli shrugged. "Weve
got off to a bad beginning, lets start again."
"How?"
"Well, for one thing you promise not to smoke in the flat
and then
" he shrugged again. "I guess we make a
bit more effort. What do you think?"
"Okay," Elijah said cautiously. "I wont
smoke and I promise Ill keep out of your way as much as
possible."
"I didnt mean that," Orli said exasperated. Why
could he never say what he meant to this guy? Or maybe it was,
why didnt this guy understand what he meant?
"Its okay," Elijah said. "I know when
Im not wanted." He wasnt accusing or annoyed, he
stated it like it was a fact; as undeniable as night following
day.
Orli thought carefully about his answer, he always tried to be an
honest man and he wasnt going to lie now. "I
dont want you to move in with me for evermore but I would
like to go for a few drinks and, if you want to, Id like
you to come with me." Perhaps the last bit wasnt
totally truthful but his intentions were good and he didnt
think anyone would mind.
Elijah looked down, studying the dirty toes of his trainers. When
he looked up there wasnt a lot of hope in his eyes, just an
inevitable acceptance. "Why not? I havent got anything
to lose."