Human Touch – Sean’s pov

Pairing: Sean/Elijah

Don’t know these people. No offence intended or money made.

 





Some people, from the moment they're born, know what their destiny is.

He's mine.

He's lying in my bed, a half smile on his face as he watches me move around the room, turning off most of the lights, but leaving the bathroom one on, and the door slightly open, because I want to see him, plus he's not comfortable with total darkness.

I climb into bed next to him and prop myself up on one elbow, leaning over him. I see him take a breath to say something but I shake my head, and the words die before they're spoken. He looks at me, the smile fading.

I love him so much, so deeply, that sometimes it frightens me. I have all these feelings inside me, all for him, and I don't have room for anything else. When we argue and he stamps off, it scares me so much because one day he might not come back, and if that happened I don't know what I'd do. Stupid of me, because he will come back, I know that. He needs me just as much as I need him; I can see it when I watch him watching me. Sometimes I worry about nothing. We don't even argue, not really, just get snappy at each other. Normal, I know, but I can't help myself, trying to picture my life without him and realising that there wouldn't be one. There'd be an existence, not a life.

I reach up and stroke my finger slowly across his hairline, feeling soft strands catch on my skin. His hair grows a slightly lighter shade of brown at the roots, only darkening as it gets longer; at the roots it feels like baby hair, fine and delicate. That's a word I use a lot in my head when I think of him; delicate. But it's the wrong word really. He has more strength inside him than somebody twice his size and weight. He is utterly, utterly beautiful, or at least he is to me, with a beauty that goes so much deeper than the way he looks, and he has an inner core of steel that saves me from myself.

I run my finger down his forehead to the bridge of his nose, then back up again, rubbing at his forehead. He's grown now, almost all of his boyishness given over to manhood. Sometimes he looks like the 1,000 year old soul I once alluded to - old and wise before his time in a business that worships at the altar of youth. He'll always be young to me; even when we're doddering along together on our zimmer frames, I'll still see him like this. And we will be together when we're that old. He's my destiny.

I need to do this; I have to imprint his face, his features, on my mind. Oh sure, I know what he looks like; his face is more familiar to me than my own. But I want to know what each individual feature is like, what it is that makes up the whole.

He doesn't understand why I'm doing what I'm doing, but he doesn't ask. He never asks; he'll let me do whatever I want to him, if it's done with love. And where he's concerned there's never a choice, there could never be any other way. He goes deeper than most people realise, all they see is the charming, chatty boy. I see the other side of him, the quiet, thoughtful side. The side that lets me touch him and stroke him and hold him. I've probably even hurt him sometimes, physically and mentally, but he always forgives me. I can't describe it, not properly, not even to myself. He's just the other half of me.

Eyebrows next. I lean down and run my tongue over them, imagining that I can feel each individual hair. Another part that makes the whole.

As I run the tip of my finger over the ridge of his eye socket, he closes his eyes, and I can see his lashes trembling against his skin. He trusts me so much he'll let me do this, not moving even when I slide my finger under his eyelashes so that I can trace the shape of his eye.

He has beautiful eyes, of course. Huge and full of laughter. But more than that, they show me his soul. They show me when he's hurt or when he's happy or horny. And he has a way of looking at me from under those long, thick eyelashes that makes me squirm in my seat, no matter where I am. I could be talking to the Queen of England and if I caught him giving me that look, I'd be gone. He can make me do whatever he wants when he looks like that. Some of the things I've done because of that look make me blush just to think about them.

As I move my finger away from his eyes and start to trace his cheek, marvelling at how delicate that high cheekbone feels, his lashes flutter and he opens his eyes. They're darker now and I watch, fascinated, as the pupils contract slightly, reacting to the light from the bathroom. . He's lost the last of his puppy fat recently, and now he's even more beautiful. His face has lost the babyish roundness it had and now his cheekbones stand out, giving me an idea of what he'll look like in 10, 15 years' time. I envy his looks sometimes; I would love to be as attractive and as confident as he is. But then when he looks at me I realise that as far as he's concerned, nobody else exists. And that's enough for me.

I follow the line of his cheekbone to his ear, tracing the delicate pattern there, making him squirm slightly. As my finger catches the hollow just behind his lobe, he flinches a little bit and I stop. That's a delicate spot for him, probably second only to his neck.

He reaches up and rests his hand briefly against my cheek, whispering my name. People would never believe it if they saw him; hyperactive Elijah, lying still for as long as I want him to.

He lets his hand drop away from my face and it lies stretched out next to him. His fingers are curled up slightly, completely relaxed, and he sighs, content and happy.

I move my hand again and trace the length of his long, straight nose. He laughs on another sigh, and I smile

When I move my finger to his mouth, I have to pause, just for a second. He parts his lips for me, and I would love to dip my finger in there, then follow it with my tongue, tasting him, joining him. But that's for later.

His lips are soft and full underneath my finger as I trace their shape. Made for kissing, made for licking and tasting. I lower my own mouth until it's almost brushing his, and I feel his breath against my lips. I hear him swallow and watch as his tongue darts out to lick his lips. I want to kiss him so much, want to drive him crazy with lust until he's writhing on the bed so far gone that he can't even kiss me, barely able to even breathe.

But not yet. I raise my head again, smiling as he groans in disappointment. The last thing I have to do is run my hand down his chin, then rest it against his throat, feeling his pulse slowing down again now that he realises I'm not going to kiss him.

I put my head on his chest and slide my arm around his waist, pulling him close against me. I love him, I love his body and his soul, and I love the all the parts that make him what he is.

He laughs at me sometimes, says I feel things too deeply. And I know he's right. But even though I can feel this right down in the deep part of me, it's not deep enough. It could never be deep enough, not for this.

He puts his hand on my head, stroking his fingers through my hair, and I sigh, but I still don't speak.

It really doesn't get any better than this.



The End

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