ENTRIES FROM DECEMBER 17-31, 2001

December 17, 2001 +03:08 a.m.
TO SHARE: i've been busy the whole day. in the morning, i just stayed home since i woke up late. after lunch, i attended mass with my 2 brothers. yeah, only with them. i had burger, fries and frap for dinner... i'm on a diet. *sigh* our test's fast approching (same with christmas) and i haven't studied yet. not a single book opened for the past days. still working on my site. ^_^
PERSONALS: i don't know how to deal with this *guy*. he's an ex-lover and i really can't figure out why he kept bugging me lately. i don't like him anymore. it's because i'm totally annoyed and pissed off with him. life is all about change. you get to wake up one morning loveless. the emotions you felt before gone.. that's it. the only thing left for you to do is continue on living. (do i make sense!?)

December 19, 2001 +05:34 p.m.
TO SHARE: Today's the second day of our exams. uhh, physics and cle.. life's a game of luck! (titanic) yeah, it really is. all i did was to make wild GUESSes for me to be able to finish the physics test. i really don't feel like studying anymore. maybe it's because i'm overshadowed by the christmas spirit. now, im here again, trying to make fun out of webpages. this is my life now. and truly, it keeps me going. ^_^
PERSONALS: christmas is near. setting my calendar last year, when i used to have my special someone who made my year great, found myself pathetic. i miss the feeling of having a lover. i don't wanna wish for anything about love this time. all i need is inner peace. 

December 20, 2001 +10:16 p.m.
TO SHARE: we had the last day of exams today. i took up trigo, electronics, computer, home eco, drafting and economics tests... after the exams was our class party. it's only this year that we're celebrating it late. we would usually have our vacation before the first day of misa de gallo. anyway, i enjoyed much of this day despite the long tests i took. made me feel great.
PERSONALS: let me share with you my christmas wish list... 
1. to get my old friends back - this is the year where i lose track of so many wonderful persons who, in a way or the other, changed my life and contributed so much in shaping "ME"..
2. to have a new cellphone - which i think is impossible cause i just had a new one last october
3. to have an ex-love back - i've been wishing for this since my birthday lat october. and it did come true already. (does that mean, i've been goodie this year that santa granted a wish already!!?&%*)
4. to have inner happiness and contentment and success - of course, who wouldn't wish for these!?

December 22, 2001 +01:47 p.m.
TO SHARE: Last night i chatted all the way till morn, no wonder why i just woke up. i was so happy since a friend of mine was back. umm.. ya.. after a year of no communication, he's come back. it's like god making another difference in my life. 
PERSONALS: don't know how to feel about the things going on in my life. sometimes, i just dont wanna feel very happy inside cuz i know after it comes pain. i always wondered why rare things happen. there comes a point in your life that u keep on wishing for a thing to happen. but when its granted, u feel like regretful and all.

December 23, 2001 +11:58 p.m.
TO SHARE: i just got home from a family reunion. the villaruz family. it's pretty fine for me since i won in the pera o bayong and another group relay. for the exchange gift, i had this revlon make-up kit, and i dont know whom it came from. luckily, i was able to meet my relatives again though we've been seeing each other just recently this year during the funeral of my two grandmas who passed away. ++ two days to go and its christmas! i really am thankful for the blessings i received this year. and repeating once more, the fulfillment o fmy wishes. yey! thizzes gonna be the best christmas ever!
PERSONALS: the past days, ive been receiving txt messages from old friends. i really end up feeling stupid. know why? they'd say i'm nice. ya.. in a way i am.. but i wont consider myself one. id rather tell them im devilish and all. then they'd argue with me. what made them say i'm nice? and what makes me say i am not? awww.. i don't know what's happening to me anymore. need help.. please?

December 25, 2001 +02:20 a.m. 
TO SHARE: Last night, i went to church and attended the midnight mass. it was so exhausting in the church from the mass until the kissing of the baby jesus image. the day was pretty much boring. in the afternoon, our technician came and updated my dad's PC. it now has the windows XP operating system. (while i stil hav Win 98! argh!) anyway, i really enjoyed the desktop themes the same way with the screensavers featured by Win XP Plus! ++ i was the one who cooked for dinner! yep, you heard it right! it's sort of a culminating practice of all the cooking skills i learned from our home economics. hehe. i cooked porkchops with mushroom and gravy and also the soup (chicken and corn!).. while mom did the other dishes. as always, i enjoyed mom's ever famous buko pandan. damn! she's a great cook! wish i was like her. ++ its already the 25th day. uhh.. dunno whats in store for me...

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signed in again at 9:10 p.m.
TO SHARE: Christmas is almost over.. got gifts from friends and family.. let me give ya the stats from top to least most number of gifts:

a) clothes
b) money
c) mugs
d) diaries, notebooks
e) caps/hats
f) bags
g) kisses and greetings

yep.. those were the same gifts i received from different people.. that's how my life is.. several reappearances of the same things everyday. a cycle of endless friendship and love problems.. as said, history repeats itself. i never expected that in my own life, though. 

December 26, 2001 +11:57 p.m. 
TO SHARE: Just got back from a tiring experience at enchanted kingdom. I was with several cousins and aunts and uncles during the day. We left as early as 8:45 a.m. and arrived there 15 minutes before the opening of the park. We all got wet at the rio grande. we tried it for 3 times, i think. and to feel the splash of water since the suns rays were actively radiating UV rays this morning, we rode the log jam right after rio grande.. hehe. i was sooo wet all the way from shirt to undies to pants to shoes.. and due to some scientific principles and einstein-like thinking, i hurriedly ran to the flying fiesta. what's in my mind during that time is that it works like a dryer since it spins around for a couple of times and that would let air dry my clothes and myself as well. i really did enjoyed the day. i even tried the space shuttle twice. i felt like my brains gone after riding it. i dunno, but i don't feel like going to school anymore. i wanna enjoy life like what i just did, a break from a lot of preoccupations and just a moment to enjoy, enjoy, and enjoy life's surprises. ehh?

December 27, 2001 +11:52 p.m.
PERSONALS: I really love a song and i find myself listening to it 5 times before going to sleep.. i can't figure out why.. the sudden blast of emotions perhaps before christmas day..? ehh, don't know with me.. let me share with you the lyrics..

"SAD TO BELONG"

I met you on a springtime day
You were minding your life
and i was minding mine too..
But lady when you looked my way
i had a strange sensation and
darling that's when i knew...

** That it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
Yes it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along

Oh i wake up in the night
and i reach beside me hoping you will be there
But instead i found someone
Who believed in me 
When i said i'd always care

** Oh is sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
Yes its sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along

so i lived my life in the dreamworld
for the rest of my days
just you and me
walking hand in hand in a wishful memory
oh i guess that's all that it would ever be

i wish i had a time machine
i could make myself go back until the day i was born
and i would live my life again
and rearrange it so that i'll be yours from now on..

** Oh is sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
Yes its sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along