in living color.
seriously.. in my present life, im 15 and live in a dumpy suburb with dumpy controlling parents and go to a dumpy high skool that likes to think its better than God. what irony.. catholic skool. ick. i have friends, i have plans, i have a life. somewhat. i play the trumpet. my life is filled with the monotony of schedule and routine.
band. we won nationals this year. but it doesnt even feel like it. it only felt sad and empty. i remember getting off the field and sobbing because it was over, and people like val would never get to do this again... and because i let him ruin my show... i didnt feel the inspiration like everyone else... i just felt really alone. and i regret that. not like there's much i can do. its over and im sorry and i wish i could change what happened. nationals was the worst. it should have been the best and it just wasnt and that makes me feel shitty.
random things about me--
~my favorite band is radiohead. they are so excellent. go buy OK COMPUTER right now. and PABLO HONEY, and THE BENDS... and KID A... AMNESIAC coming out in april-ish of 2001.....
~ignorance is not bliss. ignorance is illegal
~Tibet Deserves Freedom and Independence
~i am not trapped by the sky. i believe there is some sort of ocean in the sky. that we cant see. its not an illusion, just another dimension. where the angels are. and when you die, yer soul lives there. in this other dimension. i hope.
~jesus was just a man. he wasnt this big savior. honestly.
~i used to cut myself. its not a good idea. there's better things to do with knives, like sneak them into great america to cut up apples.
~i have a severe problem with authority. i have no authority. i am my own authority.
~society is the antichrist. as if such things existed.
~government is bunk. dont listen to them. they will die out. species take care of their own weaknesses. survival of the fittest.
~mcbiotch island will exist someday. you just watch. entrance tests with personal interviews done by me and val required. we're stealing an island from japan or someone. they really dont need all four thousand do they? exactly. no "dumb as rocks" people allowed. they would mess it all up. and that would not be the utopian ideal. aptitude tests. many of them.
~ boys ruin everything. they are mean and should not be allowed to melt hearts. my heart is ice and cannot break, only melt into nothing.
~ some things i love: what a wonderful world. (yay liz)
SHOUTouts to: val, andy, mitch, bryan, dave, pete, kory, cindy, john (NY), dex, bucky, drea, amanda, kate mc, liz, jasmine, wayne (jon), newman, lucia, spacehog, jim, wegrzyn, joefitz, and my college buds dennis, ej, and other ones that are above cuz i ferget that they're in college!... and a special SHOUTout to KATIE cuz i never see her anymore. if i fergot you im sorry, you really deserve a SHOUTout.
but dont mind me.
farewell and goodnight
grunge faerie.
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