ASSYLUM

it's five am, suns on the rise
and still i've had no sleep
get out the knife and the alcohol
sliced my arm and made it deep

it's six pm and everyone's out
so here i am all alone
i can bleed on the carpet all i like
it's not like anyone will ever know

i really don't understand
i don't know why i hate it
i don't know why i love it
i just know i can' take it anymore

sit on my bed and stare in the mirror
and wonder why i'm so fucken crazy
i want to watch my life drain out
ruby red and iron thick

midnight, i'm kneeling by my bed
thoughts of giving in are like a prayer
some kind of pain like i've never felt
can't hear the voices but know their there

i deal with a loss like i've never felt
who's life am i living now?
another problem that i can't handle
my whole life is a broken vow

i don't have anyone
just myself, whoever i am
would i wish for freedom
if i saw a falling star?

or would i just sit there
watching another light turn out?
i know i would
that's what my life is all about.