I am from Azerbaijan . In 1996 I moved to US to California .Diffucuilt desigion was that – wife , small 3 years old son and myself – no any friends , not much money .I took that risk and moved on – my wife was very supportive on this – where you are , I am there – she said to me .

Almost all my relatives were against that move .I said , dad , if you don’t want me to be arrested , let me go ,I can not live in this country anymore .So many corruption , so many brutality against opposition , so many Garabag war veterans , heroes in jail … What was hurting me more , who were against independent Azerbaijan , who laughed at us when we were talking about freedom , now they were (and still they are ) in power .Yesterdays communist bosses , big and small padshahs again came to the power .

I just could not live in that place .

What I gained and what I lost in America ?

I gained not to many things – have some money to support my family and help my relatives in Azerbaijan . It makes me happy .

I lost my normal life – I am stranger here even after 7 years .I forgot when last time I laughed from all my heart ,I don’t see my friends , my loved ones. I don’t have my parents , my brothers , sister , uncles … in my kids birthdays .How I was happy , when we invited some of my relatives or friend to my house – we could talk , laugh .

… I had a hope to go back .I had a dream - someone , anyone but non-Aliyev will come to power after 15-th of October 2003 election .We were so close to the victory for all azeri people , so close …

I don’;t know what to say , but we lost again .8 million azeri people lost !!!

Even lost all who voted for Aliyev .That day is one of the black days in history of Azerbaijan .

What now – my friend asked me .I said I don’t care anymore , we chosed what we deserve – if my people want to live in poverty , in tents , let them have it .I just said that – it was just anger .

Sometimes I think , we – my people we are not good enough for Elchibey , Rauf Arifoglu , Igbal Agazade , Ibrahim Ibrahimli , Ramiz Rovshan , Flora Kerimova , Gavanshir Guliyev , Akif Islamzade , Isa Gambar ,… They should just leave Azerbaijan , they should not get panished, jailed , beated because we are not good enough .

What now ? I don’t know – I just don’t know .I know just one thing – I am staying in America – I don’t want my kids life to get stolen by Aliyev dinasty . I want ask small kids in Azerbaijan – forgive us ,please , we could not create bright future for you – forgive us , if you can !