“I see
children playing. Why couldn’t I ever
do that? I see mothers fixing
cuts. Why couldn’t I have that? I never once played outside…hell I’ve never
once just played. I never had a mother
to make a wound better or to kiss my knee when I cut it. I never had that. And I never will.” Kayley thought as she walked down a street
in the Sanq kingdom. She was 17 years
old. Her hair was to her shoulders and
was a curly strawberry blonde. She wore
dark sunglasses so no one would recognize her.
She was wearing shorts and a tank top, her strong, muscular arms and
legs were free for everyone to see. She
would have preferred pants and a long sleeve shirt, but all she had were the
clothes on her back and two guns in her pockets. The snow was bright white, she saw children throwing snowballs at
each other. She was walking with her
arms folded across her chest, in a futile attempt to keep herself a little bit
warm.
“Now remember Brett, I’m watching you so NO
ice balls!” a mother yelled to her teenage son, who was throwing ice balls at
passing cars with his friends. The boy
disregarded his mother and kept making the ice balls. Kayley was passing the boys when she heard a whistle, when she
looked in the direction the whistle came from she saw the group of teenage boys
that apparently liked her. Then without
warning a large and hard ice ball hit Kayley on the side of her head, breaking
the lens in her sunglasses. She fell
onto the icy sidewalk, her head was bleeding and face was all red. Brett’s little brother had thrown the ball
at Kayley.
“You dumb-ass!” Brett’s friend yelled to the
small child. The boys ran to Kayley and
helped her up. She stood up and put her
hand on the wound and looked at the blood on her hand. She wiped the blood on her already
bloodstained shorts.
“Are you okay?” another of Brett’s friends
asked of her. She was silent; she
looked around at the boys, who were concerned and all trying to help her at the
same time.
“I…I’m fine.” She said, she took off the
sunglasses and looked down at the ground so they couldn’t see her face.
“You know, you’re one really ripped chick.”
Brett said to her, she wanted to burst out in laughter, but her head was still
spinning too fast.
“I’m a really what what?” she asked, not too
familiar with teenage slang. He
laughed.
“I like your accent. I said you’re a ripped chick, ya know buffed
up.” He said, she then understood.
“Oh, I see.
Look, I should really go.” She said, and she tried to leave but they
stopped her.
“Hey you got a bad cut from that ice ball,
maybe you should come inside and let me patch that up for you.” He said and his
friends nodded.
“No, it’s fine, I’m used to it.” She said,
he laughed.
“Used to what? Being hit hard with ice balls?” one of his friends asked.
“No, just being hit, bleeding and the like.”
She said, then they heard the front door to Brett’s house slam shut and heard
footsteps running toward them.
“Are you alright honey. I’m sorry about my son John, he likes to
take after his big brother.” She said looking to her son.
“I’m fine.
And I really need to leave now.” Kayley said, trying to leave the
situation before more damage was done.
“Oh no dear, come in and let me fix that
cut, and get you some clothes, you’re in shorts and a tank top, you’ve got to
be freezing.” She said kindly, Kayley wanted to go with her, but she knew it
would never happen.
“I…I…I cannot! If you saw my face you’d feel differently.” She said, and they
laughed.
“Yo, let me see this face of yours babe.”
Brett said and he lifted her face up, and his mother sighed.
“I see.
It’s you. Well…this changes
everything doesn’t it?” she said softly.
“I must leave.” She said, she dropped her
sunglasses and started running away.
But Brett was running after her.
“Hey wait up!” he yelled, she looked back
but kept running. He tried to grab her
hand to get her to stop, but it slipped out of his grasp and she kept running. He stopped and watched her disappear.
“Yo Brett.” His friend ran up to him and
handed him her broken sunglasses.
“She’s gone Marc. She’s gone.” He said and Marc sighed.
“So what do we do with these, man?” he
asked, and Brett looked at them.
“We keep them as a souvenir of our encounter
with the perfect assassin. Who knows
maybe we’ll run into her again someday.” He said and they walked back.
Kayley was running, she wanted to be
somewhere safe and away from people.
She stayed in a park for a day and then various other empty places. A week after the encounter with Brett, her
skin had become ghostly white and cold as ice.
Her lips were blue, and her fingers purple. She sat on a bench by an old bookstore. She wanted so much to cry, but she had forgotten how.
“This is going to be the end of me. I’m going to freeze to death. How amusing.” She said, and she stuck her
feet in the snow and relaxed. She
closed her eyes and tried to sleep, but a soft, kind voice spoke to her.
“Hey?
What are you doing here?” the voice asked, she opened her eyes. A blonde boy no older than herself, with
soft blue eyes and a kind face was staring at her.
“What?” she asked.
“What are you doing here in the snow, on
Christmas?” he asked, she looked at him curiously.
“I have no where else to go. I’m simply moving from bench to bench.” She
said monotonously, he sat down next to her, “Who are you anyway?” she asked, he
smiled.
“My name is Quatre Raberba Winner…” he said,
but she cut him off.
“The gundam pilot.” She said and his eyes
went wide, and he nodded.
“You’re Kayley O’ Conner right?” he asked,
she sighed and looked him in the eyes.
“Yes…I am.” She said, he then noticed what
she was wearing.
“You must be cold. Here this’ll keep you warm.” He said and he took off his jacket
and put it on her.
“Thank you.”
“Since you have no where to go, why don’t you come with me back to
my place?” he asked, she didn’t know what to say.
“What?” she asked.
“Come with me back to my place.” He said,
she was bewildered.
“You’re not serious…are you?” she asked, he
smiled.
“Yes of course I’m serious. Why wouldn’t I be?” he asked, as if the
answer were obvious.
“Because of what I am. I mean…why would you want to have me
around?” she asked.
“Because you’re all alone. I want to help you. Just come with me…please, I promise I won’t
bite.” He said, she smiled.
“Alright.
If that is what you want.” She said, he stood up and held her hands.
“It is.
Come on, let’s get you warmed up.
And by the way I really like your accent.” He said and he led her to his
estate. As they walked the wind blew
colder and harsher. Kayley was starting
to get too cold to tolerate, even with Quatre’s jacket on. He noticed how cold she was, he stopped and
put his hands on her face, there was no warmth left in her face, “Oh crap, we
need to hurry before you freeze to death.” He said, and he hurried her
along. Within ten minutes they were at
his home. It was a very large house. He brought her inside, when he got in the
house he saw Trowa waiting for him.
When Trowa saw that Quatre had brought home a girl he smiled.
“I thought you went to get wine for the
party, not a girl.” He said, Quatre smiled, but was preoccupied with the
freezing Kayley.
“I was almost there and I saw her outside
freezing her ass off in shorts and a tank top.
I couldn’t just leave her there.” He said, but as Trowa examined the
girl, he realized who it was.
“Yes you could. Don’t you know who that is?” he said flatly. Quatre moved her to the stairs.
“Ellen!” he called, Ellen was the maid,
“Yeah I know who she is. But does this
look like a perfect assassin to you?” he asked, and before Trowa could answer
Ellen arrived.
“What is it?” she asked.
“I need you to help me get her warmed up.”
He said, and as they spoke Kayley simply listened to all that was going on
around her while trying to stay conscious.
“Yes sir.” She said slowly and they brought
Kayley upstairs to a guestroom and Quatre took his coat off of her and put a
blanket over her while Ellen got a hot bath ready for her, “Okay sir the bath
is full, you can go.” She said, Quatre looked puzzled.
“Huh?”
“Well in order for her to get in the bath,
she’d need to remove her clothes. And a
boy shouldn’t see a girl naked if he’s not dating her or married to her. That’s just the way it is sir. Now you go prepare for the party and I’ll
take care of her.” She said, and Quatre laughed.
“Okay, okay. I’m leaving.” He said and he looked at Kayley, “It’s okay. Ellen will help you.” He said and he closed
the door and went to prepare for the party.
Ellen took the blanket off of Kayley.
“You’ll want to take your clothes off dear.”
Kayley complied. Ellen was a tall woman
in her mid 60’s. She had white hair and
green eyes; she had an authoritative demeanor, but a kind face, like that of a
grandmother. She led Kayley to the
bathtub and Kayley stepped in. Ellen
went to get a blow dryer for Kayley’s hair because was covered in ice and snow. Kayley sat in the bath trying to decipher
the past few hours.
“Maybe
this is one of those delusions again.
Maybe it’s the schizophrenia thing again…this can’t be real…can it?” she
thought, what was happening was making no sense at all to her. Ellen came back and sat on a stood by
Kayley’s head, and she began to blow dry Kayley’s hair.
An hour later all of Quatre’s guests
arrived, he spoke nothing of the girl upstairs but Trowa informed Duo, who told
Wufei, who in turn told Heero. Heero
was very angry, he knew who she was, and knowing Quatre had her upstairs pissed
him off. Heero decided to find out if
what he heard was true.
“Quatre we need to talk.” He said, and
Quatre followed him to a separate room, “Wufei told me that you have Kayley O’
Conner upstairs.”
“Yes I do.
So?” Quatre asked, Heero was infuriated.
“And you haven’t killed her?”
“No.”
“Why?
You have to have a gun around here somewhere.”
“I do but I don’t want to kill her. I found her nearly frozen to death, I
couldn’t leave her out there.”
“Why?
You know what she’s done.”
“Yes I know what she’s done. Listen we can deal with this later, now we
need to keep it quiet.” Quatre said, Heero left and went back to the
party. Quatre went back to his guests
but then Ellen came down.
“Master?
Do you by chance have a spare set of sweats or something like that?” she
asked in a very soft voice, Quatre was curious.
“I might.
What for?”
“For the girl. All she has is what she was wearing when you found her. And you two are about the same size, she’s a
little shorter and much skinnier, but it’ll keep her warm.” She whispered and
Quatre laughed.
“Okay I should have some. Let me check.” He said and he went into his
bedroom. He came back with black
sweatpants and a black sweatshirt; “Here these should work.”
“These are perfect. Thank you.” She said and she went back
upstairs. Kayley was still in the tub,
she had not gained much color and her lips were still blue and her fingers
still purple, “Miss O’ Conner, I got some sweats, so you can come out now.” She
said and she handed Kayley a towel, she was going to dry her but Kayley
wouldn’t let her. She wasn’t used
people doing things for her; she just used to doing things on her own.
“Can you tell me something?”
“I can try.”
“Can you tell me…is this real…or is it
another delusion?” she asked, Ellen was speechless.
“N…no this is real. Do you…by chance have…schizophrenia?” she
asked.
“Yeah I do.
It comes and goes, I thought this could be another episode because I ran
out of the anti-psychotics a little while ago.
I thought that maybe I had fallen back into it. But if this is real than I’m safe.” She
said, Ellen felt sorry for her. Kayley
dried herself off and Ellen handed her the sweats, Kayley put her underwear and
bra on and then slipped the sweats on.
They were a little too big and a little too long. But Kayley didn’t care at all, “Whose are
these anyway?” she asked.
“Quatre’s…he’s more your size than anyone
else in this house.”
“Oh, thank you. Can…can I ask another question?
Why…why did he do this? Why is
he being nice to me? I don’t get it.”
“He’s got a big heart. He’s the nicest and kindest boy I’ve ever
met. He can’t bring himself to hate
people. Not even you. I don’t quite understand him at times
myself. But he’s being nice to you
because that’s just the way he is.” She said.
“I see.”
“Are you hungry? Because I can take you to the kitchen for some food.” Ellen
asked, Kayley looked at the floor.
“I’m more tired than anything. Would it be alright if I just slept for a
bit?” Kayley asked, trying to not to sound like her normal self and trying to
sound like a person.
“Of course.
Just let me show you the separate stairs to the kitchen if you get
hungry, that way you don’t have to go through the crowd down there.” She said
and she showed Kayley the stairs to the kitchen.
“Thank you.” Kayley said and she went into
the room and sat on the bed. She looked
around trying to figure out what she should do next, “Well I was never prepared for this.
I have no intention of killing anyone.
That’s the whole reason I came to earth…to not have to kill anyone…it’s
not what I’ve ever wanted to do…I’m not going to hurt anyone here. But what am I supposed to do? I don’t know what to do about this. No one has ever treated me like this
before.” She thought, then she leaned up against the wall and fell asleep.
The party went long into the night. Once most of the guests left and only
Quatre, Trowa, Wufei, Duo and Heero were left.
Heero was still pissed off at Quatre for not killing the girl. Duo really didn’t care, as long as she
wasn’t trying to kill him; he didn’t care where she was. Wufei and Trowa were slightly angered as
well. Heero decided to kill her
himself, so he went to his car and got his guns.
“Where is she?” he asked angrily. Quatre could tell this wouldn’t end well for
some one.
“Heero just leave her alone. She’s not going to hurt anyone.”
“How the fuck do you know? Have you seen her in action? Have you seen what she’s capable of? She’s a better gundam pilot than all five of
us combined! Her gundam is stronger
than all of our gundams combined! She’s
stronger than even me! She’s not to be
trusted!” he yelled at Quatre, and Quatre looked at him. Then Ellen walked in.
“She’s also a schizophrenic. She’s not right in the head. I can tell, I worked with mentally ill
people when was a nurse at the mental hospital. She shows all the signs of some one who should be in a mental
hospital. Whatever she has done, it was
not her fault. When people have
mentally ill people working with them, it’s very easy to mess with their
minds. Her mind has been terribly
distorted.” She said in a calm voice.
“How can you tell?” Trowa asked, Ellen
sighed.
“She’s not right in the head. She acts like she has been abused, I mean
she spoke so softly and fearfully. When
she asked questions she sounded like she expected to get yelled at or hit. She must have been horribly abused, her body
is covered in scars, really long thin ones, and what must have been gashes at
one point. You’d have to see her and
talk to her. But I think she’s asleep
now.”
“Well then let’s see her and talk to her.”
Heero said and he went up the stairs and saw a light under a bedroom door, he
went into the bedroom and saw her sitting there. He got mad just at the sight of her; he put his gun on her
forehead. She opened her eyes and once
her vision adjusted she saw the gun.
“Oh well that’s not very nice!” she said,
looked at the group of people staring at her.
“Whoa that is so cool. That is the coolest accent I’ve ever heard!”
Duo exclaimed, she looked at him from the bed.
“Quatre Winner…Duo Maxwell…Trowa
Barton…Chang Wufei…and Heero Yuy. An
entire gundam team all in one room. Why
don’t I like this?” she said calmly.
Heero pressed the gun harder against her head; “Oww…shit. Come on I didn’t do anything yet!” she said,
now Heero pushed harder and her head was starting to hurt.
“Heero lay off her man, she’s right. She didn’t do anything yet.” Duo said, but
Wufei and Trowa gave him looks that told him to shut up.
“Get it off of my head. You really really don’t want me to hit you.”
She said, and Heero shot his other gun at the ceiling three times. Dust fell from the holes all over the floor
and bed, “That’s it! You’re out of
line!” she yelled, she kicked him in the side and then in the face and he fell
to the floor unconscious.
“Wow.” Duo said, “That was awesome. I’ve been wanting to do that for ever.” He
said, laughing at the unconscious Heero on the floor.
“That is going to leave an interesting
mark.” Quatre said quietly.
“Okay, well that’s something I’ve never seen
before.” Trowa said monotonously.
“I must agree.” Wufei said.
“So what did you guys want?” Kayley asked,
and the pilots looked at each other and shrugged.
“It was all his idea.” Duo said pointing to
Heero. Kayley got off of the bed and
rubbed her forehead; she looked down at Heero.
“I warned him. But do guys ever listen to me?
No! They always seem to think
I’m bluffing.” She said, she looked at the ceiling, a chunk of it was about to
fall right on Quatre’s head. She
grabbed him by the shirt and pulled him toward her, and just as he tripped over
Heero’s body and knocking Kayley over and then landing right on top of her, the
chunk fell right were Quatre was standing.
He was lying on top of her staring into her eyes, “Quatre?”
“Yes?”
“Can you get off me?” she asked, Quatre
blushed and then got up and helped her up.
“Sorry.”
“No, don’t worry about it. It’s alright.” She said, and she looked at
Heero again, “Five…four…three…two…one.” And as soon as she said ‘one’ Heero was
conscious again. He sat up and looked
around, he saw Kayley, found his gun and ran to her, hitting the side of her
head with the gun. She laughed at
him. She found her bloodstained shorts
and took the guns out and held them at his head, “Now what Heero Yuy?”
“Hnn…” he mumbled. She stared directly at him, showing no sign of backing down. Then Quatre stood between them.
“Stop you two! These are supposed to be peaceful times! Just calm yourselves down. Put your guns down, and cool it.” He said,
Kayley looked at him, and saw his eyes.
Something in him made her put her guns down. But Heero didn’t put his guns down; he hit her again on the side
of the head. She wasn’t prepared for it
and she fell.
“What the bloody hell is your problem?” she
asked, she could feel warm metallic blood dripping down her face. She tripped him, causing him to fall to the
floor. She grabbed her gun and stood
over him, with her gun point blank between his eyes. With one hand she held both of his hands, squeezing them until he
dropped his gun, “Now if you stop trying to kill me I won’t break your
hands. But if you continue your futile
efforts to get the best of me, I may end up hurting you more than you really
want to be hurt.” She said, and Heero stared at her for minutes before saying
anything.
“Fine.” He said, she moved out of the way
and let him get himself up. Once he was
up, he stared at her and then left the room.
Kayley watched him leave and then put her gun down and wiped the blood
off of her face.
“Oww, that’s going to be a big bruise.” She
said, feeling the side of her head.
“Are you okay?” Quatre asked.
“I’m fine.” She said and the other pilots
weren’t sure what to think. She didn’t
kill Heero, but she did beat him. Which
was something they’d never seen before.
“Quatre, you might want to get your ceiling
fixed.” Duo said, Quatre looked up and laughed.
“I guess so. You think he’d have a little control.”
“Well man, it’s been…interesting, we should
go. See you at work.” Duo said, Trowa
and Wufei nodded.
“Let me walk you to the door. Excuse me Kayley.” He said and he left, Duo
smiled broadly.
“You like her Quatre.” Duo said.
“What?”
“You like her. I can tell.” Duo said laughing.
“No I don’t.” Quatre said quietly.
“Come on man admit it! When you fell on her I saw you staring into
her eyes! You were so totally
mesmerized by her! I saw it with my own
eyes!” Duo said. Quatre was blushing
bright red.
“Duo you’re crazy!” Quatre said.
“Whatever man. I know what I saw and I saw that you like this girl!” he said,
and Quatre was still blushing, “Bye buddy!” Duo said and he went to his car and
drove away. But Trowa and Wufei were
not as enthusiastic about Quatre’s new interest.
“Listen Quatre, she’s bad news. If I were you I’d get rid of her as soon as
humanly possible. You can’t trust her.”
Trowa said, Quatre sighed.
“I understand your point of view, but I
don’t agree with it.”
“Quatre she is dangerous! That could not have been more obvious back
there! She kicked Heero’s ass!” Trowa
said, Quatre laughed.
“Listen Trowa, you don’t have to worry. Besides it’s no big deal about Heero.”
“No big deal? She’s the only one alive who can do that to him. She is the strongest person ever and even
you know that!”
“I know.
And if you take a good look, she doesn’t appear to be that strong right
now!” he said.
“That does not matter Quatre! It’s the fact that you have her here alive
is the problem.” Wufei said.
“Guys, just calm down. We can work this out another time.” Quatre
said and Trowa and Wufei nodded and left.
Quatre went back up to Kayley, who was sitting on the bed staring at the
guns she was holding. He went into the
room and she looked at him.
“You know why I came to earth?” she asked.
“No.
Why?”
“I came here to find some one I’d given up,
to find some one I lost, to find some one I killed, to find some one who
probably doesn’t exist anymore.” She said monotonously.
“Who is it?”
“I came here to find the girl I killed when
I was seven.” Quatre didn’t quite understand her statement.
“Who?”
“Myself.
I came here to find out who I am.
If there is a way I can become something more than this.” She said, and
Quatre had suddenly become curious as to why she had done the things she had
done.
“Can I ask you something?”
“I suppose.”
“Why did you do the things you did?” she
looked at him and sighed.
“Do you really want to know?”
“Yeah.”
“I did those thing because…I was ordered
to. It was all I knew and it was what I
was trained to do. I had no other
choice. I did what I was told or I got
in big trouble. I was trained to kill
and to not get killed.” She said.
“So you didn’t do those things because you
wanted to? Or because you liked
killing?”
“No…is that the image people have painted of
me? That I enjoyed killing people?” she
asked.
“Well sort of.”
“Oh I see.
Well I suppose that is understandable.” She said.
“Time
to change the subject you bonehead!
Can’t you see she’s upset?” Quatre thought he tried to think of a
subject to change to, “So…are you hungry?
‘Cause there’s some food leftover from the party if you want some.”
“No I’m okay.” She said, then she laughed,
“His guns were loaded.”
“What’s so funny about that?” Quatre asked
and she looked at him with a sparkle in her eyes.
“Mine weren’t.”
“Oh.”
“I didn’t come to earth to kill people. Those guns are more of a security blanket
type of concept more than anything else.” She said, and nothing was said for
moments after, “Well…I suppose I should make another attempt to sleep…” she
said.
“Not in here. The ceiling needs to be fixed now. I’ll just move you to another room. There we can clean up the bloody mess on your face and then you can
sleep.” He said, she looked at him curiously.
“Okay.” She said slowly. He took her hand and led her to another
bedroom. He took her into the bathroom
and got a washcloth, soaked it and gently cleaned the blood off of the side of
her face.
“That’s going to be a huge bruise.” Quatre
said, she gently put her fingers on the spot.
“Yeah it is. Oh well, no big deal.”
“You probably want to sleep now huh?” he
asked, she nodded, “Lemme show you where my room is, in case you need me or
something.” He said and he showed her where his bedroom was. Then she went into the new room and sat on
the bed. But the bed felt strange. She stood up and looked under the sheets, it
was a waterbed.
“How weird.” She said and she sat back down
and got used to the way it felt. She
lay down and fell asleep.
The next morning Kayley woke up to a
splitting headache. She sat up and
looked around. She climbed out of bed
and went the window, outside was all white.
The ground sparkled with light from the sunrise. The sky filled with red and orange and pink
and purple. She heard a door slam and
jumped. But it wasn’t her door; she
went into the hallway and saw that Heero had come. He was still mad about her being there and would do all he could
to get rid of her. She decided to try
to reason with Heero. Kayley walked
down the stairs quietly and went to the room where they were. Heero was yelling as loud as he could and
Kayley sighed. She stood in the doorway
and looked in.
“If you want I can leave right now, because
you are making a very big deal about this.
Bloody hell, you’re talking like you’re the bloody expert on me!” she
said, Quatre didn’t want her to leave, he looked at Heero.
“Yes I do want you to leave.” Heero said,
and Kayley walked into the room and in the light they could see that a third of
her face was black and blue.
“Fine.
I’ll leave. I’ll go change back
into my clothes and you’ll never see me again.
Will that make you happy?” she said calmly.
“Yes.” Heero said flatly.
“No!” Quatre said immediately after Heero,
“No! Don’t leave! You don’t have to leave. You can stay here. Don’t listen to him.” He said and she smiled.
“I don’t know. I…I just don’t know.” She said, and Heero pulled his gun out of
his pocket and held it to Quatre’s head.
“Tell her she has to leave.” He said and
Quatre was too surprised to respond.
Kayley got angry with Heero.
“You know I just now realize why they called
us twins.” She said, and she had accomplished what she wanted, Heero’s
attention on Quatre had been averted.
“What?”
“Us, they called you and I twins. And we are.
You’re cold and heartless in every way I was. Trained in a deadly art, in a deadly style. What humanity we had was taken away. Don’t you see? You and I are the same!
You want to kill me for the horrible things I’ve done, but you did the
same thing! You killed and destroyed
and sabotaged! You felt nothing as I
felt nothing! You trained all your life
to be the best in the art of war! You
became the best! I trained all my life
to be the best in the art of assassination!
And I became the best! It has
become our trade! It is all we know! And you have the bloody balls to want to
kill me for things I did when you did them as well?” she yelled at him, his
face turned white. She let her anger
loose, Quatre felt her rage. Heero
stormed out of the house, he didn’t know what else to do or say. Quatre stared at her.
“You’re amazing.” He said simply, she turned
her head quickly to look at him.
“What?”
“You’re…you’re amazing.”
“No I’m not. I’m really not.” She said and they stared at each other. Quatre felt as though his eyes were suddenly
stuck, he couldn’t take his eyes away from hers. Kayley felt something totally unfamiliar; she had no idea what it
was. But whatever it was it was because
of Quatre that she felt that way.
Three weeks went by and Kayley changed
significantly because of Quatre. He
took her to the movies and out places she had never been. Quatre bought her some real clothes to
wear. She learned to be a friend, she
learned to have fun, and she learned to show her feelings more. Duo never had a problem with her being
around, as long as she didn’t try to kill him.
Trowa and Wufei felt that it didn’t matter to them what Quatre chose to
do; though Trowa worried about Quatre’s safety for a while. Heero thought long and hard about what she
had said to him three weeks earlier. He
realized that she was right, that they were the same. He didn’t try to kill her; he tried to be nice to her, which in
his opinion was very hard. He started
asking her questions about her life and her training, but she wouldn’t answer
him.
Quatre was sitting on his bed in the dark,
trying to figure out what was going on in his head.
“Why can’t I get her out my mind? What’s going on? I can’t be in love with her.
Can I? No, that’s impossible.”
He said to himself. He couldn’t make
any sense of what he was feeling. He
decided to simply look at her and see how it made him feel, he went quietly up
the stairs to her room. The door was
open, she had realized she was safe where she was and felt she could feel safe
with the door open. He looked in and
the moonlight was shining on her face, the bruise had gone away and the cuts
had healed. Her hair was glowing in the
moonlight, he stared at her. His heart
was pounding, he felt this strange feeling in the pit of his stomach and he was
sweating, “I don’t believe this. This
is crazy. This is the perfect
assassin. I can’t be in love with the
perfect assassin.” He said to himself, then he looked at her again, “I am. I’m in love with her. Damnit if Heero finds out he’ll kick my
ass. Hell they’ll probably all kick my
ass. IAHeen! Ana tuht.” [Damn! I’m
lost.] He said in Arabic.
“Now how can you be lost in your own house?”
Kayley asked, when he saw her she smiled.
He was astounded.
“You…you understood me?”
“Yeah.
If you can find a language I don’t know I’ll sleep with you.” She said,
his mouth dropped open, “I was only being sarcastic. Calm your fragile nerves Quatre.”
“I got that. But god, that’s something I’ve never heard before.” He said, she
smiled and laughed.
“Damn, the look on your face when I said
that. That was great.” She said, she
got out of bed and turned the light on, “Kayf Haalak?” [How are you?] she
asked, he smiled.
“Bi-khayr.” [Fine.] he said, she sighed.
“You don’t sound fine. Are you okay?” she asked, she took his hand
and sat him on the bed and sat next to him.
His heart was racing, his palms were sweating, though she didn’t know
it, she was torturing him. He wanted to
tell her what was bothering him, be he wasn’t sure she’d react well to it.
“I’ve been thinking too much lately.” He
said, knowing how stupid it sounded but it was the truth, he’d been thinking
about her a lot.
“Oh I see.
Well it happens. I’ve exhausted
myself thinking about things. Usually a
nice walk clears my head. Do you want
to take a walk? It might help.” She
suggested. He really didn’t think
taking a walk with her would clear his head of her, but it was time with her
and he didn’t mind it at all.
“Okay.” He said and they changed and went
for a walk. While they walked she held
his hand, and he was going crazy.
“Do you feel better?” she asked, not even
realizing that she was the reason he was even awake at that hour.
“Not really.”
“Oh.
I’m sorry. Is there anything
else I can do?” she asked.
“No, it’s all okay. But it looks like it’s going to rain, we
should head back.” He said, and they headed back to his house. But as they walked it began to rain and they
ran as fast as they could and when they got to his home they went inside and
stood there dripping and laughing.
“Now I’m too awake to get back to sleep.”
Kayley said, and Quatre led her to his bathroom to dry off.
“Same here.
We could sit on the couch and watch movies the rest of the night. We just have to be quiet, Ellen is probably
asleep.” He said and when they were dry Quatre went into the linen closet and
grabbed a blanket and they sat on the couch covered by the blanket and put in a
movie. Little did they know that Ellen
was in the kitchen getting a glass of water and heard the whole thing. She peeked around the doorway to see them.
“What
is going on here? Could there be
something between them?” She thought, and she quietly went back to her
room.
The next morning Ellen came down and found
them both asleep, Kayley with her head on Quatre’s shoulder and Quatre with his
head on Kayley’s head. Ellen left them
alone. But at 10:00 Duo came over and
when he saw them he laughed and decided to tease them. He sat next to Kayley, pulled some blanket
on and placed his head on her shoulder and acted asleep. Kayley opened her eyes and felt that there
was a head on her shoulder she looked to see Duo pretending to be asleep and
being bad at it.
“Duo what the hell do you think you’re
doing?” she asked, and Quatre immediately woke up and looked around.
“What were YOU doing?” Duo asked of her,
implying that something intimate had happened between the two.
“Sleeping.”
“Me too.” He replied.
“Like hell you were. You’re a really bad actor.” She said and Duo
stuck his tongue out at her.
“Duo what is it?” Quatre asked.
“Well do you remember all six of us were
supposed to do something today? And we
were all to meet here at ten. I’m here
and I find you two asleep. You might
want to get up because if Heero sees this he may think something happened and
kick some ass.” Duo said and Quatre stood up followed by Kayley.
“Oh yeah.
Now I remember. I guess I should
change then huh?” she said and she went to change her clothes.
“So buddy.
What happened?”
“What?”
“Did you sleep with her or something?”
“No.”
“Come on man you can tell me.”
“I didn’t sleep with her.” Quatre said, and
he rubbed his eyes and yawned.
“You…you love her. Don’t you?” Duo asked, and Quatre wasn’t sure how to
respond. He did love her, but he didn’t
want to tell anyone, “You do, don’t you?”
“I…well I…” Quatre started, then he realized
he had to tell her, “I’ll be right back.” He said and he ran up the stairs to
her room and knocked on the door.
“Who is it?” she asked.
“It’s me.
I…I have to talk to you.”
“Hang on one second while I get my shirt
on.” she said and moments later, “Okay, come in.” she said and he opened the
door. But when he saw her he was
speechless, she had a gray turtleneck on that revealed every curve on her body,
and jeans that somehow seemed to make her simple outfit look spectacular. He stared at her, “Well, what did you want
to talk to me about?” she asked, he kept staring at her.
“Shaklak Hilw.” [You look great.] he said,
and she blushed.
“Shukran. [Thank you.] But what did you want to talk to me about?”
she asked.
“Umm…nothing. It was nothing.” He said and he left. She stood there dazed at what had just happened, “Damnit!
I chickened out! Damn!” he
thought. He went back downstairs and
saw that Wufei had arrived, “Hi Wufei.”
“Hello Quatre.” He replied.
“I need to change, I’ll be out in a minute.”
Quatre said and he went into his bedroom and changed his clothes. Kayley came down the stairs and stood with
Duo and Wufei.
“Good morning everyone.” She said and Duo
turned around to look at her and was utterly astonished.
“Who are you?”
“Ha ha!
Very funny!” she said sarcastically.
Then Quatre walked out and Duo grabbed Kayley’s body and held her very
tightly.
“That’s it Quatre! I’m stealing your girlfriend!
She is way too hot for you!” Duo exclaimed. Wufei did not find it at all amusing, Quatre laughed quietly. Then Duo tripped over his own feet and they
both fell to the floor. Both Duo and
Kayley hit their heads on a hard wood table and were both knocked unconscious. Heero and Trowa walked into the house, and
had questioning looks on when they saw the unconscious bodies.
“What happened to them?” Heero asked.
“Duo was clowning around and tripped over
his own two feet and took the girl with him.” Wufei explained, and Heero
nodded. Heero went and stood Duo up and
Quatre stood Kayley up and they both tried to bring them back to
consciousness. Quatre’s heart was
pounding even more now as he held her limp body. Her eyes opened and she blinked many times.
“Oww.
My head.” She said and Quatre laughed.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
“Fine, just fine.” She said, and she leaned
on Quatre as she got the feeling back in her limbs. Once Duo was up he looked around and laughed.
“Quatre slept with Kayley last night.” He
said, sounding like a child. Kayley
looked at Duo and then at Quatre.
Heero’s eyes showed fury and Wufei and Trowa were wide-eyed and
dumbfounded.
“You did what?” Heero yelled.
“I did not sleep with her!”
“He didn’t.
Unless I somehow wasn’t present when he slept with me. And that I doubt.” Kayley said, still
leaning on Quatre. Heero grunted, “He
didn’t! I think I would know
if…something like that happened! I
swear we did nothing of the sort!” she said and Heero let it go.
“Duo what the hell were you doing?” Heero
asked, and once Duo was in his right mind he answered.
“I was just playin around!” he said and
Heero put a gun at Duo’s head. Kayley
grabbed the gun and looked at them.
“No.
Got it? Restrain yourself
Heero. Violence is only the answer when
you’re sick of trying to negotiate.
Cool it.” She said and she threw his gun at him and he caught it, “Duo
if you ever say that again, I will personally see to your destruction. Is that clear?” she said, and Duo nodded.
“Okay, now that that has been settled. Where do we want to go?” Quatre asked.
“Let’s go to Friday’s.” Trowa suggested.
“Okay that’s one for Friday’s. Any other suggestions?” Quatre said.
“Let’s let the lovers choose.” Duo said.
“Duo you’re asking for it big time.” she
said, “I don’t believe I’m anyone’s lover.
Unless I’m missing something major.” She said and Duo burst out in
laughter.
“Is Friday’s good for everyone?” Quatre
asked.
“Yeah that’s fine.” Heero said, watching
Quatre and Kayley. Duo needed to tease
Quatre and Kayley more; he just couldn’t help it.
“But Quatre I bet no one here blames you if
you did sleep with her. I mean look at
her, she is really really hot!” he said and Kayley wanted to kill him but she
restrained herself. Kayley decided to
make it as straightforward for him as possible.
“I give up.
If you want to think that that is what happened, then bloody hell think
it! Just shut your mouth and keep it to
yourself!” she said, and Duo went silent.
“Well now that that is settled, let’s go for
lunch.” Trowa said. And they went to
their cars and drove to the restaurant.
Heero sat in his car.
“How
far will their relationship go? What if
that happens? Then what? What would happen to the team? Would we gain a pilot or…lose a pilot?” he
thought, then it hit him, “We’d gain a
pilot. She’s all alone in the world, or
at least she was, she has us now, but that’s it. We’d gain a pilot. Or
have we already gained her and we just don’t know it?” he thought. He grunted and drove on. Kayley was in the passenger’s seat and
Quatre was driving. He laughed and she
looked at him oddly.
“What is so funny?” she asked him.
“You.”
“Me?
What did I do?”
“What you said to Duo. That was funny.” He said and she smiled.
“It was better I said that then if I just
said ‘okay Duo you’re right’ or something stupid like that.” She said.
“Yeah well if you said that Heero might have
head both our heads.” He said.
“So what did you want to tell me a while
ago. I know you had something to say,
you just wimped out on me.” She said, he thought.
“So do
I tell her or not? I can’t.” he
thought, “It was nothing, really.
Nothing important.”
“You’re such a bad liar. But I’ll let it alone. Turn here.” She said as he almost missed the
entrance to the restaurant. They saw
Wufei pull into a parking spot next to them.
They walked in and a waitress seated them. They sat at a big round table and Quatre sat next to Kayley. They ordered their drinks. As they waited for their drinks Kayley had
to move a wisp of hair out of her face and Quatre saw something on her palm.
“Hey what’s that?” he asked.
“What?” she asked.
“In your palm, what is that? A scar?” he asked, she looked at it, closed
her eyes remembering the event.
{“It’s
almost lock down. I have to get
ready. I hope this works.” Said a seven
year old Kayley. The small girl stood
by the window waiting for the bars to go away and for the actual window to come
down, “Five…four…three…two…one.” And the mechanism could be heard, the bars
moved up and the window moved down. The
small Kayley put her hands under the window, and when the window touched her
hand, the blade shot into her hands cutting though skin and muscle and bone.}
Kayley
clenched her fist and opened her eyes.
“It’s nothing. Nothing you need to concern yourself with.” She said and Quatre
didn’t believe her.
“No really what’s that from?” he asked; now
Duo and Heero were curious. They tried
to see the scar.
“It’s nothing.” She said, but now they all
wanted to know.
“What’s wrong?” Trowa asked Quatre.
“There’s this big scar in her palm and she
won’t tell us what happened.” He said.
Kayley saw more of the memory flash before her.
{The
small Kayley held in the urge to scream as she felt her hands being torn apart
by the sharp blades. She had to keep
going with her plans. She pushed the
window up with all her strength and climbed out and ran. Then she heard a man yelling and a woman was
chasing after her. Before the girl knew
it she was face to face with the pavement.
Then she felt a sharp pain in her arm and then all blackness.}
“I…I
need to take a walk.” She said, and she got up from the table, and Quatre
grabbed her arm.
“Are you okay?”
“I’ve been thinking too much. And unlike you, walks tend to help clear my
head.” She said and she left, leaving them all dumbfounded. Heero saw the look on Quatre’s face, and he
suddenly realized that Quatre did indeed love her.
“Quatre.” Heero said.
“What?”
“Go after her.” He said and Quatre smiled
and left. He found her sitting under a
tree.
“Mind if I sit here?” he asked, she looked
up at him and nodded. He sat down next
to her.
“Tell me something. What was your childhood like?” she asked.
“Umm…it was okay.”
“No, I mean like did you a loving family,
did you have brothers or sisters, did you have friends, did you have a best
friend you could tell everything to, could you talk to your parents?” she said,
he looked at her and thought.
“Well, yes.
I suppose I had all of that. But
my mother died after having me, so really it was me and my older sisters and my
dad, though my dad was sort of a work-a-holic.” He said, and she sighed.
“You see, I didn’t have any of that. I had a family that hated me. I had no siblings, no friends. I didn’t have anyone I could tell anything
to. I wasn’t permitted to speak to my
father. He HATED me! Only once had he ever seen me as his
daughter and not as his project.” She said, and she wanted to cry, but she had
forgotten how. He then moved in front
of her and knelt over her lap. He put
his hands on her face and looked into her eyes.
“You mustn’t cry. It’ll be okay. You’re
away from all that now. You’re here
with the other pilots and me…. It’s all
going to be okay.” He said. She held
out her hands with her scarred palms facing up so he could see. He didn’t expect both hands to have the
scars.
“You want to know where these came from?”
she asked.
“Yes.”
“I got them when I was seven. I wanted out of the whole thing. I had a plan, and it would have worked if I
hadn’t forgotten about the security cameras that surrounded the house. But my plan involved the lockdown at night
when windows replaced the bars. As the
bars moved up, the windows moved down, and when the windows were in place, they
shot down sharp blades that prevented the windows from being opened. I found a glitch in the system and decided
to take advantage of it. I found that
the windows stopped when they touched something and the blades shot down
immediately, it assumed it was in place.
I needed to work fast, so I couldn’t use an object, I had to use my
hands so I could push it up and climb out quickly. The time came and I was ready, then the second the window touched
my hands, the blade shot down almost right through my hands. It tore my skin, muscles, bones; I almost
lost half of my hands that night. I
pushed the window up and climbed out. I
ran like hell, but my father opened the door and yelled for my aunt Elizabeth
to run after me, since she was the fastest.
She somehow got me down to the ground and my father stuck a needle in my
arm to sedate me. I was out before they
got me back to the house. For weeks
after that I was beat senseless, I didn’t even know which way was up.” She
said, she looked down. Quatre held her
hands in his own, and leaned toward her and gently kissed her forehead.
“Everything is okay. You’re away from all of that. You’re safe with me. It’s okay.
I promise.” He said, and all the while his heart was racing, just being
near her made him want to kiss her lips.
But he knew he couldn’t. She
leaned in and rested her head on his chest.
“I want to cry. But I can’t remember how.” She said softly. He put his hand on the back of her
head. She wrapped her arms around his
waist and sat there in his comforting arms.
Then they could hear footsteps.
“Hey
you two. The drinks are here and they
are taking food orders.” Wufei said and Quatre got off of Kayley and helped her
up. She walked with him; he held her
hand tightly. But she couldn’t look at
him, she had just told him something she had never told anyone. And she realized just how much she could
trust him. They went back to the table
and no one said a word to them. Once
they all ordered their food and the waitress left they looked at her. Duo held up his glass.
“Here’s to a softer, more emotional, perfect
assassin.” He said and he lifted his glass to her. She blushed and lifted her glass.
“Cheers.” They said. She smiled.
“Fee SaHHitak!” [Cheers!] she said and
Quatre looked at her and smiled.
“Ilaa anti.” [To you.] he said and she
laughed. The other pilots were
dumbfounded.
“Ya know what? I’m not gonna ask.” Duo said and Kayley laughed at him.
“It’s Arabic Duo.” She said.
“Oh I see.
And you two can speak Arabic?” Duo asked.
“Yeah.
We just did. Didn’t we?” Quatre
said.
“So how do you say I love you?” Duo asked,
and Kayley and Quatre looked at each other.
“I’m not sure. He might know.” She said pointing to Quatre.
“I think it’s ana…ana…ana uHibbak. Yeah that’s it. Ana uHibbak.” He said and Duo smiled mischievously at them,
“Duo. Shut up. You asked and I answered. That’s it.
It didn’t mean anything.” He said and Kayley understood.
“I see what’s going on. Duo that is not funny. You shouldn’t joke around like that with me,
it’s not even close to funny.” She said and Quatre wondered what was going on
in her head. But Duo did stop talking
and let it go. Then the food came. She ate in silence while the other pilots
talked about anything that came into their minds. Heero was staring at her the whole time; there was something
about her that made him wonder. Once
everyone was finished eating Heero went to Kayley.
“I need to talk to you.” He said, she was
surprised, but she nodded and went with him.
He took her to the large room where people waited to be seated, luckily
for them no one was in there. He sat
her down on a bench and then sat next to her, “Can I ask you something?”
“I suppose.”
“How…how did you get pulled into becoming
what you became?” he said, she stared at him.
She tried to think of some way out of it, but she realized that maybe
she needed to tell him what happened to her.
“I…I wasn’t pulled into it. I was born into it.” She stated, he half
expected that to be her answer.
“So what did they do to you?” he asked, but
she laughed, which was not what he expected.
“There’s not enough time for me to get into
it here.”
“Then we’ll make time. I want to know how alike we really are. Tell me what they did to you.” He said, she
smiled.
“My training was probably exactly like
yours.” She said, avoiding having to give him an in depth answer. But he wouldn’t accept it.
“It couldn’t have been. You’re a lot stronger than me.” He said, she
knew exactly why that was so. She put
her head against his head and whispered softly to him.
“I’m stronger than you because I have not
been one hundred percent human since I was four years old.” She said and she
stood up and rolled up her sleeves and showed him the long scars on her arms. He hesitated and then traced the scars with
his index finger; they went up to her shoulders. He then stood behind her and traced them through her shirt down
her spinal cord and then to her waist.
She turned around and she traced down her leg to show him that the scars
were all over her body. She then took
his hand and put it on the back of her head, “Everywhere.” The other pilots had watched him trace along
her body and were wondering what was going on.
They couldn’t hear what was being said, but what they were seeing was a
little disturbing.
“I want to see the rest of them.” He stated
flatly.
“Not here.
Another time perhaps.”
“But that doesn’t answer my question. What did they do to you to make you what you
were?”
“I really don’t want to answer you. But maybe if you’re nice to me I’ll write it
down someday and then you can read it.” She said, and she went back to the
table and received curious looks from the other pilots, “What?” she asked.
“What the hell was that?” Duo asked.
“He was asking me a question.”
“Oh really.
And what did he ask you?” Wufei asked, she sat down next to Quatre.
“He asked me about my training.” She said
and they wondered what her answer was.
“So what was with him tracing along your
body?” Quatre asked quietly, she sighed.
“He also asked why I was stronger than
him. I told him, but it makes more
sense if I showed him. So I did. I wasn’t about to strip right there to show
it all, so he traced along the scars to get an idea.” She said, they looked at
each other. Heero walked in and sat
down, Duo smiled.
“Seems to us that you have a crush on
Quatre’s girlfriend!” Duo said, and Kayley sighed, realizing that the only way
to make them believe what she said, was to tell them and show them.
“Listen if you guys can wait ‘til we get
back, I’ll tell you everything and show you everything. I’ll explain everything to you.” She said
and she sighed, ran her hands through her hair and closed her eyes.
“She
hasn’t yet said anything to Duo about his calling her my girlfriend. I wonder why. Maybe she’s just ignoring it.” Quatre thought, he stared at
her wondering what she could be thinking.
“You’re
an idiot! You’re getting way too close to these people! This is not what you were trained to
do! You were not trained to be like
this! You were not trained to love,
which believe it or not is what you feel for that boy! You’re making a big mistake! You’re getting WAY too close!” said a brutal
voice in her head. She had always heard
that awful voice telling her what had always been the truth, but in a harsh and
cruel way.
“Just leave her alone.” Came another voice, a kinder voice. Kayley had always heard these voices and
they had always confused her, “Just go away.”
“I can’t, we’re a part of her, both of us are a part of her. And together we make up this messed up and
disconcerted person. This person who is
being a total idiot and getting too close to these people!” the voice yelled.
“Leave her alone! And so
what if she is getting close to them?
It is good for her. She needs friendship,
she needs love. She needs that to be
able to keep on going as a human!”
“But that’s the thing.
She’s not a human. She’s a
fucking android! An experiment in
advanced robotics! She is not a bloody
human! She was not created this way to
love. She was created to kill!” said
the harsher voice.
“Don’t listen to her Kayley.
You can love. Look how far
you’ve come in the past three weeks. You’ve
grown so much. You love Quatre, and he
loves you.” Said the kinder voice.
Kayley had become confused; she didn’t know which voice to listen
to. The voice of her head, the harsh
voice, or the voice of her heart, the kind voice.
Kayley
opened her eyes to see all five gundam pilots staring at her. She felt stupid. The voices in her head never ceased, she heard them in the back
of her mind all the time.
“Are you okay?” Quatre asked.
“Yeah.
I’m fine.” She lied.
“Are you sure? You didn’t look fine.” Quatre said, Kayley put her hands on her
lap and sat up straight. Quatre put his
hand on hers; she looked at him, unfamiliar with the feeling that had rushed
through her.
“Yeah, I’ll be fine.” She said. Soon they left and went back to Quatre’s
house. Kayley led them to her room to
show them what she showed Heero. They
sat down on the bed in the brightly-lit room, and she sat in a chair opposite
them, “I was born into this business so to speak. I had absolutely no choice in the matter. There is one huge reason as to why I’m so
much stronger than Heero. And training
is minor. I suppose you could say I’m
not one hundred percent human. It’s
more like seventy-five percent.” She said.
“Say what?” Duo asked.
“When I was four my father had a team of
scientists insert wires and chips and the like into my body. These wires and chips take up fifteen
percent of my torso.”
“Holy shit.” Duo yelled. Quatre’s heart seemed to be breaking.
“What do these things do?” Wufei asked.
“They serve three functions. The first is basically to make me stronger,
faster, better able to absorb information, faster healing process, a higher
endurance for pain, and to just make me better. The second is to keep track of me; there were two master
computers in existence that traced the chips, one on our colony and one on earth. Our colony was destroyed by Wing Zero, so
that computer is gone, but there is still one somewhere here on earth. And the third was to keep me alive…for as
long as the wires and chips still functioned properly. As long as I’m not shot in the head or my
throat isn’t slit I’m stuck in this life until the wires and chips are either
turned off or they wear away and stop working or I somehow find a way to take
them out, which could in itself kill me.” She said, and she stood up and took
off her shirt. On her upper arm was a
green tattoo, it was an Irish harp and the words ‘Saorstát Éireann’.
“What’s that mean?” Quatre asked, inquiring
about her tattoo.
“It’s Irish. It means ‘Irish Free State’.
I don’t know why my father had to put that on there, but I don’t mind it
that much.” She said. Heero stood up
and went to her; he again traced the line from her wrist to her shoulder to her
back and to her waist. Her back was
covered with scars. Quatre’s heart went
out to her, he wished he could do something for her, “You guys done? I’m not taking my pants off.” She said, and
they nodded and she put her shirt back on.
“How long did it take to put it all in?”
Trowa asked.
“Well I’d say about a year or so. In the area of about a year.” She answered.
“How long did it take for you to recover?”
Quatre asked quietly. She smiled at
him.
“Another year. I wasn’t completely conscious until I was six, and when I was
awake I had to learn how to walk, I had to learn everything all over again. Oh and I almost forgot.” She said and she
felt around the back of her head then lifted the hair up, there was a small
straight scar.
“What’s that from?” Wufei asked.
“There’s a chip in my head. Sort of a master chip type of deal.” She
said. They sat in silence for a few
minutes before Kayley spoke up again, “So which one of you was it?” she asked.
“What?” Duo asked, completely lost.
“Which one of you guys pilots the Wing
Zero?” she asked. Heero looked at her,
“You? But it wasn’t you. Which one?
Okay so who built the stupid thing?”
“I did.” Quatre said, Kayley was very
surprised.
“You?
You built that dumb thing?”
“Yeah.” He said quietly.
“Why?” she asked, he didn’t know what to
say, “You built that thing, which means you were its original pilot, which
means you were the guy who destroyed our colony.” She said and Quatre sighed.
“Yeah that was me.”
“It has the Zero system in it right?”
“Right.” Heero said.
“I knew it!
I knew it the whole time! That
explains everything! So it was not you
Quatre, it was the system using you. I
know that feeling. That system is such
a total waste. It really is. Why do that to some one? Why have them use this system that has a
mind of its own, practically, after that system was in Wing Zero I knew that
that gundam pilot would end the wars. I
knew it. And it did too. That was you right Heero?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“Okay.
Just checkin. So then you
mastered the system?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“How long did it take?”
“A while, I’m not exactly sure how long.” He
replied.
“I don’t remember how long it took me. A very long time.” She said and Quatre
looked at her.
“Why did it take a long time for you?” he
asked.
“Because my system, the little son of a
bitch that it was, liked to play with my mind.
It played with me, toyed with me, used me. Mine was awful. It played
on my fears, on my memories, on my pain, on my illnesses. It hurt me a lot. Sometimes I was so sure that the thing had a mind of its own I
wouldn’t go in it. But that was just
mine.” She said, and they stared at her.
“Okay.” Quatre mumbled, Kayley decided to
lighten the mood.
“So Quatre Winner destroyed our colony. Well I’d never expect something like that
from you.” She said, Quatre blushed.
“Sorry about that.” He said, she laughed and
hugged him tightly.
“Sorry?
What do you have to be sorry about?
You’re the mysterious Wing Zero pilot who set me free. I am so indebted to you it is not even
funny! Shit man you’re the best! I love you!” she said, still hugging him
tightly. His heart was racing; he
didn’t know what to do.
“Umm…you’re welcome I guess.” He said, she
laughed again and she kissed his mouth and then when she let him go he was
dazed. She stood up, put her hand on
his head and messed up his hair.
“You’re the best. I don’t know what I’d have done if you hadn’t destroyed that
colony. Thank you so much.” She said
and the entire room was laughing at what she had just done. Hours had gone by and Heero, Duo, Trowa and
Wufei decided they’d better go home. So
Kayley and Quatre were left together.
They were sitting together on the floor in her room when Quatre suddenly
burst out laughing.
“That was the funniest thing that has ever
happened to me!” he exclaimed, she smiled slightly, “You are absolutely
wonderful.” He said and she sat there thinking.
“Both
voices said I love him. Both of
them. Even though they didn’t actually
say that they agree on something, they both said that I love him. But that doesn’t change the fact that I
don’t know how to love.” She thought.
Her training was racing through her mind, how she was told to never get
close to a target, to just never get close to anyone period. The voices started up again.
“Well
now you’ve done it! Shit! What the hell is wrong with you? How could you show them the scars, how could
you tell them about the operation? You
told them everything! How could you?”
the harsh voice yelled.
“Leave her alone. She can
do as she pleases. Don’t worry. You are not making a mistake in them. They will be with you; they are your
friends. You can trust them.” The kind
voice said.
“You don’t trust anyone.
Remember? You can’t afford to
trust anyone.” The harsh voice said.
“Kayley listen to me. You
don’t have to think like that anymore.
Your father is dead; he can’t make you think that way anymore. You have not listened to me in ten years,
listen to me now, you can tell them what you want. It no longer endangers your life to tell people the truth.” The
kind voice said.
Kayley
found that she was still in her room, sitting with Quatre. It was deathly silent, and she looked at
him. He had a worried look on his face.
“What’s wrong?” she asked. He remained silent for a few moments before
answering.
“Could I see those scars again?” he asked
nervously.
“I suppose.” She said and she stood up and
took her shirt off again. He put his
hand on her back.
“Do they still hurt sometimes?”
“No.
Not anymore.” She replied. He
took her hand and led her to the bed; he sat on it and signaled for her to lie
down. She lay down on her stomach and
he began to rub her back. His hands
running over so many scars from the operation, from bullets, from knives, from
what Quatre thought might be whips. But
he wasn’t sure, he just kept stroking her back, she eventually fell asleep. He stayed with her.
“I…I love you. But how do I tell you to your face?” he asked. He kissed her cheek, put a blanket on her
and sat in the chair opposite the bed and watched her sleep until he himself
fell asleep.
Two more weeks went by and it was February,
Quatre hadn’t told her what he wanted to tell her. There was going to be a peace ball in the palace of the Sanq
kingdom. And all the gundam pilots were
invited. Quatre asked Kayley if she
would go with him, but she was apprehensive at first. She did decide to go.
Quatre got her a gown for it, though the low cut back bothered her, she
didn’t want all her scars hanging out for everyone to see, but she figured it
wouldn’t matter. The day of the ball
came and Kayley was nervous about people seeing her. She didn’t want people to know she was on earth, she knew some
one would cause a scene.
“Okay I’m going to tell her tonight at the
ball.” Quatre said to himself while pacing around his room. He fixed his tuxedo and was ready to leave;
all he needed was Kayley. She was in
her room wearing a dark blue gown, Quatre also got gloves to go with the dress
so she could hide the scars on her arms, the gloves went all the way up to her
shoulders. Ellen had fixed her hair up
to make it look nice and put makeup on her as well. Kayley stood in the room, looking in a mirror and seeing how
different she looked.
“If I’m lucky no one will recognize me.” She
said and she left the room and went downstairs to meet Quatre. When he saw her he was amazed.
“Wow, you look beautiful.” He said. She blushed and smiled.
“Thanks and you look very beautiful
yourself.” She said and they both laughed.
“Very funny.” He said and she laughed at him
again, “Well let’s go. We don’t want to
be late.” He said and they left for the ball.
“Quatre?
Are you sure I’m not going to get in trouble for this? I really don’t feel like getting arrested
tonight.” She said and he grinned.
“I’m positive, you won’t get arrested. Trust me.” He said and she sighed. When they got there, there were twenty limos
with very important political figureheads climbing out of them. Kayley watched the politicians climb out and
she saw how she knew who they were.
“They’re not going to be happy to see me.”
She said, watching them carefully.
“Why?”
“Because I’ve killed their family members.”
She stated. He sighed.
“I see.” Then they pulled up to the front of
the castle and the valet helped Kayley out, Quatre handed him the keys, the
valet gave him a ticket and drove the car away. Quatre held Kayley’s hand and they walked in and saw Heero and
Relena together waiting for them.
“Relena this is Kayley O’ Conner. Quatre’s date.” Heero said introducing them
very quietly. Relena’s face went pale,
“Kayley this is Relena Darlian. My
date.” He said and Relena nervously extended her hand and Kayley slowly shook
it.
“Nice to meet you.” Kayley said to the
scared Foreign Minister.
“Likewise.” Relena said quietly, “There’s a
table for all of us. Now that you’re
all here, we can sit down.” Relena said, and she led them to a table where Duo
seemed to be getting on Wufei’s last nerve.
But when they saw Quatre and Kayley walk up they stopped. Some eyes widened when they saw her, and
some faces turned paler as she got closer.
“Hey there Kayley. Wow, you look wonderful!” Duo exclaimed, she blushed and sat
down, Quatre sat down next to her, “Hilde this is Kayley. Quatre’s girlfriend.” He said.
“Hi.” Hilde said and Kayley could feel how
much the ladies at the table resented her.
Quatre was getting worried.
“Hello.” Kayley replied.
“And this is Sally.” Quatre said, pointing
to Sally Po who was sitting with Wufei, “This is Catherine.” Quatre said
pointing to Catherine Bloom who was sitting with Trowa.
“Hi.” Kayley said, “These people are definitely not happy to see me.” She thought, she
looked at Quatre, “Hum laa yuHibb ana.” [They don’t like me.] she said, and he
sighed.
“It’s okay.
They’ll get over it.” he said and she sighed.
“Kayley start speaking English, I know you
know how.” Duo said, and Quatre smiled.
But Kayley did not. Suddenly a
pair of hands covered Quatre’s eyes, and Kayley looked to see a girl with long
platinum blonde hair and strange eyebrows standing over them.
“Dorothy what is it?” he asked. She took her hands away and bent down,
putting her head between Kayley and Quatre.
“I saw you walk in here hand-in-hand with a
girl. I couldn’t make out who it was,
so I came here to meet her.” She said and then she turned her head to see
Quatre’s date. What she saw was nowhere
near what she expected, “Oh my. Quatre,
this is your date? Well, this is not
what I expected to see. You took the
perfect assassin to a peace ball? Are
you crazy?” she asked.
“Yes I did.
Do you have a problem with that Dorothy?” Quatre asked, Kayley looked at
the girl’s angry face and wanted to burst out in laughter, but she restrained
herself.
“So who’s your target?” Dorothy asked
callously. Kayley was surprised by her
question.
“What makes you think I have a target?”
Kayley asked calmly.
“Why else would you be here?” she asked,
everyone at the table waited for Kayley’s answer.
“Okay, then my target is a girl of seventeen
or eighteen, with long platinum blonde hair, blue eyes and crazy eyebrows.”
Kayley said and all the pilots laughed.
“I am not your target!”
“You’re right because if you were…you’d
already be dead.” Kayley said peacefully, “Really my target is a girl of
seventeen, with short, curly strawberry blonde hair, blue gray eyes, pale skin,
she’s a short person, in a dark blue gown with long gloves matching.” She said
and Dorothy looked around for the person she was describing.
“Who?” she asked, and Kayley smiled.
“I was just seeing if you were paying
attention. I was merely describing myself. Lesson one in assassination, always know
what’s around you.” She said and Dorothy was silent, “I’m not here to kill
anyone.”
“How do we know that?” Hilde asked.
“You’re just gonna hafta trust me,” Kayley
replied, “I know how hard that must be.”
“Dorothy go back to your table.” Duo said,
“Hilde be nice, even Heero trusts her, if HE can trust her, WE can trust her.”
He said. Dorothy left and Kayley began
to massage her temples, and even through the gloves everyone could see her
muscles. An hour went by and once
everyone at the ball had eaten, a band came to play music. Slowly people went to dance together.
“So, do you dance?” Quatre asked Kayley.
“Yeah.
I’ll warn you it’s been a while.” She said, Quatre smiled and took her
hand and led her to dance.
“How long has it been?” he asked, she
thought.
“Four or five years. I last danced in Paris.” She said, he looked
curiously at her.
“Why would you dance in Paris?”
“At the Moulin Rouge. There were…targets there.” She said softly.
“Oh.
I see.”
“It’s okay, that was much more fast paced
than this. I like this. It’s nice and slow.” She said, and he
smiled. They danced, him with his arms
wrapped around her waist and her with her arms around his neck. His heart was beating rapidly as he held
her, “Are you okay?” she asked, noting his strange behavior.
“Yeah, I’m fine.” He said.
“They look very cute together.” Sally said
to Wufei as they danced, “It’s almost like they’re in love and neither one
knows that the other feels that way.” She said. Wufei wasn’t sure what Quatre felt for Kayley, but he knew there
was something.
“I need to talk to you later.” Quatre said,
and Kayley went silent.
“Okay.
I’m not in trouble am I?” she asked, he laughed.
“Why would you be in trouble?”
“I don’t know. That’s what you sounded like.”
“No it’s all good.”
“Okay.” She said. A while went by and Kayley was sitting alone at the table because
some one needed to talk to Quatre.
Heero sat next to her.
“Hey, are you having a good time?” he asked.
“It’s okay.
I was never a big fan of these types of things.” She replied, Heero
sighed.
“Me neither. Relena always gets pulled away to talk to politicians. It gets kind of boring after a while.”
“Well then we can keep each other
occupied. Dance with me.” She said and
they went to dance. Soon Quatre went
back to the table and found that Kayley wasn’t there. He went to Relena to see if she knew were Kayley went.
“Relena, have you seen Kayley?” he asked.
“Yeah, I believe she’s dancing with Heero.”
She paused, “Is it me or is there something between those two that I don’t know
about?”
“There is, but it’s not what you think. You see they are like…well they’re like
twins.” He said, Relena did not understand.
“But he’s Japanese and she’s…”
“Irish.
Not biological twins. But more
like they are twins in the sense that they are very much the same. They had the same past, the same training,
they’re both very strong, and they both are not good at showing emotion. Like that.” He explained.
“What about your relationship with her?”
“What about it?”
“Well what kind of relationship is it?” she
asked, he paused to think, realizing he wasn’t quite sure.
“I don’t know. I really don’t know what to call it.” He said. Then the song ended and Quatre and Relena
went up to Heero and Kayley. Quatre
smiled when he saw her, “Now I want to talk to you.” He said and he took her
hands and led her outside to a balcony.
“What is it?” she asked, he remained silent
or a few minutes.
“I want to tell you something. But promise you won’t laugh.”
“Why would I laugh?”
“I don’t know.”
“Okay so…what did you want to tell me?”
“Well…I…I wanted to tell you that…I…I’m in
love with you.” He said, she froze, her face turned white. Words she had never been told before filled
her ears and she didn’t know what to do.
She sat down on the railing of the balcony, he sat with her. She was shaking her head ‘no’, hoping he
wasn’t serious.
“You…you love me?” she asked, hoping he was
only joking, her mind went in all different directions at once.
“Yes.
I do.” He said, she jumped down.
“No.
You can’t. You…you just can’t.”
“Why not?”
“You don’t understand. I was not created to love. I’m not sure I even know how.” She said,
realizing that she was repeating the harsh voice in her head.
“You’ve done a great job so far. What you’ve become, is more than you were
created to be, why can’t you love as well?” he asked.
“I don’t understand love! I don’t know what it is! I don’t know what it feels like! I have never been loved and never learned to
love! That’s not what I was created to
do!” she said, and he was speechless.
Her eyes filled with tears that wouldn’t fall, and her body was
shaking. They stood outside for the
remainder of the ball in silence. When
the time came to leave, he drove to his home, and they were silent. When they arrived, they went inside, “I had
a nice time. Thank you.” She said and
she went up to her room.
Days went by and she stayed in her
room. She didn’t sleep, she didn’t eat,
she didn’t speak. She simply sat on a
chair staring at the walls. Quatre
tried many times to talk to her, but she would not let him in. Quatre was at work and the house was
empty. Kayley opened the door and
quietly walked out and left the house.
As she walked she looked at the house, remembering what had happened
there. She kept walking knowing that
she couldn’t look back. She walked for
blocks until she came to a small park; she sat in the grass up against a brick
wall.
The phone at Quatre’s office rang.
“Preventers this is Quatre Winner speaking.”
Quatre said.
“Quatre, it’s Ellen.” She said in an
exasperated voice.
“Ellen what’s wrong?” Quatre asked
worriedly.
“She’s gone.”
“Who’s gone?”
“Kayley…she’s gone!”
“She’s gone? Are you sure?”
“Yes, her door was open and I figured she
was around the house. But she is no
where. I’ve checked this place
thoroughly. She’s gone.” Ellen said,
Quatre’s heart stopped, “I’ll be right there.” He said and he hung up the phone
and ran out of his office. The other
pilots heard him run and wanted to know what was wrong.
“Quatre!
Quatre what’s wrong?” Trowa asked, Quatre stopped upon hearing his
friend’s voice.
“She’s gone. She…she’s gone. She
left.” He said and they didn’t know what to think.
“Why would she leave?” Wufei asked. Quatre sighed as he realized it was because
of what he had said to her that she left them.
“Because of me.” Quatre said quietly.
“What did you do?” Duo asked.
“At the ball…I…told her that I…I loved her.”
He admitted, and Heero understood everything.
“She couldn’t handle that. You told her something she’s never heard
before and she didn’t know what to do about it.” He said, summing up the situation.
“Yeah I suppose that could be it.” Quatre
said.
“Well, we can help you look for her.” Duo
said. Quatre smiled in thanks and they
left. When they reached Quatre’s house
Ellen was outside waiting.
“Sir, the neighbors said that they saw her
go that way.” She said pointing in the direction Kayley was seen walking
in. Quatre jumped out of his car and
ran. Then it began to rain; large
raindrops fell on Quatre as he ran. He
passed by a small park, and in it was a girl sitting in the grass, he
recognized it immediately as Kayley.
When she saw him she jumped up and began running.
“Kayley, please don’t run away from me!”
Quatre called. She stopped and turned
around.
“Why did you say that? Please just tell me why you said it!” she
said, begging for his help.
“Because I love you.” He said.
“How?
How is it you can even consider loving me? It doesn’t make any sense.
Everyone else is bloody fine and dandy to hate me and want me dead. How can you even imagine that you love me?”
she asked, Quatre couldn’t answer her.
They stood in the rain for what seemed like an eternity, then the other
pilots showed up. She looked at them
and back to him before turning to walk away.
Quatre went after her and she put a gun to his forehead, pushing him
back.
“Kayley, listen I…” he said, but she gently
put her finger on his lips.
“Stop!
Just stop! You don’t quite grasp
what you’ve done to me do you? I don’t
know anything anymore. I don’t know
where to go or what to do.” She said.
“You don’t have to go anywhere, you can stay
with me.” She couldn’t understand him.
“Tell me the truth. Because if you lie I will kill you. Tell me why you said it. Just tell me why.” She said. Heero noticed how afraid she was, her hand
at her side was shaking violently, but her hand on the gun never once moved.
“I said it because when you sort of…became a
real person. I started to like you a
lot. Then I fell in love. I know I love you.” He said, she put her gun
away and backed away from them.
“I actually believe you. I don’t believe this. I should kill you all. How is it I can trust you?” she asked
herself, then she put the gun back up against his head.
“But I thought you said you could trust me.”
Quatre said, not quite sure what was going on.
“Prove it to me. Prove to me that you meant what you said and that you’re not just
fucking with my head.” She said, and Quatre was speechless. He could think of only one way. He gently pushed the gun away from his head
and kissed her lips. Her gun fell to
the ground and she stumbled backward away from him, “What have you done to
me? Why the hell is this happening?”
she yelled, tears began to fall, tears that had been pleading to get out for
years. Quatre saw the agony she was in
and he hugged her, holding her tightly.
She stood there in his arms, crying more than she had ever cried in her
life. As Heero watched her suffering,
he realized how she was feeling. She
was suffering because Quatre told her that he loved her and she didn’t
understand. She didn’t want to hurt
anyone.
“Kayley listen to me. You can learn to love, you’ve learned
friendship and kindness. You can learn
love, trust me.” Heero said, she said nothing.
They took her back to Quatre house, the boys went to dry off in the
bathrooms and Ellen took Kayley into her room to dry her off. Ellen then came back down moments later.
“Master Quatre, you may want to see this.”
She said and Quatre followed her up and saw Kayley curled up in front of the
heating vent, “Do you want to talk to her?”
“No, you
talk to her. I’ll just wait here.” he
said. Ellen went into the room and went
to Kayley.
“Kayley,
what’s wrong honey?” she asked.
“Ellen I’m
so lost. I was so sure of everything,
and then Quatre came along and changed everything. Now I’m not sure about anything.
He…he says he loves me…” She started, and then stopped.
“Yes I
heard that.”
“He doesn’t
understand. He just doesn’t get it.”
She said and Ellen motioned for him to come in, and he did.
“Why don’t
you tell him how you feel?” Ellen asked her, she sighed.
“I can’t
face him now.” She said.
“Okay well
just tell me what you want to say, maybe it’ll help you feel better.” She said,
Ellen had set the two of them up.
“It’s just
that…well he says he loves me. I
don’t…I don’t know how to…love him back.
I don’t know how to love him; I don’t know how to love anyone. No one has ever loved me; they’ve only ever
hated me. And I don’t know how to
accept his love, and I don’t know how to tell him that I love him, only because
I don’t know what real love feels like.
I don’t know if what I feel for him is love or something else, and I
don’t know if how he makes me feel is love or not. I just don’t know anything.” She said, Quatre’s heart
stopped. Kayley stood up and turned
around, and when she saw Quatre, her face turned ghostly white. Ellen smiled.
“I think
I’ll leave you two dears alone.” She said, and she left the room and closed the
door. Kayley and Quatre stood there
staring at each other for ten minutes.
Her hair and clothes were dripping all over the floor.
“Is that
how you feel?” he asked, she took a while to answer.
“Yeah…I
think so. I just don’t know how to love
anyone. I never had a real example of
love until I met you. No one ever
bothered to show me kindness or compassion or love. No one ever bothered to take care of me or offer me a place to
stay. You taught me things I would have
never learned otherwise. You changed
everything I knew. And I feel
something, but I don’t know what it is.
I think it could be love but I’m just not sure.” She said, and he held
her hand.
“Well what
do you think it is? What does it seem
like to you?”
“Love. I think I love you.” She said, Quatre’s mind
went all over the place. “I’ve never
felt this. That’s probably very much
obvious.”
“Yeah it
is.” she lowered her head and sighed.
Quatre lifted her chin up and looked her straight in the eye; “It’s okay
to feel that way. Love is an essential
feeling.” he kissed her lips, and she was very much surprised and didn’t know
what to do. Quatre suddenly felt her
lips kiss his back. Her hands made
their way onto his face. She pulled away
and looked at him in a state of shock.
“You…you
really do mean it don’t you?” she asked.
“Yes I
meant it.” tears filled her eyes, and she moved closer to him and he held
her. She cried a little.
“You’re the second person in my entire life
who’s ever made me cry. That’s a real
accomplishment. You should be proud.”
She said, laughing and crying. She
kissed his lips slowly, and he returned her kiss.
“Now that’s what I’m talkin about!” yelled
Duo, who had opened the door to see them.
Both Kayley and Quatre ignored him and continued kissing each other
passionately. There was a crowd outside
the door watching them.
Later that night when everyone had gone
home, Kayley sat on her bed, trying to figure out what had happened. She had tried desperately to sleep, but it
wouldn’t come. She had suddenly
realized how much she needed Quatre.
She left her room and went down to his room. She lightly knocked on the door.
Minutes later Quatre appeared at the door, and smiled when he saw
her. He was wearing boxers and a
T-shirt, when she saw him she smiled.
“What can I do for you?” he asked.
“I couldn’t sleep. I was wondering if I could sleep with you.” She said, he smiled
and let her in. He closed the door
behind him.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
“All I could think about was what happened
today. I understood just how much you
mean to me, and just how much I need you.” She said, he held her hand and
kissed her.
“Well, if you want to sleep here. That’s fine.” He said and he climbed into
bed and she followed suit. She moved as
close to him as she could, and he held her.
“I love you.” She said softly. He kissed her forehead.
“And I love you.” He said, “Now try to get
some sleep. It’s been a very hectic
day.” And after twenty minutes she fell asleep in his arms, and after her, he
fell asleep.
Two weeks later Kayley still slept with
Quatre, she felt safer with him than she had ever felt before. He woke up early one morning. He stared at the strong girl sleeping next
to him, seeing her beautiful face in a state of dreamless sleep. Quatre looked at the clock, 6:01 AM, he
would have to get up soon to go to work.
She rolled over and was facing him; she opened her eyes and was staring
at his bare chest.
“Good morning Quatre.” She said laughing,
and he blushed and sank back down into the bed. Then the phone rang, Quatre picked it up and Heero’s face
appeared on the screen.
“Good morning Heero.” Quatre said, and when
Heero saw Kayley in the bed his face turned a very light red.
“I need to talk to her.” He said, and Kayley
smiled and climbed over Quatre to be closer to Heero.
“What?”
“Can I ask you a favor?”
“Yeah.”
“Would it be possible for you to bring me,
Trowa, Duo, Wufei, Quatre, Noin and Zechs to your gundam today?” he asked, she
was speechless.
“Say what?” she asked.
“Seriously, we need to see it.”
“Why?”
“Because it’s a gundam and we want to put it
in the hanger with the others if it’s okay with you.”
“Okay.
Wait, Zechs Marquise, that clown?
And Noin who?” she asked.
“Yes him.
And Lucrezia Noin.” He said and Kayley was stunned.
“Really?
That little Italian girl who visited my colony a long time ago, and
tried to be my friend?”
“I don’t know. So can we see it?”
“Okay, okay, okay. If you must.” She said sighing.
“Good then we’ll be at the house in an
hour.” Heero said then he hung up and his picture disappeared.
“Did you know about this?” Kayley asked
Quatre, Quatre shrugged.
“Heero never tells me anything. I’ve learned to go with the flow.” He said
and she rolled on top of him and put her hands on his chest. Then she rested her head on his chest and
sighed, he wrapped his arms around her body and held her tightly.
“I love you.” She said, and he smiled, “You
know what this means? We both have to
get up now.” She said.
<An
hour later>
The doorbell rang and Kayley answered it,
seeing Zechs at the door. She wasn’t
sure how she felt about seeing him, she knew he used to be a member of OZ and a
friend of Treize Khushrenada, the man who had a key role in making her what she
was. All six of them walked in. She greeted them with a smile, and upon
seeing Noin smiled broadly.
“Holy shit!
It is you!” Kayley said and Noin recognized her immediately.
“It’s you.
You’ve grown, a lot.” Noin said, and Kayley blushed.
“So have you. And I understand you’re a pilot now, that’s amazing!” She said.
“Yeah I am.
I understand you’ve done some amazing things yourself, Moulin Rouge
girl. What were you called again? Oh yeah, Demoiselle Trépas.” She said.
“Your French sounds good. Yes, that was me, but where in the hell did
you get that from?” Kayley asked. Noin
smiled.
“Treize’s files. There’s a boatload of info on you.” She said, and Duo seemed
interested in the conversation.
“YOU were a Moulin Rouge girl? That is so cool! Did you sing and everything?” he exclaimed, then suddenly
everyone was listening.
“Yes I was.
I sang and everything. He has a
lot of info on me does he? I wonder how
he’d feel to a visit from his favorite soldier.” She said.
“That would be near to impossible
considering he’s dead.” Zechs said, she looked at him and smiled.
“So you speak? He’s dead? Damn, I wanted
to kill him. How’d he die?” she asked
intently. Zechs simply pointed to
Wufei; “You killed him Wufei? Wow, I’m
amazed. Mobile suit fight?” she asked,
Wufei nodded, “That is so cool.”
“What does Demoiselle Trépas mean?” Quatre
asked.
“It means lady death. Well, shouldn’t we get going?” she said and
they all nodded and they left for their cars, “I’m gonna need to drive Quatre. Guys, follow me.” She said and they drove
off. At a stoplight Kayley pulled a
card out of her pocket and handed it to Quatre, “Hold this for me.” She
said. On the card was her picture and
some information on her. An hour passed
and they were in the middle of a forest.
She stopped the car and got out.
“Where is it?” Heero asked, she smiled and
led them through a small field of trees to a clearing. In the clearing lay a huge mobile suit,
covered camouflage netting. She began
to pull it off of the monster like suit.
She climbed up to the cockpit door.
She realized she didn’t have her key card.
“Quatre?
Where’s the card I gave you?” she asked and she climbed down to get it
from him, “Thanks.” She said, she climbed back up and inserted the key card in
a small slot and the door opened. She
got inside, turned it on and sat it up.
She sat there looking around when she heard a beep, “What the hell? I have orders? There’s no one alive to give me orders!” she said and she typed
in her pass-code and found very important orders.
“Kill these targets! Don’t mess up!” a voice said, then a list of
five names came on the small screen.
“Oh fuck!
When did I get these orders?” she asked, and she typed in more,
“Today? That’s…that’s impossible! Fuck!
I’m in deep shit now!” she said, and Quatre climbed up to see what was
wrong.
“Hey what’s wrong?” he asked, she looked at
him with fear in her eyes, “Are you okay?”
“No.
I’m fine…I’m fine. I…I got
orders today. My father is alive…and he
wants me to kill…the five gundam pilots.
If he comes after me he is gong to kill me.” She said, and she deleted
the orders, “He’ll never get me to hurt you.” She said and Quatre kissed her, a
tear fell from her eye, she broke away from him, “If he found me here then that
means that he knows everything. He
knows everything I did these past few weeks, what I’ve done with you. He probably knows it all.” She said quietly.
“Oh Kayley, it’s okay. I won’t let him hurt you. I promise, I’ll protect you.” He said and
she hugged him.
“I don’t deserve you. I really don’t.” she whispered.
“Kayley is everything all right?” Heero
asked climbing up to them.
“Yeah, I’m fine. It’s all okay, I should probably get down there and tell you what
you need to know.” She said, she sighed and stood up. Heero climbed back down and Quatre stopped her.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” he asked, she
smiled and kissed his cheek.
“As long as I have you, I’m fine.” She said
and she climbed down and he followed her, “Okay what do you want to know about
my little devil here?”
“Is that what it’s called?” Duo asked.
“No.
This is Maaxah.” She said, Duo looked clueless.
“What’s that mean?” Duo asked, she thought.
“It’s almost like Shinigami. It’s an Irish word meaning many things, it
means ‘Crow’, ‘Battle’, ‘Great Queen of Phantoms’, ‘Mother of Life and Death’,
‘War Goddess’ and ‘Mother Death’.” She said and Duo smiled.
“That is so cool! That’s ALMOST like Shinigami.
Not quite.” He said. She
laughed.
“How do you spell that?” Zechs asked, he was
writing down the information she told them.
“M A C H A.” she spelled slowly. He wrote it down, “What else?”
“Classification and model number?”
“Mobile suit. O Z zero zero M S zero D six.” She said and he wrote it all down.
“Head height and dry weight?”
“Umm…head height is seventeen point three
meters, and dry weight is seven point six tons.” She said and he wrote it down.
“Generator output and thruster output?”
“Generator is four thousand one hundred
forty-nine kilowatts. And Thruster is
ninety thousand four hundred twenty-one kilograms.” She said and Heero’s eyes
shot wide open.
“Jesus Christ! What the hell! How do you
handle all that?” he asked.
“Because I’m good. What else?” she asked Zechs.
“Armor materials and Armament?”
“Okay, it’s Gundanium alloy, and it’s got
two vulcans, two beam sabers, two heat shotels, two machine cannons, and one
twin buster rifle. Which technically if
you think about it, it’s two buster rifles.” She said, Duo laughed, he was
really the only one who understood her humor.
“Good.
I think we can put it in the hanger.
If it’s okay with you.” Zechs said, and Kayley thought.
“I dunno.
I was seriously thinking of just getting my ass into outer space and
blowin it up. I really don’t want this
thing anymore…it causes me no end of trouble.” She said, she sighed, “I suppose
I’ll keep it around a little longer. It
may come in handy someday. Who knows?”
she said, and she looked at Zechs, “So how do you propose we get it there? Did you want me to fly it or what?” she
asked, and he thought.
“It would be faster if you flew it. Would you be able to do that?” he asked.
“I guess so…oh crap, that means I have to
turn it on!” she exclaimed, he nodded, as if it were an obvious point, “You
didn’t tell me that!” she said sarcastically, “Okay, okay.” She said and she
climbed up to the cockpit, and Quatre looked at her.
“Can I talk to you before you go?” he asked,
she nodded and he climbed up after her.
“What is it?” she asked, she sat down and he
stood over her.
“About your father…are you sure the orders were from him?” he
asked, she sighed.
“Yes.
I heard his voice telling me not to mess up. It was him.” She said quietly.
“But he won’t come after you, will he?”
“He probably will…he’ll probably come after
me and he’ll most likely kill me. I
cannot change that. I cannot stop him.”
She said.
“Why?”
“He holds power over me. He holds my fears in his hands and uses them
to control me, he uses my fears to beat me.” She said and she began to cry,
“That’s what power is…it’s holding some one else’s fear in your hand and
showing it to them.” She said.
“Hey Quatre! Get out of there! She
can’t pilot that thing with you in it!” Duo yelled, completely unaware of the
situation that had arisen in the cockpit of the gundam. Quatre sighed.
“Everything will be fine.” He said and he
climbed down from the gundam and got into his car.
A little less than a month had gone by, and
Kayley had stopped worrying about her father.
She started sleeping again because the thought of him being alive kept
her awake for two weeks. Quatre did all
he could to assure her that he wouldn’t let anything happen to her. It was a Saturday morning and Kayley was
sleeping peacefully next to Quatre, who was awake and watching her sleep. Then he heard the front door open and close,
and then heard a light knock on the bedroom door. Quatre slowly got out of bed and went to the door.
“Hi Heero.
What is it?” Quatre asked, Heero peered in the room to see Kayley
asleep.
“We wanted to talk to you…and her.” He said
monotonously.
“Who’s we?”
“The four of us pilots want to talk to you
two.” He said and Quatre grew nervous.
“Why doesn’t this sound good?”
“Don’t worry about whether it’s good or bad,
just get her up and get yourselves dressed.” Heero said and Quatre nodded and
closed the door. He went to Kayley and
sat next to her.
“Kayley.” He said quietly, “Kayley you have
to get up now.” He said, and her eyes opened and she was staring at his face.
“What’s wrong?” she asked, seeing his
worried look.
“The others need to talk to us. Don’t ask why, I don’t know.” He said, she
sat up and cocked an eyebrow.
“Okay.” she said slowly and climbed out of
bed and got dressed. Five minutes later
they came out to see Heero, Duo, Trowa and Wufei sitting in the living room
waiting for them, “Good morning gentlemen, now to get down to business.” Kayley
said, as though she were the one that called them there.
“Just sit down.” Heero said, she gave him
her own version of a death glare and sat down.
Quatre also sat down, “Now, it’s obvious what’s going on with you
two. And that’s all fine and dandy.” He
said.
“Did
Heero just say ‘dandy’?” Quatre thought to himself.
“But that does raise a very important
question.” Heero said.
“And that would be?” Kayley asked, they all
looked at her and saw how annoyed she had become with them.
“Are we going to lose a pilot or are we
going to gain a pilot?” Trowa asked, Quatre went wide-eyed.
“What?
How could you ask that?”
“We need to know.” Replied Wufei.
“Neither.
You’re not going to lose a pilot.
And you’re not going to gain a pilot.” She said monotonously.
“But…” Duo said, and she looked at him.
“I’m not joining you.”
“But you’re a great pilot. You could join with the Preventers.” Trowa
said.
“That fact that I’m a great pilot doesn’t
matter. I don’t like piloting that
thing. I hate that gundam. And I don’t
like being a pilot. It’s bad enough
it’s still in one piece. That gundam did things to me that I sometimes had to
spend weeks reversing. I don’t need it
fucking with my mind anymore, I got enough of that while I was growing up, I
don’t need anymore of it. I just don’t
want to pilot it anymore. It should be
destroyed.” She said quietly, the stunned pilots weren’t sure what else to say.
“But we really could use you. You’d be great on missions.” Duo said, and
Kayley smiled.
“You guys do fine on your own. You don’t need me.” She said, and they
stared at Quatre.
“Don’t ask me. I’m not gonna try to persuade her.” He said in his defense.
“Come on Quatre buddy. I’m sure you know of a few methods of
persuasion that might work on her.” Duo said smiling mischievously at him and
Kayley sighed.
“I know what you’re thinking of Duo. And it won’t work. There is NOTHING Quatre can do to change my mind. The fact of the matter is that that gundam
does terrible things to me. It…it…does
awful…awful things to me. Besides my
using it as a weapon of destruction…my father used it on me as another way to
torture me…not my body…it tortures my mind.
It changes me…if I’m in it for more than two hours it begins its
corruption. I’ve never come out of that
thing the same as when I went in it. It
has raped my mind in sickening ways.
It’s just a bad machine, I won’t pilot it anymore…unless I absolutely
need to.” She said quietly, they went silent.
They really didn’t want to change her mind anymore. Then something came flying on through the
window, shattering it. Then smoke came
out of it; they all covered their noses and mouths. But it was strong and they all fell unconscious.
Kayley woke up in a brightly-lit room,
hanging from the ceiling by chains on her wrists. She blinked a few times trying to figure out what had happened,
she looked to her left to see the five pilots locked in separate cages. Then one by one they began to wake up. When they saw her hanging from the ceiling
they got worried.
“Ah, the Demoiselle Trépas is awake.” Said a
voice. Then a tall and muscular man
walked into the room, laughing at them.
Kayley said nothing “I’ve noticed that you gentlemen have taken a liking
to her. But you…” he said looking at
Quatre, “You have done something that I cannot allow. You’ve gotten my angel of death pregnant.” The pilots’ eyes went
wide. Kayley stared at him, not at all
believing what he said. Then he went to
Kayley, seeing her disbelief, “Trust me, it’s true. You’re about a month pregnant.
But now, how do we deal with such a problem?” he asked, he then turned
to the pilots again, “Well I suppose the first course of action would be to
kill you five.” He said.
“No!
Don’t hurt them. Just let them
go.” She said, the man smiled and turned to her.
“Now tell me, how many broken ribs do you
have?” he asked, she didn’t answer him, “How many?” he yelled in her face.
“None.” She whispered, he punched her hard
and laughed.
“Now you have two. Keep talking and we can make it four.” He said, Quatre watched as
she had taken the punch without making a sound. He turned to the pilots again, “Because of you, my daughter may
never be the way she was before. I may
have to kill her.” He said, and Quatre’s heart stopped, “Percible, Charles,
Elizabeth, Rose, Harry! You can come in
now! Bring the computer!” he yelled and
within seconds the five people he called came in, one rolling a large computer
along as he walked. The man set it up
and smiled at Kayley.
“She hasn’t changed at all Cullin. That’s good.” The man with the computer
said.
“Yes well, before we begin, I want her to
know just how much trouble she is in.” Cullin said, he turned to Kayley, “This
will hurt a lot.” He said, he punched her in the face with his large hands, her
nose and lip began to bleed. He kept
punching her in the face until her eyes started to bleed, Quatre watched in
horror as the beautiful girl he watched sleep that morning was being beaten to
death by her own father. As he beat
her, one of the men watching was keeping an eye on Quatre and his facial
expressions.
“What
are we doing? We’re destroying love. How can we be this heartless? When did we become like this? He loves her, why are we destroying that?” he
thought, then one of the women looked at him.
“Charles, what’s wrong?” she asked.
“We’re making a mistake Elizabeth. Look at the blonde boy…look at his
face. He loves her, and we’re
mutilating that love. We can’t do
this…this is lower than everything else we did to her.” He said, and Elizabeth
cocked an eyebrow. Charles ran to
Cullin and stopped him, “Cullin, stop it now!
We can’t do this to them! Stop
this!” he said and her father stop beating her to look at Charles, Kayley’s
body was covered in bruises, yet she didn’t make a sound.
“Excuse me?
What did you say?” Cullin asked.
“We cannot do this. Don’t you see it?” he said pointing to
Quatre, “That is love…and we’re killing their chance at love! And just because you messed up your own love
doesn’t mean you have to destroy hers!” he said, and Cullin’s face turned red.
“I told you to never talk about that!” he
yelled, “This is different! This is
about obeying orders!” he yelled.
“Does obeying orders mean killing the ones
you love? That may have been true in
your case, but it’s not in Kayley’s!
She loves him and you want to annihilate that? How could you do that to your own daughter?” Charles asked.
“I told you, never speak of my deceased wife
again!” he yelled, then he slowly reached behind his back.
“Charles…look out.” Kayley said slowly, he
didn’t hear her, Cullin had the gun in his hand, “Charles!” Kayley tried to yell,
but it was inaudible. Cullin aimed the
gun and shot Charles in the head, killing him instantly. His body fell to the floor as bits of his
skull and brain flew about the room.
Kayley was shocked, she looked at the dead body on the floor, though he hurt
her just as they all did, he wanted to stop her father, he wanted to help
her. Cullin kicked the body aside,
threw his gun on the floor and signaled for Percible.
“Get the computer ready. Now we get rid of the unborn child.” He said
snickering.
“What?” Quatre yelled, “Why?”
“Because Quatre, it poses a huge
problem. If I let Kayley live, I can’t
have her taking care of a child while she’s supposed to be assassinating. It would get in the way.” Cullin said
nastily, Quatre had never in his life wanted to kill anyone more than he wanted
to kill Kayley’s father. Wufei, who was
right next to Quatre, could feel the hate burning inside the Sandrock
pilot. Kayley hung there, knowing there
was nothing she could do to save the unborn child.
“I’ve got the image. Now, you should stab her right about…” he
said looking at the screen and then went to Kayley and unbuttoned her jeans and
let them fall to the ground, he took a pen and drew a line across her lower abdomen,
“here.” He said. Kayley’s eyes went
wide; her mouth was hanging open in disbelief.
They were going to perform an abortion on her without her consent.
“Father please. Don’t do this to me. I
swear to god I’ll do anything. Please,
don’t do this.” Kayley begged, and both the women in the room understood what
she was feeling. Cullin simply laughed
at her.
“And what do you propose we do with it?” he
asked, still laughing.
“Let them go, and give it to Quatre when
it’s born. I’ll stay with you, just let
them go and when the child is born give it to him.” She said quietly, Cullin
seemed to be kicking the idea around in his head.
“Cullin.
Do it. Let the child be born.”
Rose said, “Give it to its father when it comes. Just let the child live.” Cullin looked to his daughter once again.
“You’re just like your mother. She would have come up with the same
solution. A solution where no one gets
hurt too badly. Well sorry Elizabeth,
sorry mother, but this is just the way it is.” He said, Rose went to her
daughter Elizabeth and sought comfort, which Elizabeth gladly gave.
“Brother, you’re making a mistake. Charles was right; this is lower than
anything else we ever did to her. This
is madness.” She said, and Cullin sighed.
“Listen Elizabeth this is how it’s going to
be. If you want to keep arguing I can
kill you like I did Charles, or you can shut up and stand in the back and not
watch. I’m going to kill the child and
that’s that.” He said, he went to a counter and grabbed a knife, he then made a
fire in a sink and held the knife over the fire. The pilots sat in the cages and could not move at all, what they
were seeing was insane and they were too stunned to move. Cullin went to Kayley and took the point of
the knife and cut lines into her palms so that there was a cross shape in her
palms, “Now your palms show the mark of two stupid moves. Trying to escape and getting pregnant.” He
said, her hands bled down her sleeve.
She could feel the burning flesh in her hand, and it hurt to no
end. He then pushed her shirt above her
bra and went back and held the knife over the fire one last time. He went back to her, he held the knife up to
the pen mark, and she could feel her skin blistering, then without warning the
knife was forced into her abdomen. She
felt the flesh ripping, the burning of her own skin, she felt it tear through
everything. She screamed in pain, Rose
and Elizabeth watched in horror as a woman’s heart cried out in agony as the
knowledge of the death of her unborn child came painfully to her. Cullin left the knife in and looked to
Percible, whose face turned ghostly white.
“What have we done?” he asked himself.
“Percible, is the child dead?” Cullin asked,
and Percible looked to the screen sorrowfully.
“Yes.
It’s gone.” He replied, Cullin then looked to Kayley and took the knife
out of her gut. She wasn’t screaming
anymore, but she crying her heart out.
Blood flowed freely from the wound down her legs and dripped onto the
floor. Quatre was speechless, tears
fell from his eyes and he didn’t even realize it. His heart was broken, he stared at the betrayed woman hanging
from the ceiling, her tears seemed to never end, and he couldn’t blame
her. Cullin went to his daughter, put
her pants back on her, pulled her shirt back down and laughed, “Cullin, I think
she’s dying. I think you took too
drastic measures on this whole thing.
You’re killing your own daughter, mine and Elizabeth’s and Charles’
niece, Rose’s and Harry’s granddaughter, you’re killing her.” Percible said,
and Cullin went and unlocked the chains and Kayley fell to the floor. A pool of blood suddenly surrounded her; she
landed on top of the gun her father had thrown after he shot Charles. Kayley’s bleeding hand had fallen onto
Charles’ hand. Kayley’s face quickly
became covered in blood, it got in her hair, she was completely covered in
it. Rose had begun to cry, as did
Elizabeth and Harry, who had said nothing since he entered the room. Rose ran to Kayley’s body in an attempt to
help her. Rose began to run her fingers
through Kayley’s blood matted hair. She
then kissed the back of her head.
“I’m so sorry.” She said and she stood up
and faced her son, “How could you do that to her? You bloody killed her!
How could you do that?” she asked.
Cullin looked at his mother, unable to answer. On the floor, Kayley felt the gun under her, she held Charles’
dead hand tightly, she pushed herself up as best she could, blood dripping from
every part of her body. She slowly
wrapped her aching fingers around the gun and forced herself to stand up.
“Quatre look.” Wufei said, Quatre had
stopped looking, but then he looked up to see Kayley standing and alive.
“Father.
You always…t…t…told me…that…my enemy was…was anyone who was…after m…m…my
life. And that…I…I should always
k…k…kill my enemy…b…before my…enemy…kills me.” She stuttered, and she held the
gun up and aimed at him, “You are my enemy.
I…must always eliminate my enemy.” She stuttered and she shot at him,
hitting him between the eyes and killing him.
His skull and brain became scattered around the room, just as Charles’
had, “I am not your…angel. I…I am no
one’s angel.” She then shot Percible
and Elizabeth, killing them both instantly.
She saw Rose and Harry, “I…I believe we have never met. You…you must be…my…my grandparents. I wish I could…s…somehow explain this…but I
can’t.” she said stuttering and still in excruciating pain. She bent over her fathers body and went
through his pocket and took the keys, she then stumbled over to the cages. But she couldn’t force herself to stand
anymore. She fell to the ground. Rose and Harry went to help her.
“Harry, unlock those boys. This is ridiculous.” Rose said, and she sat
Kayley up, “Oh dear, it’s okay, everything will be okay.” Harry picked up the
keys and began to try each one on the lock to Trowa’s cage, once he found it he
opened the door and Trowa walked out.
He looked at the carnage around him and sighed. Harry proceeded to let Duo out and then Heero,
who ran to her and saw the true extent of the suffering she endured that day. Wufei was let out and finally Quatre, who
fearfully went to her. When Kayley saw
Quatre she immediately started to cry again, she couldn’t look at him. Her grandmother held her tightly.
“Wufei, call Sally! Get her here now!” Heero said, and Wufei
searched for a phone.
“There’s one over there.” Harry said,
pointing to a cordless phone, Wufei dialed Sally. As Wufei waited for Sally to be put on the phone, Kayley again
forced herself to her feet. She made her
way to the computer, she walked slowly, stepping over the bodies that littered
the floor. The gun she held tightly in
her hand was now aimed at the computer.
Then she lowered her gun and went to the keyboard. Typing slowly, she shut it down, and then
stood back and again aimed at it, shooting it with the last bullets left in the
barrel. Sparks flew and it began to
flame. She dropped her gun and lowered
her head, her body began to sway, she was going to fall. Quatre ran to her and held her, preventing
her from falling.
“Where are we?” Wufei asked suddenly.
“We’re at thirteen Georgian Court. Right outside the Sanq kingdom.” Harry said
and Wufei relayed the address to Sally, he then hung up and looked at them.
“She says she’ll be here in twenty
minutes. And that we should wait outside.”
“Did you tell her what happened?” Duo asked.
“No.
I told her some of the elements of it, but not what happened or who got
hurt.” He said, Quatre looked at him.
“Thanks Wufei.” Quatre said, as he held a
crying Kayley and he could nothing to comfort her. Heero looked around the room, the floor shining red with the
blood of five people, four of which were dead.
“She
killed her father and aunt and uncle without a second thought to any of
them. She feels nothing for them,
nothing at all for them.” Heero thought, he looked at her, crying and
bleeding. She was losing a lot of blood
and she was already looking paler and paler.
She wasn’t even standing on her own; Quatre was holding her up and
keeping her from falling.
“Come on guys, let’s get out of here. It’s starting to smell funky.” Duo said, and
they all went for the door, all except Rose and Harry. Quatre helped Kayley walk, which she was
failing at miserably.
“We’re staying. And whatever you hear, stay out.” Harry said, Rose smiled and
nodded.
“Just stay away if you hear anything.” She
said, and Quatre heard this and knew what they planned, but he could do nothing
about it. They continued and when they
were outside they found that it was pitch black, they could barely see each
other. Quatre tried to keep Kayley
awake, as she slipped in and out of consciousness, then she fell down
unconscious. He picked her up and held
her, waiting for Sally. Then they heard
sirens in the distance, and then they could see flashing lights. An ambulance stopped in front of the house
and as Sally climbed out Heero heard two gun shots from inside the house. Sally used her flashlight to see the boys
and she gasped when she saw Kayley.
Blood covered Kayley’s entire body, she didn’t look like the girl Sally
had seen at the ball.
“Get her into the ambulance!” she yelled,
they put her inside onto a bed and they all climbed in and the driver drove
away, “What the hell happened?” she asked, none of them wanted to answer. What they saw was sickening and disturbing
and they didn’t want to tell her about it.
“It was her father.” Quatre said quietly,
“He hurt her really badly.” He said and then he bent over Kayley’s body and
unbuttoned the pants and rolled them down a little to show the stab wound.
“What the hell? Oh Jesus…this is really low.” She said, and she put two and two
together, “She was pregnant?” she asked and Quatre nodded, “And so her father
performed a very sickening type of abortion.” She whispered, “Great…that’s just
wonderful. The knife was obviously put
in a fire. What the hell was he
thinking?” she whispered as she cut Kayley’s shirt off and examined the rest of
the damage, “Why?” she asked herself.
Days went by and Kayley sat on the bed
staring into space for most of the time she was awake. She really couldn’t believe what had
happened to her, she couldn’t understand it at all. Quatre went to her everyday and sat with her, when she wasn’t staring
off into space she was crying. What her
father had done to her was inconceivable.
She heard the voices at times while she stared off into space.
“Well
at least you finally got up the nerve to kill the bastard.” Said the harsh
voice. And a laugh could be heard.
“Playing both sides of the fence I see.” The kind voiced said
laughing.
“No…it’s just that, she had a point…he taught her that anyone
after her life was her enemy and that she should always kill her enemy. He was killing her and damn near did and she
killed him because he had become her enemy.” The harsh voice said, and still
laughter could be heard from the kind voice.
Then Kayley’s thoughts could be heard.
“You two aren’t fighting or giving me a headache. This is a moment that should go down in
history.”
“Oh shut up you!” said the harsher voice to Kayley.
“Be nice.” Said the kinder voice.
“I should name you two.
Just so I have something to call you.” Kayley thought. Both voices went silent.
“What? Name us? What would you name us?” asked the harsh
voice.
“Give me a moment to think about it…how about for the mean one we
call you Ruby and for the nice one we call you Jade? What do you think?”
“I like it. Jade. It’s pretty. And Ruby sounds nice too.” Jade said.
“It’s cool. Okay you can
call me Ruby.” Ruby said. And Jade
laughed.
“You’re actually being
nice for once. It’s amazing.”
“Shut up Jade! Oh and
Kayley?” Ruby asked.
“Yeah?”
“Great job killing your dad and Elizabeth and Percy. I think it was the smartest thing you’ve
ever done.” Ruby said.
“Yes, definitely a smart move on your part Kayley. I congratulate you for that.” Jade said.
“Thanks guys. Do you
realize you two just AGREED on something?
Damn it! This is a new experience
for me. Maybe now you’ll stop giving me
headaches and stop throwing me into schizophrenias. Do you think you can do that for me?” and Kayley would think no
more and hear them only in the back of her mind.
On a Sunday morning Quatre quietly walked
into the hospital room she was in and sat in the chair. He watched her sleep, though she slept less
soundly than on the morning before the incident. Suddenly she shot up and had a surprised look on her face. She saw him sitting there looking at her. She decided that it was no use crying, she
knew she couldn’t get back what her father had taken from her. She had started to think that it was her
fault that the child was gone.
“I’m so sorry.” She said quietly, Quatre
didn’t understand what she was apologizing for.
“What?”
“I’m so sorry. I could have stopped him from the start. My legs were free, but I couldn’t use
them. I knew I had the strength to beat
him, he’s not very strong, he just has a very hard punch, I could have stopped
him from the beginning. But when he was
near me I was helpless, it was almost like he could control me. I let him kill the unborn child because I
couldn’t fight back, I could do nothing but hang there.” She whispered, Quatre
went to sit next to her, he held her close while she seemed to become lost and
her heart shattered.
“It’s not your fault. Really everything will be okay. It was not your fault, he was an
intimidating man, I could understand being afraid of him.” He said, she sighed.
“Thank you.
But I still think that I should have done something before he could hurt
me like that.” She said.
“You killed him. And the other two, you finally got revenge on them for torturing
you so badly throughout your life.”
“There’s no amount of torture I could have
inflicted upon them that would even come close to the torture they put me
through. But I didn’t care anymore; I
just wanted so bad to kill them.
Elizabeth and Percible and my father as well as Charles all should have
been killed years ago, but I couldn’t do it then.” She paused and a thought
filled her head, “I was pregnant. I was
pregnant. We would have been
parents. Can you believe that?” she
asked, he smiled slightly at the thought, but then they both frowned when they
remembered what had happened. He held
her tighter.
“It would have been nice. It really would have been nice. But this just means we’ll have to try again
another time.” He said, she smiled at him, “That’s the first time you’ve smiled
since this whole thing happened. I love
that smile.” He said and she blushed.
A month later Kayley had fully recovered,
though the other pilots didn’t really know what to think about what had
happened. She assured them that they
didn’t need to look too much into it, what was done was done and they couldn’t
change it. They tried as best they
could to help her, and she got annoyed with it after the first few hours. It was the middle of April, and Kayley was
standing on the balcony of her bedroom, watching Duo try to teach the other
pilots the game of baseball, the ‘Great American Pastime’ as he called it. Kayley laughed at Wufei’s attempt to
bat. Next up was Quatre, and Duo was
pitching. Kayley decided to bother her
Arabian lover.
“Hey batter batter! Hey batter batter! Swing!” she yelled, and Quatre swung at the pitch. She laughed loudly at him. He looked up at her looking mad, “No
offense, but you guys suck! Duo’s the
only decent player out there!” she yelled, Duo felt proud of himself.
“Then you try!” Wufei yelled, immediately
regretting it. A broad smiled spread
over Kayley’s face.
“Okay.” She said and she left and then went
down the stairs and into the backyard.
“Yes!
Finally a good player. I hope.”
Duo said, and Kayley took the bat from Quatre.
“Move
aside small-fry.” She said to Quatre, he cocked an eyebrow and moved out of the
way, “Who’s the catcher, is that Trowa?” she asked, Trowa nodded, “Move back a
bit, ‘cause I will take your head off if you’re too close.” She said and Trowa
moved back. Kayley stood ready for Duo
to pitch, but he was staring with his head to the right side, she looked
around, “Duo? Duo! Stop looking at my ass! Pitch the ball!” she said, he looked at her.
“Oh yeah.” He said, he pitched a fast ball
and she swung at it, hitting it right over Duo’s head and into some trees. She laughed and walked the makeshift bases
slowly so Duo would have time to get the ball.
He ran to the trees in search of the ball, when he found it he ran back
and found that she was at the third base, slowly making her way to home plate. He ran as fast as he could and she still
walked. She saw him and ran to home
plate and Duo was very unhappy.
“Next time Duo. Next time.” She laughed and she stood with Quatre.
“Small-fry?” Quatre asked, she laughed, “I’m
taller than you are.”
“So?
And that means what to me?” she asked.
Quatre stared at her, and decided to ask her something.
“Can I ask you a hypothetical question?”
“Yeah, sure.”
“What would you do if I asked you to marry
me?” he asked, she stared at him, stunned by his question. All the other pilots heard this and were
listening for her answer.
“Oh my.
Well, I’d honestly have to ask you what it means to marry some one. I really wouldn’t know.” She said, he
sighed.
“Well, marriage is when you love some one
enough that you want to spend the rest of your life with that person. You promise to love that person forever, and
take care of that person, and protect that person. You spend the rest of your life with that person, you live
through everything together, and you grow old together, retire to somewhere far
away together and die together.” He explained, she looked him in the eyes.
“Then I would answer you yes.” She said, and
he smiled. He grabbed her face and
kissed her passionately. He then ran
into the house and left Kayley dazed, “Okay.
Well that was different.” She said to herself. Five minutes later Quatre came back, walking to them, as he
walked by a rose bush he picked a red rose.
He stood in front of Kayley, handed her the rose and sighed.
“Now can I ask you a serious question?”
“O…Okay.” She said quietly, Quatre took a
small box out of his pocket and opened it, revealing a diamond ring. The other pilots were watching
intently. He smiled, staring deep into
her eyes before speaking.
“Will…Will you marry me?”
“So
Jade? Ruby? What do ya say? Do I take
a chance?” Kayley thought to herself, waiting for them to answer her.
“Go for it. Take a chance
on him.” Jade said.
“Go right ahead. You’re
safe with him. Try something new.” Ruby
said.
“For once you’ve both been helpful at the same time.” Kayley thought and she
stared into Quatre’s eyes, she sighed.
The other pilots stared at her, waiting for her to say ‘yes’.
“Say
it!” Ruby and Jade yelled.
“Yes.”
Kayley answered.
*And what happens next is a
whole other story.*