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By: Akkiko

Empty again and struck by the realization.

You don''t care, you don''t pay attention.

I am sobbing until my throat bleeds.

Do you even hear my wailing?

I thought you would care.

I thought you would ask.

It is empty again.

My tears cascade again.

Not by choice did I leave,

You don''t understand what you have done.

What if I needed you?

What if you don''t care?

How could I have been so blind?

How could I have let it go on so long?

You don''t care.

You watch from afar.

I want to capture you in my pain.

I want you to feel what you have done.

You don''t care.

You probably laugh.

My pain has grown,

You haven''t asked why.

I call out to you,

But I hear no reply.

You don''t send out comforting words.

You don''t hold me as I cry.

You laugh.

You gloat.

"Did you think I cared," you shout.

I push you out of my head.

You are a leech.

You are an evil thing.

You are hatred.

You are anger.

You stole my happiness.

You stole my heart.

I call out to you.

But there is no reply at all.