Day Fifteen

Friday, September 26, 2008

Today I weighted 235 pounds (106.8 kilos) which is the same as yesterday.

Today was a difficult day due to the fact that I only had six hours of sleep. I usually need more, and I need much more than that when fasting. I had pains in my stomach, hunger pangs, headaches, etc. I was also emotionally indecisive today and I had trouble concentrating. I am still having heartburn which is annoying.

Knowing full well that I will not make good decision I decided to postpone all decision making until tomorrow. Good thing too, because I felt so bad today that I almost quit my fast. I made all kind of decisions today, from quitting tomorrow to staying for 30 days. Still I know that I am not thinking clearly.

I must not quit any time soon. I must take it one step at a time, but I would at least like to not be obese when I quit.

Another difficult circumstance is that my wife today had a lot of emotional problems and this put a lot of stress on me.

Finally I miss food. I have been craving food. I am also craving sex. I miss my wife and I have been noticing other women as well. I know that this is a temporary sacrifice, but it is not easy.