Day Four

Monday, September 15, 2008

This morning I weighted 250 pounds (113.6 kilos), which means that I lost 2.5 pounds ( 1.1 kilos). After loosing 6 pounds ( 2.7 kilos) I was a bit disappointed. Three years ago I joined Weight Watchers to lose weight for my wedding, and I was 249 pounds then (113.2 kilos)

Today I had bowel movement twice. It was a bit watery.

I also took a nice long walk in nature with my wife, and I worked some 6 hours even though it was my day off (stupid Friday deadline).

You usually hear that after day three the appetite goes away. That has not happened for me yet, and in fact I am a bit hungrier today than I was yesterday. There is a bad taste in my mouth, some headache today, tiny bit of back ache, and some muscle ache. Being on a fast makes me feel weak and gives me some trouble concentrating. Around four o'clock today my headache was so bad that I took a 30 minute nap but I was fine after that. As before, I feel a bit light headed when I get up.

I think that I worry less now about my fast than I did yesterday. I am resigned to the idea that I will be OK and that there is nothing to worry about. Also today there have been more times that I forgot that I was fasting. Also I do not feel skinny as I did yesterday. Instead, I am aware that I am obese and that I need to lose a lot of weight. Another thing to note is that I am not preoccupied about my fast, but I do notice and enjoy other things in life such as beautiful nature and good music. I was afraid that during a fast I would be unable to think of anything else other than food. That does not seem to be happening yet.

I went to the fasting discussion board last night, and what alarmed me is that a lot of people would binge eat in the middle of their fast. I hope that I retain my control and that it does not happen to me.