I checked my grades today. I got a C in cs51, a C in math 33b, and a C in physics 4bl. Dont know what i got in econ 2 but if it follows that pattern well i guess it sucks even more. I used that GPA calculator thing and if i get a B in econ i'll be above 2.8. I suppose it really doesnt matter though since either way its pretty pathetic. Ugh.

I went up to school with tolu on tuesday. We looked for apartments and stuff. There was a decent place near wilshire for $1000 for a single bedroom. Everywhere was sucking it was really expensive. Man, and i'm still thinking about my grades, i more than doubled the number of Cs i have gotten. Geez, i'm gonna have to do really well next quarter to get that up to 2.9 or so. Like probably have to get a B+ average or more, which makes that well next to impossible unless i turn into gaurav. Man i hate school. At this point i'm doing so bad i'm worried just for posterity. I dont really care if i'm not pulling a 3.8 GPA or anything, but this is getting bad. Randy if you are reading this, dont let yourself get this far if you haven't already.

Well away from the depressing grades talk. So far this spring break i havent done too much. Watched get over it the other day and i'd have to say that that movie outside of sisqo basically sucked ass. I watched exit wounds with dmx and steven segal and well that was better. At least it was funny, and even taken seriously as a movie at least it wasn't as predicatble and had some twists and stuff. I mean who would have thought that DMX could play all those roles. I also managed to lose my keys while watching exit wounds, and my new house keys. Got yelled at for that, that i was a careless moron. Which i can't really argue about, i do forget a lot of stuff and do a lot of careless things. I've been living in my new house, and well its new and nice and stuff, but there are things i dont like about it. Like everything is so far apart, and we dont have enough phones yet. I guess that can be fixed. But like you have to walk half way across the house to throw stuff away from the dining table. And the living room's acoustics are so wierd , it has a really high cieling so everything sounds louder. Ah well, i'm not living here that long anyways.

Connie i wasn't saying that everyone has to be good at something, i meant you should focus on one thing more, probably the thing you are best at. I dont know its advice my dad gave me. He said when he was a kid he sucked at basketball so he never played it, and he sucked at math so he didnt go into that. But he can still fix our plumbing and fix our fences and all that stuff. Just he focused on what he was good at, i guess being not a jack of all trades is more about focusing on areas you are not deficient in instead of trying to be good at everything, because you cant be good at everything and then you'd just be mediocre or just plain bad. Anyways i think finals are gonna kill me. i'm almost done learning all my new econ2 stuff so i think i can do well on that, but i'm not sure about math. Well back to econ.

Well today i felt like updating. Been almost 2 weeks. You know this is gonna be long. First off my CS professor is a jackass. He went so slow that he was 2 chapters behind the normal pace. I decided to go to his last class since he was a pretty cool guy, up until now. He apparently is a total flake, (from CSUN figures..) and doesnt even make his own tests and sure as hell doesnt use his own overheads. So our class was way behind and i take the final today. He told us not to worry about chapter 10, or 11 or 12. He tried to teach all of 9 and part of 10 all during the last lecture. So the TA tells us not to worry, and i only looked at 10 a little. Read the chapter, you know didnt do anything, we never had homework for that etc... Anyways like the last 3 problems were on those chapters, and they were insanely hard since i didnt know the theories behind them. I came up with some makeshift looking solutions, that work but used up more components and clock than i was alotted. The rest of it was pretty ok i suppose. It was one of those 3 hours, shoot me now marathon ones, people were still writing 10 minutes after since our TA didnt notice (of course the professor wasnt there). Hopefully i'll get a B or B- in that class, damn me for not turning in those projects or taking that quiz.

Anyways what led me to do this update was reading connie's page. It looks a ton nicer than it used to , and she even has this new font. I read chris' page and well jack of all trade master of none will lead you to become a teacher or something. Jack's of all trades never make it in this world because it has become too specialized. Which is why they dont have "handymen" anymore to fix everything. Those great all around basketball players in college i.e. ed obannon never make it too, they are a little too slow, but kinda good in something else, etc.

I also realized that if it were not for my asian "do well in school or you will dishonor your grandmother's grave" upbringing (yes that is an actual quote) i'd have probably dropped out of college by now. Connie you were posting about ditching class. I went to econ 2 2 times this quarter, math 0 times, CS around 6 times. physics lab i had to go so i went 6 times. If i was in your pot i'd have contributed a million dollars by now. I did go to some discussions in that mix too, lots of math and cs ones, so much better than lecture. I still haven't met my econ TA , or for that matter a few of my TAs in college. I think that the line "its not that i'm lazy, its just that i dont care" from office space is a lot of that. My classes this quarter were really uninteresting. Econ i still think is pretty interesting , but i'm still in lower divs, and well though the topics are interesting, they teach it in such a low level "all the students in the class are retarded AZN wannabes level" that its not interesting enough. I mean the book looks like a middle school book.

I think my future could be working at KFC, which i think i might do this summer just to see what that is like, since there is no way anyone is gonna give me an internship, especially this late in the year and being only a 2nd year and with the dot com death. Man, i am so aimless right now, but at least calm, and not stressed and pretty happy. I'm actually looking forward to next quarter. I'm taking network software or something, gonna be pretty cool, kenzo said it was interesting though i think he might be failing it. What sucks about next quarter is i'm taking EE1 which i hear is horrible, hopefully i get my customary B-. Taking econ11, which is supposedly a "Weeder" class though terry says its a cakewalk. Which means that is my "breather" class as people say. I'm actually trying to see if i can take pic 10 a-c and petition to take extra units. That way i can just take those which are worth 15 units, and just get an A in it. Then i can raise my GPA, easily and also have taken the pre reqs for pic 20 and learn java. Then again cs 118 (the internet-network class) has some java in it, so i figure i might as well just learn the whole language.

Also i think i need a car. I dont really need one i guess i just want one. I've got about five grand saved up and i found that doesnt buy much of a car. I have other money that my dad wont let me spend, because he claims that he should have control of it since i made it because of oppurtunities that partially only existed because of him. I.E. the other 5 grand that i made selling fans, that i could only get at his price, but could only sell because of a person I knew. That and he said i'd waste it on gadgets, and i think a car is a gadget for the most part if you dont need it. I guess i just want one, because other than the like 8 hours i've driven to pass the driving test, i've never driven a car and so many other people have gotten to do that. I still dont get why i cant even borrow my parents cars. Everyone else does it, i guess we'll come crashing down on Hans now because Hans is evil and doesnt deserve to ever drive anything.

Also i moved into my new house. The house is pretty damn big. Its surrounded by a bunch of other fairly new houses. We have this wierd marble-ite floor and cat 5 350mhz cabling in the walls. What sucks is that the ports aren't installed and that the break out box is stupidly outside. Now, what can you do with a bunch of ethernet cables outside is beyond me. But i'll have to fix that during spring. Also i want some chinese food. I want pork and beef, and tofu and all that and some good rice. Alas , i am in a dorm room right now, and will probably end up getting a puzzles terriyaki bowl even though they really arent that good.

Lastly i'd like to add that i dont think the college system works. Basically if i want to graduate i have to take a ton of physics and math and garbage i dont even care about. I would like to take some polisci or some history or some cultural studies or something, because i love arguing about affirmative action and that type of stuff. And discussing politics and just using my mind. Now in CS classes you just sit there and let information get rammed up your ass. They might as well just tape record it, it would save a lot of money. I mean i thought we got to go to college to learn things we wanted to learn and expand our minds and all that stuff. But for me to personally graduate in 4 years, i can only take CS , math , physics and electrical engineering classes, and like 6 GEs. Now dont get me wrong i like CS for the most part, CS classes, but i hate the rest of engineering. I wish i could just make up my own schedule and they could just give some general "you passed college test" at the end that had random stuff from a ton of classes so that everyone would get around the same on it. Also you may think 6 GEs is not that few. But we have rules. Like you need to take 3 in one subject. And I have to take a minor. And they have to all be upper divs. And the 3 in one subject has to be all upperdivs . So basically i'll waste the remaining "free GEs" to take all the lower div pre reqs. I'm even thinking i can take econ as my minor, econ as my 3 subject group and using the same pre reqs for all of them. Thus i use up all my non CS, math , physics, ee classes on econ. Now i'd like to take a couple poliscis, or comm or something just to see what they are like. But i'd hit the unit cap, and have to stay another year which my parents wouldn't like, and really i wouldn't like that much either. The school wouldn't like it either since i'd probably spend that 5th year doing nothing related to my major. Damn this sucks. And tests suck too. I mean if they give out sample tests then you already know whats on the test. Then what the hell are they testing. I mean they say that about the SATs right? but everyone is supposed to know that like 2mph x 1 hour is 2miles. They give you a test in CS with some BS on it, and its got nothing to do with the class and just has everything to do with a bunch of trivia that is on the sample final. Man, and to think mr. pang once told me when i asked him why i couldn't just take whatever i wanted in college, that they forced you to take crap so you'd become scholarly. I'm not becoming scholarly, they are just making me take more EE and putting me through more misery.

You know I am tired of the bullshit everywhere. Yesterday some random woman just emails me saying that my ebay auctions are illegal since i charge a surcharge for paypal because paypal charges me 2% on incoming money. She was like "you're auctions are in violation of ebay policy and has been reported. you will be contacted." First off i would have been fine if she had told me nicely, or was an ebay official. After asking some people, i found out she was right but i was still mad. She acted like she owned the world, and could just go , HAAHAHAHAHA you are wrong and i reported you you loser. And i was like, wtf? So i reply and i explained paypal policy because she said i was charging a credit card surcharge , not just a paypal one. So then i emailed and said she should be shot as well because she was the type of person that gives americans a bad name in other countries. So i get an email back because i'm a freeloading foreigner. This country is based on capitalism i can make money if i want. She was just one of those big brother, i told on you, i know whats right you are wrong assholes. And that is exactly the type of "giving advice when no one asked" mentality which makes other countries not like americans.

This whole giving advice when no one asked you shit is pissing me off. Brent was over and well tolu said something like you know you just have to work hard, and stuff because working hard is so much more important than being smart. He said that smart people will meet their match and not know stuff anymore. I was thinking what the hell does that mean, do you think smart people start off with a finite supply of knowledge that runs out, and they never learn anything again? people are called smart because they learn faster. The whole thing was pointed at me and i would have gotten really mad if brent wasn't there because i needed to talk to brent about physics and i let it just slide. I mean really , he's saying that a person like gaurav who is the type that it takes 4 times to explain something and they still might not get it, but works his ass off, is soo much better off than someone who doesnt try as hard but gets it the first time perfectly. I dont understand, why do people have such a bad perception of smart people. Dumb asses who work hard, people are all proud since i guess they are using their maximum potential. People hate smart people. Smart people just get used to explain shit.

The worst part was he said it in such a condescending tone. Like it gave me the feeling that he was proud that he wasn't really really smart, and that he worked hard and studied a lot for a bunch of pointless garbage. I mean really "I'm proud because i take all this stuff i dont even like, but i spend hours studying it, for no reason except to get some letters on ursa" Really i wouldn't be proud of that, it'd make me unhappy. ANd i'm not that lazy, its just most of this stuff doesnt get me even the least bit interested so i do just enough to get by. It makes me happier and have less stress and thats my choice. really i could care less about memorizing the derivation of the speed of light equation because i think that is stupid. And really knowing how to bit shift 24bit integers by hand is totally useless but a thing that we get tested on. But i didnt bother practicing it because its just stupid. I just hate how people need to assert their opinion that i'm a lazy ass when it comes to most of this boring stuff. I mean occassionally like on a program or something i'll work really hard because i'm really into it. The worst thing is that they dont look at themselves in the mirror. They are being asses telling people what they think is the "right" thing to do, when i dont go around telling them, "why do you guys study so much, its gonna make you less happy, and its not worth it , just relax you losers." No i dont do that, because they can do whatever they want and i dont care. Man, i love my page, its such a good rant place when you can keep typing and ranting for a long time.

Well today was pretty uneventful. I had a math midterm, and well i think i actually did decent, even though it was so much stuff to do in like 50 minutes. At least my answers made some sense and i didnt even finish the last one. Then i sat in the boelter computer labs for a while web browsing since i had to wait for compsci. Went to compsci and was bored to death, especially with the incompetance of some people when they were talking about clock functions, i mean really its so simple a 5th grader could figure it out. Anyways they passed out the 2nd vhdl project, and after looking through the book i think i understand that language pretty well now. I'm not sure how i'm gonna implement the controller i have to design for a stamp machine, since i havent read the 8th chapter yet, but hopefully it'll work itself out. I have two weeks, and at least this time i know about the project instead of not knowing about it like the last one which made me lose 5% of my grade for the quarter.

After that i went with terry to mongols, as usual. dan gadzuric was there again, so i'm assuming he was power eating so that he could kick stanford's ass tommorrow. After that i went back home but like a billion people were there. bunch of tolu's friends and it was really hot in my room. his brother Temi who is going to MIT was over, and well he's definitely a computer nerd. I came back and the guy was playing counterstrike with like 12 other people in the room talking and listening to music and he's playing CS. Plus he was all happy that the ping was less than 150. HAAHA. So I went with terry to his place, and basically read maxim.