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SUMMARY OF MY CURRENT SITUATION:

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23 December 2004 (Thurs)

I finally got a new laptop at lower price and with better functionality than my previous one last Sat!!! Technology changes by lapse and bound within short period. Six years ago, a 128MB RAM laptop costed at least $3000 net and now a 356MB RAM one costs 1/2 the price. The major change between the two are: older one comes with CD-Drive and Flobby drive while the new one CD/DVD Burner drive without flobby drive. To ensure that my current flobby disks do not go to waste, I have to spend an extra $59 on an external flobby disk drive.

After suffering months without my own laptop since October, I did a lot of window shopping for laptop functionality and prices in Sim Lim Square and Funan Centre for days before finalising my decision on a $1700 laptop. I also managed to get a 256MB MP3 player @ $114. Best of all, my mp3 player and laptop match perfectly. I have never feel so lucky in my life before. I guess this is the only happy moment in my life this year after my full repayment of my school loan.

The working environment in the bank is so much different from the hostel job I had been doing! There's better benefits. 1st, every month end, fruits are provided for staffs and 2ndly, there's usually party within working places for staffs during festival seasons. Too bad, I am not a permanent/contract staff there, or I would enjoy better benefits.

The change of work nature makes me feel so awkward. Although I am totally relieved from stress of managing people, I feel mentally tortured  by the monotonous job of doing filing of card documents in a small room with 3-4 ladies. I'm going retarded. Feel like ending my temp earlier.

Today, I was invited for the Christmas buffet. The food is so-so, but what counted is the heart. Nevertheless, I ate to my fullness and rushed home. Don't wanna miss my 'Twelve Kingdom' and 'Inuyasha' @ 11PM and 11:30PM. 'Inuyasha' will be disrupted after season 1 to make way for 'Hellsing'. Damnit, I already bought 'Hellsing' for $30, abit regret, seems I will only watch 'Twelve Kingdom' from 5 Jan 2005 onwards, can skip 'Hellsing' @ 11:30PM.

12 October 2004 (Tues)

I hadn't enough rest after my contract as I had earlier thought I would. For the past 1 week plus, I have been accompaning my parents going electrical current therapy treatment in Marine Parade area. Today, I received a call from a job agency, which was the one to arrange for my previous logistic clerical temp job, with info that it had a 3-month temp clerical job in a bank for me the next day.

Man, I haven't have enough rest and now I'm been sent to work again.... sian.... For the sack of my recently spoilt 6-year laptop and my dream to get an mp3 player, what to do?

I can't survive without a laptop!

30 September 2004 (Thurs)

When there's a beginning, there's always an end. It was my last day of working in the hostel after 1 and 1/2 year of tolling. Although I was glad of leaving this stressful place, I could not resist a flood of tears. I hate changes. After bidding the final farewell with the remaining colleagues who stayed under the new contract company, I left and wandered listlessly in Harbourfront area, looking at the construction site and overseeing the scenery beyond the main island boundary.

It is a good thing that I have already cleared my study loan, so I will not have to worry if I cannot get a job fast. Still I have a strong sense of emptyness inside.

3 May 2004

Really pissed off today. Many last minute booking for room inspection despite the fact that mass check out is already over. There's not enough walkie talkie in my office and my stupid boss wants the entire booking operation to be shifted to maintenance office. I can't even do a proper job with so many people interupting me when I was struggling with my work. I also find myself more and more unable to bear with the people working with me, especially the 'look down on me' expression of one particular technician-Pig R. Even the aircon contractor ruins my mood by trying to overcharge the nmber of hours its staffs have spent checking the aircon. I think I'm going to explode sooner or later if I'm not leaving the place soon. As a result, I went for a long walk in my nearby shopping centre immediately after work. I need to vent my frustration through long walk.

Can't wait for my contract to end even if it means I might remain jobless for months. I'm so tired and sick of this place.

30 April 2004

I think I am talking too much confidential things to my colleagues. I even told my client that I do not want to continue the job after my contract ends at the end of Sept 2004. I guess she's going to reduce her impression of my performance in the organisation. Can't stand working here anymore. Need a good rest, I'm getting naggy. Sigh..

27 April 2004

Sigh! Intend to take time-off on next Monday, but my boss told me to change to other date as he wanted to take off to settle his personal matters and my supervisor is also taking leave on the same day, leaving me the only staff to handle admin works in maintenance office. Can't help it, because my boss's matter is more important, but I really want a long rest. Maybe I will postpone my off till 10 May instead of 3 May, despite that I really want a good break.

This morning, I saw our clients in NUS bringing a number of company representatives to tender for operations in the hostel when they passed by the temporary room inspection station I was allocated to. I saw my ex-superior who is currently working for other company and he greeted me. He has at least 2 years experience working in this hostel before I came in and he knows the entire operation from inside out. With him in the tendering list, I guess my current company's going to lose contract.

Come to think of it, why should I bother so much? Anyway, I'm going to take a long break after my contract ends end of this Sept 2004.

26 April 2004

Wah!! I have to struggle doing more than twenty room inspections from 9a.m. till 5p.m., plus attending to luggage storage for residents by myself! Sniff! Can't blame the technician who is taking MC because he is having backache! I feel like taking MC myself too! I am throwing so much temper and fuss that my colleague and my boss said they would look into this matter.

25 April 2004

ARGG..... Have to work on Saturday and Sunday because of mass check outs of those students. A lot of last minute bookings for room inspections... can't those students read the notices pasted all over the hostel? And my partner technician is always late to assist me with excuses like breakfast and lunch. For goodness sake!!!! Doesn't he know what's the meaning of time management and job responsiblities???!!!! I really miss the previous technician who used to handle the room inspection in the part of the hostel. Too bad he rather not continued his contract than accepting a lower pay increment. I'm also tired of this job. But never mind, this is most probably going to be my last mass check out.

Although I have repeatedly emphasized wanting to quit, but with uncertainties of current job market and my future career path, I have to swallow my frustrations and continue the job. Anyway, my contract will be ending after Sept this year. Yesterday, my property manager broke the news that tendering to manage our site has closed and representatives from candidate companies will be coming down to our site in the past few months to monitor the site. He also told us not to disclose management of our site to these candidates and not to be taken in by their 'so-called' better terms, aka headhunt by them. Haha, nice say, my company is just hoping our site will not be taken by rival company, that's all. I can't be bother with the stupid company competition. I just want to get plenty of rest after my contract ends. Or better still, get another job and get out of that place ASAP!

I think I really need a life. Hopefully, my meeting with my old friends will cool me down. I'm really losing my life direction.

What am I living for?

Oh, and Nicoll Highway matter is bringing a lot of attention and SARS seems to be making a comeback. There are 2 confirmed cases in China.

10 April 2004

After so many months of delay, I have to continue my diary again. Got a lot of new naggings. I am still working in the hostel. Can't believe why I'm still there. I really hate the job nature. Wish my contract will end soon at end of Sept, I really need a break badly. Hate some of the technicians there. But I'm really happy because according to my schedule, all my study loan will be paid off soonest by end of this month and I'll be free from all debts!!!!!! Will update my naggings when I have the time. Jah!