| ~My Seriously Insane Life~...part 3 October 28, 2001 Well...It has been a while since I last made an entry. Mom and Dad are still living in the house next to Chad and Jamie. Their baby is due in 2 1/2 weeks. The doctors say it is a healthy baby boy. I pray that they are right on the healthy part. Dad loves me again...not that he ever stopped loving me but, you know, the argument and everything. Mom is still doing o.k. Could of course be better. She is now confined to the wheelchair all of the time. It is really hard to see her like she is now. I remember my mom as being headstrong and outspoken. Now she rarely speaks. If I let myself think about it too much I would probably fall apart. Again. I miss my mom. September 11, 2001...I doubt that I will ever forget that day. I got up and started getting ready for work just like any other day. I always turn the television in the bedroom on while I am getting ready. At first, I thought just like everyone else that this was some kind of horrible air traffic control problem or that some crackhead pilot didn't do what he was supposed to do. I continued to get ready and drive to work. On the way I was listening to the radio. The second plane hit. I started to go pick my kids up from school and go home. No where is safe. I fought my fears and continued to work. When I got there everyone was really quiet. In the conference room the television has an avid audiance as everyone watches the replays and then hears the news that the Pentagon has been hit. I was numb just like everyone of my co-workers. I have this urge to move out of the city and start stockpiling for the future. You know what I mean? I can't be the only one that feels like this. I thought that I was until I saw a news report about people purchasing gas masks and the stores not being able to keep them in stock. You know...I never even thought of a gas mask. Then I really got nervous. You better believe that I think about Anthrax everytime I open my mailbox and every peice of mail therein. My kids don't even bother to ask if they can check the mail anymore. They know the answer is no. I will say this for everything that has happened here lately...Church attendance has certainly picked up. This is a very good thing. God is going to get us where we are supposed to be, one way or another. I have started spending more time with my babies. I know that one day that will be a luxury and I want to enjoy it to the fullest with them now. Priorities change, mine certainly have. I have been reading more than ever now too. It is nice to be able to escape into a place in history or time where you don't have to make a single decision, except how fast to read, and action is happening all around you. I take a mini vacation like this as often as possible. It helps to keep me from going over the edge with stress. Enough. |