The First Time

By Bekka Mouri

(This takes place after Bekka escapes from The Dagons and is trying to get as far away from her old life as possible. With Hermaeus’ help, she learns how much power a woman can really have. Written in the first person.)

I looked around the bleak landscape. Doom was an awful place with no sun to be seen. There were very subtle changes in the color of the dark sky that told when it was day and when it was night. At the sun’s highest point, the sky would be a dark violet color, just a shade or two darker than that of my eyes.

The nights were often pitch black. Sometimes, there would be moonlight at night after the clouds would break. The clouds didn’t break very often but it was nice when it did happen. I had seen it maybe three times in the seven years I had been on Doom.

I guessed it had been seven years. When it is dark all the time, you don’t really know when a day is over and another begins unless you pay attention to the sky. I looked up, seeing it was black as ink and I knew it was still nighttime. I had walked for a very long time and it surprised me that the sky was not changing shades yet.

I had even took a bath in a river, taking my time to wash the filth from the Dagons’ estate from my body. I took my time because bathing was not a luxury I could enjoy often. My rats had smuggled me some soap once and I had hung onto it. It came in handy and I felt a pang of guilt for not letting them know how much I appreciated them even though they were rats.

I had to keep going. Hermaeus had finally killed my former owners for the transgressions they had bestowed upon me and I had nowhere to go. One thing was for sure: I had to get out of this part of Doom. Their elder son had returned and would surely come looking for me once he discovered his parents had been murdered.

I was angry with my protector for not doing anything sooner. Every day since I began to mature, I was beaten. Hermaeus had an excuse and I decided was a good one. He often told me that I would not make it in the world on my own until I was at least seventeen.

I said a quick prayer for the Dagons’ youngest daughter, Namira, who was only four when we first met. She had been a surprise and was not quite right but she was a sweet child. When her parents would deny me food, she would often bring it to me in the dead of the night. If she didn’t know I had been denied dinner, my pet rats would get food for me although I wasn’t too hot on the idea of eating it after they had carried it.

My stomach growled. I had been denied food and Hermaeus had told me I wouldn’t need it. I wondered why before my eyes settled on a well-lit building not too far from where I was. It looked like some kind of tavern because there were lots of cruisers parked around it.

I had heard of cruisers before. They reminded me of the big trucks I had seen as a child but also resembled an airplane. They could travel either in space or along the planet's surface to deliver cargo and stuff like that. One had delivered me to the Dagons’ estate when I was only ten.

My heart jumped when I got closer. One of the cruisers had an open hatch. I ran for it and looked around. Seeing no one around to stop me, I jumped it and hid in one of the cargo cabins.

Once my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I discovered I had gotten into a food transport vehicle. My mouth watered, looking at all of the things I could eat but I knew I couldn’t take too much or it would be obvious someone had been there. I decided to take a little bit of some dried meat, just enough to quiet my stomach.

I didn’t have to wait long for I heard voices coming closer. “ Damn it! I forgot to shut the hatch! I hope no one has stolen any of my cargo, “ A male voice drifted down to me from the hatch.

“ There’s no one around for miles, Ryat. I am sure no one took anything, “ Another voice found its way to my ears.

“ I hope you are right, “ The one I assumed was named Ryat sighed, slamming the hatch shut. “ Well, I have to be off. This shipment is due in by tomorrow. “

“ Good luck. “

“ Thank you. I’ll need it. “

**

I awoke with a start, a warm hand grasping my arm and jolting me from my slumber. I looked up into the face of a very handsome and very angry Drule. “ What is the meaning of this? “ He shouted, pulling me closer to him.

“ I can explain, “ I stammered. I let my eyes look him over quickly. He wore a black vest, black pants and his long white hair was tied up in a ponytail. His green-gold eyes were aflame with rage.

The man threw me roughly to the floor of the cabin and I winced from the pain. From where I was, he looked very tall “ You don’t have to. You are a stowaway. I can see that much and I can also see than you are human as well. You are an escaped slave, are you not? “

“ Please don’t take me back! “ I begged, “ I can’t go back there! “

He looked down at me, “ I won’t take you back. I will sell you and make a handsome profit as punishment for you stealing away on my ship. “

“ Don’t do that! Please! I’ll do anything, “ The last thing I wanted was to be put back into slavery.

A slow wicked smirk crossed the man’s lips, “ Anything? “

I nodded wildly, “ Yes but just don’t hurt me! “

He stepped closer and leaned down so he could run the backs of his fingers down my cheek. He had to be at least six and a half feet tall and his body was well-muscled “ I can do lots of things to you without hurting you. “

The tone of his voice sent a shiver right through me. It was deep and made my skin feel all prickly. I let out a surprised squeak as he grabbed my arm and pulled me up to him, crushing his mouth against mine. My eyes were wide as he forced my lips open and shoved his tongue into my mouth.

As he plundered my mouth, one of his hands slid around to the back of my head to support it. I was still in shock over what was happening and didn’t realize when he pulled away. “ I am to assume you have never been kissed like that before, child, “ He murmured, not letting me get too far from him.

All I could do was shake my head. My body had grown suddenly warm and some part of me wanted him to do it again. He put the hand he had been on my arm on my waist as he pressed my body against him, causing me to whimper a little as his hand brushed against my latest set of bruises. I could feel something pressing into my stomach as he tightened his grip.

He lowered his lips to my ear, “ I’m going to make a deal with you. Let me take you and I will take you as far as the next territory. If you don’t, I am going to sell you back into slavery after I take you any way. “

His hot breath tickled my ear but his words made me freeze. The choice was easy and hard all at the same time. His kiss had sent pure electricity through me. I gasped as he slid my blouse from my shoulder and nibbled at the flesh there.

While he nibbled, his hand traveled from behind my head to my chest. I involuntarily moaned as he teased the sensitive flesh there, my hands going to his biceps. After he teased my other breast, his hand slid lower and loosened my blouse from my skirt. Before I knew what happened, my blouse was gone.

He didn’t stop there. His hand then went down to my skirt and pushed it away, letting it fall to the floor. He brought his face back up to mine, “ Are you going to answer me? “

“ I’ll let you take me only if you promise that you will stand by your word. “

He captured my lips again and kissed me deeply. He pulled back a little and murmured, “ I will be a man of my word. “

“ Then do with me what you will, “ I said, a little frightened. I had no idea of what was going to happen next. I felt his hands slide around my body and begin to unlace my corset.

“ I will do whatever pleases me, my dear, “ He let my undergarment fall to the floor, leaving me in nothing. I went to cover myself with my hands but he wouldn’t let me, “ They won’t be enough. “

I was really scared now. No one had ever seen so much of me except for the rats. The bulge in the front of his pants was huge and it frightened me. I had to be strong because this was for my freedom but I was still scared.

I guess he sensed it. “ It is not as bad as you are imagining, little girl, “ He whispered as he slid off his vest and stepped back. I stared in awe of his handsome physique. I had never seen a half naked man in my life, Drule or other wise.

His pants came off next and I couldn’t believe my eyes. I just knew he would kill me with his enormous manhood. He smirked as he approached me again and pulled my hands away from my breasts. “ I think you won’t be so scared once it is in you. “

I took a sharp breath as he leaned down and took one of my nipples in his mouth. He suckled it gently as my hands went to his scalp, my fingers tangling in his hair. I moaned as he switched to the other one, his arms going around my waist. He urged me down to the floor, spreading my legs with his as he did.

I felt one of his hands go downward and cried out as he fingered a really sensitive spot between my legs. He continued to slide his finger into me, stopping when he found what he wanted. “ You really haven’t been touched before. It might hurt when I enter you so be prepared. “

He slid his finger in and out of me until I felt my thighs tense and a feeling of fire begin to run through my veins. Just as I thought the fire would explode, he stopped. I whimpered, begging him to continue. He pushed my legs a little further apart and smiled as he positioned himself over where his finger had just been.

Although I was afraid of the pain, I tried to spread my legs a little further to welcome him into me. He urged my legs to rest on his hips as he pushed into me quickly, tearing away the barrier that had stopped his finger. I cried out, tears streaming down my cheeks as he began to thrust. “ It hurts! Please stop! You said you wouldn’t hurt me! “

He continued to thrust, “ Shhh. You will begin to like it once the pain subsides. Move with me and it will feel better. “

I tried to move with him. It was a little hard at first but got easier and the pain did fade, giving way to pleasure like I had never felt before. I could feel myself building up to the point I had been at when he had taken his finger away. I begged him to go faster, wanting the tension to be released.

He chuckled as he moved slower instead of faster. He brought one of his hands to my belly and stroked it gently. “ I told you that it would feel good. “

“ This is the most wonderful thing I have ever felt in my life, “ I panted, moving my hips faster. He leaned over me and captured my lips in another kiss. I enjoyed the way my nipples felt as the brushed against his hard chest and how our hips rubbed together as continued his wonderful slow torment. I could tell it was taking all he had not to thrust into me like a madman but that was what I wanted and he could tell.

My hips bucked when the last of his will gave out and he plunged into me, removing himself almost fully before boring into me again. I felt my body tense as my legs tightened around his hips and unknown feelings ripped through my body, the whole time he continued to thrust into me. I shuddered repeatedly as each spasm racked my body with more pleasure than the last. His hands went to my breasts and he kneaded them roughly, his jaw tightening as a thin layer of sweat made his body shimmer in the interior lights of the cargo cabin.

He thrust into me deeply, groaning as his fingers clutched the smooth white flesh of my bosom. I could feel something flowing into my body from his, revealing in the new sensation. He let out a great breath, his grip becoming looser on my chest while he caught his breath. He removed himself from me and looked down at me.

“ Will you take me to the next territory? “ I looked up into his dilated eyes, pleading for a positive answer.

“ I am a man of my word, sweet little human. But, you must let me do that again soon. “

I nodded, “ You can do it any time you like. “

**

~Child, wake up.~

I opened my eyes slowly, wondering what was wrong as my sleep blurred eyes settled on the top bar of the double barred headboard. Ryat was asleep next to me, an arm draped around my waist. He had taken me to his sleeping cabin so I would be more comfortable. ~What is it?~

Hermaeus chuckled, ~You have learned a very important lesson this night.~

~What do you mean?~

~Your body is a very powerful thing. If you use it right, it will help you go far. While it does, you will reap the rewards only unbridled pleasures can bring.~

I thought about what Hermaeus had said and he was right. I had figured out a way to secure free passage on cruisers. If I continued to do what I had done, I would escape from Mehrunes quicker than I thought. The pleasure the activity brought me was just an added bonus.

I drifted back into my rest, wondering just how far the next territory was and when the cruiser pilot would want me again.

For some odd reason, I couldn’t wait to feel him in me once more.

**

I woke up as I felt myself being rolled over onto my stomach. The next thing I felt was Ryat’s weigh pushing me into the mattress as he sat down on top of me. “ What are you doing? “ I asked, trying to look back at him.

He leaned down and nibbled at my shoulder a little before bringing his lips to my ear. “ I have to have you again. “

“ Please, “ I said, “ I am still tired. Can’t it wait? “

“ Do you want to go back to your owners, little girl? “

I jerked beneath him, “ You wouldn’t dare! “

He planted small kisses along my neck, making me gasp when he teased a sensitive spot behind my ear, “ We have a deal, remember? “

“ But my owner’s are dead. “

“ Then I will sell you to someone else, “ His hot breath tickled my neck as his hands slid around to the front of my body. He worked them between my breasts and the mattress, carefully seeking out my nipples. When he found them, he stroked them slowly. I could feel his hardening manhood against my spine as he nibbled at my shoulder again.

~Remember what I told you,~ Hermaeus’ voice echoed in my head. ~Let him do what he wishes, child.~

I sighed, “ You win, Ryat. Truth be known, I can’t wait to feel you inside of me again. “

Ryat chuckled, “ I knew you wouldn’t fight long. And to be truthful to you, darling little human, I can’t wait to be inside of you again. I hunger to feel the throbbing of your release around my member as I bore into your sweet body. “

His words made my heart melt. Although they were blunt, I knew they were sincere. He removed one of his hands from my chest and slid down my back a little. I whimpered while he slowly stroked my inner thigh.

I spread my legs a little, hoping he would get the message. A moment later, I felt his finger slide into me. His movements started as slow teasing but he soon picked up his pace, brushing against the sensitive spot just at my opening with the tip of a second finger. I moaned as unbelievable pleasure spread through my body once again.

I felt him move off of me and his finger leave me. I knew what was coming next so I raised myself up, offering myself to him. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me up on all fours. “ Like this, “ He murmured, slowly spreading my legs a little more.

He leaned over me again, planting a kiss on my shoulder. His hands moved from my thighs, over my rear and up my back. He them slid them down my arms, taking my hands in his as he lifted them from the bed. I could feel his manhood resting between my thighs and I wondered why he hadn’t gotten into me yet.

“ Grab the second bar, “ He said, placing my hands on the lower of the two bars. “ Hang onto it. “

I did as I was told and he released my hands, his traveling back down my body until they rested on my rear again. I felt one of his hands leave and knew he was getting ready to enter me. I braced myself because he was so huge. A moment later, I bit my lip as he gradually slid into me.

I cried out as he began thrusting into like a madman. Once the surprise wore off, I moved with him as much as I could. I gave up quickly, knowing I would never be able to match his frantic pace. He removed himself a few moments later, sliding his hands up my back.

“ Please don’t stop, “ I said, my voice quivering with passion.

“ Shhh, “ He murmured, “ I want you on your back. “

I let go of the bar and allowed him to roll me onto my back. He lifted me into his lap, pushing back into me. I had to place my hands on his shoulders to keep from falling as I tried to straddle him more than I already had been. He put his hand s on my rear and held me close to him as he began to move inside of me again.

The feelings from before started to build and I shut my eyes, waiting for the explosion of gratification when he stopped again. I opened my eyes and looked into his, “ What’s wrong? “

“ I want to see your eyes when you climax. You shut them the last time but I want to see them as you reach the stars, “ Ryat said, his golden eyes locking with mine, “ And I want you to see my eyes when I release myself into you. “

I nodded and he began to move again. I forced my eyes to remain open as his thrusting became more urgent. I knew we were going to peak at the same time. I clenched my teeth as the first stirrings of my orgasm radiated through my body.

“ Keep them open, “ Ryat grunted, looking deep into my eyes, “ I feel it starting. “

I spread my legs a little further to take him deep inside as the world around me exploded much like the fireworks I watched when I was a child. I kept my eyes locked with his as he took a sharp breath and his eyes dilated. Soon, my cries of passion were joined by his groan as he filled me with his juices. I was going to say something when he shut his eyes but I was quickly cut off as he captured my lips in his.

He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me down with him as he lay down on the bed. He broke the kiss and panted to catch his breath. “ Your eyes looked beautiful, “ He whispered, twirling a lock of my hair around one of his fingers. I nuzzled my face down into his chest.

“ Yours did too, “ I traced his torso with my fingers as I enjoyed the feeling of our sweat mingling.

He placed a finger under my chin and moved my face so I was looking at him again. “ I want to teach you how to please a man. There is much more to it than letting him do what he wishes with your body. You must do as you wish with his body as well. “

I blinked, “ What? “

“ Stay with me for awhile, child. I will teach you how to be the kind of woman every man will want to be with. “

I had to think for a moment. I really didn’t have anywhere to go in the next territory. If I stayed with Ryat, I could learn things that would help me get by. I hated to think it but my body was the only thing I had to provide me with a living.

Ryat kissed my forehead, “ I will keep you warm and fed as well. Tell me, will you be like that if you leave me when we reach the next territory? “

I shook my head, “ No. “

“ Then, will you stay with me until I have taught you all I can teach? “

“ Yes, “ I said.

He kissed my forehead again, “ Good choice. Now, let us rest. You have learned enough for one day. “

I put my head to his chest and listened to his breathing and his heartbeat as I once again drifted off to sleep. Letting him have my body was a small price to pay for shelter and food. It was also possible he could keep me safe from Mehrunes.