Kind of a Love Poem

by Haruka Spork Tenou

I torture myself each night by reading these

These stories of perfect lovers

Lovers meant to be

I can't tear my eyes from them

The love held within rips me apart

My soul screams for you

I can't bear this separation, my love

As I read I think of you and I in the lovers places

I ponder how our lives would be if we could be them

I think how I could be so unlike that which I appear to be

I would sacrifice my world for you

I'm reeling, unable to think, to breathe

I don't want to think of life without you

But I can't help the thoughts the insidious doubts that plague me

I want to be your Haruka your love the wind that caresses your cheek

You are my Michiru my life the sea that enfolds me in love

The words are spilling out of my broken and torn soul and heart for you

I am broken

Do you want to help me fix myself, Michi-chan?

I'm drowning in a fantasy world of love and forever, of phantom lovers

I want the fantasy to merge with my reality

With me

And you

Making us

Become them

Allied for eternity

I am not one to deny my feelings...I lie, I deny my feelings every chance I get

I refused to believe I loved you

You're too young too far too...you too perfect for me

I ran

I cheated

I lied

I am a terrible person

I feel the emptiness in my soul without you

This cavern I called me at one point can only be filled when with you

We speak

We type

My heart is whole again

I feel as though I could take on the world and still have enough energy to fight the rest of the solar system

Your love brings me closer to God and Goddess than any experience I have had

I drive through the streets at night, wishing you were with me so I didn't have to be out driving

Heh I don't enjoy my old pleasures as much as I used to

They have paled because I haven't you to enjoy them with

I'm speechless now, my misery gone

You've come back to me

My world is complete once more

I love you