Love and Hate

by Haruka Spork Tenou

There's a fine line between love and hate.

You've tried to tell me that you don't love me, that you hate me, that I must be mistaken when I look at you.

I can't be.

You've helped me in so many ways...

You pulled me out of my ennui, my lack of life.

You are the one who showed me what it truly means to be human, and to be a fighter.

I'll forever be indebted to you, and I think...I think you know that.

You know I dream of you at night, when I'm trying to sleep.

You know I hear those old tired songs and hear your voice declaring your love.

Then I wake up...and hear your voice declaring your hate.

Why do I persist in going after you? You tell me to leave you alone, I'm just a kid, I don't know what I mean, what I say.

I can't leave you alone.

I love you.

I hate you.

You....

My life is all about you.

I don't want to think about what my life would be if I no longer was able to love you and hate you as I do.

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