| (I like the tune, too...and for some reason this song has kind of become a song to push me further, make me think of you, of a future...) No I would not sleep in this bed of lies (I won't deny it any longer.) So toss me out and turn in And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes (I won't stop crying until I have.) I'm marking it down to learning (I'm learning to love again, to love you.) I am Don't think that I can take another empty moment (I can't take not being truthful to myself, and you.) Don't think that I can fake another hollow smile (It hurts inside, this conflict, and I can't hide it anymore.) It's not enough just to be sorry. (It's not.) Don't think that I could take another talk about it (I sometimes feel that you hurt when I say I doubt, and it hurts me.) Just like me you got needs And they're only a whisper away (Anything.) And we softly surrender To these lives that we've tendered away (Gradually I'm overcoming my fears.) No I would not sleep in this bed of lies So toss me out and turn in And they'll be no rest for these tired eyes I'm marking it down to learning I am Don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over (I'm always scared to share my feelings, I never really know what you're thinking, and I'm aways afraid to ask.) Don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong Where it's not enough just be sorry (I don't want to have another night like THAT night, ever.) Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in (Sometimes I just get so scared, sometimes I miss you too much, sometimes I doubt too much, and I don't know how to tell you.) Tried to be more than me (I tried to fake my feelings.) And I gave 'til it all went away (I almost faked it so much that I began to believe it.) And we've only surrendered To the worst part of these winters we've made (I don't really know what I take from this pair of lines, but I feel awful generally...like I tried to ruin something special because of the past.) I am all that I'll ever be When you - lay your hands Over me (I want to be held, I won't be myself until you're there with me.) but don't go weak on me now (Love me later.) I know that it's weak But God help me I need this (My strength is weak, my fears overcome me, but God, help me love you more, I need you.) I will not sleep in this bed of lies (I have to always let you know that I do love you. I have to overcome myself.) |
| "Bed of Lies" Personal Interpretation |
| ©2001 by Rebecca J. Burke & Hashbrown Casserole for the Matchbox Twenty Soul, Inc. |
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| In September of 2000, I purchased Mad Season. Only weeks later, I discovered a song that would become the anthem of my relationship at the time. Quite possibly my most intimate piece on the site, here I have interpreted "Bed of Lies" by Matchbox Twenty. It was, at the time, my feelings for my boyfriend, which I so lovingly shared with him in this piece. The words in parentheses and red are what I felt. Little did I know that this song would quickly be taken literally. And I still find it ironic that just as I was beginning to discover the world of Matchbox Twenty, our relationship ended. These beautiful words now feel sour, and I can never quite feel as I once did when I heard "Bed of Lies." Due to this, I have vowed to never relate any Matchbox song to a relationship again. |