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Thank God I have finally recovered from this metal illness: Bulimia Nervosa.

I have been a bulimic for the past two months. When I was in school, I never ate. But when I was at home, I binged on an amount of food that was definitely larger than most people would eat in a discrete period of time, usually within an hour or two. I would consume one sitting more than I should eat the whole day. I lost control over eating during the episode; I could not feel how much I had eaten. Usually people stop eating when feeling full, but I continued eating until I felt unbearably and uncomfortably full. Then, a series of stupid compensatory behaviors followed: doing compulsive and excessive exercise or threw it all up, because I believed I had gained so much weight due to overeating a while ago.

The stupidest thing was I was thinking about food and calories 24/7! I had become so obsessed with the calorie-counting thing. I was calculating how much calories I had taken that day, and therefore how much calories should I cut off just to balance up my daily calorie need. I felt so guilty and shameful about it and I never confined in anyone.

Every time I looked at the mirror, I just wanted to break the glass. And when I read the magazines or watched TV, all the girls were so thin. I was really very envious of them and this made me even stressed out more. So I switched back and forth between lots of binging and days of little or no eating. This scary pattern occurred thrice a week or so and finally put me at 92 lbs. My body had become so ruined and ended up with poor digestion and constipation. Nevertheless, I never used any laxatives or diuretics, as I knew these kinds of chemicals would harm my entire ejection system.

Alright, so what happened at last? I told my dad about my constipation thing but still kept my bulimia story. I told him that though I ate a lot of fiber, there was still only very little or no bowel movement, stools just did not come out. I was immediately diagnosed as having indigestion. Then, my dad started to prepare "real meals" for me. My body began to function normally again.

Now I eat three times a day with regular amount of food. I plan all the menus and sometimes cook it by myself. I do not crave for food anymore, but still do love food very much. Haha, but I still will binge on a horde of junk food at once once in a while. I think this is just normal for a teenage girl~ ^^ I am so proud to tell you that I have a super healthy lifestyle now.

*Food good for weightloss: Wintermelons, carrots, balck or white fungus, mushroom, barley, baby corn, oats, mung bean, tea...