It was a blistering hot afternoon, I was chatting with several friends on MSN that day. Rainbow, one of them, asked my number... The other day, it was 18:14 here and 03:14 there, he phoned me. And the story began...

The other day, he called me 5 times starting from 18:47 (Manila time)... He couldn't put down the phone, and we finally ended the conversation at 20:06 because it was too late, no, I should say, it was already morning there (05:06) for him. The next day, he called me again. Since then, he called me every other day. Since then, he couldn't sleep until he heard my voice. Since then, he changed his display name to "Rainbow: I miss my HannahBB very much!". He was crazy about me already, and we both knew that.

Rainbow saved me from loneliness, from the pain I had for my last breakup. That was the very first time I could feel pure and true love. One night, he said to me, "I love you... very much..." My heart beat so fast, and that was the first time I couldn't put a smile on my face when talking with him. I knew I was touched already. I knew I fell in love with this a little silly yet very sincere boy already. And I couldn't believe I'd choose this very ordinary, not-cute/hansome-at-all four-eye-boy over all those other higher quality men. I believe that was really what we call L-O-V-E.

It was a real story, he really had to hear me telling him I missed him before he could gwai gwai dei sleep at 5 (or even 8!) in the morning there, every day. I sometimes had classes until 9 pm here, as a result, I couldn't go online as usual. And you know something? He waited for my break at 7:30 pm and called me just to tell me how much he missed and needed me... :*( Aw... And on MSN (even in real life), he always called me "Hon Hon," aww... The first message I would recieve was "Hon Hon", followed by "^3^" and "I miss you very very much... ><" hehe... how sweet... ^^ And before he slept, he had to kiss my picture first. ^^

My ex-boyfriend and other suitors kept circling around me, however, I could see no one but him only. He was just like a diamond in my hand, so bright and so precious.
"I bought Mark Six today, if I won, I could get $ 72,000,000 ^^"
"I wish you could win =)"
"If i won, I would propose to you right away ^^"
"Hm... But I'm not sure if I would say yes bor..."
"I don't care. I'll do it first ^^"

One night, he was drunk. I thought he would have a lot of fun with his friends and forget about me. But his didn't! He sent me a message... 'Honey, I'm so drunk now! I just know that I love you very much!!! If you can, please call me... I'm your husband Rainbow!' When I recieved that, I was stunned and frozen. My hand was shaking, and my heart was beating, I could hardly breathe. I had never recieved such a strong and powerful message in my life. Literally, I collapsed. You might think I was too naive. No, I wasn't! He was the first boy who didn't treat me like a toy or a prey. That was the first time I felt so loved by a person.

Rainbow was an extraordinarily funny person. I just couldn't stop grinning when I was with him. He could easily tell you an impromtu cracking joke very casually. I wanted to be with him all the time because he was just soooo funny! Nevertheless, he always got sick :*( I always heard him coughing, sneezing, or having different kinds of aches all over his body. When his stomach ached, so would my heart... In order to be healthier and stronger, he swam a lot : ) Afterwards, he would tell me how tired he was~ Then I had to comfort him hehe... He was like a little kid wanting attention from his mommy. ^^

One day, I dreamed of him, and it was so clear. In the dream, we were so happy. Nevertheless, it wasn't a good sign; or I could even say that it was an omen. Because every time I dreamed clearly of the person I loved so much, I would lose him in the end... I hoped so much that it wouldn't happen again. However, I dreamed of him again few days later. I told him that, and he was so happy about that. But I started to worry already.

I don't remember when did he stop calling me. And as we no longer talked on phone, we had to depend a lot on chatting. After sometime, he had to go back to Hong Kong due to some serious personal reasons. We didn't get to chat as much as we did before. And that was when our love degenerated. At the same time, his confidence in himself lost eventually as he realized he really had many rivals; compared to them, he wasn't that special (but of course, he was the best to me!). He began to say a lot of sorrys, and I felt bad because I failed to make him happy and confident.

But the core problem was that he had to sacrifice all the time he used to give me for his personal problems. I understood him, but I couldn't stand it... He told me to hold on tight and give him some more time, he loved me a lot. I really did my best to try to overcome that, but I couldn't make it... I was jealous of his problems, because they stole him away! My Rainbow became monochrome...

One day, he phoned me again and said that his bad things were almost over. I felt better again. However, this phone call couldn't save our relationship. My immunity to other heart-attackers was deteriorating. In fact, a lethal event killed my heart for him directly when I called him one evening — he picked up the phone and talked English with me!! I was like, woaw, this man was really something huh! And he said he couldn't talk with me because he was with his family. I felt so hurt when I was focred to end the call. But as requested, I "let him go"... I let him go... He let go of me... I let go of him...

After that happened, he still called me and messaged me. However, my love for him had faded already. And no matter how hard he tried to get back with me, he still couldn't change my mind.

Many months later, I met him again. He was still the same. Still so crazy to see me. Still so funny and jolly to be with. Still so caring to ask about my recent life. =) He was still the same... He was all the same.

I miss the voice I heard on the phone... I miss the South Park doll he put in his car... I miss the ugly glasses he wore to scare the girls off... I miss the jacket he wanted to lend me when I felt cold... I miss the back I saw on the web-cam when he watched Dragon Ball in the midnight... I miss the HannahBB-wallpaper in his computer he made for me... I miss the octopus arms he stretched when he wanted to hug me... I miss the lottery vow he used to repeat again and again... I miss the Rainbow I once knew... I miss this man. :*)

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