Open Letter

Dearest Milette:

This letter is meant not to blame you or to express something that could not be. This is not about hate, nor love, but it is about facing the mistakes done.  It is about being at the start and looking at the things that went by.  Regretting all of the time we had not made the most of everything, about the moments wasted, the spoiled opportunities.

Looking back at first, I must confess, I felt a little different, no, a whole lot different.  I felt hate, I felt rejection and I ended up blaming you and making stories out of the things we had shared, stories that made you the bad girl.

Then, I went on convincing myself, making myself believe the false reality caused by selfishness.  I tried to forget the things, I tried to forget the face, I tried to forget writing you because I forgot the good things that happened which are meant to be remembered.

Then one day, my heart is shaken and my spirit is screaming.  I wanted to run I wanted to hide, but where.I had to face my fear, my pride because after all I knew I still care for you.  With my pride that is killing me, I've learned to put it down.

Now, I can never be wrong, I must have not felt that way, I must not condemn you for not loving me anymore, for not closing my heart to me. You are right, I must set you free for the good of us. I must give you space and time to weigh all the things that happened to us.  I must let go of a girl that I love so much, eventhough it would hurt me a lot knowing that I could never hold you once more.

For now, I must say goodbye to you my love, I know you are a good girl, and I'm the bad boy. But please remember that if you need somebody, I'm always here to give you strength and comfort.

I love you!!!!!

Love always,

Kristian