I was online, like I usually was every night, hoping to get ahold of my best friend so I could see if she would go with me to Walmart. Well she wasn't online that night, cause she had to work the next day. So I was in a chat room looking for people in my area who would possibly go with me to Walmart. I came across this one guy who seemed pretty cool. He offered to go with me, but I was a little hesitant at first cause I had just met him and knew nothing about him.. So he had one of his best friends, Alice, talk to me, and she convinced me that he was a good guy. So I gave him my address and he said he would be over in about 45 mins. So that gave me time to get ready.
Shortly before he arrived I started getting really worried, I had no idea who this guy was and if I could trust going alone with him to the store. So when he arrived I was really nervous. But he pulled into the driveway and I went walking out to his car and got in.. He said Hi right away and which seemed to calm be down a little more, then we just started a conversation about how funny it was that we just met online and we're going to Walmart together at 2 in the morning. We talked pretty much the whole way to Walmart, which is about a 15-20 min drive. We get there and go walking in, we both seemed really comfortable with eachother, we were cracking jokes back and forth, laughing about every little thing, it's like we had known eachother forever, but we just never met. We went walking through the toy section and I saw a big stuffed puppy dog that I thought was soo cute, and he grabbed it and said he was getting it for me. After we got tired of walking around Walmart, we both weren't ready to say goodbye yet, so we went to Perkins and had some Dessert. We sat and talked for about 2 hours. Then we started getting tired so we drove back to my place and he dropped me off..
The next day I gave him my number, he called and we sat and talked on the phone for a while. Then we just started hanging out like every day. He'd stay at my place, or I'd go stay at his place, we just became inseperable. We were together for about 3 months when he desided he wanted to take me to see his Mother and little sister in Phoenix, AZ. So in March (21st-25th) we flew to Phoenix to visit. Things were great, I got along with all his family. His little sister (8 y'o at the time) just loved me. She kept asking me if I was going to marry her brother. And I just smiled real big and said maybe someday. The whole trip was great.. After visiting his family him and I went to Las Vegas for a day. We just walked around to see the sites. Had dinner at Hard Rock Caffet. Then had to head back to the hotel cause our flight left early the next day.
Shortly after our trip to AZ and Las Vegas, (April 2002) I went with my family to my brother's best friends wedding. I had a long conversation with my Parents, my Brother, his Best friend and also my Sister and her husband. I just brought up some of the things that were bothering me about my relationship with Nick. Like Nick being a very outspoken person, he liked to tell stories of things he had done in his past, he seemed to always be bragging about what he's done, and most of the stories he would tell, I had a hard time believing. And abother thing that bothered me is that he'd always start telling anyone an everyone about what he's done like when we were in Las Vegas, he would start telling the waitor about his life. And it made me a little uncomfortable. Well after I told everyone about my concerns and how I was feeling it all kept coming down to this, if I was having problems with things now they'd only get worse, so I should get out of the relationship now.
So one night after Nick came over, I told him we needed to talk. I said that there were things that were bothering me and I wasn't sure what to do about them. There were times when we were together that I got alittle embarrased because of the fact that he's the type of person that doesn't really care about other peoples oppionions of who he is. And I'm not that type of person myself, I'm very layed back, shy, quiet, innocent. So when I was with him and he'd just start talking to anyone I kept worrying what that person was thinking. So I got embarrassed. But I failed to see my actual feelings for Nick as a person.. With all the embarassing things aside. I failed to see the great times that him and I had when we were alone. When it was just him and I, I was falling in love with him.. But at the time, I was too worried about what everone else around me was thinking, So I ended up breaking things off with him.
Shortly after we broke up, Nick called and asked if I would drive with him to Ohio cause he didn't want to drive all that way alone. So I was like, sure, but as long as it's just as friends.. So we drove to Ohio to visit his Dad. Some where alone the way things between Nick and I changed.. It's like the further I got away from my family, and the though and worry about what they were thinking, I started listening to my own feelings for Nick and I kept falling for him more. Well while we were there visiting his Dad, I brought up something to Nick's attention. I told him that I thought I might be pregnant. So we went to the store and got a pregnancy test and it came back possitive (ver faint) but it was possitive. At first I think we were both a little happy, then reality hit. On the way back from Ohio, I started to freak out.. How was I going to tell my Parents?? It took me about a month to finally tell my parents, but the unfortunet part is that they were the ones who confronted me about the issue. So where along the way they heard it from someone else. Which I had only told One other person besides Nick about it. Sooo I was a bit upset about that. But my parents took it ok, they were both a little upset. But that was to be expected.
Shortly after finding out I was prego, Nick got a job offer he had been waiting for in PA. Things between him and I weren't the best because of the bad influances that I was getting from some of my family. So when he asked me if I wanted him to stay, I told him NO. So he moved to PA, and I stayed in MN. Throughout the pregnancy I didn't hear much from Nick but a phone call here and there.. I kept asking him if he was able to send me some money to help buy things for the baby, like a crib, cloths, diapers, etc. He told me he'd send me as much as he could as long and he got all his bills taken care of. Well I got a check for $400 about 2 months later. I wasn't able to cash it cause I didn't have an account at the time, so my parents deposited it into their account and took out the money and we went to the store to buy a crib. Well come to find out later, when my Dad got their bank statement. The check Nick sent was Canceled. So my parents account was overdrawn by $400, plus they charged him the overdraft fee..
Well not long after that happened, my Dad tried confronting Nick about canceling the check and all he said is that he felt he didn't have to pay me anything cause he was questioning weather or not the baby was his and if I was actually pregnant cause the test him and I took was very hard to see. I got really upset over that cause he was the only guy I was ever with. I gave my Virginity to him and I was never with anyone else after him and I broke up. So after hearing him tell me that, I didn't want anything to do with him..
The pregnancy was going great. I found out I was having a little girl when I was about 7 months pregnant. I got ultrasound pictures taken of her and I desided to Email them to Nick. Unfortunetly I never got a responce about the pictures. I tried emailing him a few times but never got a response, till one day I got one that was threatening to take me to court and possibly take the baby from me. At this point I was really scared that I'd loose my baby so I got ahold of the child support services in my area and they informed me that it was not very likely that he would have a chance to take the baby from me.
Eventually things cooled down in that area and her Due date came around.. The night of December 15th 2002, I started having contractions at about 12am. Around 2am my parents took me to the hospital because they were getting closer together. I was put into a delivery waiting room, which is a room with a bed and all the things they need to monitor the baby's heart beat and the contractions.. I was given an IV and told to rest until they had a delivery room available. Around 7am, we got moved to a delivery room. I met the doctor who would be delivery my daughter. I had about 10 nurses coming in and out of the room to check on me. My brother, Mark, his best friend, Dennis and his wife, Sarah and daughter, Elizabeth, who was only 4 months old at the time, showed up around 12:30pm.. Then my sister, Teresa, her husband, Mike, and their two girls, Kaitlyn and Alivia, showed up around 1pm.
The doctor came in and broke my water at 2pm. And I was given an epidural around 2:30pm. And at about 4pm, the doctor came in and checked on me and I was fully diolated. So they started me pushing.. I had a hard time cause I couldn't feel or tell if I was even doing anything when I pused. Then the doctors got concerned about 45 mins into pushing cause everytime I'd push the baby's heart would stop. They mentioned to my parents that if I don't get the baby out soon they might have to do a c-section. Luckily at 5:41pm I was able to get her out. They layed her on my chest and cleaned her off, she bairly cried, she just kept trying so hard to look at me, she was so beautiful. She weight 8.6 pounds, was 18 and a half inches long, and had a 13 and a half inch head. I named her Keira Leann Owens (she was given my last name) Nick was not there to sign the birth certificate so he was not put on it. (MN state law says the father has to be there to sign it himself or it wont be legal)
After her birth, I never heard a word from Nick. Months and Months passed and no matter how many Emails I sent, I never got anything in return. So I just gave up on that and figured Keira would never get to meet her father. Which was a bit upsetting cause I never pictured being in that situation, I never wanted my kids to grow up not knowing who their Father was.. Well when Keira was about 10 months old. I got a message online from a guy asking about where the father was and why I broke things off with him, all sorts of different things.. Well the next day my Dad also gets a message from the same guy.. Come to find out it was Nick.. At first I was pissed that he was pretending to be someone else just to get information about Keira and how I felt about him.. Then I was a bit thankfull cause Finally I was able to talk to him and possibly find out why he hasn't made more of an effort to be in Keira's life..
My Dad had to convince Nick to talk to me cause he thought that all I would do was argue with him. But he finally just started taking with me and we explained why we each did what we did. He explained to me how he felt when I told him I didn't want him to stay. and I told him how I felt about him moving away.. He was surprised to find out that I did truelly care for him and that I didn't realy want him to leave. We started calling eachother and talking Every night. We'd talk for hours just going over our feelings.. Then he asked if I wanted him to come an visit. And I said Yes.. So in October 2003, he hopped on a plane to come and see me and Keira. My Dad went with me to pick him up at the airport cause I wasn't sure how to get there. When I first saw Nick my heart just about jumped from my chest.. I wanted to just run up to him and jump into his arms, but I didn't want my Dad getting the wrong idea.. I still hadn't told my Dad how I truelly felt about Nick yet.. But Nick got into the truck and sat right next to Keira. I couldn't whipe the smile off my face just to see them both sitting next to eachother.. I never thought I'd see that day..
We all went to the Mall of America and walked around.. Nick and I kept glancing at eachother and smiling. It was like it was in the begining, like nothing had changed, but now it was a bit of a secret that we had feelings for eachother again cause everyone was a bit against us getting back together cause they were scared Nick would just leave again. But in the end we both just said the hell with what everyone else thinks.. And we desided to try and see where things would go from there.. He would fly to MN to spend time with Keira and I on his 4 days off from work, fly back to work 4 days, then fly back to MN to see us again. Thank God he works for an airline and gets major discounts..
Eventually we started talking about weither or not I would consider moving in with him. It definetly had crossed my mind. So I packed up a few things and Keira and I flew to Georgia to spend a month or so with Nick to see how things would go.. And they went great, things just seemed to get better every time.. Finally we just desided that Keira and I were definetly going to move in with him. So we made plans to go and get the rest of my things, but we had to wait till we moved into a two bedroom. Which wouldn't be available for another few months.
In November we went to visit his Mother and little sister, so they could meet Keira. When his Mom saw Keira for the first time she just broke down in tears. She said she couldn't believe how beautiful she was. We all had a great time visiting his family in AZ.. Nick's Mom had a Tun of presents for Keira, but she said they were for Christmas, so she couldn't open them till then. But she also had presents for her for her 1st Birthday, that she let her open. One of the nights were were in AZ, we went to visit Nick's Ex Step Dad, Allen and his GF. They bought Keira some cute outfits and some socks. Well in December, we flew to MN to celibrate Keira's 1st birthday and Christmas with my family. Unfortunetly my grandmother (My Mom's Mother) wasn't doing too good. Her nursing home called all the family in on the 20th cause they weren't sure she'd make it through the night cause she got neomonia. So all of my Mom's side of the family that was in MN came to the nursing home to spend time with Grandma. She was put on an oxigan machine to help her breath but it wasn't helping the neomonia go away. At around 1am, she finally passed away. The viewing was held on the 24th of December, and the funeral was on the 25th.. So Christmas just wasn't the same.. But we're thankful that Grandma is no longer suffering and that she is at peace..
Well since then things between Nick and I have been great. He's gotten to see Keira learn to walk and is definetly catching up on alot of the things he missed in the begining. In February when were were visiting my family, Nick asked me to marry him. So here's more on that below. |
