If I admit that God's Will regulates the great movements
of the universe I must admit that it equally regulates the small. It must
do this, for the great depend upon the small. The minutest movement of
my will is regulated by the will of God. And in this I rejoice. Woe is
me if it be not so. If I shrink from so unlimited control and guidance,
it is plain that I dislike the idea of being wholly at the disposal of
God. I am wishing to be in part at my own disposal. I am ambitious of regulating
the lesser movements of my will, while I give up the greater to His control.
And thus it comes out that I wish to be a god to myself. I do not like
the thought of God having all the disposal of my destiny. If He gets His
will, I am afraid that I shall not get mine. It comes out, moreover, that
the God about whose love I was so fond of speaking, is a God to whom I
cannot trust myself implicitly for eternity. Yes, this is the real truth.
Man's dislike at God's sovereignty arises from his suspicion of God's
heart. And yet the men in our day, who deny this absolute sovereignty,
are the very men who profess to rejoice in the love of God, - who speak
of that love as if there were nothing else in God but love. The more I
understand of the character of God, as revealed in Scripture, the more
shall I see that He must be sovereign, and the more shall I rejoice from
my inmost heart that He is so.