I walked into the grocery store not
particularly interested in
buying
groceries. I wasn't hungry. The pain of losing
my husband of 37
years
was still too raw. And this grocery store held so many
sweet memories.
Rudy often came with me and almost every time
he'd pretend to go
off
and look for something special. I knew what he was
up to. I'd always
spot
him walking down the aisle with the three
yellow roses in his
hands.
Rudy knew I loved yellow roses.
With a heart
filled with grief, I
only
wanted to buy my few items and leave, but even
grocery shopping
was
different since Rudy had passed on. Shopping
for one took time, a
little more thought than it had for two.
Standing by the meat, I searched for the
perfect small steak and
remembered how Rudy had loved his steak.
Suddenly a woman came
beside
me. She was blond, slim and lovely in a soft green
pantsuit. I watched
as
she picked up a large pack of T-bones, dropped
them in her
basket,
hesitated, and then put them back. She turned
to go and once
again
reached for the pack of steaks. She saw me
watching her and she
smiled. "My husband loves T-bones, but honestly, at
these prices, I
don't
know." I swallowed the emotion down my throat and
met her pale blue
eyes.
"My husband passed away eight days ago," I told
her. Glancing at
the
package in her hands, I fought to control the
tremble in my
voice.
"Buy him the steaks. And cherish every moment you
have together."
She shook her head and I saw the emotion in her
eyes as she
placed the
package in her basket and wheeled away.
I turned and pushed my cart across the length
of the store to the
dairy
products. There I stood, trying to decide which
size milk I
should buy.
A quart, I finally decided and moved on to the
ice cream section
near
the front of the store. If nothing else, I
could always fix
myself an
ice cream cone. I placed the ice cream in my
cart and looked down
the
aisle toward the front. I saw first the green suit,
then recognized the
pretty lady coming towards me. In her arms she carried
a package. On her
face
was the
brightest smile I had ever seen. I would swear
a soft halo
encircled
her
blond hair as she kept walking toward me, her
eyes holding mine.
As
she
came closer, I saw what she held and tears began
misting in my eyes.
"These are for you," she said and placed three
beautiful long
stemmed
yellow roses in my arms. "When you go through
the line, they will
know
these are paid for." She leaned over and placed
a gentle kiss on
my
cheek, then smiled again. I wanted to tell her
what she'd done,
what
the roses meant, but still unable to speak, I watched
as she walked away
as
tears clouded my vision. I looked down at the
beautiful roses nestled in
the
green tissue wrapping and found it almost unreal. How
did she know?
Suddenly the answer seemed so clear. I wasn't
alone. "Oh, Rudy,
you
haven't forgotten me, have you?" I whispered,
with tears in my
eyes.
He was still with me, and she was his angel.
"Everyday be thankful for what you have and who
you are."
