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Just wanted to say hello & that I was thinking about you. God bless.

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Michelle, you are always in my heart and on my mind, we miss you, hope Heaven in everything people say it is, see ya. Brandon

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Hey Sweety, I miss you more than ever. Thinking of you always...Nee

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I didn't know you, but remember hearing of your death. I pray everyday for your family and for you. I know God is taking good care of you and your family. Hope all is well. France

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May God bless the family and friends of Michelle, and may they find a way to move on. Losing a child has got to be the most painful thing to experience in one's life, especially in a manner such as the way Pam and her family lost Michelle. I don't know that there is ever actually "closure" to such a horrific loss, however, I hope there is some justification in the knowledge that this animal will never be able to harm another innocent victim. May God bless the family and friends of Michelle, and may they find a way to move on. I know you will be watching over them Michelle, and now my brother, Greg, will be helping you. With all my love, Cynthia ...........

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You are always in our hearts and in our thoughts!

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Hey girlie- I was thinking about yourself and your family hoping that everything and everyone is holding up ok. I know that you are with them to give them your guidance and support. I know it is rough without you but I know that you are trying to ease the pain. =) Tasha

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Deat Michelle, There will never be a day that passes that I do not think of you and pray for your guidence. Someimes when I look at this inspiring page, or at your beautiful pictures, my heart breaks. I am remined of the horrible emotion that I felt the instant that I eceived a phone call, confirming who the student was, found at RLSHS. I pray for your inspiration and guidence, and I ask for your help in overcoming what I still cannot understand. At least they got him girl, and he will never hurt anyone again. We all love you very much, and know that you will live on in our hearts forever. Lovingly, Kermit

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Hey girlie- You have been on my mind do much . I know that you are with us everyday. My mom and I both have pictures of you up in our homes. My mom has one as you walk up the stairs in the corner and evertime my baby sister walks up the stairs she says. Michelle m Angel.She is too cute. I wanted to write a few lines to let you know you are on my mind . Love ya much, Tasha

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hey girl hope your doing good up there and having fun. I miss you so much and so does jason hes living with me now and we are doing great we really wish you were here. I had a very healthy baby boy his name is austin quinn najera jason named him it fits really well. he was 8lbs and 4ozs he is so adorable he was born on october 9,2000 and girl let me tell was i scared and in so much pain jason was there for me the whole time helping me push and then was ther for me in reocvery i owe him so much i think y ur spirt was there with us and looking over me, ausitn, and jason. jason is his godfather he is so good with him austin smiles at him everytime jason holds him. jason i know in my will be a very good father one day. I hope you make sure of it. I hope our family is doing good jason is suppose to take austin to see you pam very soon i hope. ihope all of you take care and have a great thanksgiving. love and miss you much michelle

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HI HONEY MISSING YOU WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US. ALL MY LOVE XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX YOUR MOM AND BEST FRIEND COME SEE ME BABE IN A DREAM OR IN PERSON STILL WAITING FOR YOU TO COME HOME YOUR ROOM IS STILL THE SAME IT IS YOUR ROOM AND ALWAYS BE YOURS . LOV YA MOM

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Again, all of our best to you and your family.

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Hey Michelle- Wanted to stop by to say hello and to tell you that you are missed. Well I am sure that you already knew before I did that God blessed me with a baby. Help me to be strong in everything I do. Miss you bunches Tash

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I have stayed off of your guestbook becuase all the the trial/lawyer/character BS. For anyone's information, a 'webmistress' is simply a female webmaster. Some people took that out of context. I miss you so much everyday and I have your pictures all over my new house and in my new office. I am redoing your Flash movie on my website, and I know everyone will love it. I am sorry I can't be around to hang out with Mom, Joe and 'Cilla and Chris, ut I live a ways away now. It feels *outstanding* to be out of Rio Linda. )))huggs((( /robinjean

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Just thinking of you today, and everyday. Until we meet again, much love Sweet, Sexy, Thang!

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Michelle... I'm really glad to hear that the awful man responsible for the tragic end to your life is going to get what he deserves. I'm sure we're all happy about that, but not to thrilled about the next step. As your mother stated, we are in the healing process. It s very difficult, but there is no doubt we're going to make it through this. You were there for us then and I'm sure you'll be there for us now. Michelle, help us realize that life does go on and that we'll be seeing you again soon. You are always in my h art, thoughts, and prayers.... Remember that and I'm sure you always will.

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SHAZ,well honey the trail is over and he got death thank you for being by my side sweetie.It was the worst thing to go through besides the day you were taken from . Michelle know how do we go on without you know the trail is over know it is time to heal h w can we heal without you in my life,you are missed so much it is hard to go on with out you so you are still away at school right thats how i deal you are just away for know so I'm just e-mailing you so love you much xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox MOM

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Hey Michelle - You have been gone for so long and it seems like yesterday I had you to talk to . I try my hardest to live a good life but you know everyone makes mistakes. If there is anything I could do for you or your family give me a sign. I will always be here . P.S. You are doing a great job at being our Guardian Angel Hugs and Kisses Tasha A.

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HAY SIS WAZ BEEN UP?? WELL I MISS YA AND LOVE YA SO MUCH!! WELL LIFE SUXS SO MUCH THERE IS HEKA HATERS UP IN THIS WORLD WELL WHTEVER!! MOM AND DAD LEFT TO DAY BE WITH THEM AND HELP THEM K!! WELL U DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WISH U WERE HERE WITH ME TO TALK ABOU GUYS AND MY PROBLEMS U ARE MY ONLY SIS AND U JUST HAD TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME WELL I KNOW ILL SEE U AGIN BUT THAT IS TO LONG!! U WONT BE THERE WHEN I GET MARIED AND I CANT TELL U WHEN I HAVE MY 1ST KISS!! ALSO I CANT TELL U ABOUT ALL THE PROBLEMS IN MY IFE!I HEKA MISS YA SO SO MUCH NO 1 KNOW THAT DONT UNDERSTAND I MEAN THEY THINK THEY DO BUT THEY DONT I NEED U FOR THE LIL THINGS IN LIFE AND I KNOW MOM TRYES BUT I THANK HER FOR IT BUT IT IS NOT THE SAME I MEAN THERE ARE SOME THINGS IN LIFE THAT I DONT WA T MOM TO KNOW!!LOVE YA SO SO MUCH

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I found this poem on the net, and it made me think of you: Believe in Angels When I look at you I shed a tear A life so short No time to waste I wish you were here With time to live A life filled with Happiness and love I know your not Coming back I just wish that I knew; Why you? One day I hope To see your face In all your Happiness, courage, and grace I miss you So much But I know One thing is for sure It can't rain all the time

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HEY SIS I MISS U SO MUCH!!NO ONE KNOWS WHO MUCH I NEED U!! LIKE FOR LIL THINGS TO HELP ME WITH HOMEWORK I DONT HAVE U THERE TO TALK ABOUT BOYS AND STUFF LIKE THAT GIRL STUFF I KNOW I HAVE SISSY AND DARCY BUT IT IS NOT THE SAME I WANT U I KNOW THEY TRY HAR BUT IT IS LIKE NOT THE SAME AS IF U WERE TO EXPLANE IT TO ME!!I WHISH U WERE HER TO TALK TO ABOUT MY LIFE CAUSE I KNOW U WOULD HAVE THE RIGHT ANSWER SO DOSE SISSY AND DARCY BUT U ARE MY BIG SIS NOT THEM THEY COULD NEVER TAKE YOUR SPOT!! WELL I LOVE YA CO E SEE ME IN A DREAM OR SOMETHING MUCH LOVE SISTERS 4EVER U+ME=US

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Dear Michelle, Please watch over my younger brother, Greg. He has been missing now for four days. I'm very worried that something has happened to him because he would never leave his dog alone and he has never just gone on a trip without telling me or calling me, besides his car is still at his home too. The police are looking for him. He lives in Houston, and no one has heard from him since Wednesday night. Please watch over him for me and my mother. I miss him so much, and we need him here in our lives. He has never done anything to hurt anyone, except sometimes himself especially when he trusts the wrong people. Thank you. God Bless You and your family. God give them strength in the days ahead, and me and my mother too. Love, Cynthia T. ......Amen......

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Michelle, You are very much missed by everyone. You are in all of our hearts. We love you!

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Hey - Girlie just thinking of you.

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HI honey just wanted to say I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH and think of you daily . Mom

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Hello michelle- Wanted to stop by and say hello miss ya much talk to you soon. Love tasha

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It's me just thinking of ya. Love you lote xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Hey girlie- I wanted to stop and leave you another message. It has started to rain outside and we used to say at ST.Josephs that when it rains the Angel's are partying hard. So I wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and I hope you are partying up a storm. love you so much and you always have a special place in my heart. I know through all the good times and bad in our lives you are over my shoulder. I know that you are keeping your loved ones strong through the hard times in life. I am thinking of you bun hes . I Love you so much and I can't wait till we meet again Love ya my Angel, Tash

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He there girlie- I hope you are doing great you are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. I was thinking about the memories we have shared from kingergarden and eighth grade graduations to keeping in contact in high school. I am glad that God bless me with a friend like y u . I miss you so much and I know you are doing a great job at being a guardian angel. Love you lots RED, Tash

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Dear Michelle, Your mother sent me the most beautiful message this morning (Thur. 8/31/00) and I just must put it on your page for others to read and gain as much peace from it as I have. Your mom is the BEST! And I know she will be very specially blessed by God. Here is the message, and the web page address is at the end - "Thank you Pam ~ there is a most precious place in my heart for you always - you've done so much, and given so much to me, when you might have thought you didn't have anything to give, you had the most." ~ Love always, Cynthia ~ Wishes for You ~ May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand. May the pain you have known and the conflict you have experienced give you the strength to walk through life facing each new situation with courage and optimism. Always know that there are those whose love and understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone. May a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours every day of your life, and may you give these gifts as well as receive them. May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them. Remember, those whose lives you have touched and who have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is more important than its form. May you not become too concerned with material matters, but instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. Find time in each day to see beauty and love in the world around you. Realize that what you feel you lack in one regard you may be more than compensated for in another. What you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future. May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility. Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience. May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself, and not be dependent on another's judgment of your accomplishments. ~ And most of all, may you always feel loved, wanted and needed. http://www.oocities.org/cher0012/WishesForYou.htm l ... I just hope no words are cut out of this message as has been happening to the last few written on this page....therefore I'm leaving a lot of dots.............................................. ......................

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thank you shell, Ilove and Miss you so much...............................................................................................

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P.S. - Linda reminded me of all the special days surrounding you, that it rained...your funeral, and then for the last two days it has been so cold that weather records were broken, and it rained today and this evening while we were visiting your memorial at Rio Linda High School. I said "It's God's Tears." Love to you from both of us, Linda and Cynthia..................Peace be with you......................

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JUSTICE HAS PREVAILED!!! THE JURY FOUND HIM GUILTY ON ALL COUNTS - IN LESS THAN 10 HOURS OF DELIBERATION!!!! Although I feel relieved to a large extent, there isn't much satisfaction since nothing brings you back to your family and friends, but that animal won't be out in society to harm anyone else. Sept. 18th is the beginning of the Penalty Phase when the hearings will begin and the jury will then decide his lifelong fate. Once again, the media went out to Rio Linda High School, and it will probably be on all the TV channels in about one minute. The kids at the school were relieved too! There were beautiful flowers at the Michelle Montoya Walkway of Peace Memorial, and a beautiful candle burning under your bench. Linda Shull and I visited the memorial this evening. May you finally rest in peace, and may God's love and peace dwell upon your family and friends. Lov

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Dear Chelle, The evidence is now presented to the jury and they are busy trying to come up with a just deliberation. But for all of us who know you and for a great many who did not know you personally, but were affected by you leaving, there is no questi n in our minds, you would not have consented to anything. Not sex, not being beaten, not leaving your family and friends. YOU HAD NO CHOICE, NO CHOICE WAS PRESENTED TO YOU. Your continued presence in all our lives shows that you are not done with this orld yet or with those in it. I especially appreciate how you look after Doody and Sis and continue to show signs like having them placed in the 'Taurus Room' at Shriner's Hospital yesterday just before Doody's surgery. I know that you are with your fam ly daily and with other friends as well, and it amazes me how you can be so many places at once, but it shouldn't. I remember even on the soccer field you were in SO MANY PLACES AT ONCE. Remember how we named you THE RABBIT one year during our annual af er-soccer presentations! So now that you have wings it shouldn't suprise me that you can be in so many places in such a short period of time. God has his gifts and your continiuing presence and not leaving us totally is one of them. Well, Chelle, I will close for now asking you to allow the jury to feel your presents, shake the lights or something, send your feeling of goodness out to them and they will know the right decision. God's continued SPEED to you girl, and with it know that all our love goes w th you. God be with you, Sheila

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Michelle, It's almost over, the 12 people who don't even know you have all the faith in there hands. I know that you are there with them to help them make the right choice. It was so hard to sit in that court room all those days and see your mom and dad c y and having hear all those lies. I know you and we all know that you would have never have sex with that *#!*... I will always be here for you, and your family. Thanks for keeping me so strong. ILOVEYOU baby philip wants type you something /;l i7m,u,m? jn frggfr U} irt hhnbb ht ,hjj. 52058..2.0./ 9865565998 kjhfiuwheuwv dds That all you and Philip you guys have that cummation between each other I'm sure that you know ehat he was saying Love you bye for now

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God bless you and keep you always. I fell you have already forgiven Mr. Thomas, but it's alot harder for us to deal with.

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"YOUR SACRIFICE WAS NOT N VAIN" ANDI, NIC, CYNTHIA, GEORGE - TATOOLE - LOVE, AND GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS.........

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I worked with your Mom for many years and saw you grow up from a little girl to a beautiful teenager. I think of you and your family often. I read about the trial in the newspapers and it sickens me to think that these so called "educated men of law" ar sinking so low as to imply that you were somehow responsible for what happened. They should be put on trial for the pain they are causing your family and dis-barred from practicing law. Your Mom must be utterly heartbroken and your family must be devastated. Those who knew you, know the truth about the type of person you were raised to be and I'm sure the truth will prevail. Pam, I cannot begin to tell you how sorry I am for your and your family's sorrow. You are an exceptionally strong woman and I a certain that Justice will be served. I think of you always and I pray for you and your family daily. God Bless you!!

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All our best to you and your family. God give them strength for dealing with all of this. He tried to slip away but we got him first. All Our Best....

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God be with you all and fill you with strength.

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This coming Wednesday is the first day of school at Rio Linda High School. Cheerleading practice and football practice has begun already and I heard yesterday that many of the students currently on campus are very upset with the way the trial is going and how your reputation is being assaulted over and over with the false claims against you. The girls are very upset that the defense is claiming you were not raped, that it was "consensual sex". But the trial is not over yet! Closing arguments begin Monday. We are all praying for your family, and for justice to prevail, and send all of you our love. God be with you all and fill you wit

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Please help your family and friends to stay strong through such a hard time. They'll be happy to know that you are with them by their side through all of this.

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Dear Michelle, I just don't know what to say. I've only sat through two days of the trial.....and I cannot begin to imagine how your family finds their strength, except that I know they have such a strong faith in God. You are not here to defend yourself against the truely awful attacks against your reputation that the defense is using to try to safe that LIAR. But I KNOW that God knows all the truth of everything. Mr. Thrailkill (Mr. T.) was on the witness stand today...he was terrific...honest and so very caring. It was very difficult for him. But no where near as difficult as it has been on your mom, Pam, your dad, Joe, and Dorothy, Kelly, Pris, Chris, and Sandra, not to mention all the rest. We all remember you always and send our love.

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Dear Michelle, I am following the trial very closely and want you and your family to know that you are in my prayers. I am so sorry that your parents have to relive the horror in detail, and I am sorry that the defense people can actually receive a paycheck for defending such a repulsive monster. You are a baeutiful girl who had her entire life ahead of her and we all know -- even people that never met you -- that they are telling lies as a desperate attempt to make you out to be something you could never be. I now that you bring strength to your family, and your passing has left a mark on us all. I will continue to pray for you and your family until the day that you are finally able to rest in peace. I have faith that goodness and justice will prevail, and the Lord will be at your side through it all.

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Hello Michelle, I know that although I come to this website often to see all the lovely and touching messages your friends, family, and even total strangers leave for you, but I've rarely left one myself. Since I don't live anywhere near where the trial is being held, I have to hear about the horrible things going on there secondhand. It's terrible that your family and friends are being victimized twice by this person. But, I hope and pray that justice will prevail and he will get what he deserves in thi life. I'm sure everyone already knows what he will get in the next. God bless you and your family.

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HEY THERE SWEETIE I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT YOUR FAMILY IS SO STRONG WE WENT TO SANTA ROSA ON TUESDAY NIGHT SO THAT WE WOULD BE IN COURT ON WED. EARLY AND ALL DAY WED AND THURS WE HAD TO SIT THERE LISTEN TO THEM DISCRIBE IN DETAIL WHAT HAPPENED ON MAY 16, 997, tHEY SAT THERE AT TIMES TEARY EYED , BUT THEY GOT THOUGH IT WE KNOW THAT YOU WERE THERE WITH US BECAUSE THE SCREEN CAME ON AND IT WASN'T SUPPOSE TO AND THE COLOR WAS PURPLE.... YOU WERE THERE..... WE MISS YOU SO MUCH. YOUR FAMILY NEED YOU TO BE THERE WE CAME HOME FOR THE WEEKEND AND WE WILL BE GOING BACK ON SUNDAY.. THIS NEXT WEEK WILL BE HARD TO SIT THOUGH BUT WE WILL GET THOUGH IT WITH YOUR HELP. I LOVE YOU AND KEEP US STRONG ALWAYS LOVE YOU ME SISSY...........

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Dear Michelle, The trial began yesterday, and I want you to know that those of us that knew you know better than what that horrible monster wants us to believe. I pray for your family and I know that justice will be done. I hope your parents can find comf rt somehow - i is so unfair that a person (we can't call him a man) can continue to hurt people over and over. I wish your family strength and courage, and I will continue to pray for what is right.

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HI HONEY ITS ME WELL SHAZ THE TRIAL STARTS ON 8/9/00 IT HAS BEEN 3YRS 3 MONTHS BOY IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY .MICHELLE YOU HAVE TO HELP ME THROW THIS ONE IT IS GOING TO BE HARD AND I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE SO PLEASE HONEY GIVE ME THE STREGHTH TO HANDEL IT BOY ITS NOT THE SAM WITHOUT YOU.MY LIFE JUST ENDED WHEN YOU LEFT AND IT IS HARD TO GET BACK ON TRACK BOY YOUR MOM SUCKS AT SPELLING BUT YOU UNDERSTAND DONT YOU HONEY.MICHELLE I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH AND CANT WAIT TILL I CAN HOLD YOU ONLY ME AND YO GIRL ALWAYS AND FOREVER LOVE YOU MOM XOXOXOXOXOXO

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Michelle, I have been here in a while, but you know as well as I do that, that we are togther everyday. Even more now that it is soccer season. It's so hard to go out there and watch someone eles play because all I think about is when we were out on that feild. Every single year that I played you played we were that team not to put any one eles down but me and you were the bomb. I miss that we we e so good on and off the field. As you know that I oing though so much right now and I realy need to have your assistants. I was always there for you and I hate to ask this of you but please help me make the right choice. Help me get out of the binds tha I got myself into. I sure that you can see how big baby philip is getting, he is a monster sometimes, ASK MOM. Mom is right about cilla she is getting to that point that she needs her big sister. She talks to me alot but I know that you would have all th right thing to say to her. Maybe you can go and visit her and let her know that you are still with her. Yu need to go and visit your mom and dad because they really need you right there are scared about tomorrow the trail should start, and they need you , we all DO. I love and miss you so much, I have your picture in my car so I see you everyday. I remeber the last time that I saw you. I'm so sorry that I didn't wait till you were done talking to Mrs. Morel because then maybe I would be writing you this etter, I would just be able to call you on the phone. I should have waited and gave you a ride home And i'm soory for that. Know I will always be here for you and I will always be here for your mom and day and the kids....that what a real friend is. not till the end of your life but till the end of mine.... I love you always sis!

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Michelle... I just wanted to stop by and say hi. You know who this is... even though we didn't really know eachother well in high school you're always on my mind. I think about all these what if's... What if this didn't happen to you? Where would you be t day? Probably on your way to becoming a very successful woman. I remember all those times we'd pass eachother in the halls and you'd look at me with those beautiful fishy eyes and a big smile and say, "Hi!" That was as far as we went, but after that terri le day, I didn't see you in the halls anymore and that really affected my life. I didn't realize it till then. I'm really sorry that such a horrible person had to ruin all your dreams and aspirations. I think that God thought that you were such a special erson that he didn't want you in such a horrible place. He wanted you next to him so that he could watch over you himself. I'm happy to know that you are in a better place. I think about you everyday. You will always live in my heart.

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Hi Michelle, It has been way to long that I have not come here and I have been in my own little world. I was so pleased when you came into that reading with Heidi. I have a log of that reading where it said that they have a spirit and then said it's Michelle and Hid , lol They didn;t even know how to spell Heidi's name lol. I hope that the two of you are staying close together because right now there is alot of ugly termoil and lies that are around Heidi's old friends or believed to be friends at the time. oh well ju t tell Heidi that I know what is going on and it will all blow over soon. I know you will be with your mom and family when the trial begins and I pray that she can somehow feel it before. You are her strength and she is doing all she can thanks to you but I am worried about her and your dad when all is said and done I know the two of you have something wonderfull that you will both be working together her here on earth and you precious thing in heaven but yet side by side and heart to heart!. Please be my babies Heidi's friend I know you are a good one and she needs that right now! Lots of love and light to you Donna Cox

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There is a wonderful web site about an organization created by a mother who lost her child. It is called M.I.S.S. It might help some of you to visit this site and share it with others. The address is simply www.misschildren.org - MISS Philosophy: "There is no experience as tragic as the death of your baby...Not baby in the sense of chronological age. 'Baby' meaning: your child. At what point does your child 'stop' being your baby? Never. When we at MISS, refer to the term 'baby,' we do not necessa ily mean infant or toddler. There is never an appropriate time or age to lose a child. It is always a gross injustice, an unconscionable tragedy. Anyone who has lost a child is welcome here..." (remember: www.misschildren.org) I hope it brings some comfo t. God Bless You All.

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It's a real shame what happened. 20 years after I graduated (1977). 20 years ago I would never have thought something like this could happen at our school. I am so very, very sorry. I know you have a lot of company up there -- Brian Kennedy (1998), Na han Robinson-Davis (2000), Boogie, Heidi Cox. I hope heaven is exactly what we're told -- truly heaven. Watch over all of us and try to guide us to do what is always right.

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Hi Michelle~ I just thought I'd stop by and let you know that you were on my mind today and everyday. Even though we weren't close, this terrible thing that happened to you affected my life and I'm sure many others. God Bless you, Michelle! Watch over the ones you lov and make sure they're all right and I'll see you when I get there! The memory of you will always live on forever!

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Hi honey will babe today is your sisters birthday know she is getting older she needs her big sisters to guide her and she needs to talk to you about girl things and all that girlie stuff. Michelle we miss you every day that passes it is so hard without y u know one to talk to like we use to I'm trying to talk to your sister but she won't open up to me like you did that is why she needs you so much now because she is getting older and thats when she needs her big sis. Life is so hard without you it still h rts alot and the pain does not go away.You are so young to have left this world why I miss you so much michelle I'll never love anyone as much as I love you me and you were a team and I miss you love Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I miss you today, tomorrow, and always!

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to a friend as the days pass and the dark of night shines upon those who remain your name is heard everywhere you hear it in the wind and among the people who knew you what a tragedy it was to lose a person who empowers and inspires all of us to be better people those who knew you right from the start and those who only knew you for a short while will carry a great deal of sadness and a great deal of joy knowing you live on in the hearts of many for within the crow we can see your true self your passion your fear your heart and caring of the people around you live on true friend for your in a better place and the time will come when we will meet again until that time you will always have a place in the hearts of many and will live in the thoughts and dreams of those who care Peace be with you, be not afraid.

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I visited the "Walkway of Peace Michelle Montoya Memorial" at Rio Linda High School yesterday afternoon and placed a rose next to the bricks I and my family dedicated to you. There were other flowers and a note underneath the marble bench with your portr it. It helps me and others to be able to visit the memorial in remembrance of you. Our lives have changed a lot since that fateful day - May 16, 1997. The memorial notice your family put in the paper yesterday, talking about the dash between 1979 - 199 was so beautiful and so true. May God bless your family and friends always and strengthen them for what lies ahead. Hopefully, Justice will prevail, although it will not bring you back to us here on earth, it will help to bring another measure of closure. YOU and your life here on earth, and the changes created from your sacrifice, will never be forgotten.

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I did not know you, but I feel so sorry that a young life ended the way that it did. I have followed your story from the start and I just want to say that the world has missed out on not having you in it. I can't believe that a total stranger could have s ch an impact on my life. You must have been a very special person to have touched so many lives. I wish your family well.

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I just wanted to tell you that I pray for you every sunday still, your family as well. I hope that one day everything that happened will make sense because even three years later it still doesn't. I hope that you continue to watch over all of us as you ave, and I know you have been, miss you, and that smile.

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Not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts. These pass three years have been hard. Trying to realize that you are not with us anymore is a very difficult thing to do, but just knowing that you are here with all the people you love in spirit reassur s me and I'm sure everyone else who's lives you touched while you were here. Never forget that you will always be in our thoughts and hearts forever.

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Michelle, Three years ago, I knew you as a bright, beautiful, loving, and caring person. The senseless way you died changed my life as well as everyone who knew you. Please know that we love you and have missed you more and more since that day three year ago. Brandon Mars

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Today's the 3-year anniversary of your passing, Michelle. And it is still as real as the day it happened. We all still miss you and love you, and we do still feel the effect of your death every day. But we know you are watching over us. Thank you for bein so strong. I pray for your family especially today. I know it has got to be terrible for them. Just find a way to give them a smile, Michelle. You are always in our hearts.

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Dear Michelle, you crossed my mind today and I thought I would look for something about you on the Wed. Lo' and behold I found this sight. I remember you as a little girl coming to work with you Mother sometimes and hanging out with me in my cubicle. I used to think that your Mom just spoiled you so much and then I came to realize that she just used up every opportunity to love you for the days that she had you here with her. She is pretty smart for that. It has taught me to love and live for today as if this is all I have. You are missed by many, God Bless you and your family.

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i AM SORRY YOU HAD TO DIE THE WAY THAT YOU DID, BUT I AM ALMOST POSITIVE THAT YOU ARE HAPPY IN HEAVEN WITH OUR FATHER. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND I PRAY THAT ANY OF THOSE WHO ARE SUFFERING BY YOUR DEATH THAT THEY MAY COME TO REALIZE WHERE YOU ARE AND HOW HAPPY YOU MUST BE. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

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My Friend, its been a long time since i've written to you . . . so much has happened since. not one day, and i promise you, has gone by that i don't think about you. . . even though i know you where with me when i bought them you should hear my car now, and you thought my prelude was loud! hopefully soon my car will be in one of the magazine and it will be dedicated to you. . . . i love you Michelle and i miss you more than you know. . . i know that that during those long drives i take to get up here that you and god are with me, i know you are cause i should of crashed plenty of times y now. . . i can feel you there. . . thank you for everything, who you are what you've done and what you do. . . i would write more brat but i have to go now, i will be back tomorrow 4 sure k. . . i love you michelle always Cisco G. USN

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HI HONEY GUESS WHO YES ITS MOM HOWS MY BABY GIRL DOING. WELL HONEY EVERTHING IS STARTING THE WRONGFUL DEATH AND THE TRAIL ONE IN MAY THE OTHER IN JULY SO I NEED ALL THE SUPPORT YOU CAN SEND MY WAY TO KEEP ME STRONG,BOY THIS GOING TO BE HARD BUT NOT AS HAR AS WHEN YOU LEFT ME. I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY I'LL REMEMBER IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AS IF I CAN EVER FORGET WHEN YOU WERE RIPPED FROM MY LIFE GOD PLEASE HELP ME I NEED YOU KNOW TAKE MY PAIN FROM MY HEART . MICHELLE WAIT FOR ME I'LL BE THERE ONE DAY O HOLD YOU AGAIN AND WE CAN TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN UP TO . HOW DO I GO ON HELP ME HONEY I'M REALLY TRYING MY BEST YOU ARE MY BESTFRIEND AND I NEED YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER YOUR FRIEND & MOM XOXOXOXOXOXO ME

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HI, MY NAME IS JESSICA WHEN I HEARD THE STORY ABOUT MICHELLE IT BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES I WAS IN THE 5TH GRADE NOW I AM IN 8TH GRADE I KNOW THAT MICHELLE WASNT FAMOUS OR ANYTHING BUT I LOOK UP TO HER AS A ROLE MODLE SHE WAS VERY,VERY BEAUTIFUL POSSIBABLY THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN ANSD THATS NO JOKE I REALLY FEEL FOR HER FAMILY I HAVE BEEN TOOK OFF OF THE INTERNET FOR QUITE SOMETIME SO I HAVENT SEEN HER SIGHT BUT SINCE I WAS ONLINE I THOUGHT I'D DROP BY

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Michelle, Please watch over Angel & Greg...they need your special support and blesed prayers in this, their greatest stuggle to survive. Thank you so very much. In Jesus name I pray, Amen. God bless you and God bless your family always and all ways.< >

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Michelle: You are not forgotten. I think of you almost every day. I only met you that one time when you came to the Co. Fair with Darcie and Kelly just a few days before you were so tragically taken from us all. My daughter Tami grew up with Darcie an Kelly and was hanging out with you three. I remember thinking that I was so pleased that my daughter's friends were wonderful girls and that you all seemed to be having such fun. Your death, that next week, tore me apart. Tami and I still talk about y u often, even though she is away at school. She ikes to remember Sr. Prom and other fun times she had with you and your other friends. We both miss Darcie, with her being away for school also, and I hardly ever see Kelly anymore. They have all grown up - I'm so sorry that you couldn't grow up with them. But I pray for you and your family all of the time. Rest in peace sweet baby and may God continue to allow you to bring comfort and peace to your courageous mother. I don't know that I could have been so strong.

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I remembered your 21st birthday yesterday, as you know, by placing a rose in front of the bench at the "Walkway of Peace Memorial" at Rio Linda High School. I sure do wish you could have been here to celebrate with your mother as you two had planned. Th nk you for being a guardian angel and watching over my children. Love to you and your family always and forever. And remember "your sacrifice was not in vain".

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY TODAY IS THE DAY THAT YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE IT WAS THE MOST HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE . YOU ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING IN THE WORLD YOU BROUGHT SO MUCH JOY TO ME I WAS NOT ALONE ANYMORE I HAD YOU TO LOVE AND NO ONE CAN EVER REPLACE TH LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU. YOU ARE 21 TODAY AND KNOW YOU SPEND IT IN HEAVEN WITH ARE LORD WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME BUT YOU ARE IN SPRIT THIS DAY IS GOING TO BE SO HARD SO STAY BY ME AND GIVE ME STREGHTH TO GO ON SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRHTDAY DEAR MICHELL HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY BABY GIRL ALWAYS IN MY HEART LOVE YOU SHAZ MOM XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

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hey you! how are you hope you're doing okay. I hope your family is being strong. Well your b-day is coming up and you will be the 21 wish you were here to celebrate it, but I know you will be up there. Jason misses very much and I don't know if you kno but you probably do I am three months pregnant and Jason is going to help me raise it he will be such a good dad to the kid. I know deep down inside he cares alot. Well tell your family especially your mom I hope they are doing okay. Michelle miss you and love with all my heart and take care of yourself and all of us will never forget you. love and miss ya angel...

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hey you! how are you hope you're doing okay. I hope your family is being strong. Well your b-day is coming up and you will be the 21 wish you were here to celebrate it, but I know you will be up there. Jason misses very much and I don't know if you kno but you probably do I am three months pregnant and Jason is going to help me raise it he will be such a good dad to the kid. I know deep down inside he cares alot. Well tell your family especially your mom I hope they are doing okay. Michelle miss you and love with all my heart and take care of yourself and all of us will never forget you. love and miss ya angel...

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HI HONEY SO YOUR BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP AND YOU'LL BE THE BIG 21 WOW YOU ARE GETTING UP THERE WILL HONEY I SURE DO MISS AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME WE WOULD GO TO RENO FOR YOUR 21ST . GOD TOOK YOU TO YOUNG AND AWAY FROM ME BUT I GUES HE NEEDED YOU BUT I NEED YOU ,LIFE IS SO HARD WITHOUT YOU TO GO ON WHY BUT I TRY. WELL SHAZ I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH OXOXOXOXOXO MOM

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Michelle, I have to apoligise to you. I've been real busy at work and I've neglected this web page. I hope that you and your family can forgive me for the technical difficulities that this page experenced over the last month. It just goes to show, tha not even today's computer bugs can prevent everyone from remembering you every day. God bless you, Michelle.

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Hi again are things gowin okay we miss you a lot down here i hape you are happy up there Email me at my moms address PSchleeter@aol.com

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Hi honey guess who God your good you know it was mom huh.Shaz how are you doing sweet thing we sure do miss you but i know you are with us and will never leave because we have a bond that no one can break even, your bother told me want you said okay honey i will . He is such a special child because he can talk to you watch over them honey they need you just as much as i do. The hurt stays with us and well never leave because your not here only in are hearts thats what keeps you alive and nothing will keep s apart.You will live on forever. love ya my sweet angel xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo MOM

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Hi!Big sis how are you up there in Haven.We miss you a lot down here I do and Mom,Dad,Pris.I miss you a lot down here so do they it is hard down here but we got to take it one day at a time we say.we dont know what to do with out you hear it is hard on al of us down here.I hope you are happy up there.We will all be toghether some day we will be a family again."I Love you a Hole Lot Bye"

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I can't say that I really know you, but your memory lives on at Rio Linda High School. Your friends and family love you, and for those of us who never knew you, we miss you. Your life was taken much to soon, but your memory will live on forever more. We all look up to and respect you, and I know that you are happier now in the arms of the almighty father. No one will ever hurt you again and your life will be remembered as a valued one and not as one that was wasted in vain. You truly made a difference and I just wanted to let know that you are greatly missed. To "MOM", My prayers are with you and your family forever and always. In Memory Of Michelle Montoya...

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Hey MyShell, oooooooh what's up!! I miss you!! I have been soooo busy! I got a new job doing web-design for the Ca Energy Comm! I can't believe how long it has been. My brother misses you, too. We love you very very much.

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hey fish face, how are you doing,im doing fine just wanted to write and say hello and that i love and miss you so very much. amanda moved back too town and she and i,kelly and her b/f are moving out together in the beginning of febuary, i can hardly wait, ell michelle its going on three years and there has not been 1 day that you have not been in my thoughts, like i said just wanted to say hello and i miss you and until we meet again love you. Jason

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hey fish face, how are you doing,im doing fine just wanted to write and say hello and that i love and miss you so very much. amanda moved back too town and she and i,kelly and her b/f are moving out together in the beginning of febuary, i can hardly wait, ell michelle its going on three years and there has not been 1 day that you have not been in my thoughts, like i said just wanted to say hello and i miss you and until we meet again love you. Jason

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hey fish face, how are you doing,im doing fine just wanted to write and say hello and that i love and miss you so very much. amanda moved back too town and she and i,kelly and her b/f are moving out together in the beginning of febuary, i can hardly wait, ell michelle its going on three years and there has not been 1 day that you have not been in my thoughts, like i said just wanted to say hello and i miss you and until we meet again love you. Jason

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Hi Michelle I don't know you personally but I just want to say a few things. For one I think you are very beautiful. No one deserves to die. But I know God is taking care of you up in heaven. He called you home & he will take care of you always. I wants t send all my love to your family. My friend killed himself & it was very sad. He hung himself because he was so depressed. So I know how it feels to lose someone you love deeply. But once again I am deeply sorry you had to die at such a young age but I kn w God will take good care of you. All my love. GOD BLESS, ANDY

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Hi Michelle I don't know you personally but I just want to say a few things. For one I think you are very beautiful. No one deserves to die. But I know God is taking care of you up in heaven. He called you home & he will take care of you always. I wants t send all my love to your family. My friend killed himself & it was very sad. He hung himself because he was so depressed. So I know how it feels to lose someone you love deeply. But once again I am deeply sorry you had to die at such a young age but I kn w God will take good care of you. All my love. GOD BLESS, ANDY

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Michelle, would you please watch over my little angel for me.

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WELL HONEY IT'S ME YOUR BEST FRIEND AND MOM MISSING YOU AND THINKING OF YOU EVERY DAY AND NIGHT WAITING FOR YOU TO COME HOME. LOVE YOU XOXOXOXOXOX MOM

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HI BABY GIRL HOWS MOMMAS GIRL DOING WELL HONEY WE ARE DOING FINE WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY WE MISS YOU ALOT AND WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE BUT YOU ARE IN SPIRIT. I CAN FELL YOU AROUND ALOT HONEY DON'T LEAVE ME I STILL NEED YOU MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW ,I WISH S METIME I WAS DEAD JUST SO I CAN HOLD YOU AND JUST TO TALK TO YOU SURE WOULD BE GREAT LIFE SUCKS WITHOUT YOU. WELL SWEETY IT'S LATE I HAVE TO GO TO BED LOVE YOU WITH ALL THAT I HAVE SEE YOU SOON . XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX MOM

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This will be the 3rd Christmas your family will go through without you, Michelle. I am praying for them. I know it must be difficult. Just let them know you are with them... you are always with them in their hearts. We miss you!

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To Michelle What do I say.............I miss you so much I was taking to your mom the other night and she said that she wasn't feeling very well and that she didn't want to get a Christmas tree . She just didn't feel up to it. So me and philip went to get one an me, him, priscilla, chris, nicole put it up the when she came home from shopping it was there. She started cring and she gave me a big hug and said thank you. Your dad got a new dog she cute. she is a little ankle biter. You would be proud of them all. Y u always new that I was there for you and I wont let you down now. I guess you know I had that Depo. I guess that it went well they asked about our moms It was kind of stupid they were just asking dumb question, Its funny every always says you were wild a crazy when that not the way it was at all you were just a bright light who alys shined...... VERY OUTGOING...love you always SISSY

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Its been a while since I wrote. But I went to your grave a few days ago. As I looked down, I had a feeling that you may have been laid to rest there... but you were not there. I know that you are in heaven looking down at us. God does everything for a rea on and I know that many have not seen it, but the reason that he took you was for the miricle that you have given so many in your transition. You have made freinds realize how much they are needed, and people who would normally never have said a word to e chother come together in unity. Your name and memory lives on as a testimonial to everything that life has to offer. Thank-you.

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hey michelle, i just wanted to say hello and i miss you lots. i just wanted to say merry christmas and happy new year wish you were here to spend it with all of us. well michelle i got to go just wanted to write you, you were on my mind. untill we meet ag in i love and miss you. jason

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hey michelle, i just wanted to say hello and i miss you lots. i just wanted to say merry christmas and happy new year wish you were here to spend it with all of us. well michelle i got to go just wanted to write you, you were on my mind. untill we meet ag in i love and miss you. jason

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Hey there Michelle, Sorry it's been so long since I've visited you here, but just because I don't come visit you doesn't mean that you are not in my thoughts. I miss you so much. It's almost been 3 years since you left us and yet, it I can remember our c azy times like it was yesterday. Now everytime I go out, I think of you, how you would make everything fun and crazy. I really do miss you. Well, I'm gonna go now. Visit me in my dreams sometime. I LOVE AND MISS YOU LOTS!!!

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WELL MICHELLE ANOTHER THANKSGIVING WITHOUT YOU ONLY TO HOLD YOU OR TALK TO YOU AGAIN I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING OR ALL THAT I HAVE I WOULD GIVE IT ALL UP JUST FOR YOU. HONEY LIFE GOES ON BUT I'M IN A WORLD OF MY OWN ONLY TO BE WITH YOU WOULD MAKE ME HAPPY. LIF IS SO HARD AND UNHAPPY A MILLION TEARS WE CRY ARE HEARTS ARE SO EMTY. LOVE YOU HONEY ALWAYS AND FOREVER MOM.

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I Want To Live On...... Thank you all for helping me to do this.

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My dearest Michelle, You know that tomorrow I face the family mediation court - and you and God know what my children have been put through by their father. I wish I could have stayed there, but I had to leave for myself and for them. I hope someday my children understand t is. I know you do. I know I can share this with you and you understand, and you still love me. Thank you so very much for watching over my children. I know you do. Please continue - you are a MOST blessed guardian angel. Love always - we SHALL meet omeday - Love always, Cynthia

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Michelle, it has been 2 1/2 years and i still think about you every day, where ever you are just remember that we miss you. Open the gates of heaven for me would ya? Later Girl

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Hi girl-It's times like that I really wish you were here. Things are kinda tough right now and your cheerful voice would do me a lot of good. You always had a way with words! Maybe you could give me a special sign telling me that your watching over me...I could use the reassurance. Missing you more than ever-Renee

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Hey there Michelle! How are things up there? I just thought I'd come and say Hi! I miss you so much. I think of you everyday! You are always on my mind and in my heart. Please watch over us as we could never forget you. I love you and miss you always! See you soon, Michelle!

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HELLO,ITS YOUR BIG PAPA JASON,SORRY I HAVE NOT WROTE TO YOU IN A WHILE, BUT THAT DONT MEAN YOUR NOT IN MY THOUGHTS, MICHELLE THERE IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BYE THAT I DONT THINK OF YOU, WHEN I GO OUT WITH THE GIRLS I FEEL THERE IS SOMETHING MISSING, AND THE E IS YOU IT JUST DONT FEEL THE SAME WHEN WE GO OUT. ANYWAY I HAVE BEEN REAL BUSY WITH WORK I DONT THINK YOU KNOW I GOT MY JOB AT KAISER IN THE RADIOLOGY(X-RAY) DEPARTMENT FINALLY IM VERY HAPPY THERE, I ALSO JUST BOUGHT A NEW CAR A 99 Z28 CAMARO WISH YOU C ULD BE HERE TO CRUISE WITH ME AND THE GIRLS. WELL YOU PROBALLY ALREADY KNOW BY NOW THAT DARCIE MOVED TO L.A. AND AMANDA MOVED TO UTAH, IT IS NOT THE SAME AROUND HERE WITHOUT THEM AND ESPEACIALY YOU, I FEEL LIKE I LOST TWO MORE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS. EVER INCE THEY LEFT I DONT DO MUCH OF ANYTHING BUT WORK AND COME HOME, I STILL TRY TO SEE KELLY AS MUCH AS I CAN SHE IS STILL HERE FOR ME.I WENT TO YOUR MOMS HOUSE ABOUT A MONTH AGO I VISITED ALL DAY WITH JOE,CHRIS,AND YOUR MOM I EVEN WENT TO A BARBQ AT YOUR G ANDMAS HOUSE, WELL WE WERE EATING AND THERE WAS A DOVE SITTING ON THE TELEPHONE LINE IT HAD BIG BROWN EYES AND FROM THAT DAY ON I JUST KNOW IT WAS YOU, IF IT WAS COME TO ME AND LET ME KNOW I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN. AFTER THE BARBQ I WENT BACK T YOUR MOMS HOUSE AND STAYED UNTIL 2AM IN THE MORNING. YOUR MOM I LOVE SO MUCH, SHE MADE ME FRESH SALSA I LOVE SALSA I THOUGHT THAT WAS SO NICE OF HER ME YOUR MOM AND KEVIN STAYED UP REMINISING.WELL MICHELL IT IS GETTING LATE AND I HAVE TO WORK TOMORROW UN IL I SEE YOU AGAIN I MISS AND LOVE YOU LONG TIME YOUR BIG PAPA JASON

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Hey there beautiful! Just thinking of you again. I'm busy making wedding plans lately. I had the strangest dream about you the other night. Gina was there too. I'm sure you know the rest! I'm missing you Shell. Save a place for me up there, k? All my love and hugs, Nee

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This message was meant for all of your friends and family, Michelle. Dear Friends and family of Michelle, First off, I want to inform you that for legal reasons, I've removed a few of your entries dealing with a loser guestbook writter. I want to say that I'm sorry that I had to do that, but I think it's for the best. Second, rest easy knowing that this outrage will not be left alone. We all have been though enough hurting to allow this person to dirty this sacred place. I've contacted a good friend who will assist me in finding out who this person was, and we will ake action when we find him/her. That's all I wanted to say to everyone. Unfortunatly, when we allow anyone into this sacred place, we also allow those who can not understand. I'm sorry we had to see his/her entry. I'll do my very best to delete the filth before anyone else has to see it. God bless you all. Jeff

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Hi Michelle, how are ya girlie girl???? I have been pretty busy lately...school, work, gym, web page developing.....I am sorry to hear that some spineless jerk has the nerve to bad mouth you, but it's OK, we have his IP and we will NUKE him for all he/sh is worth. I miss you everyday. Darcie went to LA to go to school. We exchange e-mails when we can, and I am going to fly down soon. I am in and out of town, I need to go visit Mom, Dad,'cilla and Chris. I miss them, too. I love you bunches and oodl s and oodles. Come visit me!!!

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HI HONEY IT'S MOM HOW IS MOMMAS GIRL. WELL SWEETY TIME GOES BY AND MY LIFE STANDS STILL I STOPPED LIVIING WHEN YOU WERE TAKEN FROM ME AND IT IS HARD TO GO ON. WILL BABE SOME ONE SAID SOME AWFUL THINGS ABOUT YOU THAT HURT SO MUCH AND YOU'VE BEEN GONE FOR 2 EARS 4MONTHS WHY CAN'T THESE PEOPLE LET YOU REST IN PEACE I FEEL SORRY FOR PEOPLE LIKE THAT QUIT SHE IS GONE SO GET A LIFE. YOU ARE A VERY SICK PERSON WHY DID IT TAKE YOU SO LONG TO EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS YOU COWARED WHAT DID MY DAUGHTER DO TO YOU PROBLEY OTHING.I'LL PRAY YOU FIND YOU WAY TO THE LORD BECAUSE YOU ARE ONE SICK PERSON. WELL MICHELLE I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH SO DO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY. YOUR SISTER SCORED A GOAL WITH HER LEFT FOOT WAS THAT THE ANGEL ON HER SHOULDER YOU GO GIRL ,WELL HONEY BYE FO KNOW I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH.XOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXO

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Michelle, I want to apoligise for the ugly comments on this page. It seems that that there are still people out there who have not been touched by your story. I need your help on something. I've installed a feature to track the people who leave these kind of messages by copying down their IP address. I can now track this cold hearted person who has made an effort to hurt so many people, or I can just ignor it. Michelle, I ask that you give me a sign to tell me if I should track down "205.188.193.27" and see to it that this action is also not forgotten, or should we forgive and forget? Please help me, I don't know what to do. Jeff

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Hey there fishy...how have you been??? I just wanted to stop by and say hi and to see how everything is. I miss you so much. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of your beautiful face and your wonderful personality. It's so hard to go t rough life without you by my side, especially when I knew in my heart that you would always be there for me. It's really not the same. I talk to you everyday...do you hear me??? As you know, we're going through some hard times right now and I was wonde ing...could you give me a sign and let me know how to move in the right direction. I'm so lost. Well, I'll let you go for now, but never forever. I love you and miss you so much. You are always on my mind. I'll be talking to you soon. Bye!

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hey you. . .well i guess you know whats going on. . . please tae care and help out my Grand mother. . .my family would thank you so much for that, but i know you already have. . . Michelle i miss you so much you don't even know. . . . i have you all around me and it still hurts to think about you, sometimes i hate looking at your picture just because i want to be near you when i can't. I love you Michelle, and seeing you and others is the reason i am ready to go. . . i know that when i do atleast i ll have you up there and then everyone down here will have twice the protection from us. . . i love you and i miss you and can't wait to see you again. . . you took a piece of me with you and you will always be in my heart. . . . Cisco

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HI HONEY IT'S ME HOW ARE YOU SWEETIE SURE DO MISS YOU. PRISCILLA AND CHRIS ARE IN GINA & ERICS WEDDING THIS WEEKEND BOY IS THAT GOING TO BE HARD BUT I'LL TRY AND SIS & PHILLIP ARE GETTING MARRIED TO ON 9/21/99 IN TAHOE ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE DOING WILL AND OUR FAMILY ARE JUST STUCK IN A TIME ZONE WITHOUT YOU IT IS HARD TO PICK UP ARE LIVES WHEN A PART OF IT IS GONE AND I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO SEE OR HOLD YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN IT SEEMS LIKE A LIFE TIME THAT I HAVE'NT SEEN YOU ARE TALKED TO YOU .SHELL IF ONL THINGS WERE DIFFERENT AND YOU WERE STILL WITH US LIFE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER.

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To my dearest motorcycle buddy, Hey girl I know we haven't talked in awhile. I hope you doing great. I moved to LA, as you no, and am missing you family very much. I know your doing great up there. I think about you friend and the times we had alot. Those"were the days" Please watch ove you family like I know you always do girl. You are doing some big stuff up there, you must working your butt off. Your a strong person friend and I wish we could talk more. Come to me in a dream, if you can. Everything is different now but the one thing hat is the same is that everyone remembers this crazy,fun loven,wild, always happy, beautiful oh yes almost women. And we all love you more than anything. I got your back and you got mine. If you need me to do anything, just yell Shell. Love and miss you lways and forever friend. Pelican

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HI HONEY HOWS MY GIRL WILL BABIEDOLL I SURE DO MISS YOU. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'VE BEEN GONE 2YRS 2 MONTHS 10DAYS BOY I HAVE'NT HELD YOU ARE TALK TO YOU BUT I DO TALK TO YOU BUT YOU DON'T ANSWER BACK.WELL SHELL YOUR FRIENDS ARE GETTING MARRIED SISSY AND GINA BOY IT'S GOING TO BE HARD TO GO TO THIER WEDDINGS KNOWING I'LL NEVER SEE YOU GET MARRIED AND BOY DOES THAT SUCK OR YOU WILL NEVER GIVE ME GRANDBABIES. WHY GOD I'LL NEVER KNOW UNTIL WE MET AGAIN I LOVE ANG MISS YOU . MOM

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HI HONEY HOWS MY GIRL WILL BABIEDOLL I SURE DO MISS YOU. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'VE BEEN GONE 2YRS 2 MONTHS 10DAYS BOY I HAVE'NT HELD YOU ARE TALK TO YOU BUT I DO TALK TO YOU BUT YOU DON'T ANSWER BACK.WELL SHELL YOUR FRIENDS ARE GETTING MARRIED SISSY AND GINA BOY IT'S GOING TO BE HARD TO GO TO THIER WEDDINGS KNOWING I'LL NEVER SEE YOU GET MARRIED AND BOY DOES THAT SUCK OR YOU WILL NEVER GIVE ME GRANDBABIES. WHY GOD I'LL NEVER KNOW UNTIL WE MET AGAIN I LOVE ANG MISS YOU . MOM

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Hey there sweetie! How are you doing. It's been a while since I wrote to you and I thought I'd just drop by to see how you were doing. How have you been. Are you staying out of trouble??? There's still not a day that goes by when I don't think of you. You are always in my heart and thoughts. Take care up there and watch over all of us. I love you always!!! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...I will never forget you.

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Michelle, Hey girly I am so glad I finally got a chance to visit this beautiful page of yours. I will never forget our PE times looking at Jesse's butt as he did push ups. Weren't those the days. Thanks for the A in PE I could have NEVER had done it with out you Me and Lisa often reminise about the fun times spent with you, softball games and the class of 2000 header girls and how you clowned them. I will always admire your corageous spirit and sassy additude. You are probably so proud of me I finally put my stripper man in that G-string you suggested, thanks for giving me the courage to get with him. You'll never know how much I miss you and how I am always thinking of you. May God bless all those who had the privilage of knowing you. I pray for you always. Unitll we meet again Twila #24

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HI HONEY, JUST NEEDED TO SAY I LOVE YOU! I MISS YOU SO SOMEDAYS ARE HARDER THAN OTHERS AND I STILL OFTEN ASK OUR LORD WHY? MAYBE I'LL KNOW WHEN I GET TO ETERNITY THAT WILL MY ULTIMATE HAPPINESS. ANYWAY THE FOURTH OF JULY IS SUNDAY AND I'M GOING TO SEN YOU A BIG KISS AND HUGS SO YOU CATCH IT OKAY. I DREAMT YOU THE OTHER DAY AND I FINALLY REALIZED THAT THROUGH MY TEARS I'M HURTING YOU AND I PROMISE TO TRY HARDER OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. BUT I DID GET A CHANCE TO HOLD YOU AND IT FELT SO GOOD. MICHEL E I HATED WAKING UP AND I JUST WANTED TO STAY IN MY OWN DREAM BECAUSE YOU WERE THERE. WELL HONEY I'M GOING TO CLOSE FOR NOW BECAUSE SOMETIMES WRITING IN THIS WEB-SITE MAKES ME CRY. JUST REMEMBER HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL SO TO YOU I PLEDGE MY NDYING LOVE TODAY TOMORROW AND ALWAYS FOR ALL ETERNITY YOU'RE AUNTIE SASA PS I ALMOST FORGOT TO TELL YOU HOW PROUD I AM TO BE YOU'RE AUNTIE

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HEY MICHELLE, HOPE YOURE KEEPIN YOUR HEAD UP AND YOU AND MY HEIDI GIRLIE ARE ALL WATCHIN OUT FOR US. WE ONLY KICKED IT A FEW TIMES BUT I KNOW I CONSIDERED YOU A FRIEND AND VISE VERSA. I HAVE EVERY ARTICLE THAT EVER CAME OUT ON YA EVEN THOUGH I WISH THERE EVER HAD TO BE ANY. WELL GIRLIE, WATCH OVER US, TAKE CARE OF YOUR PARENTS AND WE'LL NEVER LOSE FAITH THAT WE'LL SEE YOU ALL AGAIN SOMEDAY. TELL MY HEIDI AND DONALD LEE I LOVE EM FOR ME OK? MISS YOU GIRL-LOVE, A FRIEND

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Hey there Michelle, how are you doing? I'm just doing great. I just thought I'd write you and say Hello! How come you never let me know somehow that you're getting my messages? I really want to hear from you. I miss you so much and I think about you every ay. Well, I'm going to let you go for now, but never forever! I'll be seeing you soon! Thinking of you always...ME!

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Brat, i know you've been keeping up on whats been going on. . . . you don't know how much i miss you. all the times i would come over to your house after work, when i didn't feel like going home. all those times YOU made us late to school in the morning! ! not a day goes by that i don't think of you. We just got back, as you know, from being out for 6 months and it for some reason i thought that as soon as i got back you'd be there, I'm not affraid to die anymore for two reasons, one i know that i wil , when my time is up and second cause i know i have you to look forword to. I love you Michelle, more than you know and i wish so much you were still here. i will always love you. . . Cisco

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Michelle, I miss you so much. Not a day goes by when I wish I could give you a call and we could go hang out like old times. It's hard. Your pictures are all over my house. I see you in my dreams and we talk and talk and talk. I still feel you around e everyday. I love you, girl. You'll never leave us.

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michelle, hi honey hows is mommas baby fine I hope.Well it was your sisters birthday we are going to grandma for her party so be there babe in sprit it is still hard on us being without you we try are hardest but it still hurts ,you would be proud of your dad he is doing well I know you are watching over him he misses you so much.How do we go on without are girl please honey show us the way I can't wait to hold you are even see you again life is so hard and I don't understand why we have to go on without y u we did'nt ask for this it just happened and it changed are life forever.We thought the schools are safe but found out different when we lost you ,The school still is screwed up they just don't care about the safty of are kids boy did i found out because I lost you. They have all this money to pay people off for there scewups like Sue Leabo,now Rutter they have know clue just close down the district and try to start over.I wish I never had sent you to that school and we would be together know but we will eet again in heaven so honey just hold on and I'll be there love ya hon. Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo(Shell)

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Michelle you were taken from this earth way to early, but God must of had a good reason to take you a way from your loved ones. May God watch over your family and help them with there pain. God bless to all of you.

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HI Michelle just wanted let you know that I was Thinking of you Hope you are having as much fun with Heidi as I did she was always the best. I wish we could have gotten to Know each other better. Well you and Heidi take care of each other. I Miss both of ou.

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I can remember seeing you in the halls at RLHS. Every once in a while we would say "HI!" or smile at eachother, but we never really talked. Even though we weren't really close, I find myself thinking of you everyday. Your death has made a great impact n my life. I would cry myself to sleep thinking about the whole incident. Sometimes you would also be in my dreams. It's great! It shouldn't have been you. You are a very beautiful young lady. You had the pretty eyes, the perfect body, and the best air, not to mention every guy swingin'. I looked up to you. I know that I probably sound really gay, but it's not even like that. You were just a great role model to have. I was visiting this page and I've read almost every message that was sent to yo . I know that I wasn't the only one who feel like this. Your mother is a great lady! I've never met her, although, I wouldn't mind letting her know who I am and how much I looked up to her daughter. I can tell she misses you very much. I wish I could give her a hug. She is very strong! Your death was really hard on everyone, the school, even the community. We have this special bond now. Just keep watch over all the people who love you and think about you everyday. Your mother needs it the most. et her know that you are there. That she's not doing it alone. Maybe then she'll have a little bit of peace. If you read this "MOM" I just want to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep your head up and stay strong and you will g t through this. You are not alone! God Bless you, Michelle, and may you rest in peace!

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TO MY BABY GIRL, WELL HONEY HOW ARE THINGS STILL WAITING TO JOIN YOU BUT I GUESS ITS NOT MY TIME.WELL BABE YOUR DAD IS FINALLY GETTING HELP HE MISS YOU SO MUCH AND HIND ALOT OF HIS HURT AND PAIN PEOPLE JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND ALL THE HURT AND PAIN YOU GO T RUOGH WHEN YOU LOSE A CHILD AND THEN YOU HAVE TO PROVE YOUR LOVE FOR THAT PERSON IT REALLY HURTS HOW CAN YOU GO ON WITH LIFE AFTER THIS WISH WE COULD ALL BETOGETHER AGAIN AND JUST GO ON AS WE USE TO LIFE WAS FUN WHEN YOU WHERE HERE KNOW IT SUCKS. CAN'T WA T TILL EVERY THING IS OVER WITH IF ONLY THEY COULD GIVE US BACK YOU EVERY THING COULD END. BUT THEY WILL NEVER KNOW ARE PAIN UNTIL IT HAPPENS TO THEM GOD FORGIVE AND SEE ALL THE SHIT THEY PUT US THROUGH BECAUSE OF THE HEARTLESS PEOPLE WE DEAL WITH AND TH Y HAVE KIDS WOULD IF IT WAS ONE OF THERE KID WOULD IT BE DIFFERENT OR THE SAME IT IS NOT ARE FAULT HOW ERISPONSIBLE THE SCHOOL DISTRECT WAS ON HIGHERING A MURDER LET THEM PUT THERE KIDS IN THOSE SCHOOL AND SEE HOW SAFE IT IS I GUESS FOR MIDDLE CLASS PEOPL LIKE US JUST TRING TO MAKE ENDS MEET BUT IT MADE US CLOSE AND HAPPY WE ALL STUCK TOGETHER. LOVE YOU HONEY OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

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Michelle, I often see your picture in the papers or on the news, but I don't need that to remember what a beautiful young woman you are. I didn't know you well personally but I grew up with your Mom & her family. I know you are deeply loved! I also know y u are deeply missed! I pray often for your family and I know GOD is taking real good care of you. If you have time can you watch over me sometimes? My prayers are with all who care & love you. A friend, Vickie M.

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I am not sure what to say I only know her by my fiancee,but michelle was her freind and I just wanted to pay my respects to her,her and my freind where good freinds and this moment has played a hard part on my fiancee...bless you michelle and and michelle s mother you are stonger then i could ever be...

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Michelle, I cannot believe it has been 2 years... 2 years that I still can't sleep in the dark or be alone in the dark... 2 years of nightmares.... 2 years that your memory has lived on so strong in my heart and mind... Your smile and your love of life st ll encourages me. I know there were people that knew you better than I did. And I know in some ways they hurt so much more for you than I do... But you live on. You live on in spirit and on this web page dedicated to you where we can all see just how many people you still live through every day. Yes, we miss you terribly... but you have brought us closer together, even in your death and I thank you for that. The entire class of 1997 that graduated from Rio Linda high school has a permanent bond... stronger than any other class to graduate from RLHS... you are that bond, Michelle. And we thank you for it. Keep watching over us and we will all see you someday. We love you.

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Hey Fishface Just talked to your mom and she such a wonderful person. I know that you must really miss her and I can understand her and your pain. You mom seems to be a very strong woman and with that the lord will help her get through the days like I h ve with my parents. I really would like to thank her for the offer that she gave me and definitely will take her up on it. Sometimes it is really hard losing the people you love but when you have people like jason, pam, and family it makes seem just a l ttle easier to cope the tragedies that happen in life. Like I said before to you pam I am here for you anytime because I know it is hard for you sometimes. Michelle sorry I didnt get on here sooner to tell you Happy Birthday so HAPPY B-DAY and tell your mom that she is the best. love you both Angelica N.

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Hey Beautiful! I've been thinking of you latley w/ your Birthday & everything. And yes I remembered it this year! Will & I are finally getting married.I'm really excited all though it won't be the same w/out you there.I miss you so much Michelle. I've been helping Gina & Eric plan their wedding.She asked me to be her maid-of-honor.I wish to God you could be here with us.Gina and I went to see your mom the other day. I don't think she remembered me though. I keep thinking of the last time I saw you.Do you remember?C.B. prom?I can't believe you went with Zorba.He still has the picture of you two up in his room.Well-you are as loved & missed as always.Until we meet again- NeeNee

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Michelle I hope all is well in Heaven. I miss you so much, I found a video of me,you, and chey the other dayof us three cleaning our room. Well girlie I will try and keep in touch ILuvu!!!I hope the family is doing good!God bless you all!!Forever loved an missed~~~RIP Daisy~~~Tell Heidi I said hello and I will write her soon..

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WELL HONEY IT'S ME SO HOW ARE YOU SWEETIE. I SURE DO MISS YOU NO ONE TO TALK TO ANYMORE THIS HOUSE IS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU I WISH YOU WOULD COME GET ME BECAUSE I HATE THIS PLACE LIFE IS SO HARD AND LONELY WITHOUT YOU. I CRY A MILLION TEARS AND THE PAI STILL STAYS HONEY . WE HAD A PARTY FOR YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY I REMEMBER THAT DAY SO WELL WHEN I BROUGHT YOU INTO THIS WORLD IT WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE AND WHEN YOU LIFT ME WAS THE HARDEST DAY OF MY LIFE ,HOW COME LIFE IS SO HARD ,WHY DID YOU HAVE O LEAVE ME I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WE HAD A GREAT RELATIONSHIP MOTHER& DAUGHTER YES WE ARE A GREAT TEAM KNOW YOUR SHINING DOWN ON ME FROM HEAVEN AND BOY YOU ARE SO BRIGHT. THIS LIFE IS A LONLY LIFE TO LIVE ARE YOU BIULDING ME A HOME SO WHEN I COME WILL BE L VING IN THE SAME PLACE AND WE CAN MAKE CHICKEN TACO'S TOGETHER AGAIN AND RICE. SINCE YOU LIFT EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED THERE IS NO LAUGHTER NO JOKES JUST SADNESS. I LOOK AT YOUR PICTURES AND WISH I COULD PULL YOU OUT OF THEM AND HOLD YOU CLOSE BUT I CAN'T S I'LL HOLD YOU IN MY HEART FOREVER AND EVER. WILL HONEY I LOVE SO MUCH AND HOPE ONE DAY TO BE TOGETHER AGAIN MOM OXOXOXOXOX

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Michelle, In your memory I shall work hard to raise my daughter according to the wonderful example you set in everything you did. In this way this part of you will never really perish for it will live on and on in the generations of my family to come. Whereever you are, and I'm sure it's a far far better place than this one, keep watch over my kids if you can...a young person cannot have enough guardian angels in these troubled and turbulent times. God bless you! Michael

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Hey girlie girl hows it feel to be 20? I feel lika dumbass because I am not 21 and still can't get in anywhere w/o an ID.....oh well, we are on the lookout, we don't have you around to buy drinks for us.....I think about you all the time and I have your ics all over my house so I can see your smiling face....I miss you girl, and Darce and I reminese all the time, remembering you, our Fishy. I haven't seen you for a while in my dreams hope you can visit.....Love Ya MyShell.....Robin

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Michelle. What a lovely name. In my religion, we believe strongly that beautiful spirits are sent to a very special place when their work is done here. Maybe your work is being done right now, as all of us are touched by your death, and moved to help f nd ways to end such tragedies. I know you are looking after your family, Michelle, and I will add my effort to that of others. Maybe this work will bring some measure of peace to your family and friends. In any case, I know where you are, and you deserv to be there, where you are safe and happy. You are missed.

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Happy Late Birthday Michelle, I am so glad that I met you mom and we have become really close friends. I went to your house on your birthday and I hope you like the gift I took for you. Your mom has really been a big help to me. I hope that you and Heidi get together often. There a e so many of you kids that have gone to heaven in the past few years and I hope that you all can kick it together at least from time to time. Maybe sometimes soon you and Heidi can come together into spiritspace during one friday evening and let me and yo r mom know that for sure you guys are not alone and lonely there. Well you had a great 20th birthday as you well know and I was glad to be a part of it. Well I got to go for now but connect with Heidi and you girls give us moms a visit. We need them to keep going. Lots of love and light Donna Cox

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I MISS YOU MICHELLE I LOVE YOU TO ALWAYS IN MY HEART. MELANIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY

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MICHELLE I RELLY MISS U I THINK JUST TODAY I RELIZED THAT U ARE NOT COMEING BACK I KNOW THAT U ARE HERE BUT WHY CANT I SEE U.I LOVE U SO MUCH BUT WORDS CANT EXPRESS WHAT U MEAN TO ME. IT SEAMES LIKE U ARE JUST 18 STILL BUT U ARE GROWING UP YOU ARE NOW 20 GO GIRL! HOPE U ARE HAVEING FUN UP THERE WITH GOD. I JUST WISH I CAN TELL U EVERY TING WE USED TO TALK ABOUT. I WILL NEVER MET SOMEONE LIKE U AGIN. LOVE YOU 4EVER, LIL SIS PRISCILLA P.S. COME IN ONE OF MY DREAMS PLEAS

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Hi Honey, It's been a long time since I've written you a note. Today is you're Birthday and I wanted to tell you how much I Love You! I wish that I could be with you just to hold you in my arms and tell you how Proud I am of you and how special you are o me. I miss you so Shaz and I know that someday soon we'll be together again and it'll be the happiest day of my life. I know that in Heaven there is no time only here on earth and it may seem like a lifetime for me but only a blink of an eye for you. I think that's why you don't come to visit me in my dreams but I'm still waiting for you. I know you're with me cause I can feel you so close and yet so far away Michelle, there's days that I don't want to go on and if it wasn't for our family I probably would'nt. I know that in my heart I have to complete my reason for still being here and then I can go home with you. Right now I'm trying to figure that out so I can come Home. I Love you my Special Angel I think about you everyday and I listen to song that remind me of you and I know you're having a wonderful time in God's Kingdom I wouldn't bring you back from that beautiful place for all the tea in China. Shaz I just need to hold you and love you just one more time just like we did the day you left us. That's my special memory remember when you said you needed a part of me Well my Darling you took all of me with you. Happy Birthday My Sweet Angel Girl!!!!! All My Love Forever and Always Auntie

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Well I wrote all that and your sister pulled the cord and erased it. Happy Birthday to a friend I share so much with in such a little time. You got my back up there and I got yours down here. You need anything-just call. I know you no how to use the phone I'll never foreget the times. There some of the best memories I have. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEXY GIRLFRIEND!!! I'll flash someone for you, you know the times.-Darcie- 49,88,90 forever.

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Dear Shell, Happy Birthday, Baby! Today, I celebrate you and you magnificent glow! For that glow is YOUR spirit, that no one can put out! For almost two years now, I have not been able to bring myself to write in your book, I guess to me it meant that I was letting go. But today, as I elt your presence, I realized that I never have to let you go and that you will always be a shining light that will guide and brighten any of dark time I may have to travel. You have truly showen me that life goes on and that although we occupy these human shells, WHAT WE ARE AND WHO WE ARE is the spirit within us, NOT this shell! Over the past 23 months, I have been witness to your powerful spirit and I know that you live o and are there for those in need. I have heard and seen the beautiful things you have done for so many of your friends and family! All one need to do is to ask... and YOU hear... and You help, in whatever way you can. That is the beauty of you! S today, Michelle, I honor you and your life. I feel so proud to have been a part of this life of yours, and I pray that I will have that honor again... When it's my time, babe, I hope you will be one of the ones there to cross me over and I can again give you a hug!! I love you, and I hope you are able to feel the love that is generated from all those still here, waiting to see you again!! Via Con Dios! XOXOXOXOXOXO

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Hey Michelle, I just wanted to wish you a happy B-Day. You finally aren't a teenager any more! I hope you hear my prayers everyday. Keep watching over us. Much love.

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Wow, Michelle, I can't believe that it's been nearly 2 years. And here it is, your birthday tomorrow. I know it must be so hard for your family right now. They are having such a difficult time. Your spirit was so strong that even after you're gone, it sti l watches over them. Jeff and I are so overwhelmed at what has become of this guestbook. We never ever professed that we were close to you. We didn't know you nearly as well as some people, but we felt that what had happened to you was a great injustice, ot only to you and your family, but to all students who thought school was a safe place. But, the events of the past two years have proven otherwise. And although we can't change the past, we can learn from it, and that's what we were trying to accomplish with this. And I think we're getting there. All the people who have read about you, all the changes that have been made, all because people decided that this was not to be tolerated. All the people who have signed this guestbook prove that the world is no totally lost yet. And although it's not perfect either, we're striving every day to make it a better place, for our children and the coming generations. So, God Bless you, Michelle, and your family. I know you're watching over us.

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I probably wont get a chance to do this tomorrow... so for now, Happy Birthday. Keep looking out for the students in Colorado. I know that they are having a rough time right now. Probably more rough than we had when you left us. But with your help they ca stay strong. Keep an eye over everything, and we will all be ok. Keep that slice of heaven waiting and see ya when I get there. Jay.

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MICHELLE EVEN THOUGH I NEVER KNEW YOUR STORY TOUCHED MY HEART IN MANY WAYS I WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL I WISH YOU COULD BE HERE WITH YOUR FAMILY RIGHT NOW I KNOW THEY MISS YOU!!!!!!

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Hey girlie girl, I sure miss you and I know your birthday is coming up and you are going to be TWENTY years old......you're growing up girlfriend. A few of us still manage to hang out and party a little and share times, old and new and we all miss you an share funny stories like it was just yesterday. I hope all is well with Mom and Dad and the kids....I haven't been by in a while and I have been kicking myself for it. I love you and miss you very much---HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

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Michelle my bell hows mom girl. Sis i sure do miss your smile and are talks,your friend Raul came over to get your pictire to get a t-shirt it sure was nice to see him.Darcie is moving away watch over her babe she sure misses you like all of us will your irthday is near and it still seems like yesterday i was giving birth to you. Will honey I'll write to you later love you always oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo mom

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Michelle I can't belive that it going on two years since I seen you. We all go though are good days and our bad days, Tonight I was laing in bed and i could sleep I was looking up at your picture and i swear your always looking right at me . I feel lik your my angel now . I always think about you and not a day goes bye that i dont wish for... I wish that I never would have asked you to go to Rio Linda with me. I wish that you would ave stayed at CB. Or i wish that I would have given you a ride home hat afternoon I think that god should have given me some kinda sign and made me take you home. I'm so glad that I was able to talk to you just befor it all happened. It so crazy. There are some night were I can't sleep and all I do is think of why did his happen to you Or I think that It can't be true Because I just saw you.... I know that I just saw...... I look at all your pictures and your so alive. and you are in my heart. I will make sure that my son knows all about you. I will never forget you a d your wonderful ways. I love you girl. Don't worry about me Some times I just need a good cry. I love you always.................

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lets see if i can finish this. :) I know that your family is in a lot of pain. I want you to tell them that even though it seems like it's just getting worse, one day it will start to ease. The pain never goes away, but eventually gets easier to deal with. I hope to God that they are d ing well, and that you are with them. Take care of yourself up there. I think of you every time the wind blows, just like it did the monday after you were taken from us. I know I didn't know your family, but my heart goes out to them, and I hope that o e day you and them are reunited.

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Hey girly, It's unbelievable that we all have to wait until August to see justice done, and I hope that your family and friends are doing well with this. But how well can they be doing? I know that people have said that everything happens for a purpose, and I believe that, but I have to agree with your Mom on this one, why you? And what purpose could you being taken away from us serve? Lord knows it's made some of us stronger, and let some of us know how cruel life can be, but it's also caused a lot of pain. I will never understand senseless violence. I know that your death wasn't in vain, that there were bills passed in your name to protect the children in our schools, but those rules should have already been there. It makes me so angry to know that we we e in school, and no one was watching out for us, and it makes me even angrier to know that you had to be taken from your loved ones in order for shildren to

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Well Shell, Happy Easter. I know that you were ther when i had my son. you took all the pain away and help me threw it. Big philip and my mom said that you sent us a sign, that you changed the channel on the tv when I was in labor. And I belive them. also belive that it was you. I love you and miss you so much I wish that you were here to hold my baby boy. but I know that you will watch over him always, That what true friends are all about.! So much has happened since you have been gone. I guess yo know about Cilla, I gald that your mom (Our mom) called me and asked me to take her out that made me feel very speical. I glad that I could be there to help her thought those time of need. No one will ever take your place, Youll always be the best Bigh S s always. I know that you will watch over Cilla and Chris now to. And I promise I still keep my end up down here. I love you always Sissy

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HI HONEY HOWS MOMMAS GIRL ,WILL HONEY IT IS NOT ANY EASIER SINCE YOU LEFT ME IT JUST GETS HARDER AND I CAN'T EMAGINE LIFE WITH OUT YOU IT IS HARDER EVERY DAY NOT EASIER .ONLY TO HOLD YOU AND TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS YOU EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE.WELL ABE I,M TRING REAL HARD BUT IT IS NOT EASY YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AND ALWAYS WILL. SO I'LL BE LOVING YOU FOREVER IN MY HEART.SO HONEY TAKE CARE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN AND YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ME AGAIN. LOVE YA MOM XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

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First off, please excuse the last entry I made, the computer I was working on was messing up. Michelle, I hope now you know that your death was not in vain, You are still being missed by me and everyone that knew you . God Bless You, Michelle.

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HI,HONEY HOW IS MOMMAS GIRL SURE DO MISS YOU SWEATHEART MY LIFE IS SO EMPTY WITHOUT YOU AND IT DOESNT GET EASIER.WILL IM STILL GOING TO COUNCELING TRYING TO UNDER STAND WHAT THE HELL ALL THIS IS ALL ABOUT I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE REASONS WHY YOU OF ALL PEOPLE WHAT IS THE REASON ILL NEVER KNOW. LIFE SUCKS EVERYBODY TELLS ME IT HAPPPENED FOR A REASON WHAT REASON COULD IT BE I WISH I KNOW MYBE SOME DAY ME AND YOU CAN SIT DOWN AND TALK ABOUT IT MYBE YOU CAN HELP ME UNDERSTAND. WILL HONEY I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL NOBODY CAN TAKE THAT AWAY NO EVEN IN DEATH ILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU JUST CALL ME AND ILL BE THIER. LOVE YA MOM XOXOXOXOXOXOX

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P.S. Michelle, your mom has been an angel here on earth. She spoke with Melanie's parents yesterday, and had a long conversation with her mother. It helped Melanie's mom so much, and I think it helped your mom to be able to help her too. You would be very proud of her. It is so sad though for people to become friends through sharing such an awful tragedy. Melanie was a sophomore at Rio Linda High School when you were a senior there. She lived down the street from me and she and her brother were ver close to us. Her brother is still like family to us. We will all miss Melanie very much. I'm just thankful that she has someone like you to help her, and that she is with God now. I guess I now have the three of you as guardian angels, but please - I don't want anymore. All the senseless killings...I pray to God that no one else I love is put through all this again.

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Hi Michelle, I was ready to start this note to you when your mom called me on my cell phone. I just hung up and she said to tell you she loves you! Well, we lost another dear one to murder. Her name is Melanie Murr. She had just turned 18 on February 27. She died last Friday, March 5th, my birthday. We all miss you, and Heidi, and now Melanie too. Please, if you can, find Melanie and take care of her, and watch out over her family. They are going to need all the love and support they can get from very guardian angel who can help. Thanks Michelle. Love always, Cynthia

03/06/99 15:56:29

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Do know that Michelle did not die in vain. Something good did come of it. Because of her death perhaps now others may be saved because of the bill requiring background checks that was passed in her honour.

03/03/99 19:26:36

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I am sorry about your loss. My cousin was also murdered by an aquaintance. She was only 19. We miss her dearly. Please know that there are people out there who do care and who know what you are going through.

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I hope these song lyrics can help some of you. I went to Rio but I didn't know Michelle. I can feel the pain in your words. "Thy Will Be Done" by Joyce Elaine Eilers Sometimes the road is heavy and sometimes the road is long. And sometimes, Lord, this heart of mine is not so very strong. But Thy will be done, Lord. Thy will be done. Father, I do not ask you to take this cup from me. I only ask your guidance over aths I cannot see. And Thy will be done Lord. Thy will be done. Now Lord I feel you near me. I feel your guiding power. And know you're standing by me through every passing hour. And Thy will be done Lord. Thy will be done. This song was written for a friend whose 5 year old son was hit and killed by a car right in front of her. Joyce did not know what to do or say, so she wrote this song. I hope some of you may find comfort in the words. I will pray for all of you.

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hey Michelle, well I am here at work playing on the internet and I had no clue that you had this. I am so glad I found this. I think about you all the time and pray to you and for you also. I can't believe it has been 2 years almost. Me and Kev are get ing married at St.Joseph's in April and I walked in the church about 2 months ago and your funeral was in clear view. It was very hard but I think it will be a great place to start our future. I wish you would've had more time left, we finally were beco ing friends and thank you so much for writing me a message in your senior will. I have to get back to work but I'll write again. God Bless for you and your family. Nic "97"

02/18/99 21:05:11

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Michelle, why is it that when I go into this web site. I always get the chills. I wonder if its cause your standing over me look at it to. Everbody misses you so much, why isn't it getting any easier. You would think that after 1 year 9 months and 2 da s that things might have gotten easier. It's not and it all seems to be going down hill. I you look at your family and there still in alot of pain and probably more then ever. And your friends They don't even know how to have fun anymore. That all fle out the window when you left. None us hardly talk any more, and i don't think that it is cause we don't have time , but it cause when we all get around each other something (someone) is missing and that YOU! You always showed everyone how to have fun a d enjoy life. No one can do that now. Thats your job! Where are you? In all the years that I have known you I never let you down when you called me the last week because you were having problems with Christina, I was there and I will always be there, Just like your mom was there all your life your dad, your hole family, Darcie was there and most of your friends at least the ones that really loved you. Now if only there was one way for you to still be here with us, could you do it? Come back to us, sh w Darcie, Your MOM how to live again. Beacuse there the ones that when I look at them there are truely the ones suffering. Show them how to be strong, and live life to the fullest like you did..... It was just 2 years for Donald tell him I remembered an love and miss him too! Keep each other up and don't do to much parting with out us down here! Love you always Sissy

02/11/99 00:17:08

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Hey girly girl!!! How are you? It has been so long girl. I don't even know where to start. Life is crazy. If I could explain to you how much I need your crazy,fun-loving, friendship right now --I would. All my friends are getting married, having kids, or hey are totally into their boyfriend they don't have time for any friends. I need ya girl!! I need some of our crazy times. I think about you all the time. Where is my life going? I feel like I'm stuck in this place screaming so loud to get out but no one can hear me. I feel alone. Like no one can relate. When I read Robin's messages they totally make me think of you. She remembers alot of the good times. Billy reminds me of you too. Remember that one night we staye up talking about everything. Then your m m got up and make popcorn and talked with us too. We were suppost to be doing our homework but you know girl. I need some more te-kill ya nights. I hope your doing ok. If you need anything I'm here girl. I promise forever or until we meet again. Stay stro g and I will too. Michelle I really need our friendship to get me throught this time in my life. I got your back girl you got mine??? I love ya sweet sexy thing. Eat a big mac for me. And of course don't gain any weight. bye for now

02/11/99 00:05:00

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02/10/99 03:38:01

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Michelle, I've been asking myself a lot lately why I created a web page for people to send you messages, when I myslef never really sent you a heartfielt message. Now, I think it's time for me to do what I should of done long before. I'd like to tell you about the Monday when we all came back to school after you left us. You were prob. too busy making your new home to look down on us to have seen what happened, but what happened that day changed my life. I was in First period Mr Dryden's English class and I'd heard about a walkout as a tribute to you at 8:00a.m. I, myself, wasn't sure if I should participate. Mr. Dryden and Mr. Burns also knew about it. After Dryden had warned us against our tribute to you, and Mr. Burns warn d the whole school over the m.c. not to do it. Well, people were walking out and we saw them outside our English class window. We were all scared to leave, but we all wanted to. One girl, Nicole Oden, in tears ran out with them.. Then the class joined People loved you, and you gave people courage to stand up against what is wrong. I never knew you very well, but I know you touched many people. I know your with me daily Michelle, you've touched my life, you did when I created this web page. God less you Michelle. Be with us all.

02/02/99 05:27:45

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hey girl. hope you're doing okay tell alyssa congrats to her from me and hope shes doing okay and tell nick to do odie for me. Well miss you lots jason said hi and misses you also. Hope your family is doing okay send them my love and tell my mom and dad that I miss them and love them. love ya always angel

01/30/99 18:06:04

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Hey there swettie. I just wanted to say hello and see whats new. Well I sure do miss you but I know your around. I feel it in my heart. Well it should be to much longer befor I go in to the Doctors. But I know that you'll be there for me. Love ya alw ys sissy

01/26/99 07:36:17

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Hey Girly, how's it going for you? Pretty good here. Just though i'd look for you on the net, and i found you!! I'm living in texas right now, so i don't have any idea as to how the trial is going. I don't even know if it's started yet. Last i heard the date was set for sometime in Feb. I hope your family is doing good. I still c

01/23/99 17:59:31

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Michelle, I know that I have been letting down as far as your family goes.I mean by not going around. It's just been alot different latly because my life hasn't stoped and I feel like I only hurt your mom and dad when I go around because they always say how they wish that you would have lefted them a grandchild. I feel that when I go around it just cause more pain to see me pregnant. I know that they don't hold it against me but, I just don't want to see them in any pain. These last couple of months h ve been very crazy, It's like nick said everybody gone the own little way. I hope now that he is back he can get everybody together again because I sure couldn't. Anyways I need a little pick me up i need you to show me how to be strong at times I 'm s re that your know when and you why i get down so if you could just help me at those time then everything will be alright. I going to try and stay strong for you because one thing i remember about you and that was you never quit. you always tried your har est. You always had fun and you sure did live life to the fullest. I miss being young again. Latly the only time I have felt young and felt like i have had fun was when I was going to the "city" alot I haven't been there in along time. In fact the last ime charlee and annie went with me, that night sure was crazy for me (me annie and "..." drank a hole bottle of tj for you), but everytime I was there I felt free and had alot of fun. I'm sure I'll get it all back after I have the baby. Hey Make sure tha my little guy it ok because everything my job has put me though I almost had him early, but the dr.s say he alright. well when every he comes i know that you said that you be there so you better be and pls take all the pain away and give it all to phili , don't make me feel anything. just kidding , i shouldn't be mean...... just give him a little . Well Michelle I sure do MISS YOU and I'll see ya when it time. Keep my head up "K" love ya always SIS

01/20/99 04:26:12

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CVC dog whats up? Its been a long time but Im back in business I came back from the army in one piece like I promised. thanks for the help in airborne school you helped give me the motivation to get through. And check it out I got my wings to .I really mi s you and all our crazy CVC times ,especially the trips to beer can Ill never forget the time we snaged the keg from Robins work . I also miss having a girl around that could set a party off just by walking in the room .You always knew how to make every o e smile even when they didnt want to.It really sucks now that your gone every one has kinda went their own way , they have forgoten what bieng dogs is all about . Dont worry Im still true to all my dogs and I always will be . Since you helped me out with the airborne gig I was wondering if you could work some of that magic with you know who. Anyway Im going to let you go for now but Ill always be thinking of you and Ill party for you see you soon. Love always your CVC Airborne DOG Nicholas William Duncan p>

01/13/99 21:17:05

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Hey girlie. So whats up? Nothin much with me just thinkin about and my mom and dad. Hope your doing okay and can you tell my mom and dad that I miss them very much and hope that they are doing okay. send my love to your mom and the family and hope tha they are doing okay. Jason said Hi and tells me that he misses you loves you very much and that he misses the times he had with you. Well girl take care and hope you're doing okay. Love you always angel

01/12/99 02:46:13

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Hey girlie girl!I miss you sooooo much!Gina Ashworth is back and we are as close as ever. Wish you were here to share in the good times. Austin is beautiful-looks just like her!I think of you all the time.

01/03/99 17:40:27

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Will hi honey hows momma girl will honey another yesr gone by.Michelle another year without you seems so unreal I can't imagine life without you in it,it sucks but I hold onto are memories boy there are sure alot.Nick called he is on his way home mybe he' l stick around who knows everything has changed so much. You see sis lately she is starting to show she sure looks cute, I wish I had a chance to see a grandchild from you he or she would be cute and spoiled. How was your xmas are was okay ,lonely but the kids had a god one but not the same because you are only there in spirit and i can't hold you or spoil you just to talk to you would be nice. Michelle you are giving me so much love and I know you are still watching over us because you know we can't do it alone thanks honey and also thank you God for letting her stay with us . When I'm ready to let go you will know so stay by babe because I need you by my side.(((((MICHELLE)))))) I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL TILL WE MEET AGAIN DEAR GOD HOLD MICHEL E IN YOUR HANDS AND TAKE CARE OF HER UNTILL I GET THERE PLEASE THEN I'll take care of her like a mother should.

01/02/99 18:38:29

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Michelle Montoya!!!!! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I haven't been to see your family that much lately but I still hold them in my heart very close. Its just very hard to go to your house and not be able to help them. Its already going on 2 years and it still seems like it was yesterday. They have along road ahead of them and I'll always be here for them. I always try to tell your mom that your there with her because she really misses you. She wishes that she could see you and hold you gain. I know its not in my power to help her but really wish that I could. I wish that I could just take all that pain away. But I can't thats why you should go and visit her. The other day at court I sat there and I felt really strong and I belive th t you were there with us, thats why we were all strong. I'm so glad that finally something went our way, your family deserves it and me and the rest of your friends do to. Oh I really enjoyed the visit the other day. You haven't came to me latey but I m glad that you did and when you did. Help me be strong. Remeber your always in my heart, and I'll never forget you or what you were about. Love you always, you know who!!!!!

12/29/98 03:52:04

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Happy New Year Myshell....white tequila shots in Memory of you sweetheart...miss you.....Robin

12/24/98 03:19:53

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Merry Christmas Myshell...I miss you and love you with all my heart, you are with me everyday. I wish I could give you the biggest hug and give you a present.........@-->------Hollywood

12/22/98 17:15:04

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Michelle-Just wanted to let you know you are in our loving thoughts @ Christmas & always.Blessings to your beautiful family ,also.God bless to all who read this.Merry Christmas Michelle. Love, Mike & Don

12/22/98 03:02:25

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Hi honey it's me so girl what have you been up to are you doing okay.Mom sure misses you alot who is going to wrap the presents you are not here to do it and i hate wrapping i don,t feel like christmas without you so can i skip it all together. Your siste put up christmas lights around the house i'm so proud of her and your dad sends his love and misses you very much and he wants you back so much it hurts him and me but you can come in are dreams.Oh dad says merry xmas and a happy new year.Priscilla went n the internet and created a doll name Michelle in honor of her big sis she love and misses you but boy she can be a BRAT BUT O WILL . Michelle are you going to be here for Christmas by my side I can,t do this without you ,you are a BIG part of my life an you will always be we honey the tears are coming so bye sweetheart i Love you very much xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo((((MICHELLE))))))) mom

12/18/98 04:19:04

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Hi Michelle, I just asked Heidi to make sure she talks to you about coming into spiritspace web site tomarrow night. Your mom really needs some comfort from YOU!. she has been coming to this site recently and I told Heidi to get ahold of you so that you can both ome in tomarrow night and talk with both of us. That would be a wonderfull gift for your mom and you. With you and Heidi and me and your mom there together it could be like going out together. That would be the MOST!.So please make cotact with Heidi and b th of you join us in spiritspace tomarrow night and visit with your mom. We will be there alltogether and she really needs to here from you right now esspecially Please! sweet dreams and hope to hear from YOU and Heidi tomarrow night!.

12/17/98 22:27:30

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Miss you girl

12/16/98 02:11:16

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Hey Michelle saw your mom at costco the other day and I swear it was you well I your family is doing okay it's going to be really hard for them this christmas with you here. Tried to get a hold of robin but is guess shes been pretty busy. Well girlie te l my mom and dad that I miss them very much and they will always be in my heart and so will you. Well take care and Merry Christmas to you and your family.

12/11/98 03:23:19

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Hey girlie girl, just checkin' up on you, X-mas is coming up and I wanted to let you know I miss you very much and I remember what you got me on X-mas 96. Pear lotion and spray, and little funny coupons and the infamous keychain. I haven't seen your fam ly in a while, I live on the other side of town, and I don't really have the chance but I miis them too, I hope they have a good X-mas as well. Darce was here today, and she mentioned she left you a message too. Well, girlie girl, I have to get going, I miss you very much............@->-----xoxoxoxoxoxo

12/09/98 06:36:45

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What's up beautiful sweet honey drop. We've been thinkin' a lot about you and just wanted to tell you how much we miss you and love you. You are always in our thoughts, prayers and dreams. I (Jason) miss partying with you and doing hella crazy things wi h you. (Angel) Michelle can you please tell my mom and dad that there little girl misses them very much and loves them very much. (Jason) today i was looking at pictures of the gang in the limo and at our senior ball dance, we all looked so good we look d like BRIGHT SHINING STARS!!! we were the BOMB we knew it. Girl I miss going out with you and the girls, i mean i still go out with the girls but its like our gang is not complete without you.I know your always there watching over us but its like a batch of cookies missing sugar.do you remember when we popped J.A'S tires after the basketball game, and squished like seven of us in darcie's little truck and then we went and partied down. come to find out that was my first night kickin it with you. well unti l next time i get to talk to you just wanted to say i love and miss you lots. LOVE YOUR BIG PAPA LONG TIME XOXOXXOXOXOOOXXOOXOXOXOXOXOOXOOXOXOOXOXOOXOOXOOXOOXOOXOOXOOOXXXXXXOOXOOXOOXOOXOOXOOXOOXOX EVERY OTHER CITY WE GO, EVERY OTHER VIDEO,NO MATTER WERE WE GO WE SEE THE SAME @#'$. REMEMBER OUR CRAZY SONG I'M OUT LOVE YA J.B. POPIE (Angel) STAY SWEET NO MATTER WHAT AND I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. MERRY XMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT IS KEEP ING MICHELLE ALIVE FOR US TODAY AND ALWAYS LOVE ALWAYS ANGEL AND JASON C/O 1997 IS DA BOMB OH YEAH! JASON SAID MERRY XMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR WHILE HE WAS GOING PEEPEE! ;) ;) ;)

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Michelle-As the holidays are among us it becomes extra hard,especially for your family.However,the candle of love is lit when all your ways are preciously recalled.There will again & again .....be tears,but a smile will have to cross the faces of those who love you,for those are the ones who have been blessed by being so fortunate to have had you in their lives.All thats good,loving & positive is now as it has always been-YOU.Thank-You for touching our lives & Merry Christmas!RASTA to you Michelle!

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Hey, I know we've never met, but I love you just the same. I'm sorry I never got to know you in this world. Your aunt Sasa has been taking good care of me getting ready for my wedding. I know you saw the invitation, and I hope you have a good time with your family there. I love your family, take good care of them. Talk to you another time.

11/27/98 03:57:36

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Hi ,Honey Happy Thanksgiving will babe we were at grandpa and grandma as if you didt know because you were sitting right by momma huh.I send all my love your way and a big KISS & HUGGS you are always on mt mind not a day goes by that i dont think of my ba y girl and all the wonderful memories so honey stand by my side and take care of me like you always have LOVE & KISSES XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX LOVE MOM.

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Hi Honey I went to a wedding today and I started to think how beautiful you are. I realized I would never see my little girl walk down the aisle it just broke my heart. So I didn't stay very long. I just don't know how life can be so cruel I always thought you would be here. I guess we take things for granted. One thing for sure Love dosen't go away it just keeps growing stronger every day. Shaz I sure miss you. I just wish that God will end the world so we can all be together again. Someday huh? The thought of being with you again keeps me going. I'll be able to go home too. Then you can teach me all the things that you're having fun doing. I Love you so much. I'm sorry Honey I don't mean to cry but life without is you unbearable and so lonely. I figure what's the use anymore. It's funny how one sweet child makes all the difference on how you're heart feels and how difficult it makes life. Michelle I know you're happy being with God and I'm truly happy for you. I guess you're Aunty is just selfish and would rather have you home throwing me kisses from across the street. You gave me the best gift ever the morning you left for school and I promise to hold that love in my heart soul and throughout the rest of my life. So My Love and Life until you come to take me home but I will write again soon. XXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

11/19/98 00:53:36

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This message is to all who visit my daughter's web site. Please feel free to leave a note because they are very special and help us to remember her. Even if you didn't know her, feel free to express your thoughts. Please remember to keep us in your pra ers because we still have a very long road ahead of us. God be with all of you, and thanks for your kindness. Pam Montoya Schleeter - Michelle's Mom.

11/16/98 23:48:07

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Hey Michelle I know you're watching us, everyday I just want you to know that because of your existence my kids', kids',kids will be safe I'm just sorry that it had to be at this cost. You were the most friendly Junior I knew at Rio and you will always be. Much Love.

11/15/98 09:04:45

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Hi MyShell, haven't wrote you in a while, miss you like crazy....all I do is work (whenever) and play on our computer. Talk to Darcie every once in a while and Billy. Happy Thanksgiving girlie girl. Love ya, Robin

11/13/98 21:21:34

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Hi honey it's mom again how are you ,Will babe mom had another bad day I miss you so much ,I just long to hold you again please Michelle help me through this night mirror you can't be gone not you honey i need you so bad it is hard to ajust with out you.I still dont understand why you and not me i want to be with you so bad I miss not seeing you or talking to you ,I'll never see no grandkids,not the kind of man you would marry I was stipped of all the joys of being a grandmother to your children but you al ays told me you werent going to have kids i guess you know that you were leaving me why couldnt you worn me i would have taken your place but that wasnt gods way. I LOVE YOU BABE XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX MOMMA

11/12/98 03:10:53

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I am so sorry for your loss. Michelle is a beautiful young lady who certainly deserved to have a wonderful life. My heart goes out to Michelle's family and friends. I wish you peace from a mom who understands the pain of losing a child. Please know ot ers care. Thank you for sharing Michelle. Hugs. Jayne

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MICHELLE I WISH I WOULD HAVE HAD MORE TIME WITH YOU. I HAVE ONLY BEEN BLESSED BY YOUR MOM AND AUNT SASA TO KNOW THE GOODNESS THAT YOU SHARED WITH OTHERS, IT JUST GOES TO SHOW GOD HAD A SPECIAL PLAN FOR HIS LITTLE ANGEL. I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE WITH YOUR LOVE TO GUIDE THEM THOUGH THE ROUGH TIMES. LOVE YOUR COUSIN, BETTY LOU

11/06/98 07:53:03

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My dearest Shaz, Well Honey everybody is sleeping so I wanted to write this letter to you. Shaz Saturday is my birthday and I don't know how to get through it without you. I miss you so! I think about all the times that you would run over with a gift or me. I'ts so hard for me knowing that those days for me are over. I LOVE YOU so much it hurts. I thank God everyday that I was a part of you're life and I thank you're Mom for sharing you with me. It seems that we got alot closer the day you came in o this world and the day that you went home to be with God we even got closer. I Love you're mother so much but it breaks my heart to see her hurt I can't take her pain away all I can do is hold her and Love her even though I'm not and never will come cl se to the LOVE she need's from you. I know that Love dosen't die and that it only gets stronger and grows with every passing day. I also know that everyday brings us closer to you. I think that with you waiting for us is the only thing that keeps us go ng. Besides the rest of the kids that God has entrusted with us. Michelle, I'm happy for you because I know that you are with God and you're home but it dosen't take away the pain of being without you Honey I wish that Life wasn't so cruel and that you ere still with us. I've been pretty down in the dumps cause it will be another birthday without you and I miss the hugs and kisses you had for me I want so badly to feel the warmth of you're heart and the Love that you showered me with from th time you w re little until the very day you went home. The only birthday present I want is to feel that Love that only you could give me. I also want you to know how much I Love and miss you and hope that you can hear me when I talk to you because there isn't a da that goes by that I don't tell you how much you mean to me. Michelle I'm sorry that I can't open my heart sometimes but you were my life. All my life I waited for someone to Love and God sent me you. Even though I was just you're auntie and you're ban er(ha ha) but my greatest gift was being you're Godmother I was so proud of you and I always will be. I'll try and wait patiently till God takes us home so we can spend eternity with you. Don't worry about us we'll be okay. They say that time heals all but I don't think this will ever heal our hearts. I remember the one thing you told me when I was standing at the kitchen window and I was crying I heard you and Auntie will Love them the way I Loved you but always remember you're still #1 in my heart an I'm sorry but I'm faithful to heart. Michelle maybe God will let you come hold me this birthday like He did on my last birthday. PLEASE COME!! I need you that's the only Birthday Present I Want. O'kay Shaz Please! LOVE AND KISSES AUNT SASA

11/05/98 17:15:08

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Michelle Its me again Heidi's mom. I just wanted to share with everyone Heidi's web page. I really love to be able to share her like this and I am really glad you have one. Here it is: www.oocities.org/Heartland/Meadows/2474/Heidi_Cox/Heidi.html thanks and I hope you visit her soon.

10/31/98 17:58:13

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Hi Honey,well babe today is halloween the kids are dressing up as a witch and chris screem ,wish you were here to go out with but your dad is going to take them.Michelle it is so hard to go on without you but the only things that keep me going is that one day we will be together again and you will never leave me alone will be together forever never to be apart.I try to go on but it is hard we did so much together and i miss it there is a bond between me and you that no one can take away or replace me and y u girl i love you.I cry a million tears and cant stop they just keep coming and I'll shed a million more till we are together i love you michelle with all i have to give i gave it all to you my beautiful dauther always and forever you will always be my da ther.Will honey ill see you again so please wait for me and we can talk about what has been going on watch over us and keep us saafe love you

10/19/98 11:58:37

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I have to add a few words I missed but change the sentance without the. so this is just a fill in to the next note below this one. I said I thank god Daily he has taked heidi (without finishing this sentance now I will add the words I forget to this senta ce k thanks and sorry ) I meant to wtite With all this pain I have without Heidi God did not just come and take her from me and then go himself. No he may have her with him now but he has also tried to do what he can to help fill this emptiness as much as possible with all the lttle and big things he lets me see and know daily about Heidi and so much more. Heidi and God make me feel like I matter much more now somehow than I ever felt like before. The rest is cont below. thanks

10/19/98 11:47:42

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hello Michelle, Even thou we didnt know each other while you were here. I know you know me now and I know you as well. If there is ever something you need to say to anyone I can reach you know I will. You know how you can get a hold of me any time. especially on Fri r Sat nights every week. If I am not there you can leave a message it will get to me by email I promise. I am really thankfull for Alyssia Lopez and her mom thanks to you as sorry as I am about this happening to you I would have never met them and I would never have then learned of yet another very special Lady named Jo Madrid. She has really given me answers for my own pain. Also some for my future. Many things Heidi has told me recently, Jo Madrid has confirmed then without even knowing it. I want to tha k you for bringing us together. This is that part of you that will live on like the song say's. Also Sissy and Sheilla remember when we were there with Jo Madrid last month and I got chills really bad and they stayed a while and I didnt know why when what was said was about sissy. Well I now know why. My daughter Nicole we just found out 2 weeks ago is 5 months pregnant.what a wowwww. She thought she was just ran down and stressed out. But guess not. I asked Heidi last week what is will be and she said a g rl. I asked Jo Madrid also last wekek and she said girl. Once again they have said the same to me. for this I personnally thank you dearly for. As terribly heart broken as I am without Heidi I do honestly have to say that I thank God daily because he has aken Heidi from here now but he has also done everything and continues to do everything he can to keep me as close with her as possible without her here. I couldnt ask him for anything more from her with me she is safe and happy best she can be not being ere with us but I have found notes from her given to me on store reciepts, like last week the time I I checked out was exactly 3:14 the date Heidi died and then right above it was the changed I got back which was $1.43 on the pager it is I love you. I did t bother to look at the rest that was enough I will keep this reciept forever and go back to that store sometimes and hope for more.a minute more or less or a penny more or less would not have come from her but it was just as I said so I know it was a lov note for me buying her some green apples even thou they wont be eaten now. I still bought them. She was telling me thanks. along with i love you. I get a rush everytime I tell this to someone.I have the reciept and hope to be gathering stacks by the time I see her in Heaven. Also in all sadness i must thank You again for something that will be here on earth for many many years . The bricks that Lynnie donated to each of us in our family and Tanya for going through such stress to put the words that we want d on them as she so beautifull did. Heidi will now be a physical part of that school for ever because of you. I hope you two are real good friends now. Well I have probably gone on way to far already as Heidi would always say "Got to go but love ya and lo e your show!." lots of love Donna cox.

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Hello sweetheart how is mamas girl will babe all I wanted to say is how much you are loved and missed by everybody.I look at your picture everday and only wish I could have you back in my life but I know you are helping other children over to your side because you are just that way you better be waiting for me because when I get there I'm never letting go of you again. So honey save me a piece of heaven I'll see you soon.Pricsilla plays soccer just like you,you taught her will she is wearing your soccer shoes & your tops she is really growing and she take know shit from anyone.But your baby brother is still so mixed up how can mama help him please sweety help or watch over him and keep him safe from all harm I'm so afraid that something is going to happen to them and I won't be there to protect them I wish I could of saved you I would of given my life for you girl.Michelle you mean so much to me and it is so hard to go on with out you I know I cry alot but believe me I'm trying so hard to move ahead but it"s hard with out you.I feel like I'm all alone your not hear to help me anymore babe you done so much for me and I really miss it all nobody to laugh with or to talk to or stick up for me you are my backup you always watched that no one messed with your mom and know i have know one.will honey I love and miss you come talk to me I need a big hug from my girl,love ya xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo mom

10/10/98 04:06:54

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Hi honey, I'm over at your house watching the kids. I thought I would write and tell you how much I LOVE YOU. Michelle I love you more than life and more than anything on earth. Priscilla is as cute and just as bratty but she sure has alot of you're w ys. Chris is just as sweet and he has his ways. Michelle I hope you can hear me at night and when I talk to you it's my special time with you. I can tell you just about anything. Shaz I'm feeling alot better I finally figured out that you will never l ave us and that you will continue to be with us as long as we're here on earth. I figured out quite a bit but sometimes it dosen't help. Don't worry about us we are going to be fine. I know you'll be waiting for us and no one can take the love we have or each other. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO FOREVER AND EVER YOUR AUNTY

10/06/98 17:04:07

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Hey michelle, I just came by to give your mother some more lessons on this darn computer! she had to look up the Star-Spangle Banner and could find it. She got all the history but could find the words. Well we got it now so she can stop going insane over his. Priscilla needed it for sister class and if she didn't get it then she would have detention, but they got it so everything all right. If you can, come help your mom with this computer. She told me to tell you she smelled you today and that she loves you see ya later babe. love ya sis

10/04/98 14:58:21

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Dear Michelle, Three weeks ago my daughter and I came out and visited you and Nic Contreraz and afterward we went to see your mom and dad. They did the most wonderful thing for us...sharing their memories, and their secrets to how you guys always tried to keep communi ation open between you. They told us about how responsible and mature you were - especially your Senior year - holding down two jobs, helping at home with your sister and brother, Priscilla & Christopher, coaching a soccer team, remembering those less fo tunate at Christmas time. You are very much missed and loved and always will be. We have been working very hard on weekends to finish the "Walkway of Peace". Priscilla & Christopher were even helping! I got some good videos of them - I'm sure you're proud of them. There are only 10 more bricks to install, and then the marble benc with your silhouette, in your honor. It is quite beautiful and a wonderful way of keeping your spirit alive forever, and reminding everyone who visits it that you, and the other lost loved ones remembered on the bricks, WERE here on earth and very impor ant parts of our lives. I think it will help to bring some peace, healing, and a touch of tenderness to everyone who "walks" it. I am still attempting to see that the GJUHSD enforces the Michelle Montoya Safety Acts in the district but there is still a ways to go. Please keep me (& the other 2 you think should win) in your thoughts and prayers as the election nears. We most cer ainly can use your help. God bless you and your family and friends always. Love, Cynthia

09/26/98 16:51:28

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Michelle- How about some tea with all that sugar!!!!!!! Or what about a lemon with some salt!!!!!!! You are so crazy. Things I was just remebering!!!

09/26/98 16:45:23

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Look at all these messages you should feel proud of all of you friends. You turely are famous. You knew that you would be too! I will never forget you just as I am sure that anyone how knew you won't. Stand by us all girly love ya

09/26/98 00:42:32

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Well this is crazy,the way life works.It's been one year and a half and I still can't believe it. Everything has changed so much in my life. I feel like I can never be that same person like when you were a live. What happened? All those crazy times gone. veryone now is so rapped a in their own life sometimes I feel like I have no friends. Sometimes I feel like the strongest person and other times I can't belive how weak I am. I feel like I try to hide how much you leaving my life really effected me. Somet mes I put it a side like I want to forget because its easier but inside I don't want to forget. Everyday I can remember one new thing about you and our times together.Girl- we weren't friends very long and wish we could of gotten so much closer.Even if yo wouldn't have died you still would of effected my life. You brought out this side in me. I feel like I can never find a friend again that I am so a like.WE could be crazy together and it would just come naturally.Remember riding on the motorcycles with o r studmen(at the time)and we would flash each other. Remember the night after your 18th b-day party what we did?Fun whooo!!Remember everyday you would come into my 4th period and wait for me to get done with class.Then we would leave for lunch everyday an during class periods to. Spanish fo you? The t.a. will mark you hear huh!!We would fit so many people in my truck. Oh ya Tori told me that one day you guys took my truck that you guys almost crashed it and she told you not to tell me. Hey now!!!How about a tummy's pickle or a mocha with irish cream and hella whip. Remeber our little book of secrets 88, 49, 90. Those were the good old days. I will never forget. I'm sorry I'm not as true as I should be to you. I will vist your family more I was just have so e hard times and still am. I hope things get better, I feel like eveything is so difficult right now in my life. I'm going to start going to churh this sunday. Right now school is the most important thing. No guys who needs them. I just going to get a deg ee in college and then buy a house on the ocean, make hella money, and get artifically insemanated.I know you like that one. Hey I found out some stuff about a certain stud man of yours that is such a hottie. And one day I dropped you off at his house and forgot about you. I won't say anything. Why didn't you tell me? It's ok. Hey stick buy me girl and I'll do the same for you. I'll write you more. I all ready feel better. One favor Fish- will you help me with my one problem? I can't break it. What should do? Ahhh I hate this kind of stuff. Good bye for now. Stay by me girlfriend I need your strong women buffness right now in my life. Thanks for being there. Love ya tons. Darcie your motorcycle bud-pelican. Billy still makes the sound rrrraaaahhhhh the b rd sound!!!

09/25/98 22:38:56

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Michelle: I't been way over a year since you were taken from us.But all they say things happen for a reason.What is hard is way you .you did no harm to know one if anything you were always helping people your heart is big honey.You always put smiles on pe ple faces even those you did not know always helping the ones in need that was just you.Well anyway I always talk to you before I go to sleep and I know you listen to me.I Only wish I was there to pretect you from any harm but all we have know is memories The time when you came home when you were born,I held you.You were so little and so precious and I even changed your diapers and thought that your poop smelt like roses that's kinda sick if you really think about it the time when I was with your aunt Liz e would always take you to the movies you were my little date and a good one by far you were never a problem but then you got older and became a brat. I really miss the times i would take you to school you wouldn't talk much except to tell me that you hat d my smoking and wish I would quit well guess what I did it for you babe. Also you still owe me twenty dollars I will get it back when I see you again even though what good would it do me in Heaven ever thing is free there at leased I hope so.Wil I met th s really nice lady she is so sweet you would really like her so watch over us.Also your cousin Danny well be getting his drivers licence soon he took his writing test 3 times and passed it his third time man he was so nervous but I know you were there wit him.I took him driving like when I took you in the suburu at arco it was just as bad boy did you scare me you laugh the whole time and I'll always rememer that.Well Nicole is getting at that age when she is really grouchy but we will get through it with you're help. I know you are always with us well sweetheart I will write you again. Please do me a favor and give grandma and grandpa and the rest of the family in Heaven a hug and a kiss for me. Also Mom Cooppin - Don's mom send her my love also. Well anyways Honey you are always on my mind and in my heart. I Love and Miss you very much XOXO! Love Uncle Danny, Lil Danny and Nicole Montoya

09/25/98 00:37:23

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Hey Michelle, Just wanted to write you a little something to let you know that you are still in my thoughts and I miss you very much. I have been very busy lately with school, work, and I finally moved out but everytime I come see your family I am reminded of the p in I still feel at losing you. You are still the greatest friend I have ever had in my whole life and I know that I will never again meet anyone like you. I love you chick and miss you a lot and always will think of you.

09/23/98 02:45:19

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THE LITTLE GIRL FROM DOWN THE STREET, WHO BECAME THE LITTLE SISTER I NEVER HAD, WHO IS NOW THE LITTLE ANGEL IN THE SKY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH MICHELLE. I MISS YOU COMING OVER TO MY HOUSE AND BEING THE LITTLE SISTER YOU WERE TO ME. I MISS YOUR CRAZY EXPRESSIO S, YOUR CRAZY WAYS, AND YOUR BUBBLY PERSONALITY. I MISS YOUR PRESENCE AND YOU STICKING OUT YOUR TONGUE EVERY CHANCE YOU GOT. BUT MOST OF ALL I JUST MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I WILL NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH FUN WE HAD ON OUR STREET PLAYING BASKETBALL ALMOST VERYDAY AT MY HOUSE AND BEATING ALL THE GUYS. THEY NEVER LEARNED. BUT WHEN YOU WERE TAKEN FROM US OUR BASKETBALL GAMES WERE NEVER THE SAME. I REMEMBER YOU ALWAYS WALKING TO MY HOUSE WITH YOUR PAGER HANGING OUTSIDE YOUR SHORTS WITH YOUR SASSY WALK AND YOUR SASSY STYLE. THINK'N YOU WERE ALL THAT GIRL! YOU WERE ALL THAT WITH A BIG HEART. REMEMBER THE NKOTB CONCERT I TOOK YOU TO! I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT I WATCHED YOU GROW UP FROM A LITTLE GIRL INTO A BEAUTIFUL YOUNG LADY WITH A PASSION FOR SOCCER. AND WHY YOU ERE TAKEN FROM US AT SUCH A YOUNG, YOUNG, AGE I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND. I NEVER KNEW HOW UNFAIR LIFE CAN BE UNTIL WE LOST YOU. WHEN YOU PAST AWAY I FOUND MYSELF AT THE CEMETARY EVERY SINGLE DAY. IT SEEMED SO UNREAL AND UNBELIEVABLE TO ME. NOW IT HAS BEEN O ER A YEAR AND I CAN'T GET MYSELF TO GO BECAUSE AS TIME GOES ON IT JUST GETS HARDER AND REALITY IS SETTING IN. BUT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME AND YOU WILL ALWAYS HOLD A PLACE IN MY HEART. RIGHT NOW SISSY AND I ARE COACHING YOUR SISTER'S SOCCER TEAM. HE DAY SISSY CAME OVER AND ASKED ME TO BE THE ASSISSTANT COACH I WAS SURPRISED. BECAUSE I KNOW IF YOU WERE HERE I KNOW YOU AND SISSY WOULD BE COACHING YOUR SISTER'S SOCCER TEAM. THAT SHOULD BE YOU OUT THERE ON THE SIDELINES AT THE GAMES MICHELLE, NOT ME. UT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I WILL BE HERE FOR YOUR BROTHER AND SISTER AS LONG AS THEY WANT ME TO BE HERE FOR THEM. I LOVE AND MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW.

09/21/98 21:03:06

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Hey girl sure do miss ya. The pathway looks good you should be proud of everyone there are doing a good job on everything. Can't wait to see what its going to look like when it all done. well till later i'll see ya in my dreams and always in my heart. love ya

09/21/98 16:01:20

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To MY DEAREST MICHELLE, will honey just a note to tell you how much i love you and miss you . Went to chris football game yesterday he plays defense linebacker and they won 12 to 6 wish you were there to cheer him on.Priscilla soccer game on saturday they lost she is so much lik you honey ,she does some crazy things that you did.Then we went to Rio Linda to see the bricks babe you are truely loved by alot of wonderful people ,you touched so many lives in this cruel world .Do you know what I miss more about you everything your sm le,laugh your sense of humor and our talks about everything.love you always your momma forever so you when i get there save me a slice of heaven. Mom

09/21/98 01:36:18

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SIS I MISS YA!AND LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.WELL I GESS I'LL SEE YA AGEN SOME DAY.I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU I MISS YOUR SMIEL,YOUR BUTIFUL FACE, AND YOU FIGHTING WITH ME.BUT I GESS WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN I WILL GET TO SEE EVERYTHING I MISS LOVE YA SIS, PRISCILLA

09/20/98 06:01:37

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To My Baby Girl Well Honey hows mama girl doing boy I sure do miss you sweetheart .Today dad went to help with your passway to peace but what peace can we find with out you it will never bring us peace but it will show us how much you are loved by so many people and all he lives you have touched.But again why you honey I'll never understand but one day I'll meet you at the gates in heaven never to lose you again we will be together one day babe and I can't wait to be with you I LOVE YOU BABE ALWAYS AND FOREVER IN MY HEAR LOVE YOUR MOM

09/20/98 05:31:15

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Hi Michelle my Belle, Oh my darling I wish I could really tell you how much I miss you I want to thank you my darling for all the joy,happiness and love you gave to me and your Grandpa while you were here on planet earth I hope you get all the hugs and ki ses I send to you via Jesus and our Blessed Mother you would think we were fools when we Look up to the sky hoping to see you. Honey do you need my credit card up there, I'll mail it to you. I seen a dress the other day that would of looked beautiful on y u I miss your phone call's and your love you too . Grandpa says to tell you he misses you and he is still saving cans for you your cousin Danny is here, They started your memorial today it's looking real good and I'm getting sleepy so I'll close for now h ping to see you in my dreams, you'll always be my #1 God Bless You my Darling Grandma & Grandpa.

09/20/98 05:03:02

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My Love,My Life,and now My Sweet Angel,I don't know how to go on without you being a part of my life. Sometimes I think what was my lesson that I,m supposed to learn from this, but I have to leave that in God's hands. Shaz, don't you worry about you're amily we're going to go on I don't know how long it's going to take but I KNOW you,re safe and no-one will ever hurt you again I Love you so sometimes I know that you're with me and will never leave me. You taught me so much in the wonderful 18 years tha you were with us. You taught me about unconditional Love and all the beauty that you alone had in that big Heart of yours. Michelle PLEASE DON'T EVER LEAVE ME! I don't know how to deal with losing you but I have my everlasting Love that will be with m till I'll be with you in paradise. Because then we will be together for eternity and no-one will be able to take you away from us again. Honey I LOVE YOU WITH MY HEART MY SOUL AND EVERY BREATHE THAT I TAKE! All my Love Aunty

09/18/98 20:01:20

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Hey, its me again and yes i do have another story as always. Well there are some good things that have been happening; they finally made Jim Mayle cheif of Police at grant and that was way over do due but i'm sure that you had something to do with that ecause of our little talks. that must have been you way to tell me that you were listening to everything I had to say and I'm glad they could have found a better man. They also are going to have the officer on campus now I think that thats a good thing. ell enough about that, I talked to mrs. Claxton and we need you to do us a fav. she needs your help she needs to have some better things happen in her life. You know that she got into that car accident and that she has some memory loss and some other bad things happen but it now time that that all change can you and some of your angel friends go and help her and her family out get them out of the bind that there in she would have help us if she could now if you could help her that would be great. And as a ways you need to go see your family you need to be there and help them out get them though this school year and pls shel go to Aunt Sasa because she need to have a visit from you soon. Go hold here she needs that. Well I hope that you are getting all the occer that you want and all the chicken tacos' that you want because your going to need it so you can be strong because, you have alot of people that are counting on you down here to help us though this life so get the move on lady and come visit me too. see ya later gater ps the walk way should be done soon why don't you help us on that tooooooo kkkkkkk.... sorry if i ask to much but girly you know me love ya shel MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH & LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! HEARS A KISS AND A WINK BACK AT YOU BABE!!!!!

09/12/98 21:31:16

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hello, I don't know Michelle, but I read the story and it makes me really sad :( even though i don't know many of the details, i still want to say that i'm really, really sorry. She sounds like a nice girl from what other people are writing. I wish your f mily the best of luck with this. E-mail me please, let me know how everything is going. Thanks a bunch. ~Lauren

09/08/98 19:03:35

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MICHELLE MOM LOVES YOU AND MISSES YOU VERY MUCH WISH I COULD COME SEE YOU SOON OR PLEASE BABE COME SEE ME I NEED YOU SO MUCH I CANT BELIEVE YOU ARE GONE AND I CANT SEE YOU UNTIL MY TIME IS UP WISH IT IS SOON . LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER MOM

08/31/98 03:40:55

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Hello everyone! I wrote a class report on a subject that was very important to me, it happened to be on the death of Michelle. I wrote the report and put strong words in there, like the school board does not pay attention to the schools, the kids that at ened the schools, and employees that are hired at the schools. I also voiced student opinions and a very strong opinion from a close co-worker of my moms and a very close friend of the Michelle Montoya family. I also commented on the Montel Williams show and the Michelle Montoya scholorship. My teacher did not approve of my topic and said I should pick something else because I would not be able to find enough information on this subject, but I did it anyway. My teacher did not like some of the voiced opio ions. My family liked my report and thought it would make people more awhere of The Michelle Montoya death or at least make them more awhere that something is wrong in our school districts today and someone needs to make a change. My teacher had other pla s, I recieved an (F) on the report and she would not change her mind. Her reason for the (F) was grammer. I must be good at grammer to be in Honors Language,but I guess some people just don't like the truth! I would like to wish the best to the family of Michelle Montoya, and to let them know that my prayers are with them always, and to keep the faith! I am, and to this day, I still speak to others about how we need to be able to feel safe on our school grounds!

08/26/98 23:53:25

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Hi baby, how are ya, gettin' a big laugh over what everyone is up to these days? I think about you everyday and I know you are looking out for me. I seen Darcie and Casey at school today and they are both doing fine. Darcie got ran over by her boss and messed up her ankle. She had a goofy cast for a while, she's OK now. Casey is being a woman chaser at school, he likes being single he says, since he's not with (ew!) Natasha anymore, she's with Beak. Suprised!? I have a boyfriend, his name is Mike, e is such a sweetheart. I work four days a week and go to school and I have my own place. Still drive the Beamer, and I will have my own 600F3 in a couple of months!!! Mikey says hello and he misses you as do my parents and grandma. I love you......bu bye @-->--

08/21/98 22:24:20

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Hey, you sweet sexy thing welll I sure do wish you were here right now. because alot of stuff is going on. Frist with your family they really miss you, and then with your friends they really need you. Go see darcie she really need you now more then ever I can ony do so much. I know thatyou may never want to go back to the school but I need you to go to the ones all in charge of it and get in there head girlfriend and make them do the right thing. Then thinking about doing some really stupid them and to th m its all about power. well babe your strong then them and we need you and you froces to be on our team. Them fight started the days everything happened to do if not beforebut we have to show them that MICHELLE MONTOYA WILL LIVE ON. (FOREVER) and the GOOD will win over ALL evil. They wont get away with anything. You know what you have to do... and to how you have to do it to.... so shelly go get them!!!!!!! your that light in the sky we all look up to so pls don't fail us now. Anyways well chis is playing football and me and cilla started soccer she doing so good she reminds me so much of you. She runs, and carrys her self just like you. Help me coach them again we can't do it without you. besides It will be good for you and us I know that it os alot but you can hang there is no backing out up there if we have to do our part down here you have to do your part and thats anwsering everybodys prayers and question and what evereles may come along so I guess you better go to god a d have him help. I have faith in you if i can do you can and we never let each other down befor so i not going to let you down now yu better not let me down I love you always We will see each other again. I love ya gril see ya soon I loved the rose I know it was your sign. I GOT IT sissy

08/18/98 14:39:10

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michelle, How is mommas girl love and miss you very much each day gets harder because you are a big part of are life and will always be . I FEEL YOUR PRESENTS EVERY DAY DON'T LEAVE ME GIRL BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND NEED YOUR PRESENTS TO HELP ME MAKE IT THROUGH THE DAY LOVE YA BABE MOMMA

08/17/98 18:46:13

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Hi Michelle, You must really be busy up there reading all these messages to you and watching over your family. I really do miss you and think about you often. Do you get the messages from God that I give him for you? I pray for you and your family all he time. I know I don't get to see and talk to your mom as much as I would like, but you probably already know how much I think about all of them. I sure am glad you have been watching over them. You are doing a great job. I hope you are having fun up there, but I wish you were here with us. Talk to you later. Love you, Shari.

08/13/98 04:30:14

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Michelle, another of my friends died this past weekend... he and his friends were driving around in another's friends car and they were drinking and for some reason, we dont know why yet, they got arrested... Richard hung himself in his cell. Please take are of him for me... tell him i love him. I know you were the caring type and right now he needs to know there are still people who are thinking of him. Michelle, i think about you often and how you have affected so many lives... not just in your death bu also by the way you lived. your spirit lives on, girl... we miss you and wish you could still be here with us but your smile is still seen in each ray of sunshine. we love you, michelle # 6

08/09/98 21:58:02

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LOVE YA GIRL TAKE CARE OF ME AND MY NEW PACKAGE THANKS FOR EVERYTHING SEE YA LATER

08/09/98 21:55:40

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To My Baby girl, hi honey what is mamas girl up to ,Well honey I sure do miss you a lot each day gets harder not easy ,I still think you are just away at schoolare you had just moved out of town but you don't call me to say Hi mom I LOVE YOU or even miss me so I realize oureally are gone and reality sets in this world is really lonely without your smile. Will Honey I LOVE YOU MOMMY DEAREST

08/06/98 16:34:06

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Michelle, look at all the wonderful people who still pray and remember you. I made this page for you Michelle. We were never close, I only had you for one class, and we never really spoke. But I will take your memory to my grave. God, watch after her, I pray that you give her what she rightfully deserves, happyness.

08/03/98 17:24:44

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MY DEAREST MICHELLE HONEY HOW ARE YOU SWEET HEART ,SURE DO MISS YOU HONEY,I WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOU AND HOLD YOU AGAIN BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO WAIT TILL I SEE YOU IN HEAVEN THAT SURE DOES HURT ,NOT TO TALK ARE SEE YOU UNTIL I GET THERE .MICHELLE I AM SO LONELY WITHOUT YOU. I WENT TO SEE YOU YESTERDAY BUT IT IS NOT THE SAME AS SEEING YOU ARE TALKING TO YOU LIFE IS SO UNFAIR I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS NEVER ,WHY YOU ,YOU WOULD NEVER HURT ANYBODY YOUR HEART IS SO BIG AND FULL OF KINDNESS AND LOVE SO WHY DID HE TAKE YOU AWAY FROM ME WHY HONEY. I DONT EVEN DREAM YOU WHY DON'T YOU VISIT MOM WE WERE ALWAYS SO CLOSE HONEY I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. LOVE ALWAYS MOM

07/27/98 02:33:00

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I sure do miss you michelle. I know that you will help everyone that you can and I know that your in a better place. But it is still hard these last cople of weeks have been harder but I'll make it you been coming to my mind more and more I just wish that I could see you again. I will pray for you and I will lite a candle for you. I love what your mom did to your grave it looks very pretty. I was so lucky tohave known you and we will see each other in the future............

06/23/98 22:00:17

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It's me again Shelly. I think that I must visit this page every other day just to look at the great things that people have wrote it really makes me feel closer to you not that I ever feel your gone. It was priscilla birthday she had all her little friends over and they went swiming at grandma house. I took her to marine world and we had alot of fun. Every time I look at her I see you. And I promise I will never forget all the great times that we had together. I love you always sissy.... Also I would like to get a hold of Donna Cox, If you are reading this or any body eles that reads this and knows her would you give her my a message that I am tring to get a hold of her and if she could go to my email address (down futher on my frist entery) and let me know how to get a hold of her then that would be great. Thanks alot always sissy P.S. Michelle I got your sign the other day I'll try to get some sleep so you can visit me in my dreams cause this way does kind of scares me. just kidding visit again soon. I'll take any way that I can get. love ya kiss and lots of hugs....

06/09/98 12:34:09

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I would love to share with all who are interested in being closer to michelle. I myself have been able to be closer to Heidi in this very way. And I thank God I found it. I read the book Talking to Heaven By James Van Praagh. In the back is a web site I imediatly went there and I have had Many readings which I have spoken with Heidi .I know each time it was her because no one could know the things we talked about except her. She spoke with me about things. I have met people who are dealing with the same loss that I am. These people have been my savior. I would love to share with all how to get there themselves. Please understand if you think i'm nutty for this thats ok what ever will work is what i'll do I'll go where ever I can for Heidi and a piece of mind to keep with me while I'm still here. This site has given me much more than I can explain . Please visit this site just to see what I am talking about. It can't hurt .I helps. Here is the site www.vanpraagh.com. These people are wonderfull and willing to help those in need and who want it.Thank you and I hope you try it . I don't know what I would do without them.Thank you all. michelle can communicate you just need to know how to get these messages from here .Nora is really great as a medium. She visits there often as well as others.God bless you all and esspecially Michelle.she is with him. You can talk to her and if you dont feel its her then you have at least tried but i am sure you will get what you are looking for I know I have everytime .

06/09/98 02:53:47

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Michell I will never forget that day as I passed the School to pick up my girls. My Stomach just dropped. But since then a wonderful person has came forward to help fight for the rights of students I think you would be proud of her Cynthia Tatoole. She has done so much and still has along way to go. Keep a watch over her and help guide her she needs help to stop these awful crimes from happening again.I never knew you but my children did. My son coached your powder puff football team with Campus Life nd was a fellow graduate. You befriended my girls little 8 graders at the time. And they thought you were it girland more. If I had a wish it would be to bring you back, but since that is not possible lets just wish for you to be at peace and that you a e enjoying your time with our Heavenly Father.

06/07/98 23:11:09

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Even though Michelle did not know everyone she left her loving impact on the world and left her memory forever young and forever in the hearts of millions. (Becca) Age 14 Sacramento

06/06/98 00:30:15

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My Daughter Michelle, Will honey its been a year it seems just like yestreday when God took you home.Wish it was me to go because Ive lived along time ,but you my pretty baby only a short will.If only to hold you again or to talk to you would mean so much just to have you ,life is not fair why you will I ever understand any of this .If I could only see you sis,why havent you come to see me or even talk to me.Life is so hard your sister & brother miss you so much how do I help them I can't even help myself or your dad help me honey please ,I need you so bad my life ended when you left me ,I try to go but it is hard to go on without you,but I try for the kids sake . Michelle you are a big part of my life,how do I live without. Will sweatheart you are always on my mind and in my heart. forever yours Mom

06/06/98 00:08:08

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Michelle I love ya & miss ya sis sometimes i think why did you die. I know you are wathing over me and making shour i don't get in any truble unlike you. You always got in truble.But next year i'm going to get in trouble alot because I got Sister Agustin all be geting detenchen after detenchen. But i ges i'll just have to go throu her & when i pass her i know i can pass any other teacher. Today i had a telintshow me Renee' & Roxanne where to Bide Bide Bom Bom. Always Loving you your little sis (Priscilla) P.S.Visit me somtime!

06/05/98 00:51:48

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The fight goes on. But we are making some progress The board voted today to do an investigation into what is going on at RLHS. Maybe now we will start to heal some of the wounds for you and all the students at that school. Keep watching over us Michelle and take us in the right direction. It all will bec me clear soon. God Bless You and all the kids at RLHS.

06/03/98 03:05:27

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I know you are in a better place. You were loved by so many and have touched the lives of many more. To your family, may GOD bless you and shed his love to ease your pain.

05/27/98 23:52:13

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Even though I started getting email about this when it first started, having known nothing about any of this or how I got put on the list...I nonetheless read everything Mrs. Cynthia Catatoole read...and because of her and other people that want to make a difference...lots and lots of 'Cleanup' has and is being done in the School districs. So I thank her and her colleagues for the extra time they have spent to make this Wrold a little safer and better. Jason-- (Tristayn)

05/21/98 01:19:27

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I was wondering if you have seen Heidi there? I hope you are together because had a dream that she was lonely, Help her find her way please. You both are special to many people here and Pray that we are all right when we believe you are in a better place Because myself I wish you were both here with us still, thats selfish I know. I'm sorry bt that show I feel. Please look for her, if you can and tell her that I love her. I know how many people adore you,even those like myself who never met you but your memory will last past our life time here.I pray with my heart and soul you are happy there both of you. Thank you

05/19/98 04:47:05

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Michelle, your life will be eternal in the hearts of everyone that hears your story. But you are not just a story, you are real and it is sad that you had to give your life up because of some villan that had no respect for life and the preciousness of it. I apologize to you Michelle for the pain you suffered on that May day. We will all fight to make sure that no-one else is victimized on our campuses again. I never knew you before this traggedy occured but I hear of you every day. Memories are all over th place where I work, and where my children play. Michelle, your life touches millions of people every day as I am sure you can see from up there. Keep Watch over your earthly sisters, and tell your heavenly sisters that they are loved by us too.

05/19/98 00:04:05

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Michelle, even though i didn't know you, your name is one that i can never forget. or may 15, 1997. the image of that warm summer day will live on with me and the rest of those touched by your tragedy, forever. i know it doesn't change what happened, but im sorry for you and for your family. let this be a sad reminder to all that life is not a guarantee and it doesn't last forever, so live every day as if it was your last because you never know. . .

05/18/98 15:36:37

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In all the world, with all of the pain, you are an insperational light that we have to guide our way. You did not die one year ago, but rather were born into a new life that is far better than anyone here has. I remember the last time that i saw you when was walking out of Mrs. Morels classroom, when you smiled, and wished me good luck on my report. Your kindness is something that I have yet to find in many other people, and I just want you to know how much it weighs on my heart and saddens me that we di not get to know eachother more. I guess I will have to do that when i get there, so keep saving me that slice of heaven. -jay

05/18/98 14:19:19

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Michelle, It's been one year and it still hurts me to see what has happened. But wherever you are it's better than it is here

05/18/98 04:48:40

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Michelle, I'm not even going to start to say goodbye. Because your always coming to see me in my dreams, every time I've got the same message.... your not gone that you are still very much here in my heart, in your family , in your friends, and in this gu st book. I do miss that I can't talk to you in person but this will work for now. I can remeber when we were younger how boy crazy we would get and when we were at Northgate park practicing we would tell coach that we had to go to the bathroom and we would run ac oss the street to James Gracia's house and flirt like crazy. I miss all the hotels that we use to stay in when we were on the road for soccer( Our moms were drunk to even though they deny it ). We did alot, and we went though alot and I want you to know t at I feel very honored that anytime that you needed help or anything you would always call me, I love you girl and your right I would have done any thing for you. I'm just sorry that When I seen you for the last time of your life on earth, just mins. Befo e it happened that I didn't take you home but all I could have said now is sorry... I'm also glad that we got to spend our last year of soccer together, it was only right, after all we started together (14 years ago). I hope you liked that candle light vigil I planned, all for you girl, from now on you only get the best nothing less. Love you always and forever.,.,. P.S You told me in my dream that I have to take you to your family and I had to take you right away, well girl now it all up to you because I no that there waiting....... Go Soon, for your mom. Love ya soon ... P.S.S To everybody out there all you have is ask michelle to come to you and she will it may take time but she will . Call me crazy but I always but I always talk to her It's ok too. Love ya sis

05/17/98 17:27:49

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Michelle most of my memories of you are from the soccer feild and the bus rides to away games. I will never forget your CRAZY personality and all the fun we had. You are in my prayers everyday and I pray that their is a soccer feild in heaven. I know t at you are in God's hands now and someday we will be playing on the same team again. See ya when I get there.

05/16/98 23:15:12

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Michelle, You left this earth on 5-16-97. My MoM on Dec. 14,1997. Almost 7 months to the day. She had 8 kids to look after in this life and when one went to heaven and the other 7 where okey here she went home.I know she is looking after you. Thats what s e always did best, look after kids. And she loved it. Watch over each other & give each other hugs & kisses for all of us you guys you left behind.

05/16/98 20:36:51

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Well Michelle, I didn't really know you only time when I talk to you was when I was with my sister or mom shopping in Mikes.But your life touch mine so much even though your not here you are always in my heart. And keep smiling for all your friends and amily. Can;t wait to see you when I get there!. It's hard to see everybody sad over you. It just makes me wanna cry. Today everybody was at RLHS remembering you. I wish it was somebody else. Anybody but you. You touch so many lives. And you will nev r be forgoten. Good Bye Michelle. We Love you Always and Forever.

05/16/98 20:22:40

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I miss you so much everyday, we were so inseperable, you and I from all the parties to the late light sleep overs after a night at beer can. I know that you are my angel, my partygirl who will forever lift me when I am down, our friendship is eternal, no hing will ever break us apart! I still hear your voice, your laugh, feel the warmth of your smile. I feel your prescence around me. We had a lot of CRAZY times and you will look over me to share much more. Darcie and I aren't complete without you, and we feel you so strongly when we are together, just like old times. To my FISH, #49, the sweet sexy thing in the Wrangler jeans.......ooooh, what's up? Here's a smile and a shot of white tequila (with lemon) and a swift spank of a stripper, I love ya gir , always and forever. Robin, #90, Hollywood! @-->--

05/16/98 18:11:47

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It shouldn't have happened, I'm sorry. I wish I could do more.

05/16/98 06:07:35

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5/15/98 - Friday One year ago on this day, although it was 5/16, I picked up my son at RLJHS and as we drove past Rio Linda High School we pulled into the driveway by the L1 shop classroom and watched as the ambulance left the parking lot with Michelle's body. It is some hing we will never forget. It is something that NEVER should have happened. Michelle, you changed our lives forever. You paid such the greatest sacrifice of all to pave the way for the rest of the students to have a safer campus. I promise you that I ill not stop my efforts until I see the "Michelle Montoya Bills" enforced in the Grant Joint Union High School District, as they have already been elsewhere in California. I may not have known you here on Earth, but I feel your spirit and presence with m daily. See you in Heaven...Cynthia

05/15/98 20:45:18

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Michelle, I didn't know you before May 16, 1997. I do know something of you now and am so sorry that you are not still here to brighten the days of all your friends and family. You will never be forgotten.

04/25/98 03:24:09

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If I could have only one wish...It would be to have you back here with us...

03/02/98 21:39:06

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Michelle, I didn't really know you but my heart was so touched by your life. I wish it could've been that way earlier. But one day I will see you in heaven and we will know each other better than we ever could have here. May your memory continue to tou h lives as more people hear each day. Sprear your wings and fly, girl, because you are free of this wicked world!!! =)

10/22/97 20:57:15

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see ya when i get there.... save my a slice of heven.

09/25/97 04:41:10

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I will nevr forget you Babe. You affected our lives in ways no friend ever will. You brought people together that never would have found friendships otherwise. I love ya, girl. -mikey PS. When are we going shopping?

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